[tmtranscripts] Olfana on "Receiving God's Love"

[Susan Kimsey]

Hi Everyone,

This is an excerpt from a discussion Olfana had with a person who was
struggling with feelings of being isolated from God's Love, and somewhat
unable to open oneself to trust in the possibility of a relationship with God.
Later, at the end of the transmission, Olfana closed with a prayer that also
spoke to the Power of God to reach toward us with His Love.

Love,  Susan

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Half Moon Bay, CA            03/12/00  Olfana on "Receiving God's Love"

Olfana:  You have a right to be receptive to God now.  You deserve this flow
which comes to you.  You are created as a receptive being, and there is no
reason to deny yourself this invigorating reception of the Father's Love.  You
can stabilize yourself now by remembering that even the Master, himself, in a
physical form, was a receptor of God's Love.  He utilized this energy flow
from one moment to the next, realizing that the Invigorating Force of God
was, indeed, the Ultimate of Source of Power within him.  His expression
of God's Will was, indeed, dependent upon his great respect and
appreciation for the way in which this Vital Flow coursed through Him.

Remember your own perfection!  Allow yourself to trust that, at heart, in
essence, you are already as God has created you "in potential."  You are,
in essence, the seed, now, of your eternal being, and even the seed
contains "the essence of all."  There is a perfect creature contained within
this shell of imperfection we call the physical being.  And you are correct in
realizing that, when you remain receptive, that what is being plugged into is,
indeed, "this perfect you which lies within."  This is where, indeed, the
Thought Adjuster resides, with the perfected pattern of you held in potential.
Rest comfortably with the idea that just as you are growing and changing in
the physical, that already there are ways in which this perfect soul pattern
is beginning to create itself, evolve, and form delineations of who you will
become, ultimately.

Student:  What is it that, when all that energy pours in, and there's so
much love, there's like this place where at a certain point I can't.  It's
almost like it's circuited with fear, at the same time, and I stop that
influx.

Olfana:  Because there is a "trust issue" operating here.  There is a way
in which you are not yet willing to fully surrender in all ways to this
relationship with God.  You hold something of yourself in reserve.

Student:  That's correct.

Olfana:  You are scared, intimidated, by the thought you still hold of the
possibility of rejection, as it were, even from the Divine Will in your own
nature.  (Smiling)  And I am assuring you, my dear, that there is absolutely
no reality to this limiting fear that you hold within yourself.  I would ask you
to, indeed, disengage from such thoughts, by these very mechanisms of
the breath, and the concentration upon this act of respiration.  Disengage
for a moment from this "broken record" of anxiety which runs within you,
at times, and you will be able to see it for what it is.  When it captures your
mind so, you forget the possibility that ultimately you are in charge of this
pattern.  You are capable of changing it.  And empower yourself by realizing
that all levels of God, from The Voice Within You, to your grandest possible
vision of the Father Who Loves You, are intent upon helping you disengage
from this nonsensical fear, my dear.

Student:  That makes sense, but my fear is so irrational that I can't do it by
myself.

Olfana:  Then just --breathe--because you will begin to understand that
you are not "doing it by yourself," in the first place.  You are disengaging
from the hold it has upon you long enough to be able to hear other
possible perceptions within you.  The Thought Adjuster longs to speak to
you, capture your attention, instead of this overriding fear.  And you can
assist in this partnership.  You are not helpless in this communication
between your essential self and the God Who Loves You.

(Olfana speaks very slowly, breathing deeply as she speaks.) You can
reach out from your side of the communication....and help to make the
connection....by quieting yourself....quieting your anxieties....by simply
breathing more deeply....and letting the tension be released from your
physical being.  Do not single yourself out.  You are in the company
of others who are trying in their own way to touch God, trying in their
own way to hear The Divine, and connect with The Love that they do
begin to sense coming through them.

(Smiling)  You can gather strength, even, from accepting the proposition
that you are no more or less vulnerable in this pattern than others.  You
are normal.  You are acceptable.  You are just as accountable, and just
as --innocent-- as the next person in this process. There are ways in
which your fear can isolate you even more, because you fall prey to this
sense of being so much more sensitive to this troubling perception
than you think others are.

Student:  Uh-huh.  Yes.  Thank you.

Olfana:  And out of this can come a sense even of embarrassment
or perhaps, rejection; and therefore, you stifle it, and hold it even closer
to your chest.

Student:  (Laughing)  Correct!

Olfana:  (Smiling)  And any of this is, indeed, much more
self-destructive than you need to be.  So I would ask you to not only
breathe through some of these episodes, but breathe through this
perception, and envision yourself being enlightened, heartened,
and --enveloped-- enveloped in a sense of commonality with all
others who come up against this very same pattern.  You are one
of many millions who have, indeed, worked their way through this
process.  And just as these many millions of brothers and sisters
have had their moments of success, or even temporary failure in this
experience, you are quite capable of managing yourself through this
process, as are they.  You can be released from this by definitely
expanding your perception to allow yourself this sense of "normalcy"
regarding any and all of this.

(Smiling)  You are not the only one who cries tears in this process
of reaching toward God.  You are not the only one who feels
emotional flux in your attempts to calm yourself.  You are good enough,
sensitive enough, vulnerable enough, decent enough, and
light-hearted enough, to be able to attempt this in a more relaxing
manner for yourself .  Let the process occur --to you.--  Do not so much
feel this sense of responsibility as to how you are responding.
Just....simply....breathe....deeply.....And then let God be in
charge of how all the rest of your experience will manifest itself.

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At the end of the transmission, Olfana closed with this prayer.

Father, we stand before You now,
In trust that Your Love flows through us
Without any true resistance.

What we think are the barriers to Your Love
Are, indeed, "barriers of nothingness."
You can, indeed, drench us in Your Love.
You can, indeed, flood our hearts
With all of Your Creative Good
And we now recognize the Power
You hold over us, Father.

We are defenseless to Your Love!
We are without protection from Your Care.
We are fully vulnerable
To Your Protection, and Comfort, and Strength.

Let us remember, God,
How much we are truly vulnerable
To all that You pour down upon us
As Your Blessings.              Amen.

Half Moon Bay, CA Teaching Mission Group