[tmtranscripts] Welmek, May 2, 2002

[Donna DIngillo]

WELMEK -TRUST
MAY 2, 2002

Good evening. This is your friend and teacher Welmek.  And I bid a
special good evening to our newcomer this evening. Greetings to you, S.  

I began a serial presentation last week on the topic on the nature of
Trust.  Actually this is a discourse on the topic of faith as we are
going more deeply into the nature of what it means to live in faith: the
ability to trust, the nature of trust, how to grow your trust.  We spoke
of the components of trust, what it means to trust, and we also spoke of
those problems that exist in human life that do not allow you to fully
live in the state of trust.  

Tonight I will to take you on a little journey into the experience of
trusting to help you get a firmer conscious awareness of what it feels
like to be in the trust dynamic while you are moving through a problem
obstacle or difficult life situation. But before I begin, are there any
questions or comments on what we discussed last week?  Or are there any
ideas that came to mind during your life this past week?  

Student:  Welmek, I had a feeling that last week I was thinking of
trusting someone in a passive sense, like an evaluation that you have to
make in different situations.  And I recalled that in Jesus' life here,
one of the most strange words they use to describe Jesus' behavior was
aggressive.  He was a very aggressive person.  And I thought well so was
Ghandi.  He had to change the whole relationship of India and England. 
So it occurred to me that there's a kind of trust that's actually active,
it's an extension.  You extend trust, almost like faith, acting on the
evidence of things not seen.  Trust is this extension; it's like a gift,
a generosity that you extend to others before it's actually warranted.

Welmek:  And I would also say that as you will see from tonight's
exercise, it is this dynamic activation through any encounter, whether it
is through a life situation or in relationship to another person, that
you find a new level of awareness, and I would say, to some degree,
excitement and adventure to life.  You are, as you say, giving the
situation the benefit of a doubt; that it is going work out. And, all
things work to the good. Just like in a human relationship, if you trust
that individual, you allow them to gain a greater sense of confidence in
themselves.  And so things will work out for the good of all.  Are there
any other comments before we continue with our experience?

Student:  Yes, Welmek, yesterday I mentioned to S. that by analogy, anger
is the shadow cast by fear, in other words, the fear is more real than
the anger.  But on the positive side of it, the whole universe is the
shadow cast by Paradise.  And so therefore to me, it is good, it is
proper, it's not just a big bang. That's the trust, trust that the
universe is very stable and the laws are perfect because it's a shadow
cast by Paradise.

Welmek:  I would say that in human understanding that it is a light
reflecting within the human mind of a greater illumination that the
universe is orderly, beneficent, and works to the good of all.  The idea
of a shadow has an element of grayness or nebulousness that in some
analogies it is not an apt description to use.  But in the ways of
illuminating the human mind, sometimes it is better to paint a portrait
of such light and such brilliance that it will draw the mind naturally
into the clarity and beauty of the light that is being presented.  Do you
see the distinction I am making here?

Student:  Yes, it seems more positive and a little simpler.

Welmek:  The idea of the shadow is that the spiritual realm is the
reality and the material is the repercussion.  But while you are in the
material realm, it is this realm that has more, I would call it, reality
basis to it.  And so to use the idea of illumination may be something
that is more easily assimilated into the human mind.  Do you understand?

Student:  Yes, it is better to use the idea that the illumination of
Paradise generated the whole universe, for instance, bundles of energy
that leave Paradise and everything, rather than have the gray shadow
concept.

Welmek:  In this time of great spiritual illumination your minds are
being more activated and more influenced by the light and any metaphor or
illustration that is light depicting will be helpful.  

Very well, let us begin.  I ask you now in your minds-eye to sit in a
place of darkness. Picture in your mind that which you see and feel all
around you is dark, and I would say, even cold.  And it is not the most
comfortable place to be.  Now imagine at a distance in front of you, is a
small pinhole of light that you see. It is intriguing, and it is
appealing, and it has a certain magnetizing effect upon you that makes
you know within you that you want to see more light and have this grow
stronger.  I want you to experience the fullness of this mental picture
of being in the dark, feeling what that is like, but yet seeing this
light in the distance and being attracted to it. (Pause)  Now with your
eyes closed and staying in a still state of mind, I ask each of you, if
you are willing, to share with me in a brief sentence or two what you are
experiencing in sensing the contrast between the dark and the light. 

Student:  Welmek, I guess because I just love darkness, it's so
expansive; it's hard for me not to just be the darkness and try to be all
around the light.  I kind of feel that little speck of light right in the
middle of me.

Welmek:  Do you find the light appealing to you?

Student:  It's something like, it's cherished; I cherish this little
thing.  It seems very mysterious because it doesn't seem to be coming
from anywhere, because I'm all around it; but there it is.

Welmek:  And do you feel that the light is something that will nourish
you and sustain you?

Student:  Yes, pretty much.  It's like company.  It's keeping me company.
 That's maybe one of the most sustaining things of all.  

Welmek:  Very good.  Are there any other comments?

Student:  Yes, Welmek, I feel like it is like the highest quality
starlight.  I feel like a monk in a grotto seeing this beautiful light
and it seems to create a feeling right in my soul and a longing, but a
pleasant kind of longing.  Maybe the hunger-tension for Paradise
p[rfection that I like so much. But the quality of the light is
beautiful.

Welmek:  And so you are highly attracted to this, are you not?  (Yes, and
it seems reliable.)  And so, what does the sensing of the light do to the
feeling of the dark around you?

Student:  Well, it takes the loneliness out of it and the contrast is
even more beautiful; there's not a sense of loss in any way.  But it
calms the soul; it seems to create a better emotion.  (Very good.  Thank
you)

Student:  Yes Welmek, this is D.  The initial thought that came to my
mind about the light; first of all I had a hard time thinking about
darkness or whose light in darkness.  It's like there's so much light in
my mind, in my being, that it's hard to breathe light in darkness. 
Especially coming from where I have experienced, but the initial thought
that came to mind was going home, being home, and just being who I am.

Welmek:  And so you found this light to be a place of safety (Yes.) and a
place of rest, would you say?  

Student: Yes!   And a place where I am truly myself; I can spread my
wings.  (Very good!)

Welmek:  Now as you stay in this state of sensing the light in the midst
of the darkness, call on the light and ask it to shine brighter in front
of you, to grow larger and more compelling.  And in that awareness, in
that sensing stage allow it to unfold naturally and see what happens to
the darkness.  And when the darkness and the light are at a place within
you that fills you with love, please relate to me your experience.

Student:  Welmek, for me it's, surprise!  The one thing I cannot imagine
on my own.  It always takes me by surprise.  I forget it then there it is
again.  It's playing a game with me. It's even teasing a bit.  And there
is a lot of love in that.

Welmek:  Do you find within that experience a sense of new discovery, a
sense of something being gifted to you, a new awareness that refreshes
your soul.  Would you say you experience any of this?

Student:  Very much!  It's like spring.  It's perennial.  I keep
forgetting.  I keep going through the winter and I keep being the
darkness but then it's surprising again.  It's that beautiful line that
comes to mind of, "Oh sweet spontaneous earth".  

Welmek:  And so within that there is the capacity to continually renew
and regenerate you, is their not?  

Student:  Yes!  Yes!  And it's reassuring not to worry about it, that is
goes away; that's like say, that's this winter and that's just the
seasons of my life. I have faith that it will pop out again after we
least expect it sometimes.  There's something playful about it; I can't
help but feeling that that's, there's something playful about it; it's
very charming. 

Welmek:  Thank you for sharing that.

Student:  Yes, Welmek this is D.  The word that comes to my mind is
refinement.  That I feel like I've been polished.  And then I walk
effortlessly and walk with grace and breathe effortlessly and breathe
with grace.  Then there is the rejuvenation and regeneration and the
rest.  And there's transformation and there's oneness and unity.

Welmek:  And in that experience do you find that it is also completing
within you a sense of who you are and what your destiny is now becoming? 
(Yes, it's true.)  Do you feel as if you are increasingly able to
identify with that you wish to now become?   

Student:  Yes!  Yes, which is really expanding my trust and deepening my
faith.  Believing in myself and my oneness with the universe and with
God.  (Thank you.)

Student:  Welmek, I feel I had a religious experience this morning on the
way into work.  Partly because it was very early and it seemed like it
was a combination of my guardian angel urging me to pray, the beautiful
arias honoring Jesus on the radio, and my Thought Adjuster coupled with
the Spirit of Truth.  And it created a sense of peace that surpassed all
understanding that's so often mentioned and the calming and the clearing
up of the mental cobwebs was palpable as well as even my physical cold
symptoms and all at once.  It was really, really satisfying.

Welmek:  And what do you now experience in the expansion of the light in
this exercise?  Would you say it is along these lines?

Student:  Yes.   That's why I brought that up because it was overwhelming
enough to feel that the light is clarifying and the peace, the peace that
it brings is truly profound, even though I've often felt that the
combined ministry that I felt has truly created a truer humility, a truly
better humility.

Welmek:  And what would you say happened to the darkness that you
experienced earlier?

Student:  It sort of melted. The contrast seemed to disappear a little
bit.  Honestly, it's like not so much swept or swallowed up in the
victory of the light but just an evening out; instead of needing the
contrast, it still had the same spiritual fruits without, like almost,
like not so much needing the tool as much.  (Thank you.)


Welmek:  It is important to undergo these experiences in the instruction.
 These are times when you begin to more feelingly understand the lessons
that are being presented in a context that gives you a certain awareness
to then bring back into the laboratory of your daily lives as you begin
to incorporate more trust into the challenges and circumstances that
daily living will bring before you.  I call your attention to this
experience, for each of you has defined in your own unique way what
trusting means to you in dispelling the darkness or confusion or
difficulty that you go through while you have challenges to overcome.

It is no small matter now to sense this.  It is no small adjustment in
your thinking to realize that you have this tremendous capacity within
you to have faith.  The increasing light that you ask to shine within you
is the alignment of trusting that your problem can be overcome; and the
more you ask for this trust to feed you, you see how it absorbs and
dispels the darkness.  It is by asking for this trust to enter into your
conscious mind and conscious body-experience that you elevate your faith,
your ability to live in faith more deeply.

Each time you do this, each time you sense the fear that is in the
darkness you are moving away from the animal nature or instinct into the
realm of your truer spiritual nature and adding to your soul's dimension.
 Each experience that you transform through trust becomes a deeper level
of your true personality that is your soul; and so as you know, it
becomes more a part of you; it becomes more real, more unified and more
deeply appreciative at the higher levels of your being.  This inner
awareness is so fundamental now that I ask you, and I would say, exhort
you now to use this as a device to transform the feelings of confusion or
uncertainty that you experience in your day-to-day existence, so that you
can move away from your animal nature and more into your truer spiritual
persona.  

I will pause now and seek your comments or clarification questions.

Student:  Welmek, I think this is related because I feel that a long time
ago my faith has turned to faith-certainty and I try to achieve higher
psychic circles but I know I need certain skills or certain experience to
stabilize that next psychic circle.  Could you help me with it because I
feel I have the trust, I feel I have the faith.  I sort of lack, I know I
lack certain types of maturity but I imagine as we transition through to
these things, there's a no-man's-land.  Could you help in that area?

Welmek:  Your question is perplexing, for in it I sense you are not clear
in your mind what it is you are asking.  Are you asking to identify where
you lack maturity or where you are in your psychic circle advancement?  

Student:  Well, I feel that I have faith that has turned to
faith-certainty and I absolutely trust the Thought Adjuster, the
universe, the stability of the universe.  From your higher experience of
it, it seems like I'm asking, for someone like myself, I don't want to
say I feel too comfortable or smug or anything but could you show an
attitude or a prayer that will help, maybe, in the psychic-circle
development.  Even though we know from the text that these things don't
happen necessarily the minute you want them or even, maybe, have
qualified in most areas for it.  Maybe a type of prayer or maybe an
illumination on something that is peculiar to this planet, maybe the
mind-resistance that I can't quite see that I'm up against? 

Welmek:  As you know from your study of your text, the psychic-circles
progression is unconscious and they are more of a mental measurement of
your capacity to recognize spiritual growth, cosmic concepts, spiritual
ideals.  These are not in and of themselves the measure by which I would
suggest you to seek enlightenment and spiritual advancement.  The
effectiveness which I believe underscores your request in living human
life is in the capacity to be a charming associate to your brothers and
sisters and to be that spiritual leaven in loving service.  Would this be
an accurate understanding of your request?

Student:  It is.  I think my desire is to become a more effective
servant.  And it's with (the help of) this combined ministry, that I have
felt progress and I think that is what I want, really want.

Welmek:  And so, you know then, that in order to be more aligned with the
Father's Will, allowing yourself to be led by the Thought Adjuster, comes
in the guise of listening for the voice within that speaks to you in the
areas which you need to, I would say, hone your life skills and mastery
of yourself.  When you are in your times of stillness, your prayer might
be then, "Father make me a loving and charming friend and companion in
loving service to my brothers and sisters.  Teach me your ways of
service.  Teach me your words of service". 

It is not so much that you must always be proving yourself; it is a
matter of allowing those opportunities to come forth and simply sharing
who you are in a way that is simple, loving, open, non-judgmental, and
gracious to other people.  This will take practice.  This will take time.
 But you already have many opportunities placed in front of you.  And so
if you feel that you wish to do this more and more, just ask the Father
to continue to bring those opportunities before you.  And do not evaluate
yourself on how you are doing in these experiences.  Just enjoy what you
are sharing with your brothers and sisters.  Does this help?

Student:  Yes, very much.  It seems the perfect answer.  (Do you have any
other comments or questions?)  No.  And I will go over it again when I
transcribe this, which I appreciate very much. 

Welmek:  Your indwelling Father Fragment, the light that shines from
within has a strong desire to illuminate each and everyone of you so
brightly that your inner awareness will magnify those components of who
you truly are to the degree that you can become the very embodiment of
all that is true and beautiful and good and loving, and inspiring to all
who come in your path.  This is now the time in your life to trust that
this light is ever growing more pronounced within your being.  And I
would suggest that it is not so much a question of evaluating your
progression as just to enjoy the light to come forth and as D has said to
refine, to polish you, to illuminate each one your beautiful qualities
and traits and abilities so that you have many experiences and many with
whom to share this now.  Your fate is assured.  Your lives will unfold
beautifully, adventurously, joyfully, the more you allow this light
within to shine forth.  The light within you is the faith light, and the
dynamic that allows this to happen, is trust.  Each time you say to the
spirit within, "Illuminate me so brightly that I shine your love without
to all who come to me in friendship and love."  Faith activates this. 
Trust makes it grow brighter within you.  Are there any other comments
this evening?

Student:  Yes Welmek, a couple of things.  Last night in the Sonship
group, we did this exercise on trusting and opening up ourselves to God
and to Light and letting go of anything that restricts or limits our
expression of who we are.  And I experienced, I thanked God for creating
me in the first place and thank God for creating me in His image and
creating me with all this beautiful material and with vision of
perfection and wholeness, and love.  And I felt like we were one, and the
vision was one and the light was one, and the love.  It was hard for me
to come back into the room because I wanted to stay in that place.  

But then I was speaking to somebody during the week about how there is
this divine plan or pattern or perfection within each and everyone of us.
 And it's like the seed planted into the soil that, in that seed, it
knows what it is going to be, whether it be a flower or a vegetable; but
it knows it's perfect plan.  And as the light is able to penetrate into
the soil, then warm the soil and the water.  And the fertilizer, which is
love, activates the seed to grow and it fulfills its perfect plan.  And
that's how we are.  Each and everyone has our perfect plan and destiny to
fulfill.  And I claimed last night that I am one with God, that I want to
experience my perfect plan.

Welmek:  Do you doubt that you are at this time in your life not
undergoing this very thing that you desire?
 
Student:  It's this incredible, all the different things, all the
synchronicities.  And even when I met the counselor yesterday, the topic
was trust.  Everything this week - well the whole five, six months has
been a deepening of faith and trust, and living that.  But what I
experienced yesterday as well as before (I thank God for creating me),
was the fear and the apprehension that limits my expression sometimes,
the apprehension of living in this world.  And I said, "What compels me
to hold on to these things; what is the root?"  And I want to let that
go.  I want to fully trust and fully experience the faith.  And to take
that leap of faith, but I feel that there's apprehension within me.  And
I want to root it out.

Welmek:  And so my friend, I say to you, would you consider yourself to
be in this exercise that I presented this evening, to be fully enveloped
in the light.  (Yes.) Or would you say that there are still some places
of dark within you? 

Student:  I feel it in my solar plexus.

Welmek:  What do you feel in your solar plexus?

Student:  I feel, like a weight, worldly responsibilities.

Welmek:  So there are still places within you that you feel you are
holding some resistance to this, so that the light, perhaps, is not fully
able to shine forth?  (Unfortunately.  I don't want that, but I do
understand.)  And so, it is growing brighter all the time, is it not?
(Yes.)  And the reason for this exercise tonight was to allow you to see
that light within you that is growing more brilliant and more beautiful
and more warm and more magnetizing. 

And so it is not so much of importance to focus on where those areas are
that you are resisting.  It is more now in your experience to ask the
light to shine so brightly within you that it will illuminate all those
areas of darkness.  And then what will occur in your immediate daily life
are those experiences where you get to live through the apprehension, the
resistance, and to move forward knowing that you will learn something new
about yourself, something new about the world, something new about
another person, and something that will feed the idea that all things
work to the good.  I say to you to focus less on those areas within you
that you wish to let go or transform, and focus more on the ability to
ask the light to grow more brightly within you, for this is the actual
ability to trust now; the more you are drawing on this trust that the
Father fuels through you. 

What more do you need?  Your outcome, your goal, your future is assured. 
The more you ask for trust, the more you will live and activate your
faith.  What else is there to learn?  Do you understand the distinction I
am making here?  (Yes, very much so.  Yes!)  There will always be
something new to learn.  There will always be an idea to master so you
will never be, as you say, finished with learning to live, growing your
awareness.  This is going to be a dynamic that will be with you for many,
many eons to come.  But what you are learning now to do is, how to
activate this and how to move within it to the extent that it takes the
emphasis off of what you need to let go of, into the realm of what you
are becoming, and thereby staying more focused and attuned to who it is
you really are and what you are now manifesting more in life.  This is an
important distinction to make and I encourage you to spend some time in
your stillness this week and allowing this adjustment to become more
pronounced within you.  Does this help?

Student:  Very much so.  I've had the flavor.  I've experienced that and
it seems really, I mean it's like, I've become - there's no thought
involved.  I just am.  I am.  I am the light, as Jesus said.

Welmek:  And you will find that your life unfolds more effortlessly and
you will be less focused on what it is you should be doing or learning
and the enjoyment of being in the now.  (Thank you.)  Are there any other
questions before we conclude this evening? 

Student:  Welmek, it has been mentioned in recent talks about the Thought
Adjuster being heroic.  I know humans can be heroic as they risk more and
more for eternal life.  And that Jesus was the most heroic man that has
ever lived.  But I find it hard to understand how a pre-personal entity
can be heroic.  So I am asking you and any of your compatriots with you
for an understanding of the real heroic nature of the Thought Adjuster. 
I can almost taste it but I just don't have the words.

Welmek:  Trust in your victory.  Ponder these words.  Let them actually
envelop your mind, your body.  Digest them with gusto.  Let them soak
into your skin.  You have something in you so perfectly, absolutely,
brilliantly, gloriously, eternally victorious and magnificent.  You are
all becoming Godlike when you trust in the eventual victory of that. 
What else is there to learn or to experience?  Good evening dear friends.