[tmtranscripts] Welmek, May 16, 2002

[Donna DIngillo]

WELMEK - TRUST
MAY 16, 2002

Welmek:  Good evening.  This is your friend and teacher, Welmek. 
Tonight, I wish to continue our in-depth discussion on the topic of
trust, as we go deeper into this dynamic of living in faith.  

We went on a faith-journey the last two weeks.  A journey of living,
experiencing, sensing what it means to trust, and I hope that in this
experience you gained a greater sense within your being of what that felt
like when you were in the state of trust.  And now I ask you to expand
your awareness even further.  To move into the place and space within you
where the dynamic tension between knowing that which is familiar and
sensing that which is new, and anticipating the newness, to co-exist, to
co-mingle. 

Within the human mind are those potentials of expression that are
incorporated into your divinely bestowed personality.  These exist within
you as the actual way in which you will bring the unique expression that
you are of the Father into actuality.  You will live and express those
potentials within you.  And so this always means that you will be
growing, that you will be changing, that you will be learning new ideas,
exposed to new concepts, new opportunities, new people, new places.  Life
will always be in a state of flux.  

But you also have within you, an inheritance from your animal ancestors
whose nature does not change, whose behavior is the same, and stays
static.  So it is as if you have these opposing forces within your being.
 And there is a constant interplay and juxtaposition between the static
and the dynamic.  

Tonight I wish to take you on the adventure of sensing the static, yet
yearning for the dynamic.  Is this something you would like to
experience.  Do you all understand of what I am speaking?  (NO)  Please
share your questions with me.

Student:  Welmek, I missed this, this is J.  I missed your last
adventure, but not just from the text, because the text resonates with
something I deeply feel - that I am the static.  I am the personality.  I
am that which does not change or that actually, the whole personality, of
which I am just a small part.  Whereas my animal nature is constantly
changing, growing older.  It'll die.  It's constantly changing.  That's
the only thing I didn't follow you in.  

Welmek:  From the vantage-point of this lessons' presentation, I would
say that it is the opposite.  It is the Father's personality which is
changeless.  However, at your level of existence, which is human, you are
not perfect in personality expression, you are not complete and replete
as the Father is.  You tap into the well of that which is unchanging,
eternal, and infinite.  But you have not yet perfected yourself, and so
you are in a state of change.  And there are these constituent
animalistic-like behaviors within you that pull and keep you in a state
of - you have described this to me before as - laziness.  Do you
understand of which I am speaking?  

Student:  Yes, animal inertia.  A reluctance, fear, laziness.  Yes!

Welmek:  This is what I am speaking of, and this is the
tension-experience that I wish for you to more fully know and understand
within your being.  Does this answer your question?  

Student:  Yes, please continue.  I have a good feeling now of what you
mean by those terms.  

Welmek:  You will gain a greater understanding by moving through the
exercise with me this evening.  Are there any other questions before we
begin?  Very well!  

I want you, in your mind's-eye, to sense yourself in what you would
consider to be one of your more unlovely habits.  I do not say this so
that you will feel guilty or ashamed of it.  But I do want you to
experience that which you feel is one of the character traits that you
express that you would like to unburden yourself of.  So call this into
your mind's-eye and experience what that is for a few moments and we will
move through that.  (Long pause.)

Now, without sharing with me what that unlovely tendency is, I ask you to
share one or two descriptive words of what you feel, right at this
moment, evocative of that awareness within you?  

Reponses:  Discovery of the meaning of that bad habit; Impatience, lack
of patience - anger; Separateness and detachment; Fear of not knowing my
destiny; Ignorance - a willful, not wanting to know something.

Welmek:  Relief is on the way!  Now in this same place and space, call
upon your spirit.  Call upon your spirit to illuminate your mind with the
antidote for that feeling.  Call upon your spirit to put you in the
perspective of the Father, who sees all and knows all, and can help you
sort through the confusion or fear, doubt or anxiety, and help you see
this situation in a new and expanded way.  Take a few moment and say,
"Father, I am feeling this, and it does not feel comfortable.  I ask now
to see this from your eyes, and I ask You to antidote this with what You
know I need to overcome this tendency within me."  Take a few moments,
and experience this, now. (Long pause.)  
Now, how do you feel?  Take a moment and share with me a few descriptive
words. 

Responses:  Hopeful; Perseverance; Lightness; More understanding, and
patience, and enlightenment.

Welmek:  Do you see how simple it is?  The simplicity is the
even-exchange of that which you wish to shed to that which you wish to
become.  Your challenge is to remember to ask for this exchange to occur
- over and over, repeatedly, consistently, consecratedly, and with a
sense of joyful lightheartedness that you are being made into the very
image of God.  Would this not be the most enjoyable thing that you could
experience throughout your day?  And so, it is simple, is it not?  It is
merely the remembrance of this.  And so it is.  And this is why I have
selected this exercise tonight; to help you sense that those tensions
that you feel within your being are not there to frustrate you or to
confuse you or to anger you or to isolate you.  But they are there to
encourage you to remember your source of relief, of help, of guidance, of
encouragement, and of love.  

Use this experience to anchor-in the conscious awareness that when these
feelings arise in you, of confusion and fear, to go to your Source, to
stop those thoughts dead-center, and say, "Father, I am here.  Fill me
with what I need now to transform these feelings into that which You
would wish me to experience; that which makes me more like You."  

I will pause now and entertain your questions regarding your tendencies
of why this has become, or why this has been something that you have not
yet fully, I would say here the word is, entertained throughout your day,
more consistently.

Student:  Yes, Welmek this is D.  And when you first asked us about our
unlovable habits, believe it or not, I had a hard time even thinking of
any, although I'm sure there are some.  Because I've been so aware of my
thoughts and seeing the light in people, and making a concerted effort to
really monitor that.  But as I went deeper, I guess the question I wish
to ask is the idea of human sexuality and sexual desire?  And how does
that fit into the scheme of things, in terms of living in the image of
God?  Because, you know in this society there are so many
misunderstandings and misperceptions of sexuality and human expression of
sex, and love.  So I desire to hear it from you?

Welmek:  The creative force within you is a gift; beautiful, mysterious -
in the sense that it is an unfolding of the eternal personality
expression of the Father, that you have been privileged to share in
creating new life.  Would you not consider this to be a sacred act to
share with another human being?  And so, what has humanity done with this
gift?  How has it been used?  Do you think it has been used for this high
purpose, and of physically allowing humans to share love, compassion,
understanding, one with the other?  Or has it been debased?  Or are there
extremes within your culture that seem to be counterpoised, one against
the other? 

You have been given a wide range of choices to make in living your life. 
How will you use this gift that has been given to you?  Will you use it
for its elevated purpose?  Or will you let yourself be swayed by current
cultural perceptions that denigrate the beauty of this sacred act.  These
are your choices, my friends.  But the more you say to the Father,
"Father make me more like You," the more you move away from that which
your society tells you and influences you, into the way of the spirit;
the way of righteousness, the way of freedom of expression and true
self-liberty.  

The idea of sexual freedom is greatly misunderstood.  There is no freedom
when men and women use this gift erroneously; especially when it is used
to falsely imprison women in sexual subservience to men.  This is an
equal co-creative act and your society must find ways - healthy ways,
spirit-influenced ways - to moderate human behavior.  Do you understand? 
(Yes.)  

Welmek:  Do you have any other questions on the experience tonight as we
moved through the dynamic tension?   

 Student:  Welmek, I'd like just to share a similar experience a couple
of weeks ago, of after a long time asking the Father for more
perfection-hunger, so I'd kind of break out of the status-quo.  It's like
I had a magnifying glass suddenly clamped to my eye and it just seemed to
sprout imperfections like a bushy-tree.  But I had forgotten what I'd
asked the Father, so for quite awhile I was just feeling very guilty
being so imperfect.  But then I had a wonderful discovery that this can
actually be leading!  It's just an indicator!  It's just a compass!  It
can be leading as well as driving if you pay attention.  And so it's a
wonderful liberation of learning how, not to turn something off, but
trusting, as you just reminded us tonight, that this is a good thing. 
It's not there just to bedevil us or make us feel guilty, but it's simply
a compass, and the trick then is to, not ignore it.  And I'm working on
that.   Thank you.

Welmek:  It is, my friend, a signal, and it is in no way meant to make
you feel guilty or ashamed of your evolutionary human nature.  For is
your nature not a gift of God?  And is it not beautiful and good and
real?  And do you not have, as you say, the compass within you, to lead
you to the source of all truth, beauty and goodness, itself?   And so,
how could you denigrate yourself for your basic human makeup?  This is
who you were created to be.

Student:  Welmek, maybe it's a funny perception in being human, but I
seem to be constantly emerging from a condition of self-deception.  And
in one way it's good because I can say, wow, I'm learning something about
how I was behaving yesterday.  And I want to be able to see that, in
order to grow.  Like D. was just saying, just see on the next level
whether there is something to be shed. Or maybe that's just a constant
thing of being human, and it might be a good thing, just to see ways in
which you have been deceiving yourself - to answer your question very
directly.

Welmek:   My friend, I would say that the word deceiving yourself is
quite harsh and judgmental.  It is true that the evolutionary nature has
the potential to be error-prone and even sinful and iniquitous, as your
text delineates the levels of evil.  But this is not your nature as an
awakened son of the Father.  You are choosing the path of God.  You are
choosing the path of Truth.  And so, let yourself be moved gently into
the understanding that all of the so-called animal traits within you are
coming to the surface to be refined by the Father's love.  He is
sculpting you into a statue and a work of art so beautiful that you will
be so enthralled with that which you are becoming.  So see the potential
that you are moving toward, and as these awarenesses come up in your
mind, ask the Father to continue to refine you, to make you more than you
are now, to make you beautiful, real, and alive - full of life and joy. 
These are all gifts, freely given to you.  There is no need to be ashamed
of what you once were.  This is, I would say, a false impression that was
part and parcel of the Lucifer Rebellion, and now these awarenesses are
coming up within so that they can be purified by the Father, in His
light, and in His love.  

In the awareness of two choices of that which is potentially sinful - of
darkness and isolation - and that which is actually light and warm and
loving and compelling, which would you choose?  And if you continue to
choose the way of the Father, of truth and light and love, then you have
nothing whatsoever to be ashamed of or to be remorseful.  Will you make
mistakes?  Will you have errors in judgment?  Of course you will.  But
these will be mistakes that will lead you to deeper insights and new
awarenesses.  And as long as you continue to say to the Father, "Guide
me.  Move me.  Fashion me according to Your likeness," your path is
assured, and you have nothing, whatsoever, to feel but pride and
encouragement and joy along the way.  Does this help?    

Student:  Yes, yes!  For me it's a wonderful delight where in the text
they talk about reversion directors.  I think Jesus spoke of the Kingdom
of Heaven as you have to be childlike, in your mind, and open and full of
wonder.  And so for me it's just finding ways of reverting, sometimes, to
a former state; only in more healthy ways.  

Welmek:  And you will come to enjoy these times greatly, even more so,
than that what you have already experienced.  (Thank you.)  You are most
welcome, my friend.  Are there any other comments?

Student:  Welmek, I would always get interested in anything you care to
share with us; of what it's like being you?  (Long pause.)

Welmek:  I, like you had to learn trust, understanding, and patience.  I
did not experience life on a world such as this.  So my lessons were not
the harsh and disquieting ones that you sometime must encounter, but I do
share that hunger-tension for perfection, that is part of the
evolutionary experience.  And I live my life with a fullness and an
anticipation that is a combination of enjoying the moment and sensing the
wonders that will appear to me in the future.  It is what you might
consider to be, a delicious experience.  For even though, I do not know
what will happen, I find that there are always increasing levels of (Tape
ends)… But I do, and see, and feel.  And so I savor life.  I enjoy each
moment, and that is what it feels like, as you say, to be me.  Does this
answer satisfy you?   (Oh yes!  Thank you very much.)

Student:  Might I ask if you, Welmek if you have five senses, as we do?

Welmek:  I have more than five hundred senses and I cannot describe them
to you, for they are beyond the realm of your comprehension.  But if you
continue on this path, my friend, your senses will be amplified and
augmented, as mine have.  But yes, I do share the five basic senses that
you also enjoy at this time.  

Student:  God bless you, Welmek!  Thank you for visiting with us.  

Welmek:  I do enjoy these sessions with you, but I do not wish to
conclude the engagement at this time, for I sense there are still some
areas of discovery that are on the verge of being revealed.  And so I ask
you to go within, and ask the question, deep within your hearts.  This is
a safe place - a place where you will be understood and supported.  

And this lesson tonight is very important, for it speaks at the very core
of your human existence, and I wish to help you as much as possible to,
more fully appreciate why you must live with tension within you at this
time.  So I ask if you are willing to use me more fully while I am here,
to help you, to encourage you; and to shed new light on those things,
ideas, concepts, and feelings within you to move you forward.   

Student:  I am very tense.  I would like for you to help me understand
how to go about on a daily basis to listen to the right voice, when I
have to make decisions.  I feel like I'm just wandering.  I know I should
trust that everything will work out in the long run, but I have this fear
that I may not be taking the correct path.  There are many choices, and
not any particular one seems to be a wrong choice.  And I'm just feeling
so lost, and preoccupied on a daily basis of this indecision.  And I pray
every day to ask for guidance and to do God's will, and maybe I'm asking
too much for in terms of a sign, or something to hit me over the head
with an answer, but I just don't understand what to do.  Thank you. 

Welmek:  My friend, I ask you now to envision in your minds-eye yourself
facing three paths in front of you.  And they all look equally compelling
and enticing.  Do you see this now?  (Yes.)  And so your question is,
"Which one do I take?  Which one is doing the Father's will?"  And I say
to you, that doing the Father's will is not so much in choosing which
path you take, but knowing that whichever path you take, you will be
guided, and you will be led to new experiences that will add to your
unfolding of who you are as a child of God.  

In this depiction of yourself in front of the path, I ask you now to take
a moment and look at these paths from the vantage-point of being in the
sky, looking down on the three roads presented before you.  And now as
you look down, you may see that the path on the left has a road that
connects with the path on the center.  And the path on the right also has
a road connecting with the path on the center.  And that other path
extends over to the path on the left.  And they all weave and intersect
one with the other.  And they integrate you and they interweave and
intersect one with the other.  Can you see this now in your mind's-eye? 
(Yes.)  And so if you look down one path, what is to say that the way may
become clear to move now into the path in the center, or the path on the
right and then go back to the path on the left.  Do you see how this
works now?  (Yes.)

And so all paths will eventually lead to the place where you wish to be. 
And so I say to you, my friend, choose - make a decision - and know that
where you are being led will be for your highest good regardless of the
path.  You will have varying experiences on each path no matter which
path you take.  But they will all be contributing to that which is now in
you - that desires to do the Father's will.  Do you understand?  (Yes.) 
Does this help or do you need further clarification?  

Student:  I'm feeling I should - what sticks out the most is the path
down the middle.  I'm going to trust that what you said about how they
interweave, and what works together. That I will pursue for now and not
worry about which path to choose, necessarily.  What feels comfortable
right now is the path in the middle.  Is that a good thing?  Thank you.

Welmek:   The good thing is not in choosing the path; the good thing is
in forging ahead in faith, trusting that where you are being led will
give you a sense of support, and comfort, and peace, and contribute to
your overall growth and well-being.  And if this is your sensing, then I
say walk boldly, my friend.  Walk with courage, walk with the Father
behind you supporting you.  Walk with the Father leading you on.  Walk
with Him and see where it takes you.  And enjoy and know that all things
work to the good to those who have faith.  Does this help?  (Yes. Thank
you.)

You will not see where you are being led at this time.  It is important
to learn how to trust; this is the lesson. Where you are being led will
reveal itself in time.  And it is as if, in not knowing where you are
being led, will give you a heightened sense of enjoyment and discovery
when you see where and what you have encountered along the way.  Do not
let the goal at the end keep you from enjoying the means by which you
arrived there.  Do you understand?  (Yes.)

As you walk through this path always ask the Father to fuel you with
courage.  You have an infinite well of strength and courage always
available to you.  So even though you think you are not on the right path
or you may have made a mistake, in asking for courage and strength, you
will be given that which you need to move ahead without faltering, and
trusting that the outcome will satisfy and illuminate you in a new way.  

Student:  One more question. I've been experiencing this frustration on
not being understood.  And I was wondering how Jesus was able to handle -
if He ever got frustrated - not being understood in what he was teaching?
 And, because two weeks in a row, I've been experiencing this sonship
group, and I've expressed something and I feel like I'm not being heard,
or they're not understanding what I am saying.  And there's still a
little inkling of - they don't believe that they can be in the image of
God - that we are one.  That we are God.  And so, it's not so much trying
to make them understand, but what is it within me that is frustrated,
that is frustrating.  How can I handle that frustration?  Because I don't
want to shut myself down.  I want to expand.  I want to transform, and
impart what I know to people, or understand to people.  

Welmek:  I would say in what you described to me that that desire to
share could be actually part of the frustration itself?  I would
encourage you to spend more time allowing others to share their
experiences with you, and you sharing that which you feel you wish to
share with them.  Be the silent listener and let them bring their
experiences to you.  And in your open heart, as we discussed last week
let your love for them merge and meld into their being in a very subtle
and unobstructed way.

Student: Yeah, I felt that.  Because in meditation last Monday I got an
intuitive message to expand my capacity to love.  And it doesn't involve
words or anything.  So I understand, but it's still hard, because I just
feel this sense of frustration within me because I've had to keep things
within me so much.  

Welmek:  I would say that if you transfer the inclination to speak to the
outpouring of your heart's love into another person, then that will begin
to ameliorate some of the desire to gush forth with words to gushing
forth with feelings of love for another person. Then the tension will
begin to recede and dissipate within you.  Does this help?

Student:  Yes, and I sense my frustration is probably a subtle judging of
them; that I'm right and they're wrong, kind of thing.  Obviously, that's
not true, but I sense that there is a subtle judgment right there on my
part.  And so if I allow myself to love unconditionally, then that all
dissipates.

Welmek:  This is so.  And that is why it is always wise to be a listener
first, and then a speaker second. It is, however, the human tendency to
do the reverse, as we all well know.  Learn from the Master.  His was the
art of skillful listening, so that when He did speak, His words
penetrated their very souls, did they not? 

Student:  When I do want to speak, I want it to be really authentic, and
of value, and to be to the point, and be of spirit, and of truth.  I just
don't want to speak for the sake of speaking and hearing my own voice, or
to add credence to my position.

Welmek:  You will grow in your ability to do this in time.  If you do
wish to activate this more fully within you, I would say too, when you
feel the urge to speak, to stop yourself for a moment, and say to
yourself, "Can I stop myself from talking here?"  And going to the Father
and saying, "Father, fill me with love for this person.  Help me to sense
this person's essence."  And then speak from your heart into the heart of
that individual, not with words, but with your heart's love.  And this
will also create a new understanding of that other person, within you. 
So the place that you actually do speak to them with your words will
never be a place of judgment, condemnation, or misunderstanding, but only
the place that you and that other person will bond together, in a new
expression of God's love.  Is this satisfying to you?  (Yes, very much
so.)  

Student:  I'd like to thank D. and Welmek for that last one. That's what
I need to learn myself.  Thank you.

Student:  I had an experience in meditations of just thanking God for
creating me in His image.  I mentioned this D last week as well.  And
just thanking God, or our Father, just for creating me period, despite
all the trials and tribulations we go through, or I go through.  It just
lifted me up to a different place  when I did that.  Just thanking God
for creating me in His image and with the materials of beauty and truth
and love.  Not many humans think that way!  But it certainly is
mind-altering!        

Welmek:  And is this not the place - the upliftment - where all things
are revealed?  And so this is the very experience tonight, to be in the
presence of God, with God, with your Father, with your Mother.  With your
Parents who have created you in Their image.  And looking down at
yourself, from their eyes, with their eyes, with their love and seeing
all those evolutionary potentials that you are becoming.  Letting the
past experiences go.  Letting your soul be washed anew with the Father's
love, the Mother's gentleness and compassion.  All things are becoming
new when you remember to go to Spirit, for everything - every moment,
every breath, every thought, every impulse -- to be infused with the
light of the Father's eternal love.

My prayer for each of you is, that your heart continue to open; your mind
continue to expand.  And the perfection-hunger within you grow stronger;
to crave more love. To seek more light, to become like the very Source of
all that is.  Good evening, dear friends.