[tmtranscripts] Anatolia - March 20, 2003

[Donna DIngillo]

Center for Christ Consciousness
Larkspur, CA
Transmission from Teach Anatolia on Mother Spirit

ANATOLIA – MOTHER SPIRIT
March 20, 2003


Good evening, this is Anatolia, and I am very happy to be here with you
again this evening, to continue our instruction on our Mother and Her
holiness, righteousness and purity of being. As we began last week to go
more in-depth into Her nature, you were given an enhanced encircuitment
of Her presence within you. 

And now I would like to ask you to reach deep within yourself, and ask
you to share with me one quality that you feel is unique to Mother and
special in Her relationship and ministry to you that is distinct from the
Father-like aspect of divinity. I am very curious to hear your comments
and opinions as to what you perceive as the feminine aspect of deity. And
so spend a moment in reaching deep within you, seeking guidance, and then
please share with me your perspective on this. (Pause)

Student: Anatolia, one time I saw the Mother, a term kept popping into my
mind, as some existential philosophy, that a philosopher tried to put
this feeling of what surrounds us as the encompassing. We were
encompassed by a living presence, almost like a fish swimming in water.
This is how I feel the Mother, even especially when She refers to us as
being in Her womb, being in Her. Someone once said that God’s law is what
we call time. The absolute reality of what is happening, is God’s law,
along with freedom, and the freedom of other beings. But in this sense
Mother is space. She holds us. There’s a dimension in which we can feel
and think. She gives us these abilities. These are like dimensions of Her
mind that allow us to experience and realize things. So in this she
nurtures us and supports us. As you can see, I am just beginning to get a
feeling for Her as a person, rather than as a dimension. 

Anatolia: But you have begun, and that is the important first step in
having an interest in knowing who She is. And the way in which you have
communicated your perspective is quite apt of Her. And as the fish swims
in the sea, it recognizes the environment in which it lives, even though
it is not necessarily conscious of it at all times. By that I mean paying
mindful attention to the water. It is taken for granted that this is the
environment in which the fish lives. And so there is an element of being
in Her environment that you do take as a matter of natural movement. She
is all around you, and you hardly perceive this, because it is as natural
as breathing. 

But I say to you that when you come into a more mindful awareness of Her
presence pervading your living space, then you are able to perceive the
tender affection and devotion that She has to your well-being, and the
continual nurturing that She affords your mind and growing morontia soul,
as your mind begins to receive that information that Mother wishes to
bestow upon your mind. 

And so what you have articulated to me today is that you have this
growing awareness of Her, of how she pervades your environment. And now
it will be your delight to come to a full and sweet appreciation of Her
love for you that is just as personal and intimate as the love that you
felt from your human mother, although I will say that there is a higher
dimensional quality of this love that is more innately satisfying than
the mere appreciation of human affection and regard.

So I encourage you to ask Her to help you experience Her love for you as
Her son; and begin to, in your mind, see yourself as having a spirit
mother, just as you have a human mother. And let her continually reveal
how She loves you, and how She tends to your needs each day, each moment,
in Her sacred space that permeates your being. Do you have any comments
on this idea?

Student: Only, Anatolia, that these meetings here are phenomenal. I can’t
imagine any human being who has an appreciation of who Michael and Mother
are, and then be told they can actually talk with these individuals.  Who
would not envy us and give who knows what just to be where we are? So
it’s overwhelming in the sense that we actually talked with Mother, in
which she said was exactly what you have said, Anatolia, that this
person-ness of Her, this personal part of Her, we know, because only a
person can love as She does. And this is a palpable, real thing. Thank
you.

Anatolia: It has been my pleasure to be here with you and giving you this
instruction. 

Student: Anatolia, two aspects of Mother that I cherish this time are:
first, the depth of beauty. As a photographer, I always find myself
attracted toward macro-photography. I would get closer and closer to
nature, and look at it through a greater and more powerful lens. And the
closer I got the more beauty I saw. It just seemed to be endless. This is
aspect of Mother is something that I didn’t realize at first what I was
seeing. I just craved the beauty of nature, whether it be a large
landscape or just a close-up of a beautiful flower. 

The second aspect of Mother that has a profound effect on me is the wind.
I consider this to be the Mother’s breath. The gentleness of the wind,
the way it moves the trees, the rhythm. It’s something that I have a very
strong attachment to. And of course, the physical enjoyment I get out of
the sport of windsurfing. Those are the two aspects of the Mother that I
respond to.

Anatolia: The quality of reverence for the domain of the physical world
is an important recognition of the sacredness of the place that has been
created to harbor intelligent life. And in Her circuitry lie all of the
worlds of the universe of Nebadon. Each planet, whether they are
architectural or evolutionary, are totally immersed within Her mind of
energy. And so as you are living in a material body, you have an affinity
for things of nature: the sun, the water, the air, the plants, the soil,
the rocks. And the appreciation for that speaks directly to the exquisite
overlay of the spiritual reality that your world is patterned upon.

This affinity for beauty is predicated upon those inner yearnings that
she has imbedded within you through your mindal endowment. As you see the
beauty in nature, think of the spiritual source of the patterns that you
see. Know that they have been created with an intelligent design, and it
is by the action of our Mother that these designs spring forth into
abundance and glorious life upon all the worlds in the universe. And if
you enjoy the beauty here, can you imagine the delight and joy when you
see the architectural worlds that have been designed and are rife with
beautiful spiritual life and morontia life? Can you imagine how much
pleasure and intensity of feeling in appreciating the patterns and
harmony that you will explore as you grow? 

These gifts that have been woven throughout the universe through our
Mother are all waiting for you to experience. And can you only begin to
appreciate the joy She must feel when her children delight in what She
has given them to appreciate? Creating a home of beauty delights the
soul, and offers that safe haven from all of the pressures of a
disjointed material life. And so you can begin to appreciate the
home-building aspects of the Mother, and why that is so integral to a
growing individual’s well-being, as it provides that rich environment to
grow in safety and appreciation of these things.  Do you have any
comments on this idea?

Student: Well, first to answer can I imagine the beauty to come? To be
honest, no, I can’t. I’ve asked the Mother to give me a glimpse every now
and then. I do thoroughly enjoy the beauty that is upon me now. As I tell
my youngest daughter, Elena, that the fragrance from a rose is the
perfume of the Mother Spirit. Thank you. 

Anatolia: Breathe in Her perfume, each day. Let the essence of Her beauty
permeate you to even deeper places within your yielding mind and body. 

Student: There is one more question that I would like to ask at this
time. In a book I recently read, the gentleman talked about an experience
in which he felt the Mother Spirit in the form of a young lady. And on
several occasions he felt this was the Mother Spirit coming to him. This
doesn’t make sense to me. I didn’t feel that Mother Spirit does such
things. I guess that the question is: at this time that She brings
herself, Her presence, more to this planet, will She do such a thing as
appear to someone in human form? 

Anatolia: The embodiment of Mother is able to be captivated in certain
forms of personality expression. There are those circumstances that would
allow for a personality to manifest in material form that would speak of
the essence of the Mother. And while I cannot comment on this particular
instance that you are talking about, I will share with you that there are
times when (unknown words) and angelic personalities so downstep as to
render an impression of the Mother within the human mind so as to convey
the reality of Her being to upstep the ideation of divinity on this
planet. Can it happen in physical, material form? If circumstances are
propitious for this, it is possible, under certain conditions. But I
would be very cautious to presume that this is what is actually happened
in any one particular circumstance. Has this answered the question?

Student: Yes, it has.

Student: Anatolia, I must confess that at the beginning of this evening’s
consideration of your question I felt completely unable to respond,
having consciously a sense of no idea of what the Mother Spirit is in my
experience. And it was somewhat difficult at times to follow everything
that was being said, because I was struggling with discovering what do I
really notice that could be in that category. And then I heard some
things that were mentioned that sounded pretty real to me, that maybe
that is how I experience the Mother. In nature. We have that term ‘Mother
Nature’, in which I have a great affinity, as does my friend here: the
visual, the feeling, the aesthetic, of all aspects of the natural setting
– a feeling very much in harmony with the plants, the birds, the animals,
and other forms. 

And then there’s the feminine quality that I experience with some women
around, who inspire me by the grace of their being, and the perspective
that they have that contributes to a gentling on my part. So l find
myself somewhat in awe at those times that I am now beginning to recall.
So that is the second occasion where I’ll experience the Mother.

And the third, I heard something mentioned tonight about the home. I have
a very strong interest in all forms of home: dwellings, the coziness of
the home. And I realize that that is the Mother’s influence. And so I’m
very pleased to be able to report at this moment that there is a great
deal of awareness and appreciation and connection with the Mother, rather
than the sadness and almost an irritation at ‘gee, I don’t even know’.
And now I really do have a sense of that. So I’m very appreciative of
your asking that question tonight, and the responses that you have given
to the other gentleman here. Thank you.

Anatolia: Reach deep within you, and luxuriate in the affinity that you
have for nature, and for that coziness of the warm and and loving home.
Savor your appreciation for this. Let Her speak to your heart, as She now
begins to enlarge with an enlarged ideation conceptually of Her being,
Her magnificence, Her pervasiveness, and Her divine action, as She
orchestrates life, and moves light and brings light into reality. There
is a quality of Mother that is particularly important for you as human
men to perceive. And that is the quality that you have come to understand
and appreciate as nurturing. This nurturing comes in many different
dimensions. 

One of the ways in which you can relate to this is through the
understanding of nurturing the physical body with food, and Her life
brings into existence all forms of food substances that you can avail
yourself of, and to feed your body to sustain it. Let yourself feel how
important this nurturing is to your physical sustenance. You would not be
alive should you not eat and take care of your physical needs. But yet
the divine part within you also requires this nurturing substance that is
Her mind, so that your mind can be given the true substance that it needs
to continually feed your consciousness with heavenly substance.

And so come into a greater appreciation of that nurturing that She gives
to you through endowing you with the ability to be conscious, to have a
mind, to have a means to appreciate spirit. This nurturing is ever
present all around you, interwoven throughout your entire physical body,
emotional being, intellectual capacity, and spiritual endowment from the
Father.

And so when you think of Her, ask for an expanded awareness of this idea
and quality of nurturing that She gives to you, and let Her speak to you
of Her love and delight. And so tending to you in this way. Do you have
any comments on this idea now?

Student:  I feel inspiration, both for the future possibilities of
graceful living, developing a cozy home in conjunction with someone who
is similarly inclined. And for those times in the past when they existed
in my life. It’s a greater appreciation of those elements now. And I
choose to reflect further on your words in the ensuing days, because I
sense very clearly there’s a great deal of warmth and expansiveness of
nurturing itself coming through you. And for that I am also grateful. 

Anatolia: Words to ponder are an excellent means of stimulating the
intellect to greater ideations of divinity. But more and more what the
tender human soul needs is the experiential nurturing that comes when you
lie in your Mother’s womb and ask for Her nurturing to overtake your
being, and to grow you into a strong soul. And this is what you can do in
your stillness each day. And you will know then, not only of the idea of
nurturing, but also of being nurtured, and appreciate even greater Her
love for you, which will only make you love Her more. And you will have
solidified such a warm and loving relationship that you will never feel a
lack of love and nurturing in your life. 

Student: Yes, Anatolia, I have felt that nurturing that you are talking
about, for the past year or so. I have felt it really strongly, from
within, where I felt so nurtured that I don’t need a certain time to eat
or to sleep, that my whole body is so alive with life. I feel this
richness and beauty inside of me. I felt safe and secure, that I am being
taken care of. It was like my sanctuary, very real, very palpable, like I
could almost taste it. 

And it is interesting what has happened over the past week or so, since
we last spoke. I remember I was feeling not safe or secure, in my own
being and also in my own home. I wasn’t allowed to express my truth. And
it was interesting, I think it was last weekend, C. and I were talking
together, and I was expressing how I felt, this density, this stuckness,
not feeling nurtured, not feeling safe. Like my whole sanctuary was
invaded, in a sense. There was no peace. And then C. started talking to
me, and it felt as if the Mother was speaking through her. And she kept
on touching my heart. This went on for about a half hour. And it was
really profound. It’s like, right afterwards, I kind of in a sense left
my body, and C. wondered where I was. 

Then I came back and something shifted inside of me. And I felt my own
inner sanctuary again.  I felt nurtured, and that has stayed with me
since. And I reclaimed my home, within myself and my own home. And some
changes were made from that in a loving, nurturing way. And so I
experienced Mother very clearly and deeply. It was quite awe-inspiring. 

Anatolia: Are you now sufficiently inspired to tap into this nurturing
energy that you have delved into, to share this with others, to find that
aspect of Mother that speaks to your soul, and to lavishly pour that out
through your appreciation for Her into the lives of others who lack this
nurturing love in their lives?

Student: I think there’s no other way for me to be. I a sense that is who
I am now. 

Anatolia: And as I have heard you share with Welmek, over these many
months, of your desire to live and to be expressive of the Father’s love,
so then allow yourself expressive of the Mother’s love, and thereby avail
yourself of a deeper and more expansive love that will so greatly improve
the quality of another person’s life. For if you truly wish to share the
love of God, then these two dimensional qualities should ideally be
present, and let them continually feed their love through you, so that
the Fatherly love and the Motherly love can be articulated through you to
fill the needs of that hungry soul that will heal them and make them feel
belonging and cherished and wanted in our universal family. 

Let Her now begin to teach you the way in which to share this nurturing
aspect of divine love that is so soothing, so calming, to the spirit and
the soul, and renders a person quite infant-like in their yielding to
receive that exquisite love that will make them strong and vibrant in
God’s love, in God’s plan for them. 

This is the delightful challenge of mortals who grow in their
comprehension of the Father, to be able to dispense equal portions of the
feminine and masculine aspects of love; so that each person can grow
strong and balanced in the ability to receive and give love, and to be in
that flow of love as they grow in their comprehension of God in
personality identification.  Do you have any comments now on what I am
proposing to you?

Student: In a sense I’ve had some practice on a human love in the raising
of my two children, because I’ve had to express both father and mother’s
love to them, to nurture them and to provide a home for them, and
stability and security. And also discipline and guidance, in allowing
them to see life for themselves, to experience their own feelings. So
I’ve had that earth experience. And even lately with my roommate, where I
felt both the Mother and the Father’s love. It was really quite
beautiful. 

Anatolia: All aspects of divine love are indeed beautiful beyond the
expression of mere human bonds. 

Student: Yes, and also the unconditional love, the unconditional. It’s
just seeing each person for who they are, no matter where they are in
their lives, what they think or say or do. 

Anatolia: Lie down in Her womb, let Her engulf you in Her presence. She
will knit within you a new substance of soul; and when you become more
conscious of this, your capacity to love will be richly satisfying beyond
what you have known and shared with others. (Thank you.) It has been my
pleasure. 

Student: Dear Anatolia, I had a really busy week, but I was starting to
notice intertwined the Spirit of Truth, maybe the gregarious parts,
conviviality with the Holy Spirit that the Mother Spirit offers. Then as
we were talking tonight I realized what I am grateful for is my mind. I
studied the mind for a long time, and I know it’s separate from the
brain, and it’s on loan to us. 

But as we were talking tonight I realized that Mother Spirit, along in
conjunction with the Thought Adjuster, has been really the fabric of my
soul, and with free will decisions and everything. And it’s accumulating
and the gratitude is becoming super human, I believe, in some aspects.
And that what used to value and still do value is the gracious-ness of
Jesus. It had that Fatherly component to it. 

And then I realized, as my emotions try to understand the character of
Jesus, some of those emotions are simply super physical. Like I at first
thought all emotions had to come from the cascading down from our
ductless glands that’s mentioned in The Urantia Book. And now I’m
starting to see that because values are feelingly experienced, that those
are the Mother Spirit that are creating those enhanced emotions of a
Urantia type Father, helping to pad the environment of our soul.

So I’m glad that to be more increasingly aware of the Mother Spirit,
especially because I’m trying to relate to more females. And I notice it
with my children, as I talk with my boy trying to learn how to put a wall
of sanity around people, like his friends, when they are playing or
shoplifting, or anything they are doing. As a creative alternative to
that kind of loyal gregarious instinct. And he seemed to respond. So I
feel that the Mother Spirit is always there, and growing; and along with
your help in these meetings and everything and the mindal work working
with D., getting a better grasp of this personality of the Mother Spirit
which was very out of grasp before. So, along with the gregariousness
that I was sensing this week that these others qualities are starting to
come into focus, and I thank you for your help.

Anatolia: As you speak of the gregariousness of Mother, does it not
engage you to want to be in a loving and intimate relationship with Her?
(Yes, it does.) And so, as you  bring yourself to Her in your mindal
environment, present yourself to Her as you would present yourself to a
human woman, in asking to come to know Her. But as you have a tendency to
assess the feminine gender from your own vantage point, this will be an
opportunity for your Mother to reveal Herself to you through your mind,
and to actually re-configure some of the ways in which you hold your
capacity to formulate ideas. And in Her gregariousness of fraternization
with you, She will lovingly help you to expand the parameters of your
ability to capture and analyze information that comes through your mind
and spirit. 

This will be a way for you to expand your awareness on many levels,
particularly in the way that you have come to use your mind through the
intellect, and to render your emotions more compatible with that of
divine love, unconditional love and acceptance, for all of the
differences and the similarities that you share with another person.

And so, in presenting yourself to Her, offer up your willingness for Her
to expand your mindal faculties in a way that will render you more
sociably desirable to your fellows. Let Her expand you in ways that you
cannot imagine or have heretofor conceived. Open yourself to Her in a
yielding surrender of your mind, to take those aspects of your thinking,
your mentation processes, and to add something new, original, unique and
expansive. And you will find your capacity for growth to be augmented
exponentially with greater satisfaction, self-confidence and an enriched
capacity to love others with an open heart. Do you have any comments on
this idea?

Student: Only that I will start on that right away. It sounds delightful
and perfect. 

Anatolia: And as we did last week, I will lead you in an experience now
to present yourself our Mother, in a way that I suggested you appeal to
Her that will augment the ideas that you offered this evening. Prepare
now your minds by opening your intuition to feel our Mother as she pours
forth Her spirit luminosity upon you. 

Mother, your sons have come to You with an open desire to experience You
more in the mind and in the body. These deprived sons of Urantia crave to
know You. Your Mother’s heart is so tenderly devoted to them. We appeal
to you to touch them, and help them experience You through greater soul
satisfaction. (Long Pause)

The cosmic loom weaves through You, in holding You in an essence so
wondrous and luminous, that the crystallization of the lightness of your
being will spark new connections within you, to connect you with spirit
and grow your desire to follow the Father’s will. Give thanks to your
Mother for what she is doing within you this evening. Although you may
not see it, Her presence is wondrous indeed. Honor the holiness and the
sanctity of the mind that allows your humanness to become Godlike. The
blessings of the spirit are upon you now. Her holiness washes through
you, purifying your mind, preparing the way for ministry of your Adjuster
to continually guide you to your Divine Source, to your home of love and
safety. 

The universe is your home, my friends; and She provides a safe place for
you. Welcome.  Welcome.  Welcome into the home of our Mother. Feel Her
embrace, keeping you safe and warm. Rest well in Her arms this evening,
my friends. Sleep safely and securely, and awake refreshed and renewed
for another day of sharing the love of our Parents to your brothers and
sisters. I bid you goodnight.