[tmtranscripts] Center for Christ Consciousness -- May 19, 2003

[Donna DIngillo]

CENTER FOR CHRIST CONSCIOUSNESS
Larkspur, CA

Lesson from Michael and Mother Spirit
May 19, 2003

Good evening, my children.  This is Michael.  Breathe in my presence. 
Breathe in my presence.  Breathe – in my presence, and be at peace. 
Breathe in me.  My presence vibrates within you.  Go into your heart and
ask that your heart beat in synchrony with mine.  (Pause)

You are becoming more conscious of the divine union of your mind with
mine — of your being with my personality.  As your heart beats with mine,
know that you are safe in the womb of your Mother.  Your consciousness is
expanding within Her.  Invite Her mind into your own inner awareness
(Pause) 

Invite Her to expand your senses and to attune your vibrational frequency
to a higher resonance.  This vibrational frequency opens you to a higher
dimensional reality.  It is as if you are standing in water and with your
arms outspread you feel not only the water around you, but the wave
vibrations and vibrations of other living beings in the water with you. 
Relax as the vibrations course through your being.  They are necessary
for your upliftment to prepare your mind for higher levels of
consciousness of me.

Your prayers have been answered, my children.  When you seek me, you will
find me. And in allowing your minds to be expanded, I can present myself
to you more fully.  For you have in your willingness to know me offered
your minds receptive to the presentation of a deeper experience with me. 
 There is no limit to your awareness of me.  How expansive can you
vibrationally grow?  There is no limit.  This is the action of the Divine
Minister within your mind who grows your capacity to see, to sense the
higher levels of spiritual reality.

Tonight, our gift to our children is in this re-keying of your
vibrational frequencies to tune into those higher harmonies of Spirit. 
Are you humming now with the vibration of love?  Are you tuned in to my
presence within you?  Focus on your heart.  Let your desire to know me
continually allow your Mother to make those vibrational adjustments
within you to precede the expansiveness of knowledge of me.  (Pause)  

This experience tonight is a prelude for you to come into consciousness
recognition of me – to know me, to learn of me, to understand my ways, to
appreciate my loving nature, and to gain trust in my love for you.  For
it is only by your feeling this trust bond between us will you be able to
go into those deeper levels of consciousness that prepare your mind for
the eradication of doubt, fear, and other spirit poisons that are still
resident within you but no longer need to be part of you.  And we will
de-toxify you of all of these, but you must first come to trust in our
love for you.

Tonight, by receiving this vibrational attunement will you have greater
consciousness awareness of me and sensing my love, my devotion, my
nearness to you and within you.  Continue to allow these vibrational
attunements to upstep you in the higher frequencies of love, in the
emanations of the Divine. (Pause)

Your Mother is faithfully preparing you.  Each day ask Her to open you
more and more to the emanations of love that come from the very center of
Paradise.  The love that emanates from the core of reality is your
life-line, is your real spiritual nourishment.  This food for your soul
is a commodity that you can increasingly feel, the more you allow your
mind—your consciousness—to expand into it.  And by inviting the presence
of your Mother into your mind, it is by Her very action that you are able
to be expanded to receive greater emanations of love.

Love surrounds you, love permeates you, love courses through your being,
and the more your mind is opened and purified, the greater will you be
able to sense this most exquisite of all realities—the love your Creator
has for you.  And I know you want this, my children.  I know how deeply
and fervently you have longed for this. 

The way had been blocked in the past by your ideas and perceptions and by
your lack of education of the Spirit within you.  And your education will
continue for many, many, many years to come.  But now is the time to open
the door in your mind by simply inviting the presence of your Mother to
continually open those places within you that crave this love.  Cry out
to Her like a hungry child calling for his mother’s breast.  She will
feed you.  You only have to ask, my children, and it will be given. 
(Pause)

The broken hearts of my children of this planet are being healed.  One by
one they will be healed.  In coming to me like you are offering yourself
tonight, you will be healed.  The degree of love – the degree of healing
– you crave, my children, is entirely your choice.  As you gain greater
confidence in me, as you grow in your willingness to trust me, will you
find the desire for greater healing and to know the validity that what
you wish to be healed of is real and true.  Place no limits on your
healing.  Place no limits on your desires.  Let me in by coming into your
heart and letting it beat with me.  And truly, your soul will find the
healing and rest that you crave.

I retreat and leave you in the hands of your Mother, whose presence
tonight encircuits you in Her web of love.  And She is here to address
you tonight as you come to know Her more fully, and to appreciate Her
exquisite presence within you more completely.  My children, your heart
beats with me.  You are mine.  Good evening.

Mother Spirit:  My little ones, I am your Mother.  I am the Spirit that
gave you life.  I am the Spirit that renews life.  Birth – re-birth – the
replenishment of life is only capable of being achieved through me.  You,
as my children, can hardly conceive of the action of my being within you,
for I am as soft as your breath, as gentle as a whisper.  And my being is
everywhere around you so you are somewhat in this state of non-awareness
of me because of my unobtrusive nature.  But in this subtly lies great
strength.  The action of me in you makes you greater than you already are
– grows you God-like.  Have you any idea of the potential of this
statement?  My being in you grows you God-like.

This is the question I pose to you tonight as an invitation to ask me to
not only expand your conceptual awareness, but to give you a greater
breadth of experience within you of what it means to grow in the
personality of the Creator of all reality.  This is your birthright by
the very mere fact that you exist.  This is your birthright and it is
your choice — your choice to grow God-like.  Ponder this momentarily, and
when you feel you wish to speak to me, I will address you.  

Student:  Mother Nebadonia, as you know I’ve been asking you each morning
for my morning bath to be cleaned in your Spirit of all the things that
need to fall away.  What more can I do now as I crave your presence—it’s
hard to be patient.

Mother Spirit:  What does the child do when he is in his mother’s womb?  

Student:  He simply is nourished and he grows.  
 
Mother Spirit:  Do you feel you are growing.

Student:  Yes, ever so slowly but surely, I feel I’m growing.

Mother Spirit:  Then, my son, what more could you do?

Student:  I wish to experience your love more fully.

Mother Spirit:  Do you experience it more than one year ago?  (Yes)  Do
you think you will experience more a year from today?   (Yes, I do)  So
you know your desire will be fulfilled.  Savor these precious moments of
growth.  I only would add that in the savoring will you feel a breadth of
enjoyment more localized in your being.  It is in this appreciation of
where you are now that keeps you balanced:  steady but yet stimulated and
anticipating new growth levels.  As you have been given many lessons
about being in the moment, let yourself enjoy the full range that is
available in being with me during the times of your bath.  And this, my
dear child, is all you can do.  If you enjoy this more fully, you will
grow more appreciative in the patience of this slow growth that is a part
of your ability to trust.

Student:  Thank you for those words, Nebadonia.  I want to thank you from
the bottom of heart for your beautiful daughters, Alana and Elianna. 
They have brought such joy to my life—what a gift!  Thank you.  

Mother Spirit:  Your sisters draw near to you.  Some day when you are
able to more fully perceive them, you will be mesmerized by their
delicate and exquisite beauty.  

Student:  I look forward with great anticipation to that day.

Mother Spirit:  And in this moment, open your heart and let them draw
close—very close—to you to feel their energies as they meld with you. 
This is part of the savoring in the moment that I invite you to enjoin
with me now in each day to satisfy your desire to grow in experiencing my
love.  

Student:  This is what I shall do.  Thank you.  

Mother Spirit:  As you rest in me so surely you will grow.  My love is
upon you now.  

Student:  Heavenly Mother, during this time I feel peaceful and whole and
yet there are pockets of pain...little areas that seem stubborn and
resistant to you.  They seem uncomfortable and painful, areas in my jaw
and around my eyes.  Will you please educate me as to how to deal with
this?  I would image that they are due to habits of tension.  I’m not
sure if I should be patient and experience the pain until it releases or
what else I should can do?

Mother Spirit:  Relax into your chair.  The pain in your body is not my
desire for you.  I, as your Mother, wish you to be free and full of
light.  Pain within you is an indicator that something within you,
whether in thought, emotion, cellular memory or function, is out of
attunement with the Father’s plans.  Only I can correct that within you. 
Only I know the resonance within you that will restore your body and your
mind to that of the Father’s will for you.  Know that when you feel this
pain this is your signal to call out to me, and asking me to heal that
within you – to bring that balance – to bring that into resonance.  The
stubbornness you feel within you is actually an indicator of the depth of
the misadaptation of the Father’s plans within you.  It is this simple. 
By inviting me into the very depths of this misadaptation will you find
the relief, the release, and the correction to bring this back to
harmonic resonance with the divine plans that are within you as part of
your Father Fragment endowment.  Can you sense this now within you as I
speak?  Do you perceive these subtle energy fluctuations that are
reshaping certain thought-ideations and energy configurations within you?

Student:  Yes, there is a certain peace entering these areas.

Mother Spirit:  Do you imagine that you would be able to adequately
engage me in this healing exercise during your daily routine?  

Student:  I certainly hope so.  I will make an effort to do so. 

Mother Spirit:  As my resonance envelopes you, gain a greater familiarity
with that comfort you perceive.  Would it not be of great enjoyment to
you to perceive this through the day?  You will remember to invite me. 
It is happening now.  As my being works within you, your thoughts will
more gradually gravitate towards remembering me.  Rest in me.  Replenish
in me.  My child, come home and be in me.

Student:  Dear Mother Spirit, what is the fear we have of personality
progression?  Is that leftover from the Lucifer Rebellion or is that just
immaturity?

Mother Spirit:  I would like you to be more specific in your question,
and find that fear within you and speak to me what is in your heart.

Student:  Earlier when we were talking about being attracted to Michael’s
personality, I feel wholeheartedly in trust with it, yet I also feel some
sort of inertia in personality or a fear of progressing too rapidly.  Yet
I know I should not fear that, but I don’t why at this stage of
development why there’s inertia there.

Mother Spirit:  Your growth is not as fast as you may think.  It is true
that you may sense a quickening or an acceleration within your cells, but
these are the physical reverberations of a foundation of the animal
nature that is now opening and beginning to be more pliant to the Spirit.
 In this yielding, it is normal that you would feel fear – that the basic
animal nature, which has some primal survival instincts, creates within
you a certain tension, and that tension you know as fear.  Do you
understand?  (I think I do.)  Now, when you experience this fear, what
you can perceive underlying it?

Student:  Possibly a feeling of being overwhelmed or not understanding of
each step of the way.  

Mother Spirit:  Truly, truly, your heart has yet to experience the joy of
being in the mystery of the presence of the Divine.  Go now in your mind
into that place where you do not understand what is happening to you in
your own growth.  Are you able to sense a certain degree of acceptance in
this mystery and unfathoming? (Yes, I can do that)  Can you also sense
the fear in this place of mystery? 

Student: Yes, it seems to be the fear of letting my Thought Adjuster down
or general not understood fear.

Mother Spirit:  Find that desire to be in the mystery, experience this. 
Ask me to expand this desire to be in the mystery within you.  (Pause) 
My womb is a place of mystery.  It is a place of growing in potentials
that are an endowment within you. Your desire to be in the mystery, in
the unknowing, in the un-understanding is actually the domain of building
your trust.  Does the child in his mother’s womb question what is
occurring to him as he slumbers deep within her?  (No, he rests content,
wonderfully serene)  I invite you to find this desire to rest content,
and when you have found this desire within you, ask to rest within me and
grow more confident in that serenity of being in me.  More and more in
time will these fears you experience gradually diminish.  You cannot
possibly disappoint your Father Fragment.  But these feelings you
experience are real to you now, but they are only the transitional nature
of the human growing more divine.  By being in me – resting in me – will
these fears be consumed by my love.  Do you now understand, my son?

Student: Yes, I do and I’m thrilled about my Spirit guide along with
Jesus.

Mother Spirit:  Rest in me now, my child.  Let my mystery cloak you in
security, build you in confidence, and give you the peace in the very
depths of your soul.

Student:  Mother, I just want to thank you this evening.  Four weeks ago
I had a rather serious accident, and yet through all the physical pain
and the not knowing how badly I was hurt and not knowing about my future,
I can truly say I didn’t suffer a bit.  I think I found that where you,
Michael and Welmek have always pointed towards a certain tenacity of mind
in staying in the moment comes in relaxing and accepting and not running
away but going towards the feeling each moment.  Thank you for D.; thank
you for the healing about a week ago.  I’m making a full recovery.

Also, thank you for these last few weeks where I had to dash a dear
friend of mine to the hospital because she’s almost dead and being part
of a small miracle of her accepting her death.  Just the sheer quality of
her mind in accepting her situation and her finding the grace in that
moment – it was thrilling to perceive the way this small terrified human
being could accept that this is God calling her home.  I thank you and
Michael for these moments.

Mother Spirit:  These moments of recognition of our presence within you
are sublimely received by us.  As we are intimately familiar with each
child in our universe, so does the thrill equal our love when that child
becomes cognizant of our movement and presence within.  You cannot know
the joy you give this Mother when you say your simple thanks.  And ever
will your sense of appreciation expand the more you see our action within
you.  Your heart will become so full of appreciation that you will no
longer withstand this exquisite pressure within you so you grow more –
you burst more into the deeper levels of consciousness of Spirit reality.

Now that your journey fully underway, I do perceive within you a growing
understanding of the beauty that you experience along the way.  Beauty
begets beauty; appreciation begets joy.  As this beauty grows within you,
the divine reflection shines more brilliantly upon you, permeating your
being with light so graceful and awe-inspiring that you will never ever
want to leave it.  This is, as you know what your text refers to as the
moments of worship on Paradise that are so sublimely satisfying that you
do not want to leave – you want to stay in this state of adulation.  My
child, you make this Mother’s glad with your words.  Receive my love, and
know that your journey is really just beginning.  

Student:  Thank you, Mother – all my love.

Student:  Heavenly Mother, I want to ask you about the right attitude in
dealing with my family.  They value material possessions very much and
are disappointed that I don’t share their values with them.  How do I
better deal with them on a spirit level and with love?

Mother Spirit:  You have found another aspect of reality to value which
they have not yet perceived.  Their eyes, their ears, their hearts have
not yet been opened to the treasures and joys of the life in the Spirit. 
It is quite normal that they would attach themselves to those thing of
the material plane that are beautiful and have value in the culture.  In
relating to your family, that which you have in common with them is the
desire for things of beauty.  Find that place of desire within you for
those things you have identified as truly beautiful.  Can you do this
now, my dear?  Can you perceive that your family longs for these things,
albeit they identify it in a different realm than you?

Student:  Yes, I would identify those things as love and a feeling of
security.

Mother Spirit:  Can you find the common ground in this?

Student:  Yes, I see where you are getting at, Heavenly Mother.  

Mother Spirit:  When you feel those tugs of value differentiation between
your family, go into this desire for beauty.  Ask for the commonality
that you share with your family to blend together with your values. 
While they must still grow into a deeper awareness, you will in time
perceive their value-distinction, not as a place of discordance, but with
a higher level of understanding and patience while they are growing –
while they are evolving.  As you sit in this place of the commonality of
desire for things beautiful, invite my being into you and I will weave
more understanding and patience with your family into you.  Spend a few
moments as I embrace you now.  (Pause)  Does this help you, my dear?

Student:  Yes, your words are very wise and I will remember them.

Mother Spirit:  But beyond remembering the words, call me into your
being, and rest easy in the beauty that you grow into as being my child. 
Bring with it, the beauty of the love you share with your family, and I
will embellish that within you.  (Thank you)  Receive my love, you are my
daughter.  

Student:  Mother, I had this experience last week with my roommate that
proved to be healing.  We had one of our usual discussions where our
stubbornness rides supreme.  But then something clicked within me and
changed within me in love and truth.  I saw what I was holding on to and
I apologized to him for the way I was being; that I cared for him and his
well-being.  And his attitude changed and he heard me and the way I felt.
 From that point, coupled with what I’ve been experiencing in counseling,
that there’s piece in me that’s not yielding to the Father’s will.  I
feel His presence, and I feel nurtured by you and Michael, but I sense
this piece that’s holding on to D of the world instead of D as a living
expression of the truth.  It feels like a really solid piece and it’s
holding on for dear life.  I get caught up in the world and the drama of
human personality.  I wish to have this part removed or nurtured. It’s
this part that’s been abandoned and unloved; it also keeps people from
taking advantage of me. 

Mother Spirit:  Draw me into your helplessness.  Draw me into your
defenselessness.  (Pause)   See how you defend yourself against this very
posture of being helpless and defenseless.  Do you see the walls around
you, my son?  (Yes, I feel it in my gut)  Do you sense the rigidity; do
you sense the justification that you hold in defending yourself?

Student:  Yes, I do.  I’ve had the feeling lately that I’m caught in a
box and no one knows I’m there except God, yet I’m so afraid to utter for
help.

Mother Spirit:  Find that place within you, this harboring of your
justification for your defensiveness; call my presence into this place
now, D.  (Pause)  Can you sense the underlying safety of my womb now,
even if it is a glimpse?  (Yes)  Now ask for that to expand and grow. 
(Pause)  Where are the particles of defensiveness now, my son?

Student:  Dispersing.....disintegrating.

Mother Spirit:  Yes, and so they will.  Come into the safety of my womb. 
I will remove all of your defenses, and you will feel the love of your
Creator more fully within you.  This position is well-guarded, but each
breath of my safety that you breathe into it will the rigid walls find
nothing to sustain it.  You are going into fundamentals of the guard of
the animal nature that humans so cautiously preserve as a part of
themselves; you are now finding that this is something that no longer
serves you well.  You must gain confidence in the safety of my presence. 
As this feeling expands within you, the molecules of defensiveness
disperse as you have already experienced tonight.  You will find a new
representation of God’s being reflecting in you and out of you.  And you
have only to come to me and ask that my safety permeate your core.  

Student:  It does feel a little primal.  

Mother Spirit:  These are elemental components within you.  They are raw
basic building blocks of the human nature that is part of your
evolutionary endowment.  But you are outgrowing that endowment, my son. 
You are being built anew in a new living foundation.  Do allow yourself
the emotional latitude of being in this transitory place for a time, and
accepting that this is part of the adventure of creating a divine
treasure out of raw human clay.  

Student:  I can see that sincerely and feel that.

Mother Spirit:  And as you accept this more fully, we have instructed you
to enjoy and appreciate and to come to a fuller breadth of comprehension
of God’s plan as it unfolds right before your eyes as you become the very
image of your Creator.  This, my child, and to all of my children, is our
gift – your endowment, your birthright.  You will become like us the more
you come to us in the sheer desire of the human heart to be made in the
divine image.  My blessings are upon you now, my son, as you grow more
comfortable in the safety of my womb.  

My children, you have all been birthed onto this world as living
breathing beings.  You were not conscious as a child in the womb of your
mother, and so you are not conscious now at times of being in the womb of
your Mother – in being in me.  But as an endowment of free will, it is
your choice to grow and to take on those qualities and attributes of the
First Source and Center, whose Being resident on Paradise is indeed a
part of you.  Now is the time to actively engage your willingness to
participate in the true unfolding of your essential nature.  Be conscious
participants by coming to me each day and asking me to grow you.  The
growth will be unconscious, but your participation is not.  By directing
your invocations – your prayers – to me, you will be heard; you will be
grown.  This is part of the responsibility that you have as a child in
our universe – to grow in those duties that are yours to be a fragrant
member in our family.

We will build you; it is your choice to be built that cements this bond
between us and makes you increasingly more beautiful each moment you
breathe in me – in my living womb.  Rest in me this evening as you
slumber.  Ask to continue to grow in me; ask that my Spirit overtake
those places of pain and discomfort within you, and awaken renewed and
know that you are growing ever more God-like, and a new day has arisen. 
My love upon you, my children.  Good evening.