[tmtranscripts] SLC UT TM Group Meeting #14

[Warren]

SLC Utah Teaching Mission Group Meeting #14
At Simon's Home
01/13/05

Teacher(s):

Tonsah: T/R Dianna


Tonsah: Your teacher, your friend here today to teach you more of the
various techniques regarding oneness with spirit and the ever-developing
relationship between your celestial Parents, Thought Adjuster and you.

Let us this evening begin by bringing our attention to the moment at which
you experience a substantial feeling of anger toward another person, for
this is also something that is not a part of Michael's plan for recovery of
the planet.

Now, find an example of a situation where you have experienced anger toward
another then let me hear how you were able to resolve your anger into a more
forgiving state of being. Let us begin with that. Do you require any further
instructions?

Ryan: Does it have to be specific, Tonsah? Does it have to be an example?

Tonsah: I am requesting that you only provide an example of how you were
able to confront this emotion and resolve it peacefully. Does this answer?

Ryan: Yes.

Tonsah: Please begin.

Ryan: One example could be getting into a fight or an argument with
someone... not being able to tell your side of the story fully, and not
being able to explain to them what the problem is as you try to explain
yourself. Sometimes they do not listen. To resolve it, I usually do some
stillness and know that the person is going through a hard time in different
ways. And even though I do not know what is really going in that person's
mind, I forgive them and take everything into stillness. Is that what your
looking for?

Tonsah: Yes. In your heart would you say that you were able to completely
absolve this momentary emotion from your body, mind and spirit? Were you
able to completely put the emotion aside for the greater good of all
concerned?

Ryan: It is very hard to do, but most of the time, it may take me a day or
so, then I usually get rid of it. But if it happens again, and other things
come up from the past, or from the same situation, I do not think I fully
get rid of it. I am not sure, because I still think about it when something
else comes up.

Tonsah: Exactly. This is what I was hoping that you would recognize. Thank
you for this answer. We will continue on with the others' responses for now.

Marshall: Well, Tonsah, this is Marshall. I feel that when I get into those
circumstances and I get really angry, it is usually at those closest to me.
I am playing out this anger... and I think it is really anger that I have
for myself... an unworthiness, a shame, a guilt, something I am holding
within. When I take it out on others and react, sure I get it out. I realize
that in this process, if I allow it to get out without stopping myself, that
yes, I have released it, but the other person I have afflicted greatly.
Seemingly, I am able to release this anger, as I will go about, after some
stillness, with no ill feelings within for that other individual, but just
for myself... for reacting in such a manner.

Which leads me to conjecture. Whoever it is that I take it out on is just a
mirror. Even though I think the anger is out of my system per se, I am only
fooling myself when I am convinced that the anger for that other person is
gone. It was never really there... for them. But, it is still there for
me... anger for myself. Yes... just to realize this, I think will be
helpful. I did not (so clearly) realize this before, Tonsah.

Tonsah: Thank you. This is an excellent observation of your past behavior,
but it need not continue to be. But let us continue on for now with the
others. Thank you.

Lanceson: Tonsah, this is Lanceson.

Tonsah: Yes, I know. (Ha! Ha!)

Lanceson: The episode that comes to my mind was an angry outburst I had with
my fiance, recently. It surprised me that I expressed my anger on this
occasion, because my normal pattern is to hold it within. But on this
occasion it did erupt with some profanity. I immediately felt remorse about
venting verbally. I could see the damage I caused and immediately took
action to regain my composure and apologize. But I still feel bad about it
because those words live on and the memory is still there. I need help, you
know, healing these wounds. That is all I have.

Tonsah: Thank you. It takes a lot of courage to admit that you have indeed
done damage to another's well being through the use of your anger, but as I
said before, this need not continue on in you, and in time the results will
show themselves outwardly to all around you. Your presence will be healing
instead of causing pain. Do not worry for this is a transition that will
pass and you will become greater for the effort to rid yourself of these
spirit poisons. Thank you very much for your answer. Next, please.

Simon: Anger is for me like an impulse. It can either dissipate into words
or strategy, or just relax into that moment of what could make me angry and
act on it sometimes. Say, "Hey, you are stepping on my toes!"... or "I
cannot do it right now!"... or "Be patient, wait your turn!" So this is how
I dissipate it and release it, learn what I can learn from that emotion...
from that experience. Should I feel it real intensely or dwell on it, then
probably not. I will see how that really serves me, so I can figure out what
I need to do to resolve it. There is always a way... there is a door that
Father seems to open, and there is a way to resolve it.

Tonsah: Yes. Indeed Father always finds a way for you to learn in a variety
of ways. However, we are discussing the opportunity that you possess to
transform a situation through self-mastery.

Simon: There are truths that people say when they are angry and so I often
work to resolve to be more committed to the better part of the situation.

Tonsah: I am concerned that you are misunderstanding the element of directly
choosing when you experience the first flames of anger that you have the
responsibility of directing yourself to a resolution that brings peace, love
and abundance to all concerned. When you are experiencing love, would you
not say that another person can perceive this feeling?

Simon: I suppose we are mirrors to each other.

Tonsah: No, that is not what I am saying. When you experience a positive
feeling or a negative one, this experience is shared and you have the choice
to either expand the sharing of love verses the sharing of pain. Does this
make sense?

Simon: Yes.

Tonsah: Let us continue for now. Anthony, are you ready to provide us with
your answer?

Anthony: All right. My current anger seems to be revisited with a former
supervisor at work. The first, and probably only time I was really angry
with him was before he became my supervisor, when he needed to have
everything done his way. But he was not my boss, then. He became my boss
later, and still needed to have it done his way. Then after he was no longer
my boss, he tried to get me fired because he realized I was still trying to
suggest that his way would not work. Now, it still comes back as issues for
me to fix the things that did not work because we had to do it his way, so I
do not think I have forgiveness for him, in the real deep sense. But, it
comes to me as a realistic view as it gives me something to do to show that
I am still needed in the work environment, yet trying not to have the
attitude of, "I told you so!", then getting myself in worse trouble. And
also, by trying to show that my communication skills are not inadequate, as
he has said, and insisting that I summarize things how he can understand
them, so that he can say that he was right, that I could not provide him
with the information that he needed in the way that he needed it. So I just
try to do the best I can and try not to get in trouble, and make it so that
it will work in the future. But, forgiveness is not really in my heart.

Tonsah: Why would you say that you have maintained such strong feelings of
hurt due to this individual? Are you ready to let go of what it is that you
are protecting from this individual? You do have a choice in the matter.
Either you continue to hold yourself in a position of pain or you can choose
to allow forgiveness to enter your heart. I understand this may be a very
difficult situation for you, but you hold the keys to freedom in your hand.
Let us be clear about that.

Before I summarize this evening's lesson, let us take a moment to revisit
any other questions that you may have regarding your experiences of anger
and resolution. Are there any questions based on the responses from the
group? Please give me your feedback.

Marshall: I have always known that I just do not hold grudges, nor am I
vindictive. I let things go, but I am coming to realize that even
though I may not hold these feelings towards others, there are a certain
amount that I do hold for myself... the fear of lack, the undertones of
unworthiness that I have not yet fully released; shame, guilt. This just
comes into my mind as you ask, as I now respond to you. I would love to hear
more from you on this, my friend.

Tonsah: For now I will only say that you are indeed discovering the root of
all of our fears, and therefore how we interact with the world. Yes, this is
indeed a good observation, my friend.

Anthony: For my situation, you remind me in a sense that it not anger, as
much as it is a fear that I will be on the spot and in trouble again, over
the same recurring problem. We talked about fear last week and if I can
remember, there is no reason to fear this thing. Over the last few days, it
has turned into a problem, so hopefully it will not be a problem tomorrow.

Tonsah: You are beginning to grasp the enormity of the preciousness of those
moments that we have, that are free of all fear. What a day it will be when
you can call yourself completely free of the thought that there should be
any reason for you to fear. Excellent observation, Anthony. Thank you.
Another, please... (no response)

I am sure that you all have deeply drank from this evening's lesson for this
is quite a challenging topic.

As we have discussed, there is much pain and hardship suffered on both sides
of these emotions. Whether you are aware of it or not, you have the ability
to transcend these feelings of despair, shame, guilt or anger for they are
merely the perceptions of one who does not truly understand their status as
a child of God. Once you have begun to understand that you are the one
responsible for change, then you will begin to realize the power you hold in
your hands to change not only yourself but how you can change the world.

Listen to your inner voice more carefully throughout the week. Notice how
you are able to diminish feelings of anger once you fully comprehend that
you are experiencing emotion. Once you have accepted the fact that you are
angry for some reason, take yourself to a quiet place if possible to pray
for greater understanding of where this emotion is truly coming from. You
may not immediately recognize the source of your emotion but by taking
yourself away from the situation, you have given yourself the opportunity to
master this step of injuring another with your presence. This may be
difficult to accomplish at first but do not be discouraged. Eventually the
transitions can be accomplished in a matter of seconds or less, but this
takes practice. To reiterate, I would say this lesson is about challenging
yourself to take command of your emotions through the use of spirit to guide
you in the right direction... (A telephone call taken by the answering
machine interrupts meeting.)

Simon: I am sorry Tonsah, but the answering machine was making me angry.

Tonsah: Take a moment to refocus yourselves and bring this meeting's energy
into a stronger state for the transmission. I will be able to transmit more
strongly if you are all focused and attentive.

Let us conclude this evening with this message:

You are the soul proprietor of your thought-action. You are responsible for
the delivery of loving kindness throughout the world, throughout the planet.
My friends, this is the challenge placed before each of you. It is not to
worry over or to criticize your actions at all, but it is the way, the truth
and the light that comes through each of you that determines the ebb and
flow of loving relations in your life.

With that I will take my leave. Thank you for your patience and attendance.
Good day.