[tmtranscripts] Nebadonia 9.12.05

[JERRY LANE]

Dear Folks,   Here She is--of the Big Mind and the Big Heart, welcoming you 
to stop by and spend a little time together.  Enjoy--JL

Nebadonia—September 12, 2005

Marin TM Group—Mill Valley, California, U.S.A.

NEBADONIA—T/R-JL

(To meet someone where they are, as who they are)
(Your inner Godly compass; the Big Plan)
(The perception of unfathomable individuality)
(Love with all you have, and are)
(Happiness and joy)
(Nebadonia of Nebadon)
(Letting go and trusting God)
(Michael’s experience as Jesus)
(Your natural state)

Dear Mother Spirit and Michael,    We must confess how we look forward  to 
these meetings all through the day with a spirit of anticipation, and maybe 
too,  an anticipation of spirit.  It’s been many years now we’ve had these 
living conversations, many hundreds of hours, first with our dear brother 
Welmek, then with You and Michael.  And so we know in our hearts that we are 
not just blind believers, nor incredulous, for we have tried your 
suggestions and found that they not only ring true, but they work!  And so 
we thank You for these rewards we have been reaping--following our trust and 
faith in You.  Amen.

NEBADONIA:   Good evening, My sons, this is your Mother, Nebadonia.  It 
always warms My heart so greatly for you to realize how directly I can feel 
your hearts beating right within Me.  I remind you I am all about you, I 
surround you and support you and sustain you--as you say, twenty-four/seven. 
  And I will always be here until that far, far distant day when Michael and 
I bid you a fond farewell and send you off into the galaxy.  But even then 
We will follow your progress with a parent’s pride in Our offspring, and We 
will accompany you as We have been accompanying Our other children, bound 
for Paradise these many billions of years.

(To meet someone where they are, as who they are)

This is the depth you can find in Us, and even though it goes completely off 
the scale of your reckoning, I mention it to enhance your assurance of Us, 
We who have been here long, long before this planet formed.  So We would 
have you appreciate, that as humanly ancient and enormous as We are, it is 
Our profound delight to be able to meet you where you are, as you are.

My dear children, what you give to Us is quite beyond uttering.  We remark 
on the courage with which you open your hearts and your souls to take Us in. 
  It is We who salute you.  What greater joy could a parent have than to 
receive this kind of love from their children?  It is why We treasure right 
along with you these wonderful rewards you are finding in trusting Us.  For 
We are, for the most part, just pointing out our mutual Universal Father’s 
ways.

This is the nature of God that We are sharing.  It is His delight that we 
love each other so.  In your prayers to Us, and to our Father, you are, in a 
way, giving voice to His presence within you.  You are giving consent to the 
promptings of He who dwells right within your minds and is co-creating along 
with you, your very soul.  This is also the spiritual family of which you 
are a part and, as you have noticed, this has been one of the main 
emphasis’s of Our recent lessons to, in a way, introduce you to dimensions 
of your own self you either had not noticed before, or no one told you that 
you could develop as you are doing.

(Your inner Godly compass; the Big Plan)

As you were just talking among yourselves, it is very much as if you were 
born with a Godly spiritual compass, but for many of you, no one thought to 
introduce you to this marvelous instrument right within you, either that you 
had it or how to use it.  And so it is Our delight to introduce you to 
yourself, and enjoy the surprise with which you discover you are so much 
more than you ever dreamed.

But I too must confess: this is part of the Big Plan. This is part of God 
himself teasing all of us, every last personal being out here in time and 
space, with constantly encountering so much more than what any of us could 
ever dream.  I don’t believe I’m giving anything away here, My children, for 
as much as you come to anticipate this enormous outburst of glory from our 
Father, still you will not be able to dissemble your surprise upon 
encountering it.  For in all God’s handiwork there is a touch of the 
Infinite.  This is the open family secret, if you will, that awaits 
everyone.

This is just one more dimension to Michael’s wonderful gospel, the good news 
of the family of the children of God.  Because a great part of this surprise 
in store for you, indeed the greatest value your soul can contain, are your 
brothers and sisters with whom you share your life.  Every single one of 
them is a small, time-and-space-encapsulated soulful infinity.  While it is 
true that every stone, every plant--every tree, every bird--everything bears 
the hallmark of God’s creativity in being somewhat unique, when you make 
that enormous leap to considering a personal being, a unique personality 
created directly by our Universal Father, don’t be surprised when once again 
your value meter goes off the scale.

(The perception of unfathomable individuality)

As was suggested once before in one of Our previous lessons, it is both 
interesting and of great value to look at society and how men and women 
relate in all the unique combinations that they do, and ask yourself, now 
that you perceive this unfathomable individuality, how is this perception 
handled--or avoided--person to person, and how it has been so all through 
history?  This should give you an enormous insight then as to why things 
happened the way they did, so even more importantly: how can society grow 
and mature so as to allow more and more recognition of this supreme fact to 
be shared among your brothers and sisters?

This should give you some notions as to how you too must grow in order to 
acknowledge and make room for each individual and unique personality.  But 
it all starts when this insight I’ve given you actually changes your 
perception and becomes a visible reality in your life.  It begins to 
transform your thinking as to what a human being is, and what we can all do 
to not only enhance the quality of life but, on Urantia in particular, how 
we can all help to keep your brothers and sisters from killing each other.

Simplistic answers and solutions just won’t cut it.  You must open your 
hearts—to feel, but also open your minds to accept the complexity of the 
situation and not be daunted by it.  You must really think through again, 
and again, and again what effects follow what causes.

(Love with all you have, and are)

This is true love, really taking in and accepting your brothers and sisters 
as We do--where they are, as they are, in order to even begin to comprehend 
a solution that allows both of you to live.  So love fully, My children.  
Love with your hearts--your feelings.  Love with your understanding and your 
open-mindedness.  Love with all the strength of your inclusive spirits which 
shut out nothing and no one.  And if this stretches you rather thin at 
times, love with your souls.  Love with all the love you have received from 
all the family and friends you have known.  Love with all that you have 
shared so deeply with so many.  We will be right beside you, marveling at 
your courage, thrilled that you are Our children.

If you have any questions or comments this evening, bring them to Me.  One 
of My mother’s great joys is to have these conversations with you.

Student:  Dear Mother Nebadonia, I’d ask for You to expound a little more on 
the word happiness.  I studied emotions like, you know, exhilaration and 
enthusiasm, but happiness--Jesus mentioned quite a bit, happy a day and so 
forth, ah…satisfied…  And I know that as we advance, that overall happiness 
will expand with the acceptance of our chores in the universe--become really 
more gripping, but this…  Please expound on happiness.

(Happiness and joy)

Nebadonia:  Yes, V--My son, you’ve done pretty well yourself there.  But the 
word does carry certain connotations of superficiality in its current use in 
your culture, which is why We generally use the word joy or joyful.  On a 
deeper level they are nearly synonymous.  The English word that comes to My 
mind most readily, describing the joyful or happy emotions, is spontaneous.  
Because they are a consequence of something that seems to spring up by 
itself in certain circumstances, and be part of your wisdom.  Part of your 
maturing as a person is to appreciate the fact that you cannot usually 
directly create happiness--that is, not the real thing.  It’s more of a 
consequence of being in sync with something which is intrinsically 
expansive.

Now what do you know that is intrinsically expansive?  That’s a rhetorical 
question, My sons! (group laughs)  For We’ve been pointing at it now for 
many lessons.  Something all around you, and right within you is growing, 
expanding, reaching out to encompass ever greater experience.  And so when 
everything suddenly clicks in sync, and you are expanding, something is 
working.  You are in touch with God’s will and God’s way.  There is this 
signal from your spirit, like your personality in there is bursting forth 
and waving a flag signaling the rest of you, your body and mind, that yes!  
This is working!  This is the way to go!  This is real now!  This is 
happening!  This is joy!  This is happiness, and it’s its own reward for 
being.  Indeed, it is the reward itself.

And so it is not superficial at all.  It just takes maturity and a 
willingness to be in accord with something greater than yourself which 
enables happiness to be something more than a fleeting, mere token of 
itself.  But this means too, there is no bottom to it.  There’s no limit to 
how deep it can go--to how much in accord with your Father you can be.  So 
trust it.   Respect it.  Let real joy help show you the way.  Does this help 
you, My son?

Student:  Yes, Nebadonia, it’s a wonderful lesson.  It shows the 
graciousness  and generosity of both Your personality, and Michael’s, and 
the overall tone of the whole universe.  Thank You.

New student:  Mother, I just wanted to ask: You’re a new concept to me.  I 
knew about Mother Spirit and Christ’s consort from the Urantia Book, but 
I’ve never heard the term Nebadonia until three weeks ago.   And I was 
wondering if that’s mentioned in the Urantia Book, or if it just came about?

(Nebadonia of Nebadon)

NEBADONIA:  Yes, My son.  The Local Universe that Michael and I have 
developed together with all of our many, many sons and daughters, is called 
Nebadon.  And this is essentially where my name of Nebadonia comes from.  Of 
course these are both just word-symbols in the English language as a close 
human approximation of what is on many other worlds and in many other 
languages, even spiritual languages, somewhat different.  But My name and 
the name of our shared Local Universe are the same.

This is truly My realm.  The physical dimensions of Myself and Nebadon are 
identical.  I am surrounded by my Sister Spirits much like a bubble in foam: 
we delineate each others’ boundaries, spatially.  And it is a very gracious 
acknowledgement of this by our Michael Creator Sons, that Our names are thus 
synonymous with our Local Universes.  Does this answer your question?

Student: Yes, thank You, Mother.

NEBADONIA:  You’re very welcome.  Welcome to our group.  I think you can 
feel these other sons of Mine are very generous with sharing their spirits.  
And be in My love.

Student:  Thank you!  It’s good to have a mother.

NEBADONIA:  Yes, I have one Myself. (laughter)  She’s called the Infinite 
Spirit.

Student:  Mother Nebadonia, you and Father Michael at times have said, have 
asked rather, can we trust the Heavenly Father to put us together again when 
we wake up in the morning?  And I don’t quite understand that.  Is that 
literally putting us back together, or just more or less a figure of speech?

(Letting go and trusting God)

NEBADONIA (laughing):  Well C, you got Me there, (hearty laughter) for it’s 
actually both.  Physically our Father is supporting and sustaining what you 
call life.  And in your present configuration, your personality depends on 
this living vehicle to contact impersonal reality, all the “stuff” about 
you, and this planet you’re living on.  But insofar as this is a continuing 
living organism, Michael and I were referring more to your mind and spirit.  
Because as you go about your busy days, think of how little you are 
generally aware of the enormous--unfathomable to you as yet--complexity of 
your physical being.  But you are aware of yourself, more or less, and you 
are more or less aware of the spiritual dimensions you enjoy as a perception 
of value.  So it is mostly these mental and spiritual perceptions that you 
relinquish when you fall asleep.  We are encouraging you to trust God to 
keep the watch through the night over your mind and your spirit and your 
soul, so your sleep can be truly restful and renewing.  You can relinquish 
yourself--your self-consciousness, in full trust to God.  For the deeper you 
can do this, the more complete will be the rest and renewal.  And this is 
what We mean by God putting you together.  Or as one of your poets put it so 
beautifully, “…and knit up the raveled sleeve of care.”

This can go very deep, My son--this trust, this letting go, letting another 
day close, letting enough be enough.  Let it go.  Let it cease, so tomorrow 
can be a new day, another day, and not just a weary continuation of what has 
gone before.  This is how you trust your Father to put you back together, 
one more time, as He has been doing ever since you were born.  Does that 
help you, My son?

Student:  Yes Mother, it does!  And now that I recognize that trust has been 
well placed there all my life, it is easier to let the day go, and let 
tomorrow be tomorrow, instead of carrying over today into tomorrow.  So 
thank You very much.

NEBADONIA:  You’re very welcome, My son.  There’s no greater theft of your 
piece of mind, and the health that is based on it, than a profound, almost 
existential worrying that frays your body and mind and soul to no purpose.  
For this is a symptom of a lack of trust.  It’s though your faith and your 
recognition of what God has been doing for you all these years, as you just 
did, that truly puts an end to worry.  It always helps to remind yourself, 
you’re not keeping your own heart beating.  So rest in Our love--your 
Father’s and Mine.

Student: Yes, Mother.  I was pondering over the idea of joy and happiness as 
well in that, would I feel--and we have talked about this before--is joy our 
natural state of being?  It’s what God is.  And it’s unaffected by what goes 
on around us.  It’s who we are.  But happiness is something that comes and 
goes?  And it’s more from an external source.  What I’m asking is, that when 
I do not feel joy within my being, when it seems to be clouded over by what 
I see and feel around me--and this is my reaction to what I see and feel 
around me--does that mean that I am out of harmony with my connection with 
God?  Am I coming from my own misperceptions, or limited perceptions?  
Because if it is our natural state to be joyful, then why I am not joyful?  
Why don’t I feel it?  And one question from that is: Did Jesus feel joy as 
He was being crucified?

(Michael’s experience as Jesus)

NEBADONIA:  You know, My son, I sensed a whole series of questions there.  
(laughter)  Concerning whether or not your present feelings indicate you are 
out of sync with God’s will or God’s way, I would have to say, not 
necessarily so.  One of the greatest kinds of love that you humans share 
with each other is taking on each others’ burdens.  When confronted with 
pain or sorrow, to give up your own joy to share the situation with your 
suffering brother or sister is a real gift of spirit.  And son, when you ask 
how Michael experienced His human life, it was not so much different than 
this.  Because it was for this that He gave up His self-consciousness of 
being a Creator Son to experience this very thing--the simple human-to-human 
sharing of whatever the situation holds, with all the enormous emotional 
variety which that implies.  This is that very quality of respect we talked 
about, and your natural outgoing sympathy when confronted with suffering.

As you know from your text, as Michael continued to mature as a young man, 
yet still before He had gained the full recognition of not only who--but 
what kind of being--He was, He had ever deeper experiences of these 
spiritual dimensions We have been pointing out.  This was His growing 
assurance the love and the mercy of God could encompass and ultimately 
triumph over all the very real suffering He could perceive.  And as He has 
recently told you himself, He came to love this human life of His so 
greatly, that even though He had the power, as a Creator Son of God, to give 
up His physical life, He chose to stay with it to the very end.  This is 
what Michael meant when He said that everything that happened to Him was by 
His choice--not that He chose a single instant of suffering, either for 
Himself or for any other being anywhere in existence, for that is neither 
Michael’s nor God’s nature.  But when confronted with a situation, He chose 
to accept it in its fullness.  And I would say this triumph of His, as He 
was being tortured to death, is indistinguishable from the definition you 
gave of joy--that which goes right to the core, deeper than what you call 
happiness.  It was His final triumph that nothing could separate Him from 
His Father.  He never lost His freedom through it all.  Up to the very last 
instant of His human life, He chose to follow His Father’s will.  And that 
is the true triumph of the way His human life ended--an unbroken continuity 
with all that had gone before.

So I will leave it to you, My son, for you are fully capable of deciding for 
yourself, if Michael knew joy during His last moments of life.

Student:  What this shows me, and what Jesus--going through all this, shows 
me and shows the world, is that no matter how dark and bleak the situation 
might be, what torture a person may experience, we are always connected to 
God, to our Father.  And that it wasn’t God’s will that Jesus be tortured; 
it was His will that Jesus loved those who tortured Him.  And embraced them 
and forgave them.  Thank You.

NEBADONIA:  You’re very welcome, My son.  As Michael told you during His 
last meeting, it was just His wish that every single person there could have 
felt the Father’s love as He did.  And then He invited you to join Him by 
realizing this is our work together now: to help everyone perceive and feel 
that love.

(Your natural state)

I would only caution you on your understanding that your natural state is 
one of joy.  Because even this puts some limitations on what you may 
spontaneously experience as you go through life.  I would rather have you 
think that the natural state of your life is something unbounded.  This is 
realizing how some things can only be discovered moment-to-moment, far 
beyond your knowing them beforehand, or even being able to categorize, for 
this is just one more way in which a faith in God is so very necessary.  
There is no natural state whatsoever you can rely on, or by which you can 
measure whether or not you are in accord with it.  All you have is God, 
because He is all you need.  Does this make sense to you?

Student:  Yes, it does--very much so, because I was pondering that idea 
about joy, and kind-of spinning my wheels, reflecting that: why do I not 
feel joy; or asking, if I don’t feel joy, then I’m not connected with God?  
But I do know the joy is there beneath the agony that I feel sometimes, in 
what I see around me--the suffering of the people all over this world, and 
even in my midst.  So I need to honor what I feel.

NEBADONIA:  Yes.  This is why I said your feeling pain and suffering, either 
yourself or for another, is not necessarily departing from God’s way, but 
rather acknowledging a reality in front of you, or within you.

Don’t forget, My son, you are a creature extending through time.  Pain and 
suffering can overwhelm you and challenge your very completeness.  And so it 
is with the spiritual strength of hope that you look forward, with Our 
assurance, to when the suffering will end.  While there may not be any joy 
you can feel beneath anything at the moment, it awaits you absolutely and 
certainly.  (Thank you.)  You’re very welcome.  You know you’re in My love.

So once again My children, let me applaud your courage.  This is that ironic 
blessing of having been born on Urantia. (laughter)  Here, as on few other 
worlds, you truly earn your souls.  And for the terrible price you pay from 
time to time, We assure you these possessions, these experiences you are 
going through will be yours forever.  Your spirits will emerge triumphant.

During your last meeting, Michael shared with you a realization He had as a 
young man when, as He became more and more aware of His deeper personality, 
He realized that His years as a human being would be very, very short 
compared to His whole existence as a Creator Son of God.  And so He 
cherished each day all the more.  But now I ask you, My children, are you so 
very different?  Think of what lies before you--without end!  Reflect on 
this and see each unique and living moment of time--never to be repeated, 
perishing almost as you observe it.  Appreciate these so very short, intense 
lives you are living.  When you awake someday on the other side, on the 
Mansion Worlds, this perspective will be just one more surprise God has in 
store for you.

Go to your rest tonight, and sleep deeply in My love.  Good evening.


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