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<BR>But what happens with our conditioning ... I've got a note here that tells
<BR>me what we do. What we do is we ... This is why spiritual reality is
<BR>important here. "Sin is the offspring of a knowing mind dominated by an
<BR>unsubmissive will." So we have this terrible conflict, you know? "I know I
<BR>should do the right thing, but damn it, it's not my fault. It's not my
<BR>fault, it's his fault. See what he said? See what he did? See what he made
<BR>me do? Look at how he thinks! He thinks like my enemy! How can I love this
<BR>guy? He's my enemy. Look what he did to me."
<BR>
<BR>Look what he did to the image that I spent so much time building up so that
<BR>you would know who I am and that guy came along and pulled the slats out from
<BR>under me and now I'm embarrassed and I'm mad at him and it's HIS fault! Oh?
<BR>This is where forgiveness is really important. And this is kinda sorta where
<BR>the Course in Miracles thing comes out. Anytime there's something bothering
<BR>me about you, I'm looking at a reflection of myself, and man we don't want to
<BR>go there. We don' want to go there. We want to feel like we're in control.
<BR>
<BR>I was really mad at Daniel Megow. I was really mad at Daniel, and you know
<BR>what? Like months after we moved on and got our own place, I realized that
<BR>he reminded me of my dad. Not all of him, just a little piece of
<BR>conditioning there. But it was so deep seated and I was so mad at my dad,
<BR>that I kept confusing my dad and Daniel. I was mad a Daniel. That wasn't
<BR>right. Why would I be mad at my brother? Because I was mad at my dad and
<BR>Daniel looks like my dad. So I had to forgive my dad! Again! (Laughter)
<BR>You know? Ah...
<BR>
<BR>Am I out of time yet? (Laughter) Oh... Let's see.
<BR>
<BR>I've got all these little pieces of paper here and they're all just wonderful
<BR>things because they all contain spiritual reality and there's just nothing
<BR>better. Nothing better than spiritual reality, even when it's really
<BR>difficult.
<BR>
<BR>This is ... oh. "Even if" or "even when". This is one of my favorite
<BR>things, and this is another practical thing that we can do. This might be
<BR>the prodigal son story, I'm not sure. I just clipped it out of the Book
<BR>because I really love, again, another phrase here.
<BR>
<BR>"Now this father had grieved much for his son. He had missed the cheerful
<BR>though thoughtless lad. This father loved his son and was always on the
<BR>lookout for his return so that on the day he approached his home (the lad),
<BR>even while he was yet afar off, the father saw him and, being moved with
<BR>loving compassion, ran out to meet him." I mean, get off your butts. Let's
<BR>go get those guys! Jesus talked about it in "Why do the heathen rage?"
<BR>Well, because their goals are short-sighted. They can go get what they want.
<BR> And we are guilty of pining for spiritual reality when we need to learn to
<BR>take it by spiritual assault. Spiritual assault!
<BR>
<BR>And this, again, goes back to one of those things. A cardinal feature of the
<BR>gospel which we are commissioned and consecrated to doing. "The
<BR>transcendency of the spiritual over the material in the human personality,"
<BR>so even the human will – which is certainly preeminent – may not realize it
<BR>yet, the spirit within that person wants to come home to Father, so go out
<BR>and get him. Go out and get him! Have faith in that brat. Have faith in
<BR>that child, that thoughtless child, that we miss.
<BR>
<BR>Oh, here's another phrase. I love this phrase, talking about that kind of
<BR>thing. Here. Jesus. He first talked about those who were poor in spirit,
<BR>hungered after righteousness, endured meekness, and who were pure in heart.
<BR>"Such spirit discerning mortals (that's us!) ... such spirit discerning
<BR>mortals could be expected to attain such levels of divine selflessness as to
<BR>be able to attempt the amazing exercise of fatherly affection. (And so we
<BR>can do that; we can go and get ‘em.) ... That even as mourners they would be
<BR>empowered to show mercy, promote peace and endure persecution, and throughout
<BR>all of these trying situations to love even unlovely mankind with a fatherly
<BR>love."
<BR>
<BR>This is talking more and more about the Golden Rule, the brotherly love
<BR>versus the fatherly love, which, if we'd get out of the brotherly love, which
<BR>is fine up to a point, but with so much work to do, we can't afford to sit
<BR>around and bicker in sibling rivalry! We've got to get the mantle of the
<BR>Father on our shoulders and get out there and start doing something! And the
<BR>midwayers – love the midwayers; boy, they're doers, they're workers, they're,
<BR>you know, none of this exalted stuff, you know, ‘get off the cloud, roll up
<BR>your sleeves, there's people over there committing suicide, shooting up,
<BR>falling down drunk', I mean there's terrible, terrible despair out there! Go
<BR>get them! Go get them. Don't wait for them to come into our little happy
<BR>kingdom and sit around with our smiles going, "Hi! Get over it!"
<BR>
<BR>But the phrase I like here is "even as mourners". This reminds me of how
<BR>they said – it was about Jesus' countenance, you know. They say he didn't
<BR>laugh very often. But he said that in future times they would be aware that
<BR>we really are a mirthful lot, that we do have a sense of humor, and we do
<BR>find joy in the kingdom, but "even as mourners." Well, when I look at the
<BR>potential, and I see how unhappy people can be without our Father, without
<BR>this that we've got. I mean, how lucky are we? Sure we've made the right
<BR>decisions and we continue to work hard toward the goal of the kingdom - in
<BR>all five of its phases - but ... sometimes it's really ... (long pause) –
<BR>"even as mourners, they can be empowered to show mercy, promote peace, and
<BR>endure persecutions." And if you're prepared to do this, then you're
<BR>prepared to ... forgive. Like a father. Your little brats. And those who
<BR>have distorted reality so as to find some kind of satisfaction in living when
<BR>Caligastia did such a good job of making such a mess of our whole basket.
<BR>
<BR>So, there's a lot of work to do. I mean, smiling is good. You know. But
<BR>there is a lot of deep psychic surgery that's required, being aware of how
<BR>the other person feels, not shaming but elevating, helping people see the
<BR>brighter way, that there is hope, offering hope. And, hey, you know, there's
<BR>mopping the floor for somebody or washing their car. But don't just wash
<BR>their car and wash their dishes without giving yourself an opportunity to
<BR>plug the Master and to plug spiritual reality because it's like miracles.
<BR>It's not going to do any good if they don't learn anything from it. You're
<BR>just wearing yourself out doing scrub work! Get to the substance of this,
<BR>where the joy is.
<BR>
<BR>"The Golden Rule, when divested of the superhuman insight of the spirit of
<BR>truth, becomes nothing more than a rule of high ethical conduct, and that,
<BR>when literally interpreted may because the instrument of great offense to
<BR>one's fellows." Because we all have different conditioning. What's
<BR>appropriate for me may not be appropriate for you, so I can't look at your
<BR>life completely based on what my values are. I have to look at the bigger
<BR>picture and ask God to counsel me. Take the Spirit of Truth. "Michael,
<BR>what'll I do here?" And set aside my own ego and my own understanding of
<BR>things and ask for guidance and counsel from Higher Power.
<BR>
<BR>I feel myself subsiding. I feel my energies changing. I have a hunch my hour
<BR>is almost up. (Audience: "I think your hour has come!") My hour has come?
<BR>Good! I'm going to take advantage, then. (Displaying the cover art for TZM)
<BR>You're going to see this in print pretty soon. The Zooid Mission. This is
<BR>what it is. The Zooid Mission is the kingdom. Yeah, really it is. I'll
<BR>just take a moment and give this plug because, see, I'm not up here
<BR>transmitting. I'm just up here talking as myself.
<BR>
<BR>There's another excerpt here. Let me find it. It's really good. I think I
<BR>got it. "The realities and values of spiritual progress is not a psychologic
<BR>projection, a mere glorified daydream of the material mind. Such things are
<BR>the spiritual forecasts of the indwelling Adjuster, the spirit of God living
<BR>in the mind of man and let not your dabblings with the faintly glimpsed
<BR>findings of relativity disturb your concepts of the eternity and infinity of
<BR>God. And, in all your solicitations concerning the necessity for
<BR>self-expression, do not make the mistake of failing to provide for Adjuster
<BR>expression, the manifestation of your real and better self."
<BR>
<BR>Well, I've spent ... I've been reading the Urantia Book for over thirty years
<BR>so, you know, I've been chewing on these morsels of morontia mota and
<BR>psychologic upliftment for a long, long time, and many, many times I have set
<BR>aside my self expression for adjuster expression. Boy, do I get a chance to
<BR>do that as a transmitter, because I don't feel it's my expression, and I've
<BR>really pumped iron for the Teachers and for the Teaching Mission and I love
<BR>it, but I'm turning this around now here, and saying "concerning the
<BR>necessity for self-expression," I'm going to not make the mistake of failing
<BR>to provide for personal expression, as I'm doing a lot of this transmitting
<BR>and work in the kingdom spirit expression.
<BR>
<BR>Because really and truly and frankly, I feel like I have reached the point
<BR>where my will and His will are one, and I'm not in this for me, except as far
<BR>as the preeminence of the individual I AM, but I am ONLY insofar as I am a
<BR>son of I am. I'm nothing without the breath of life that comes from God.
<BR>And so I can advertise this in good faith.
<BR>
<BR>This is a novel, and when I started writing it, we were under the injunction
<BR>to be really, really – almost secretive regarding the Urantia Book. It was
<BR>just on such a high pedestal. It was intended for future generations, it was
<BR>to be done one-on-one. It was so sacred, it was such a gift. We just almost
<BR>didn't talk about it. So I didn't use any of the words. And since our
<BR>world, our planet, was such a mess just before Correcting Time opened up and
<BR>I got to see some of this real cake and ice cream of spirituality, we didn't
<BR>even dare use the word Jesus or God or religion or kingdom or any of these
<BR>words because mankind was turned off completely. I'm happy to say that
<BR>advertisements for God, conversations with God – God's making a come-back and
<BR>I'm real happy about that. [Applause]
<BR>
<BR>But when I wrote my novel it was "under cloak" and so it's completely
<BR>fictional, but interwoven through it is everything I could garner out of the
<BR>Urantia Book and spiritual reality to plug into the mind of the readership
<BR>which might be a "cosmic soap opera" kind of thing. But it was, like, okay.
<BR>Man. Here we are in this really dark hole, mess. Urantia just really needs a
<BR>major scrubbing from the inside out, and our goal is light and life, and
<BR>we're 5/7th of the way there, supposedly. That means we've got a lot of work
<BR>to do in the next two epochal revelations to come, so how do I get from here,
<BR>where we are, to where we want to go? Practically speaking. So I spent
<BR>twenty years in my mind, in my creative imagination, and with ... with help
<BR>(gesturing up), setting out what my ideals were and what we could do and
<BR>letting them take my ideas and throw them out one after the other and plug in
<BR>a better paradigm, a better ideology, so I have grown so much in the writing
<BR>of my novel that I like to think that somebody else might have a chance to
<BR>grow a little bit, too, with some of the concepts that are implanted there.
<BR>That's my personality expression, so I just would give it a little pitch.
<BR>
<BR>And any pitch that I have is for the kingdom. "And a little child shall lead
<BR>them." And I'm going to lead myself off the stage now. We all have lots to
<BR>do, lots to celebrate, lots to be humbly grateful for.
<BR>
<BR>I'm not going to get into that part in there where it talks about the church.
<BR> I get in trouble when I get into talking about the church, and I have so
<BR>much forgiveness to do it wears me out.
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<BR>Thank you.
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