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<P>Group: Northern Colorado Teaching Mission Group #15</P></FONT></FONT>
<DIV><FONT size=2>Topics: </FONT><FONT size=2>Achieving
Self-Awareness
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Making Moral/Ethical Decisions</FONT></DIV>
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Maintaining Consciousness</FONT></DIV>
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Identifying the Voices That Hold You
Back</FONT></DIV>
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Making Conscious Choices to Achieve
Empowerment</FONT></DIV>
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Forgiveness</FONT></DIV>
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Removing Static/Emotional
Reactions</FONT></DIV>
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Achieving Christ Conscious Mind &
Personal Mastery</FONT></DIV>
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Examining Thought, Motivations &
Beliefs</FONT></DIV>
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Technique of Psychodrama</FONT></DIV>
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Exiting With a Clear Memory Bank and a
Heart Full of Love</FONT></DIV>
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Soul-Growth / Soul-Filling
Experiences</FONT></DIV>
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Lucid Dreaming</FONT></DIV>
<DIV><FONT size=2>
What Would Jesus Want of
You?</FONT></DIV><FONT face=Arial size=2><FONT size=2>
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<P>Teacher: <B>Rayson </B>(TR Daniel)</P><B>
<P>April 21, 2002</P></B>
<P>Good afternoon students, this is Rayson. Welcome to our biweekly session. As
this is a difficult subject as you may have already determined, we will now
begin the second half of this lesson, the first half we had two weeks ago. I
would like you to tone the OM four times please. Do not be reticent to be loud,
and do not restrain your throat to be quiet but let it flow from you with heart
with gusto and let it resonate throughout your body, and your mind and the
environment around you…(pause)…</P>
<P>See your individual energies as water flowing into a pool. Some of you will
have a large volume and some of you will have little. This is not a regular
thing but can change from day to day and week to week; but today, please do this
and visualize this. We wish to have you draw upon an even energy source today;
we wish you to lend your strengths to those who have less today, and those who
have less may draw upon this to equalize themselves, so those with more are also
equalized. We are developing a strength, a rapport in the group today, as you
have needs for attention when you are less observant, and those of you who are
hyper-vigilant may lend your energies to those who need it, thus being more
relaxed and able to deal with your issues that you will be working on in a more
relaxed manner.</P>
<P>Two weeks ago we began directing your <B>awareness</B>, your attention, to
the issues that hold you back from growth; those things that are intimate to
your life, to your psyche, to your well being. Those things which you know best,
but which you may not be conscious of on a regular daily minute by minute basis.
We handed out sticky notes to you to write down the issues that you wanted to
work on, to be placed in strategic places. Even if the statement simply said,
"Be attentive." "Be self-observant." "Why am I reacting?" "What is the issue
here?" "Is it my problem?" "Is it their problem?" "Why am I reacting?" These are
notifications to you as you drive in your car, or doing otherwise throughout the
day to become much more self-aware, to develop your self-consciousness. For in
self-consciousness, you can live life actively, inter-actively, co-creatively!
And that is the most powerful place to be for overcoming your issues. </P>
<P>You have seen many people in your society, I think you call them "couch
potatoes," who watch TV all the time and are really not in their body or in
their mind, they are out there in the screen. They are not even living life
vicariously—they are being entertained. They are "smoking on the opium pipe" of
modern society. And so it is a very harmful, deleterious habit to get into, to
be unawake, unconscious, un-self-aware, to be living in an alternative reality,
which has no reality to itself, other than the fiction, or even the news on TV.
</P>
<P>So these notes are to help your self-awareness, they are little "pinpricks,"
as your mother or grandparent may have done at church—they would pinch you a
little bit in church to awaken you to listen to the sermon, to listen to the
service, not to fall asleep. Of course, grandpa may have gotten pinched too,
huh, as he was falling asleep. This is to live life, being awake. Living life
unawares, as some of your philosophers have said, is not to live at all, but a
life that is wasted; this has been said by eastern and western and
middle-eastern philosophers for centuries. Live a life that is conscious, moment
to moment.</P>
<P>Yes, I do know that some of you have jobs that are very distracting, which
require production, continuity of thought, from one task to another so that you
have a chain of tasks throughout the day. We would hope that you would take time
to turn away from your computer monitor, and turn your chair to face a window,
look at a bird outside, to pay attention to another reality. Some of you do this
at stop signs. Some of you do this at coffee breaks, where you take time apart
to disengage from your work life. This produces a life that is very productive
for your employer and earns you a good living, but does not really contribute to
your spiritual development and the morontial skills and talents that lie dormant
within you. </P>
<P>And how many of you are conscious and aware while interacting with your
fellow workers when there is a problem – to be self-aware as a child of Michael,
to look at this exchange and reflect on it in a spiritual manner, for spiritual
benefit, for its soul-growth? And that is what this is all about: how to augment
the development of your soul in ways that are far more productive than living
life unconsciously. When you live this way, you become aware that there are
<B>ethical decisions</B> to be made many times a day. There are moral decisions
that you need to engage in or contemplate. Perhaps you do not have to make
decisions concerning that, but in your mind if you suppose that you were in that
position, what would your intent be for an ethical decision? Whether it is
helping a clerk make the right change and giving them back what is truly due to
the mercantile firm, or whether it is dealings with labor and management,
whether it is with customers and policy. If you engage these issues, these
areas, with ethical and moral consideration, what you can learn from it, how
would you live this situation through as a morontial being? Then you will gather
much growth from this. </P>
<P>And dear ones, if you live your life for 30 or 40 years working for others,
task to task, minute to minute, and learned very little through this process of
self-consciousness, what will you do when you retire? Do you think you will
learn this automatically and quickly? I think not! These are skills that are
developed, much like tennis, running, handball, hockey, flying an airplane—these
are skills that are developed and these are skills that can be lost. These are
skills that you must maintain. So these sticky notes are little pinpricks,
little jabs in the ribs to wake up, to remind you. And if you have lived a life
that is unconscious from minute to minute, then when you see these, these are
reminders to wake up. Your sticky note may say, "What am I thinking?" "What is
my agenda?" "What is my intention for this moment?" It is very challenging to
have this in front of you, but you have engaged this Teaching Mission, this
series of lessons in earnest. I know you have. And you are not here for
entertainment, for this is <B>not</B> entertainment, this is <B>hard work</B>!
This is some of the hardest work you will experience as a mortal.</P>
<P>So, are there any questions concerning this base that we laid two weeks ago?
I apologize that I may run over you and continue my talk, and you may have a
question laden in your throat, so please, ask away! And if you have not
formulated one, please say as you would to a good friend, "Oh wait a minute, I’m
formulating a question. I need a bit more time." I’ll be most glad to delay
continuing. Or was the question, "What was the lesson last time?" That’s why I
do these little reviews each time, to remind you, to bring you back up to speed.
</P>
<P>We have already covered a part of today’s lesson, and that is, "What are
these notes for?" These notes are reminders to bring your consciousness,
self-awareness up moment to moment, minute to minute. And if you do work in a
job where you do not have this opportunity, then you might want to, on the hour,
every hour, turn aside, look out the window and contemplate for one minute, 60
seconds! Surely your employer can allow you to do that. Or perhaps you will want
to drink lots more tea and go to the bathroom more often, and as you are there,
you could ask the same questions—seriously! Your body is occupied doing "it’s
thing" and your mind is on idle; it’s a wonderful time to ask those questions.
It sounds facetious and perhaps out-of-place, but it really is not, for
consciousness resides in you every moment.</P>
<P>I will pose a question for you, and I will not provide you with the answer
this time. <B>What would it be like to have self-consciousness while you
sleep?</B> Think about that. Now as you read this transcript, some of the
questions I posed a few minutes ago may be ones that hit your buttons. If so,
those are the ones you should use. Please write them down, and put them in
places where you can answer the question. Questions are usually good because
they require a conscious mind to address that question in that moment. Later,
when you find that the question has lost it’s vibrancy, switch to another
question, so that you are always alert, and don’t take the answers for granted
for having known them already. Write these questions out. </P>
<P>There are only two arenas in which you will find that your process of
self-discovery will be most productive. The first is your relationship to
yourself. When you consider your relationship to yourself, do you have a
"parental mind’, a "parental voice," do you have a "child voice," do you have a
"teacher voice," "student voice," that my have old condemnatory statements like,
"Shame on you, why did you do that?" "You’re so stupid!" "You’re so slow!" "Why
don’t you hurry up?" "Shame on you!" "What are these other people going to think
of me?" "What are these other people going to think of you?" Do you have voices
as these in your mind, chastising you, berating you, and belittling you? If you
do, it’s time to turn those voices off. They and their statements are not doing
you any good, but in fact, holding you back from becoming everything that you
can become. It is unproductive. That berating, belittling, parental voice or the
peer voice is the <B>authority voice</B>. If you have this, then you need to
extinguish it. We will begin teaching you how to do this.</P>
<P>And what would your first statement be? "I am in charge of my life!" "I no
longer heed the demeaning, parental voice of authority any longer!" "I am an
adult! I can make up my own mind." "I choose what I wish to think!" "I choose
what thoughts occupy my mind!" "There is no room in my mind for demeaning,
denigrating, belittling opinions or voices!" "I am a child of God who is
<B>becoming</B> perfect!" (The emphasis here is on "<B>becoming</B>.") The
kernel of perfection may be within you, but you are not perfect, I am not
perfect—but we are <B>becoming</B> perfect. This will take many hundreds of
thousands of years on your traverse to Paradise to become perfect, as the Father
in Heaven. Therefore, we want to nurture this kernel of perfection you are in
the process of becoming. And as you become, other things must diminish and
wither away. The voices that demean you, belittle you, put you down, make you
feel less than, must be silenced and put away. </P>
<P>I want you to become aware of those voices. Your chore these next two weeks
is to <B>identify those voices that hold you back</B>. If you do nothing else in
two weeks, do that. Only if you identify, that’s all you need to do. If you wish
to move forward, the second step would be to identify where that voice is coming
from. Whose voice was that? Whose voice is that? Perhaps it is your voice? If
so, you have become the conscious voice of whomever programmed that into you.
You have taken over their voice. And this is the most insidious thing that
demoralizes many people: to have unwittingly, unconsciously, taken on the voice
of the demeaning authority figure.</P>
<P>What we want to do is much like a beautiful floribunda rose. Do you know what
a floribunda rose is? (No, I don’t know.) Thank you! A real, live response! A
floribunda rose is one that has many, many, many little buds and blooms. The
other type of rose is one that has just two or three or four, and they are much
larger. So we accept that every thing about you is beautiful, and even the
voices of authority that were in your lives so many years ago, they were
beautiful too, for they were there to help form your character. But now it is
time to pinch off those buds so that the other buds may bloom and grow bigger.
The energy that flows through this stem of life, yes, your own merkaba, your
core energy shaft, must now flow into the Master consciousness part of your own
being, that which you wish to have bloom to it’s fullest in this mortal
lifetime. </P>
<P>The tasks that we are setting out for you in these lessons are very simple:
<B>Eliminate that which diminishes your greatness and nurture those things that
help you flourish. </B>That’s it! But the key tools to this, are two: One is
<B>consciousness</B>, becoming aware of those things which diminish your
greatness; and two, the <B>expression of</B> <B>will</B> to do something about
that. And what is that? That is to make a choice.<B> Consciously make a
choice</B>! And make that choice <B>every time</B> you hear that voice that
diminishes your greatness. The choice will be to command it to be gone.</P>
<P>If any of you have been addicted to something such as cigarettes, alcohol,
drugs, bad relationships, anger—any of these things—then you know where we are
going with this. Every time this comes up for you, you say, "I choose peace." "I
choose to make my own decisions!" "I direct my life!" "I’m in charge of my
life!" "I no longer listen to the small voice inside me, the authoritative voice
of parent to child." "I make the decisions." "I no longer listen to this voice
that diminishes me!" "I am responsible for my life, and I now change my life to
greatness. I choose greatness! I choose the Christ Consciousness, and I nurture
that in me!" Oh yes, in the beginning when you first become conscious of this
process, you may do this hundreds of times a day! Like the alcoholic who finds
some stress during the day, "I need a drink!" Someone who has anger management
problems, "Man I’d like to break that guy’s face!" Say, "No, it’s not him, it’s
me. I am in control. This is my life. This is my only shot at mortality to
augment my morontial life, to choose greatness, to fill my soul with good
decisions rather than leaving it empty." You may have several voices in your
mind that attack you, or berate you or belittle you. You can deal with all of
them as easily as you can one. Begin to identify them; name them, whether it’s
a, b, c, d or 1, 2, 3 or any other names you want to give them, and if there is
a person behind that name, then that is them! </P>
<P>And that leads us to the second point: The second point that needs to be
handled is <B>forgiveness</B>. You remember the parable of the Apostle who said,
"How many times must I forgive? One time, seven times, seven times seven?" My
friends, the real truth of that parable is you must forgive every time you
remember it, or you come to anger, or you come to emotional energy. And this is
the criterion that you will use to test whether you are healed or not, is your
<B>emotional reaction</B>. I would wager that each one of you could think of a
name and a situation in the past that would raise your heart rate, make you
perspire, and make your blood pressure go up. If you do, you are having an
emotional reaction to that situation, whether it was last week, or 20-30 years
ago. But the way you ascertain whether you are effective in your forgiveness is
the degree of emotional energy that you have in reaction to this person or this
situation. </P>
<P>Student: That’s the static charge, you’re talking about. </P>
<P>Rayson: Yes, exactly. Every time you think of this person, and sometimes you
don’t want to think of them, and they call you up on the telephone, and they’ll
rattle you. This is the most potent time to see if you are effective in your
consciousness! I chortle about that because it is very difficult and it is very
forgivable to react and then later on, have regrets about reacting. </P>
<P>But in time, my friends, as you continue this process, the person will call
you on the phone and they will say, "Hello, this is so-and-so," and in your
mind, you say, "I forgive you. There is no energy here in this conversation. I
am in the Christ Consciousness. The Mind of Christ now speaks through me. I am
at peace." "Yes, what did you have to say? What did you call me about?" "Oh,
…yada yada yada…" "Hmm, very interesting. All right, I will deal with that. Good
bye." And then you get off the phone and proceed with what you were doing. </P>
<P>Yes, I know, the most difficult situations you have are those that are
ongoing, that are not resolved. These require the greatest, heightened, most
energetic Christ Conscious Mind possible! You cannot escape this situation, you
cannot remove yourself from it, it is there and you have to deal with it. Yes,
you could cope with it; you could get off the phone, stand in the middle of the
room and just scream, or go to the gym and work out and beat up a punching bag,
or run your feet into the ground for many miles. That's coping. That really
helps the body to maintain its longevity, but what about the mind? <B>The mind
has no other release</B>. Yes, I know the endorphins from exercise can help you,
they will calm you, you will feel better, and you can smooth over or melt or
soften the situation through exercise and coping mechanisms, but what about when
this happens again? So it is a matter of personal control and mastery. This is
living mastery, the mastery of life and living in a difficult society on a
difficult planet.</P>
<P>Student: So these series of incidences will be closed and are closed when the
static charge is removed through the forgiveness and love.</P>
<P>Rayson: Yes. Now, there is <B>much</B> more to say about that. The static
charge is just so much ‘language’ but you feel the emotional energy in anger or
resentment, hostility, jealousy, envy—it could be any number of negative
emotions--and if you have those feelings, then you need to forgive yourself,
forgive that person and to master the situation by saying these affirmations.
These affirmations become rather a mantra; they are a way of programming your
mind. You’ve heard of people belonging to cults that need to de-program from
those learning experiences, that is what is necessary to remove negative
training, negative indoctrination. But your mind is programmable, and therefore,
you want to program it with <B>successful</B> software, successful programs,
programs that support your life of successes. The reasons why many people go to
listen to positive speakers, Anthony Robbins, and others, but remain
unsuccessful is that the old programs of failure and diminishment are still
running in their minds. </P>
<P>What you will experience as you take more and more mastery of your mind and
control of it, and releasing the negative, authority voice from your mind, and
forgiving those past experiences, is that there will be less and less color or
emotional reaction to these situations. Eventually, you will go from graphic,
real life, full color videos to the little 2 X 2 black and white negatives of
that picture—there’s no energy there anymore—there’s memory, but there is no
energy. And you will know you are making success because you have less and less
reactions to these situations.</P>
<P>I am going to give an example which I know will make Daniel uncomfortable,
but I must because it was first proposed by a very wonderful teacher, a
Melchizedek named Ahsha, who assisted Daniel in writing the book <I>Sacred
Relationships, a Guide to Authentic Loving</I>. There is a chapter in there
called, "Forgiveness." And under the sub-title of the chapter is "Ah-ha!" <B>The
"Ah-ha" is that when you get to final forgiveness, you realize that your
nemesis, the person who has caused you so much difficulty, is actually the
teacher of your weakness, and that they are simply a personification of the
weakness that you must overcome. </B>That is a different way of thinking about
this person, isn’t it? It is a very powerful way of thinking about it. Let us
develop this further. This chapter was a tremendous "Ah ha" for Daniel and it
was a very powerful and exciting chapter to write because he experienced many
levels of forgiveness that he had never experienced or tried before.</P>
<P>Another technique of forgiveness is to put yourself in the shoes of your
nemesis, the person who was or is causing you such difficulty. And this may be
in the present time, or some time in the past. And what you are trying to do
here is <B>not </B>to become like that person, but to <B>understand the
motivation</B> of why this person would treat you this way. What causes, what
thoughts, what motivations and beliefs would course through this person that
they would treat you so unkindly? And when you do this, you will begin to
understand what formed them and why they behave this way. And then you will
realize that they have lots of work to do too, to forgive themselves, to forgive
who taught them, and to re-program their thinking. And you realize and come to
understand why they treated you that way. And when you understand that, then it
becomes more likely that you can forgive them. You begin to understand and think
about the forces that it would take to form a person of that personality. Their
meanness, or difficulty or contrariness, the person is so controlling,
dominating—what forces would be required to form a personality that way? For
each of you came into the world very equal, then grew from an innocent child
into a dominating, berating, controlling figure. The point of this is to
understand them and to forgive them for what they have done. They do not do it
just to you they do it to everyone! And you say, "I forgive them. I understand
what brought them to that point. It hurt me, but I forgive them; I understand
why they did that. I do not like their behavior, but I know that they too are a
child of God, of equal value to the Creator. They are my mortal brother or
sister, and I forgive them." Again, if this person is alive and continues to
treat you this way, on a daily basis or periodically, your chore is much more
difficult. Tremendously difficult!</P>
<P>But also think of the rewards of living consciously with this nemesis in your
face from day to day or week to week. It requires the utmost of your own
budding, growing, Christ Consciousness, consciousness of the Master, to live
consciously in the moment, <B>not </B>only to control your behavior and your
thoughts and your emotions, but more importantly, to <B>understand the
motivations</B> of that person <I>and to have already forgiven them</I>. We do
not expect that you will learn this lesson in a week or two weeks; you’ll be
very fortunate if you learn this in two years. The degree of your progress is
determined by your conscientiousness to apply these lessons of consciousness to
your daily and hourly lives, minute to minute. For example, if you know that you
are going to see this person, or if you know that you are going to visit someone
who will be talking continually about your nemesis, then you know that you will
need to gear up and get ready for what she will present you with when you go
there. If you expect a phone call or a visit from someone who is a nemesis, then
you will need to gear up for that too. And if you have a notebook, or something
that you will be referring to during the conversation with them, put a sticky
note on some of the pages—"I remain in Master consciousness."</P>
<P>These are very difficult lessons, but they are ‘doable.’ The Avatars and
Masters of your planet have practiced these skills in their lives. Some were
fortunate to be raised in very peaceful environments, peaceful families, and to
come into this powerful consciousness easily, almost effortlessly. When they are
confronted later on by difficult people, they are able to accept them where they
are, as they are, but not let them impact them. But what does this mean for you
when you are confronted by your nemesis? Does this mean you want to live as a
placid individual, on a level playing field of all emotion? Of course not! What
would you rather feel? Joy! Peacefulness! Satisfaction! Fulfillment! Happiness!
Honorable camaraderie! Validating friendship! Loving social relations! To greet
life with a cheery smile on your face; to wake up in the morning knowing that
you are going to have a good day, and that you are the master of that day. Carpe
diem! Seize the Day! That means to be the master of it, the master of the day!
That is a far different position than being the victim of your own emotional
reactions.</P>
<P>Now, let us go into a technique…Excuse me, was there a question?</P>
<P>Student: Yes, Rayson, do we each have a personal nemesis, or had a personal
nemesis?</P>
<P>Rayson: No, not necessarily.</P>
<P>Student: Is it like, are we going to search for this person until we find
this person! [Rayson laughing.] You know, are we wasting our time here trying to
find somebody who’s not there? How do we know?</P>
<P>Another student: Because you have a sticky note!</P>
<P>Third student: Those of us, who know, know!</P>
<P>Rayson: That’s right, those of you who know, know!</P>
<P>Student: I guess that was my point. What if you search through your
consciousness for this ‘being’ [nemesis] and you can’t find them?</P>
<P>Rayson: Blessings to you! You are at peace! Thank the ground that YOU walk
on! (That it is still and doesn’t shake beneath you.)</P>
<P>Fourth Student: I’ve got lots of them, I could loan you some. [Someone else
said, "Ditto!" I’d GIVE them to you.]</P>
<P>Rayson: Yes, yes, remarkably in your society, in this nation and in this
century on this planet, there are individuals who are at peace, who have no
nemesis, whose only chore is to realize the greatness within them and then to
express it. If this is the case for you, dear son, then your challenges are
surely as great as others, for your responsibilities now are to expand your
greatness as the Master consciousness, without a nemesis, to search yourself and
what you would like to become and what you would like to express.</P>
<P>Student: Don’t get me wrong! I have ‘had’ a nemesis—many—I have <B>dealt</B>
with them, and no longer have relationships that concern me. Let’s put it that
way. (Rayson: Even in your thinking? Reflections of those times?) Hmm, well if I
reflect upon those times, it’s usually because someone else has brought them up.
(And what happens?) I go through them again and think, "Well, gee, I really
don’t care about that." (Good) It’s not something I’m concerned with. It is
perhaps something the person who brought it up is concerned with, but I’m not.
(You do not compulsively dwell on them?) No, I do not. (And they do not bedevil
you?) No, they do not. (They do not act like a nemesis, a thorn in your side?)
No, they’re out of my consciousness. (Excellent!)</P>
<P>Rayson: This is where the others in the group will want to go with your
lives, with your nemeses, is to put them aside. And one technique to do that is
to <B>literally</B>, in a <B>psychodrama</B>, in your thinking, confront that
individual, <B>in the moment</B> that you think of them, because their only
power is in your thinking. So if you change your thinking about how you deal
with them, you will change the whole scenario. And what you do, this is one
technique, is as a mighty parent or a mighty personage, raise yourself up so you
are 100 feet tall. And you grasp that individual gently and you put them on a
shelf at eye level in front of you. And you say, "Stay there! This is where you
belong." And you say, "I do this out of love and caring for you and for myself.
You have no more relevance to me. I go back to my life now, as I was, without
you." And then you shrink down to your current height, and you look up at the
shelf, 100 feet above and there they are. They might be railing and shouting in
the air, but you do not hear them. They are removed from you. They still exist,
but they have no effect upon you. And in your consciousness, every time you hear
their voice, you recall (snapping fingers) just like that, that they are on the
shelf, and you have set them aside, and they are no longer demeaning to you, no
longer demanding attention in ways that cause you grief.</P>
<P>Let us go back again to this <B>psychodrama</B>. I understand in this country
one must be a professional psychotherapist or psychiatrist, trained in this sort
of activity, to be licensed, insured, totally buttoned up and secure with legal
systems and professional credentials. However, nothing prevents you from doing
this yourself, on your own. I will not guide you through that here, for I am not
credentialed, in terms that are recognized by your society, or your culture,
your government. So, go back to those scenes where you were confronted by this
individual. And this is where you may want to have an ice cube in your hand, to
stay grounded in the moment, okay? Deliberately, consciously engage this person
in that memory, and the ice cube keeps you grounded in this moment so you do not
‘sucked up’ in your own psychodrama that you created, and are once more
‘trounced.’ Do you understand the importance of the ice cube?</P>
<P>Student: To feel something other than what’s going on in your mind.</P>
<P>Rayson: Right, it keeps you <B>grounded in the moment</B>, outside of that
memory, so you can come back to this moment easily. And you go back, with ice
cube in hand, to remind you that you are in this moment, in this hour, in this
location, and you are ‘<B>safe</B>.’ That is what the ice cube is for; you’re
‘safe’, nothing can harm you, this is just your thinking, and the person in your
memory is just a memory; they can’t do anything to you, except what your mind
allows. And then with your ‘will,’ you are taking charge of this situation that
you remember in your mind, in your memory. In your consciousness, you replace
yourself (the child or whoever you were in that situation,) with a more powerful
‘you.’ It may be that you see yourself with Christ Michael/Jesus, with his arm
around you, and you speak to this person and you say, "You no longer have any
power over me, these are just old memories. I do not allow you to abuse me any
longer. You treated me inappropriately; the words you said were harsh and
uncalled for and inappropriate, for I was just a child. I did not know better; I
had no power. But now I know better; I have the Christ Mind with me when I tell
you, you are forgiven for what you have done; do this no longer in my memory.
Now be gone from me," then you put them on the shelf. </P>
<P>And each time this memory comes back to you, you relive the empowerment of
yourself in that moment with Christ Michael/Jesus by your side, Nebadonia
shining behind you, gloriously, over whelming the person in front of you as you
speak. And you know that your guardian angel is there with you, for she has most
concern for you in the immediacy of your life now in this moment. Whatever you
need to say to this person, you say to them. You do not berate them or belittle
them. You do not chastise them; you do not beat them up. You cause them no harm,
but you speak to them responsibly as a Master would speak to his disciples, or
to the man along the way, or to the woman at the well. You speak forthrightly,
you speak powerfully, you speak masterfully; you let your Thought Adjuster speak
through you. And if you are uncertain about what to say, turn to your Guardian
Angel and ask her, "What do you think I should say now?" And she will tell you,
and then you say that to this person. And you say to your mind and you say to
them, "You no longer have any legitimate space in my mind. Be gone from me! I
set you aside; I cannot forget you, but I forgive this, I no longer hold any
energy in this memory." And my friends, every time this memory comes to you, you
go through the same scenario—<B>each time</B>! </P>
<P>And as you become more courageous and more empowered, you may ask this
person, your nemesis, "Why did you do this? What caused you to do this?" And
almost invariably they will say, "I did not know any better, I was ignorant."
And then you may ask them to apologize to you, and they will. And if they don’t,
then they will be back in memory and you will go back to this empowering process
again and again until they do. And if they don’t <B>ever</B> apologize, then you
are big enough in your masterful mind to say, "I forgive you anyway, be on your
way, I release you, you have no power over my thinking or my mind, or my
memories. I reclaim this space in my mind. I reclaim this static energy to
become dynamic energy of love to flow through my life, and it flows through my
life now."</P>
<P>This, my friends, is some of the most powerful exchanges you could ever
experience in your life! Yes, it is a challenge to do public speaking in front
of a 100 or 300 or 1000 people, but it is incredibly powerful and daunting, to
confront your enemies in your memories, and this you <B>must </B>do. If you go
to the grave with these memories, without healing these things, you will have
done yourself a tremendous disservice. You will have minimized the amount of
interaction you can have with the spiritual potential that lays within you. Yes,
you came into this life with lessons to learn, and they are here abundantly. You
also came into this life to express the potential that lies within you, to
approach the morontial, even in this lifetime. </P>
<P>Many of you forget about, or set aside, keep out of consciousness, the old
memories, those things which haunt you, hold you back, and you become
over-achievers and you strive hard and you work hard, you’re diligent, you
become experts, you know all that is to be known in your field, and you become
acclaimed by your society and your professional guilds, but you do not deal with
the old memories. Our wish for you is that you exit this mortal lifetime with a
<B>clear memory bank</B>; no one to forgive; no old memories haunting you; no
one at your deathbed saying, "Ha ha, I got you!" At that time, transiting out
into the morontial, being clear with a <B>full heart of love</B>, no darkness
locked up in memories of regrets, resentment, hatred, loathing, but a heart full
of love –your passage into the morontial will be very easy. And your work to do
on the other side will be minimized for getting rid of things, though you will
have much to learn, of course.</P>
<P>Now, let us say that after a year of working on these things, you feel much
better. I suppose you’re thinking, "Oh Rayson, you keep upping the ante on us
here!" But let us think of that time when you lay on your deathbed: You have
become gravely ill, you know that death is at your side, and that soon you will
be not of this realm any longer. Now, in this supposed scenario, are there any,
will there be any nemeses remaining? Is there anyone who will have the last
laugh on you in your lifetime? This is kind of a metaphor or a parallel for
hitting the ‘total button’ on your life’s course; are there any enemies left, or
only friends and those who love you? If you find people who are enemies or
nemesis, then there is forgiveness to do. And yes, even in a future mind
situation, you can take this situation and forgive that individual. You can be
in this scenario on your deathbed, empowering yourself to forgive that person.
And you say, "I’m about ready to check out, I’m about to become morontial, you
have no power over me, I forgive you. The memories of you do no longer bother
me. I reclaim all the energy, the dynamic energy of God’s love for my life to
give to others and to give to myself."</P>
<P>So when you think about your little sticky notes, they have much more to do
with your morontial life than you think; they have much more to do with <B>soul
growth and soul-filling</B> experiences and decisions than you possibly could
realize. For it is only through the development of consciousness of the moment,
from moment to moment, that you can make these decisions to live life
consciously.</P>
<P>This lesson will not be repeated, two weeks ago and this one. This is a
summation of these two lessons. They are here for you to peruse, to examine, and
to apply to your lives. If you do have questions now or in future weeks as you
work through your scenarios, your memories, the nemesis of your life and you
have questions, please bring them forward. We have given you the larger aspects
of this work, and this is surely enough for you to work on at this time. There
are much deeper lessons concerning these very same issues in the morontial
schools. And if you work through these successfully, in this lifetime, in the
next year or two or five, then you will be brought to higher levels of
consciousness and to new levels of morontial awakening and lessons to learn on
those lower levels, here, during your mortal lifetime. I encourage you to engage
this process, rather eagerly and even aggressively, attentively, for if I know
that if it were a five-year program, you probably will not have engaged it, but
only doing it piecemeal as you have done in years past. If you engage this
attentively, diligently, you truly can overcome immense emotional hurdles in
probably two years or three years at most. You see the limitations that exist in
your mind and memories are finite; there are only so many of them. Remove one
and it’s like pulling apart a gift; you pull a ribbon, and the knot comes undone
and all the contents begin to fall out. So when you begin on one problem you
will be presented with many, but the resolution can be very rapid.</P>
<P>Student: I notice we tend to set the same problem up over and over until we
do go for the resolution.</P>
<P>Rayson: Yes, that is another aspect that I have not brought up, which we have
alluded to earlier. Whereas, sometimes your problems come up only through your
memories, sometimes you bring problems to you. You attract them to you to work
through in real life, to work through them over and over again. You can see this
in the lives of some people, where they were raised in a home environment, and
the first mate that they married emulated many of the aspects of the dysfunction
in their original family. That is an attempt to heal those wounds of their
parental family in the marital relationship with a new partner. Many times
individuals are unsuccessful because they are not conscious of what they have
attracted to themselves, and so they may repeat it with another mate, another
partner. This is also done in business, as you know too.</P>
<P> </P>
<P>Student: I have a dear friend that married four wives, the first two were
like mom, and the next two were the opposite. And he still has not resolved
those issues.</P>
<P>Rayson: He should try number five! [Chuckling] If he were conscious of this
process, number five would be much gentler to his life.</P>
<P>Student: Rayson, I thought about that question you posed before, the question
about…(I’m having a Senior Moment—Oh, I hate that!)…about dreams…<B><I>lucid
dreaming</B></I> would be the answer. (Rayson: You are correct.) You could
actually be doing ‘work’ while you are asleep. (Exactly!) That would be an
amazing gift!</P>
<P>Rayson: It is very possible, and many of your friends and others do lucid
dreaming. You can call this into existence when you retire at night after
meditating. Upon entering bed, go into prayer and ask your guardian angel to
assist you in learning the lessons lucidly from your life experience. Often
times during the day, your mind will protect itself from these harsh realities
of memory, and present you with a metaphor that you can resolve in a lucid
manner. And you can observe yourself in this situation, and much as a play
director, you can change the outcome, you can change the playacting of the
characters. This is a higher-minded development. You can accomplish much work in
the growth of your personality and forgiveness through your sleep time in lucid
dreaming. It sets up scenarios where your conscious mind can then deal with them
more peacefully and easily and powerfully later, during your waking state. </P>
<P>You may also wish to ask your guardian angel and your celestial teacher to
take you to class, a classroom situation, to teach you objectively as you would
go to a night class at the community college, where you would sit in a classroom
and they would discuss issues with you and teach you that way. This has occurred
many, many, many times with this subject here. You can experience this and come
away in the morning with new insights about higher wisdoms. Thank you for
striving to answer the question! You are quite correct, it is lucid dreaming,
and it can be augmented through conscious and deliberate and intentional
engagement with your celestial, and angelic teachers in your dream states.</P>
<P>If you make your wish repeated, and you prepare your body and your mind for
sleep and engagement of this sort, you will surely be given this opportunity,
and still wake in the morning, very refreshed and rested.</P>
<P>Student: I’ve been experiencing some of that where I am watching myself in a
dream, and actually ‘coaching’ myself to…one of them was five CRT’s in a row
that I was supposed to dial in, and I was going from one to another, and I told
myself, just fix one, just fix one! I got that dialed in.</P>
<P>Rayson: Yes, this is preparing you to do this during the daytime. Be
self-observing. Do these two lessons make sense? Do they provide you with new
tools? (Yes. Yes, Rayson.) Good. Are they too demanding for you? (No answer.)
They’re demanding, right? [Group laughing nervously.] (Yes, very demanding!)
</P>
<P>Student: We were doing Gestalt therapy, I guess they call it psychodrama now,
back in the 70’s in some groups we were in, and the person who introduced me to
the Urantia Book was the counselor, and we had groups where we would place the
‘piggy parent’, the voice from the past or our nemesis in a ‘chair’ and speak to
it, as a child, as if we were a current adult, and take back the power and
closing the situation with forgiveness and love. And part of our instruction was
that it was not closed until it was closed with love. That’s the key that takes
the energy out of it. (Rayson: That’s correct!) And so I think that most of my
nemeses are up there on that shelf. I haven’t checked on them recently—I think
they’ve turned to dust. (That’s good.) But if anybody wants minor help in this
kind of technique, I will lend that, my experience.</P>
<P>Rayson: Any other thoughts?…pause…Busy minds! Be at peace, please!</P>
<P>Student: Thank you Father for our vicissitudes, for they will turn to
strength!</P>
<P>Student: I’ve heard that it takes as long as it takes! That brings peace.
(Yes)</P>
<P>Rayson: You have not chosen easy lives. But in doing so, you have chosen
lessons that are powerful, and which will remain with you in your memories. As
you recall, in the long future ahead, you will have these to draw upon for
wisdom: the empowerment that you gain from these memories, in over-coming the
difficulties of those situations. To hearten your sense of overcoming, know that
when you engage new situations that seem harsh and unfair and abusive, you will
be able to deal with those with a new mind-consciousness. You will be self-
empowered, and you will not tolerate that, and you’ll say, "One moment, that’s
abusive, I don’t need to hear that. Thank you, do you have something else you’d
like to tell me?" And get on with it. You do not have to accept this into your
life; you are empowered, you have the same authority, the same legitimacy of
existence as anyone else. If someone is abusive, tell him or her, "You are
abusive, this is demeaning of me and I am not worthy of this. Please change the
subject or talk about something else." And if they are unable to do so, then you
really have no more business with them.</P><B>
<P>What would Jesus want of you?</B> This is not a rhetorical question. What
would he want of you to become and to express? Think about this. This is not a
rhetorical question; this is part of the lesson. What would Jesus want you to
express and become? And whatever this is for you in your thoughts right now,
this is what you will carry with you. For each of you have a unique answer to
that. If you wish to share them, I would be glad to listen.</P>
<P>Student: I believe he would want the best example of brotherhood that I can
become. (Okay, another?)</P>
<P>Student: I believe he would want us to teach those of us and the world that
are interested in understanding some of the concepts in the Urantia Book, and
the higher ideals and values that we come to learn through our lives, and to
pass those on to those who are interested in understanding them. (Thank you.
Another?)…[Long pause]….</P>
<P>Rayson: Well, thank you. You have thoughts about your own lives and your
situations and you have power and you have will; <B>will that is unexpressed,
leaves you un-empowered</B> then. So use your will, make decisions about your
mind, and what you want in it. And the memories you want in it; you can choose.
It’s like going down a rack of blouses or shirts at the store saying to
yourself, "I want this one, I want this one, not that one, oh no, that’s ugly,
nope, can’t have that, yes, I want this one it would look good in my life! Umm,
I can wear this well; I will have this one! Not that one, nope, I reject that, I
set it aside. That can be for someone else if they choose." So pick and choose
the memories that you want to keep, and discard those you don’t want to. Do this
consciously. Do this willfully. Do this powerfully.</P>
<P>I thank you for your attendance and your attentiveness this afternoon. I know
that some of this lesson is very heavy, it is shocking, it is empowering, it is
good for you to think about, and it is even better for you to apply. You have
your work cut out for you, but you have time. You have this lifetime; you have
additional lifetimes, as much time as you need to take. And know that you are
not left alone to do this by yourself, but that you have the seven Mind Adjutant
Spirits to assist you. You have your guardian angel; you have your Thought
Adjuster. You are not alone. You can call upon your friends, your support team
at any moment, EVERY moment, if you wish. Yes, every moment, to assist you to
move forward successfully, powerfully in this life. What a joy it is to see
those who were meek, to become strong. Those who were without power to become
powerful benefactors of good in their world. We, of the Celestial TeaM, get to
observe these things, as do the angels and others here. It is a wonderful,
powerful lesson that is shared with many over the broadcasts in Nebadon. The
victories of your personal lives are shared with others, and they become the
victories of others. You are on TV, so to speak; your lives are on review. You
are living examples of lives in challenge and lives in growth. You are witness
to the power of Jesus in your lives, as example. </P>
<P>The wonderful benefit is that, when you have done this work, you will live a
life that is much lighter, much more in joy, much more in peace expressing the
potential of your fulfillment that lies before you, ready to blossom. The
dynamic love of our Father/Creator/God is always in the flow. Unlock those bits
of static energy of negative mind, of negative memories, release that into the
flow and become part of it. Enjoy the greater flow of love in your lives. It is
surely a joy for me to be here to present this to you, and assist you in these
challenges. You are not alone, you can ask me questions, you can ask questions
of your Thought Adjuster, your Guardian Angel, and any one of Michael’s hosts
here on this planet. His spirit lies intimately close to you; you are each
intimately connected to him – his spirit here on this planet at this time. His
assistance is personal, immediate, and intimate. I really know that! I hope you
do too. Good day. (Thank you, Rayson.)</P>
<P>Student: I see a bunch of little gems, sitting around with slag all over
them. This is the tumbler, for polishing the stones. </P>
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<P>Student: [Group laughing.] That’s a good one, Jim! Round and round we go,
knocking off the rough edges. </P>
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