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<DIV><B><FONT face="Times New Roman">DATE:</FONT></B>
<FONT face="Times New Roman">October
12, 2003</FONT> <BR><B><FONT
face="Times New Roman">LOCATION:</FONT></B>
<FONT face="Times New Roman">Rio Rancho, NM,
USA<BR>
"</FONT><FONT face="Times New Roman">Esmarelda's Hideaway"</FONT> </DIV>
<P><B><FONT face="Times New Roman">TEACHERS:
TOMAS, ANATOLIA, MERIUM<BR></FONT></B><B><FONT
face="Times New Roman">
& Special Guest Midwayer "Jack"</FONT></B>
<P><B><FONT face="Times New Roman">TOPICS:
"My Unseen
Friends"</FONT></B> <BR><B>
<FONT
face="Times New Roman">In the Yellow Glow of TB&G</FONT></B> <BR><B><FONT
face="Times New Roman">Q &
A:
Do Midwayers Become Weary?
</FONT></B></P>
<P><B><FONT face="Times New Roman">T/Rs</FONT></B><FONT
face="Times New Roman">:
Gerdean and Matthew</FONT>
<BR><B><FONT face="Times New Roman">MUSIC</FONT></B><FONT
face="Times New Roman">:
Elena on Piano: "Our Precious Jesus"</FONT> </P>
<P><B><FONT face="Times New Roman">PRAYER</FONT></B><FONT
face="Times New Roman">: </FONT><BR><B><FONT
face="Times New Roman">Matthew</FONT></B><FONT
face="Times New Roman">: Let us place
ourselves in the presence of Jesus, the Christ.</FONT> </P>
<P><I><FONT face="Times New Roman">Master Teacher,
</FONT></I><BR><I> <FONT
face="Times New Roman">We ask for your presence with us today as we gather
together with fewer of us but nonetheless a dedicated core wherever we may
gather. Where two or more are gathered, you said you would be with us, so
we trust that. We also trust that everything that you have told us will
come to fruition and that one day light and life will visit upon this planet to
bring it into the brilliance that it was always intended to be. We
recommit ourselves to that purpose knowing that it may well not be during our
lifetime, but to contribute to that so that one day our home, which was and is
your home, may be as has been intended 'on earth as it is in heaven'. So
with that purpose and with the mission of the Teaching Mission, we recommit
ourselves to the purposes for which we understand and for those that we do not,
we place as faith before you. In appreciation for all of the teachers and
those that are with us today, we commend ourselves to your and their
service. Amen.</FONT></I></P>
<P><B><FONT face="Times New Roman">TOMAS:</FONT></B> <FONT
face="Times New Roman">Amen and hello. This is Tomas, and the equipment is
like your piano, Elena, unused and therefore squeaky. Let's 'crank it up'
and work the squeak out so that we can hear undistorted beauty in the notes to
follow.</FONT></P>
<P><FONT face="Times New Roman">Your perspective on our assemblage, Matthew, is
from the human standpoint, for surely you would be astounded to see how many are
here in truth. As you say, Angus, in Michael Mann's song, " 'My Unseen
Friends' are everywhere!' and we have many here today to enjoy you in your
gathering and as you join forces to lift up your consciousness to meet those
peaks of attainment that bring you into the morontia sphere of thought and
potential reality. This way of bridging the spirit and the material
results in the morontial way of life that will be known to you in time as light
and life. For after all, once a planet has attained light and life, its
citizens are no longer required to ascend through the mansion worlds, inasmuch
as they have already attained that learning in their native sphere.
</FONT></P>
<P><FONT face="Times New Roman">And so this is one of the goals of the Teaching
Mission, certainly, but we cannot grow as a planetary consciousness until such
time as we have a certain grid work stretched the panoply of space, joining you
with your fellow men and women the world over, to exalt the brotherhood of man
under the Fatherhood of God and let these morontial values prevail as the
preferred reality to the prominent/predominant reality which is the material
legacy - that material legacy which is sorely flawed. But as we are aware,
this very condition is what stimulates our desire to be of service. As it
is said, difficulties only stimulate the sons and daughters of the living
God. Rather than lay down beside your problem, you take up your bed and
walk -- even walking the second mile, in order to serve the greater reality
which lures you forward. </FONT></P>
<P><FONT face="Times New Roman">This is obviously not an ambition who enjoy the
material world or who are finding themselves content and complete and challenged
appropriately within the material paradigm. Shall I say,
"Matrix"? The matrix, as you see it, as it is being lived out, being
prominent and predominant ... Dominant ... is the one that naturally compels
your attention, while the invisible realm, being unseen, and your unseen friends
going unnoticed, you thwart the very progress for your world that you profess to
seek. </FONT></P>
<P><FONT face="Times New Roman">This afternoon I'm going to attempt to offer an
opportunity for an old friend to come visit -- a midwayer friend of Gerdean's
from decades ago - but I'll be back. </FONT></P>
<P><B><FONT face="Times New Roman">0802-AB:</FONT></B><FONT
face="Times New Roman"> Good afternoon, dear friends and fellow workers in
the field. This is Jack. 0802-AB Jack here. </FONT></P>
<P><B><FONT face="Times New Roman">Group:</FONT></B> <FONT
face="Times New Roman">Welcome!</FONT> </P>
<P><B><FONT face="Times New Roman">JACK:</FONT></B> <FONT
face="Times New Roman">Well, thank you, I appreciate your hospitality. I
appreciate the opportunity to have this ... what you would almost call
'artificial format', for it provides me an opportunity to get my foot in the
door of your consciousness and perhaps to fan the flames of friendship, which
have often been put on hold because of the natural nature of creatures of the
flesh. </FONT></P>
<P><FONT face="Times New Roman">Recently Gerdean asked our friend George
[Barnard], who is working with the 11:11 Progress Group, as they call
themselves, to introduce the United Midwayers to the consciousness of
humanity. And Gerdean said, "I wonder if the midwayers get weary?" and so
I would like to respond to that question. But first perhaps I ought to
expound a bit on why the question would be asked in the first place.
</FONT></P>
<P><FONT face="Times New Roman">On a bright and sunny day when all is going
well, one hardly thinks about the efforts others undertake, for all is well and
everyone seems joyous in the spirit and, of course, all is right with the world.
There is no thought to being discouraged or worrying about what has not been
done in the face of what<U> has</U> been done. But it was a simpatico kind
of question, if you ask me, because 37,000 years is a span of time for an order
of beings who had not originally been intended to have such a long tenure.
Yes, Gerdean, we do grow weary. However, we have learned of late how to
overcome the effects of that sort of exhaustion. </FONT></P>
<P><FONT face="Times New Roman">The spirit is tireless, but we are not indwelt
like you are. Even so, we are motivated similarly, for we have goals and
dreams and plans and they are born into us as inherently and as surely as you
have dreams, ambitions and plans built into you. In many ways, you know,
we are cousins and we share similar attitudes. And I am like you in that I
enjoy accomplishing something, in particular, something that I have determined
needs something done to or about. This is a part of the craving for
perfection and the will to serve. And when it is thwarted, I naturally -
like you - must "mourn" the forestalling or out-and-out ending of a reality that
was beginning to shimmer with real life. </FONT></P>
<P><FONT face="Times New Roman">There is a very unfortunate image coming to this
mind. I will try to push it aside and not broadcast it.
(pause)</FONT> </P>
<P><FONT face="Times New Roman">We take great comfort in each other, much as you
do in your fledgling culture. We take great comfort in knowing there are
others like us, who think as we do, who feel as we do, who have
responsibilities, commitments and goals. </FONT></P>
<P><FONT face="Times New Roman">We midwayers, many of us, primary and secondary
alike, wasted a lot of time. Wasted thousands of years, in fact, and for
your information it was not entirely because we were merely Children in Need of
Supervision or out-and-out Juvenile Delinquents, but because we had no adequate
example to follow ... until we saw the Master. And his humble work with
his chosen apostles was enough and has been enough to commit us to make up for
lost time. </FONT></P>
<P><FONT face="Times New Roman">Those of you who also a perception that you
wasted time "looking for love in all the wrong places" or "doing the same thing
expecting different results" or just being generally unaware, are sometimes
compelled then to make up for lost time, and while on one hand this is good ...
for it reinforces your choices to go forward ... it can also become an albatross
around your neck that carries with it a great weight of guilt and responsibility
that serves no one, least of all yourself. And so in the camaraderie
of fellowship with your seen and unseen friends, who find the material life by
itself without substance, those of us who have to have the morontia element
involved, we feel we are not living up to our potential, our capacities, our
true selves. </FONT></P>
<P><FONT face="Times New Roman">While it is not necessarily good to compare
yourself to others, inasmuch as everyone is different, everyone has different
capacities, it is certainly appropriate to find the companionship of your
fellows an important part of your life because friendships are an end in
themselves. There is nowhere you have to go with a friendship; it simply
is. You just enjoy each other, recognizing each other for the valuable
piece of the cosmic puzzle he or she is. </FONT></P>
<P><FONT face="Times New Roman">There are many ways to lift yourself up out of
the propensity to fall victim to despair when you see the imperfections of this
dense planet working themselves out through cause and effect, action and
reaction, basic karma. Detachment is a good tool. Developing
the parental attitude is a wise path. Humor is a good antidote.
Prayer and worship are personal and even occasionally social activities that can
get you outside of yourself sufficiently that you feel you might go on.
</FONT></P>
<P><FONT face="Times New Roman">But you will notice we are called United
Midwayers, while you are known as Agondonters. A movement to become United
Agondonters might benefit those of you who think you are alone because you have
not engaged yourself enough in understanding and working with the unseen friends
that are in the same business as you are, of upholding your state of mind into a
state of grace. Whether that is on a shallow level or a deep level,
everyone strives to be happy. </FONT></P>
<P><FONT face="Times New Roman">Another trick I like to use is when I find life
becoming problematic, or my commitment to a task floundering, or feeling
undermined or usurped, is to turn aside for awhile and do something I know I can
do and which I don't need anyone's approval at. Something I already know
how to do well. This gives me a sense of security in myself, and so often,
as is illustrated in the Master's going out away from the work at hand and
taking the apostles, usually when they returned from their day of rest, their
problems had ceased to be such big problems and were more readily handled.
</FONT></P>
<P><FONT face="Times New Roman">Be of good cheer. </FONT></P>
<P><FONT face="Times New Roman">This, too, shall pass. </FONT></P>
<P><FONT face="Times New Roman">We enjoy it ever so much more when we see you
advancing, for we know that our work is not in vain. It is always a reward
to see the results of your efforts, and it is always a disappointment to see
your work destroyed. I don't care what they say On High about
disappointments. I and you have them. And perhaps that's part
of the imperfection of this faraway planet, Urantia. But without the
understanding of disappointments, how would we know the deep joys of culmination
and victory. </FONT></P>
<P><FONT face="Times New Roman">Just because we become discouraged on occasion
is no excuse for you to say, "Yeah, well even midwayers get discouraged," as
that is not taking my words in the spirit they are intended. I am being
honest, not giving you an excuse to be lazy. </FONT></P>
<P><FONT face="Times New Roman">I guess I've done enough damage for one
visit. I'll give you back to Tomas who has taught you well and, like all
of us, yearns for greater opportunities to dig deeper and serve further for the
extension of the Kingdom - light and life for this planet ... where we will be
far longer than you will be, who get to leave Very Soon ... all things being
relative.</FONT></P>
<P><B><FONT face="Times New Roman">Group</FONT></B><FONT
face="Times New Roman">: Thanks for coming, Jack. </FONT><BR><FONT
face="Times New Roman"> </FONT><BR><B><FONT
face="Times New Roman">TOMAS:</FONT></B> <FONT
face="Times New Roman">There is a good moment here now for me to pause and
invite Merium in to fluff up the pillows, as it were, for Jack has spoken with
an iron fist. However, I have complete regard for his message and respect
for his courage, along with the courage of all the midwayers who have been here
for so long - the primary midwayers having been here from virtually the
beginning of time -- and</FONT><B></B><B><I> <FONT
face="Times New Roman">all</FONT></I></B><I></I> <FONT face="Times New Roman">of
their dreams and hopes for their future having been dashed time and
time again.</FONT></P>
<P><B><FONT face="Times New Roman">MERIUM:</FONT></B> <FONT
face="Times New Roman">This is Merium, trying to hasten in before someone else
gets the microphone. Up! Up on your feet! Up on your feet now,
I say. Get up on your feet and shake away the burden of responsibility
that Jack has reminded you that we carry. Yes, we carry this burden, but
we don't have to dwell in it and let it dampen our day. What a beautiful
day it is! </FONT></P>
<P><FONT face="Times New Roman">Deep breathe, now. Deep breathe.
Breathe in the beauty of this day. Think, in your mind's eye, how blue it
is, and the clouds, how white they are. What a magnificent sky you enjoy
here and what dazzling brightness, being so close to the sun. Is that
it? Is it your altitude that gives you such clarity here? There is a
distinct lack of water in the air that gives colors a chance to express
themselves for literally miles. </FONT></P>
<P><FONT face="Times New Roman">The autumn colors now coming out, the golds and
deep greens of autumn, and the purples and browns are weaving a new pattern of
perfection in your arena. Let's sit down then. Sit down in this
patch of long grass, this splendor in the grass that we can now enjoy because it
is our birthright. All the wonderful joys of sonship are ours to
enjoy. Go ahead and waste your time here. Waste your time here and
drinking in the beauty and the peace of your world, your planet.
</FONT></P>
<P><FONT face="Times New Roman">If you have a chance, take a walk out into
Mother Nature and smell the smells of Mother Nature and the delicious air that
abounds. Take it all in and know that this is created for you. This
is the gift of life. This is what you have been given, and you don't have
to wait for light and life to enjoy it, you can enjoy it right now, with your
seen or unseen friends, it doesn't matter. Enjoy it by yourself.
This is the window that I came to open, for you to look out and be
in. This is your world.</FONT></P>
<P><B><FONT face="Times New Roman">TOMAS:</FONT></B> <FONT
face="Times New Roman">I am Tomas, again, wondering if Anatolia would like to
join this merry-go-round we are enjoying today.</FONT> </P><BR>
<P><B><FONT face="Times New Roman">ANATOLIA:</FONT></B><FONT
face="Times New Roman"> I am Anatolia, happy to be with you on this fine
day, as has already been cited by my friend and colleague, Merium, and with the
plan for renewing your thoughts and beings on a brighter note because of a
brighter day, I welcome the opportunity to shower you with the yellows that are
so abundant in your environment here. The yellows that you find
everywhere around are reminders of cheer and glee that are part of your
heredity. </FONT></P>
<P><FONT face="Times New Roman">It is not gloom and darkness, destruction and
volcanic ash that is your inheritance, but rather the glow and the glee that
surround you with the yellow that is a reminder of the sun that abounds here,
the warmth and the beauty and the nature that is provided and the yellow which
reinforces that which you already know on virtually a daily basis. This is
not the message of today, but just a subtle reminder of that which you have,
that abounds in your presence.</FONT></P>
<P><FONT face="Times New Roman">I wish to re-communicate a thought or two from
weeks gone by, and that is for you to reconsider the points of you that I have
placed before you in terms of relative beauty, goodness and truth. This is
partially what my message has been, that is, not that truth, beauty and goodness
are relative, but that relative perfection is a factor in your perception of who
and where you are now, relative to truth, beauty and goodness. </FONT></P>
<P><FONT face="Times New Roman">These are hard and fast rules: truth, beauty and
goodness -- but are relative to the extent that one can only perceive these
three qualities inasmuch as one is able to perceive. If one finds him or
herself wracked with pain, the ability to perceive truth, beauty and goodness is
certainly overshadowed by something that interferes poignantly with those
perception capabilities. This is something that I would like for you to
consider in your perceptions of what you consider to be any one of these three
factors. Your ability to perceive any one of these, or to practice any one
of these, is of course to be commended. Anyone else's practice as you
perceive it, that is not met with your level of perception, is viewed as
inferior or less than what you would find acceptable or that you would be
willing to give yourself, relative to these. As the age old lesson that
our Master had conveyed, in terms of "do unto others", please give consideration
to one's ability to give any one of these three qualities to the best of their
ability, to their greatest extent, without judgment, view or weight of what you
perceived or perceive to be of value. </FONT></P>
<P><FONT face="Times New Roman">If a child gives a flower to his or her mother
or to anyone, is that to be viewed as a lesser gift than if someone were to give
a home in the country, full of horses and abounding meadows? One's measure
of this would be, certainly, "You have to be kidding!" However, one's
willingness to give without question and without measure are of equal value, not
judging one's quality of gift giving or the level of love intended. One
gift in a material sense is no greater than the other, given the benefit of the
doubt that both were given freely and without reservation. </FONT></P>
<P><FONT face="Times New Roman">So my point is, without prolonging the obvious,
is be kind to yourselves and your fellows, to not predetermine what level of
their giving or participation may be, for surely it may be the greatest gift
that they can give, by giving a flower, that all things considered, it is a
priceless and precious gift. So place this upon yourselves as well, and
not mete out that which is any more severe upon another than you would be upon
yourself. </FONT></P>
<P><FONT face="Times New Roman">This I leave you then. I leave you in the
golden light and brilliance of your place on the planet and to be kind to
yourselves as you are to one another. To practice these three qualities as your
thirst for life and to be all that you are because you are all that there is, in
terms of evidence of creation. Be as you are and as you are
becoming. Both are truly beautiful.</FONT></P>
<P><B><FONT face="Times New Roman">Group:</FONT></B> <FONT
face="Times New Roman">Thank you.</FONT> </P>
<P><B><FONT face="Times New Roman">ANATOLIA:</FONT></B><FONT
face="Times New Roman"> Peace be with you.</FONT> </P>
<P><B><FONT face="Times New Roman">TOMAS:</FONT></B> <FONT
face="Times New Roman">We open the floor now to your participation, if we have
not taken up all the time in this parade of visitors we have had today. It
is always good to hear from unseen friends, and it is often my concern that the
normalcy and regularity of your teacher base of Tomas and Anatolia will leave
you feeling unsatisfied or complacent. Yet, if there is not someone
knocking on the door, like the Master or the Planetary Prince, it is just as
well to proceed with what we came to do, knowing that in the course of time, the
opportunities for enhancing our capacities here will be met and, in the
meantime, we bond as a family unit. And today we miss those who are not
with us, and look forward to those who are yet to arrive. </FONT></P>
<P><FONT face="Times New Roman">What is going on in your lives? What are
you grappling with? What would you like to share?</FONT> </P>
<P><B><FONT face="Times New Roman">Angus:</FONT></B> <FONT
face="Times New Roman">I would like to defend ... if that's the right word. -
Jack's presentation. It was kind of like a Veteran's Day speech about a
month early. I really think it's important for us to know that we
have someone else that can identify with our struggle, that are, indeed, here -
although we can't see them - and are like us, as compared to everyone else in
the universe and most of our other unseen friends. The midwayers are the
forerunners. They, like us, began their existence here on this planet, and
I don't know that there are any other entities that have that distinction, and
so it's nice to know that we had those veterans, our cousins, and that they are
there. They are real. And we do own them something. And it's
not unlike what we owe the veterans of our own struggles in the human
sense. So I appreciate being reminded that there are close entities that
we may not be able to see, that we have a responsibility and a loyalty to.
Thank you, Jack.</FONT></P>
<P><B><FONT face="Times New Roman">TOMAS:</FONT></B> <FONT
face="Times New Roman">And I will add that, from our perspective, these workers
had a tremendous part to play in the textual revelation inasmuch as they wrote
the life and teachings of Jesus, without which you would not have been so
impressed as to have found that much merit to what could be otherwise regarded
as a science fiction cosmology. The midwayers, in loyalty to this plane,
will be misled again, will always seek the Source for confirmation of what they
should do. </FONT></P>
<P><FONT face="Times New Roman">And remember, without the Spirit of Truth,
through the indwelling Adjuster to guide them, they must perforce behave much
like you do when you leave your unseen friends out of the picture, you have to
figure it out yourself and hope that you've come up with the best solution for
the greatest number of personalities.</FONT></P>
<P><FONT face="Times New Roman">The fact that there is a midwayer here, now,
between Gerdean and I, conveying my concepts into the artificial language of
your reality, is something that could not happen were it not for the midwayers
who are always attendant upon these proceedings. I will add this, for I
have noticed it from my perspective. The midwayers derive tremendous
--</FONT><I> <FONT face="Times New Roman">tremendous!</FONT></I><FONT
face="Times New Roman"> - joy and satisfaction in their active role as liaison
between the teachers and the students, because they are immediately in the
proximity of the Thought Adjuster of the mortal who does not leave during this
process, but merely steps aside, much like the human ego steps aside in order
for these messages to formulate and come through in this fashion.
</FONT></P>
<P><FONT face="Times New Roman">The proximity to a Thought Adjuster for a
midwayer is probably similar to sipping a sweet soda through a straw when you
have been on the dusty trail. There is a great deal of feedback allowed
these participants. Not only you benefit. Did that make
sense?</FONT></P>
<P><B><FONT
face="Times New Roman">Esmarelda:</FONT></B> <FONT
face="Times New Roman">I thought it was a little confusing.</FONT> </P>
<P><B><FONT face="Times New Roman">TOMAS:</FONT></B> <FONT
face="Times New Roman">Well, suffice it to say they get a big kick out of being
a part of the T/R'ing process.</FONT> </P>
<P><B><FONT
face="Times New Roman">Esmarelda:</FONT></B> <FONT
face="Times New Roman">Oh, now, that's something I can understand.</FONT> </P>
<P><B><FONT face="Times New Roman">TOMAS:</FONT></B> <FONT
face="Times New Roman">They like getting next to us, you see, just like you like
getting next to those you love. And this could lead to another discourse,
but I won't go there. Anything else?</FONT></P>
<P><B><FONT
face="Times New Roman">Matthew:</FONT></B>
<FONT face="Times New Roman">Are they involved in the communications we might
have with our thought adjuster or is that strictly personal? </FONT></P>
<P><B><FONT face="Times New Roman">TOMAS:</FONT></B> <FONT
face="Times New Roman">That is strictly personal. They are only as close
as allowed during a procedure like this. The personal relationship that
occurs between you and your Adjuster does not require their intervention.
I am an outsider, you see. I am like a Thought Projection, as compared to
a Thought Adjuster, or a Thought Controller. I am being Projected into the
essential configuration of you and your Adjuster, and the midwayer has his foot
in the door that allows me to be projected into that essential
setup. <BR></FONT><BR><B><FONT
face="Times New Roman">Matthew:</FONT></B><FONT face="Times New Roman">
Okay. Thank you.</FONT> </P>
<P><B><FONT face="Times New Roman">TOMAS:</FONT></B> <FONT
face="Times New Roman">Even so, remember that the Adjuster and the mortal
are</FONT><I> <FONT face="Times New Roman">both</FONT></I><FONT
face="Times New Roman"> set aside in order for me to get at the technology that
I need, that is to say the language center and the voice box. The concern
of the Adjuster is that nothing interfere with the sanctity of the free will of
the mortal I am engaging. (Pause) What else? (Pause)
Then let us be on our way. See you next week.</FONT></P>
<P><B><FONT face="Times New Roman">Group</FONT></B><FONT
face="Times New Roman">: Thank you. All. </FONT></P></BODY></HTML>