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<P>DATE: </B>September 17, 1996<BR><B>LOCATION:</B> Butler, PA,
USA<BR><B>T/R:</B> Gerdean</P><B>
<P>TEACHER SESSION:<BR>"If you cut your finger, it bleeds"</P>
<P>TOMAS:</B> Good evening, my friends. </P><B>
<P>Group:</B> Good evening.</P><B>
<P>TOMAS:</B> I have been basking in your presence and in the relaxed atmosphere
that prevails, and I credit this in part, to your atmospheric conditions. I
have, for your benefit, pictured you as beetles cuddled under the protection of
a toadstool and, for your amusement, I shall be the caterpillar on top.</P>
<P>Truly, the leisure that you allow, to spend in Stillness, is an invaluable
application, not really leisure at all but stalwart spirit work, for as you
remain alert to spirit leadings, as you set aside the trifles of the day to
focus on your Source, it brings you into that alignment which allows you to
reach into realms of mota.</P>
<P>I would like to address mota with you this evening, for a brief moment. Mota,
as you know, is that realm which encompasses the higher planes of intellectual
thought as bridging the spiritual realms of reality. You have examples of mota
listed in your text and we have seen and shared many delightful growing
experiences with myriad mortals as they have pondered the meaning of mota in
their own minds, how the mota are constructed in simple words yet having deeper
meanings, how often one part will balance the other, and so forth. These mota,
which have been given to you as examples of what your future learning will
entail, are exercises to delight the mind, stimulate the spirit and enhance your
soul growth.</P>
<P>It has been asked and answered recently (in another group) that the ascendant
sons and daughters on the mansion worlds are also given mota for mastication,
and it is not uncommon that they will there (on Mansonia) utilize axioms from
the human plane in order to make a point. I would like to present the one to you
that was presented to the other group that you might chew on this together for
your intellectual satisfaction and your spiritual amusement, that being, "If you
cut your finger, it bleeds."</P>
<P>Recently it was discussed among you in my presence that some of you had hurt
yourself in the course of your daily affairs and much discourse followed having
to do with why it was that the fall, the damage, the injury, the incident took
place, and I venture to suggest that it was this mota in effect, exemplified,
for if you cut your finger, it bleeds, and indeed it is you, often, who cut your
own finger.</P>
<P>I am not giving forth with a long lesson this evening and am not undertaking
yet another fruit of the spirit. I will reserve that format for the Pittsburgh
gathering, in-as-much as I started it there and will follow the established
format. I am willing to begin another format for you if you are inclined to that
end, but in the interim it pleases me greatly that you enjoy my companionship
for I certainly enjoy your companionship and look forward to many hours of
communion and joy and effort together.</P>
<P>Have any of you anything on your minds you would like to discuss or inquire
after?</P><B>
<P>Hunnah:</B> When I was younger, I used to voice for the group (and it got me
in trouble!). I was talking with a friend one time and my friend said, "I don't
have any questions." It's as if you can't hurry this trip, this awakening, and I
know that people in the group have questions but they don't know they have
questions. Is there a way that you can suggest that these things can be
dislodged? or are we stuck, so to speak?</P>
<P>I will say that I'm glad that Leah and Evangel came tonight because I know
they missed a session with you, and we're going to continue to meet here in my
home, and I don't want to have this just be a dialog between Hannah and whoever.
Is there a parallel project or study that we can take among ourselves here so
that we're not interfering with the other group's agenda?</P><B>
<P>TOMAS:</B> Indeed, which is what I suggested we discuss.</P><B>
<P>Hunnah:</B> Is there something you think would be appropriate? I'd like to
see -- how can we get "unstuck"? Melt down. (Laughter)</P><B>
<P>TOMAS:</B> It is not required that you jot off questions as if you were in a
classroom environment; I am not seeking that facet of your intellect. I am
seeking to address the soul's needs, and many times -- although the soul may
have a need to know, a need to be confirmed/affirmed, a need to feel connected,
a need to take one step further into their own path, a need to make a decision,
a need to dig deeper, and so forth -- the attached mortal is of an animal legacy
and the animal mind balks at being weaned from its own habit patterns, its own
comfort zones, and so it is always a bit of a conflict in a mortal, for the
status quo is comfortable.</P>
<P>Asking questions is a habit that must be developed in order for the soul's
questions to be answered. It is entirely possible for the soul to ask these
questions of and to the First Source and Center, the Father, and eventually
these questions will be answered. They will be answered in the morontia realms
of the mind even as they are being asked, and so the mortal has little need to
expose its growing process in such a format as we present here with the teacher
and so forth.</P>
<P>Growing is a private thing, and some individuals take pride in being
self-sufficient and dignified, not realizing that in sharing their growth they
are sharing true growth among their brethren, that others may grow along with
them. And so the task would be for each student to realize that his own growth
or her own growth is not an isolated growth, but a facet of the growth of the
whole, of everyone.</P>
<P>Those who do voice their questions are an asset to any configuration of
individuals for it allows for sharing. It is true, however, that the depth of
character in questions asked are sometimes glossed over for the more socially
acceptable format of merely filling up space. We can fill up space for hours but
have we grown? Have we truly nourished the soul in its growth needs?</P>
<P><B>Hunnah:</B> Thank you.</P><B>
<P>Evangel:</B> I'd like to get back to that cut finger a little
bit.<BR><B>TOMAS:</B> Yes, Evangel.</P><B>
<P>Evangel:</B> Are you familiar with the sequel to the "Celestine Prophesy,"
the "Tenth Insight"?</P><B>
<P>TOMAS:</B> I have heard it referenced. This mortal [the T/R] has not read it;
therefore, I cannot draw upon her file.</P><B>
<P>Evangel:</B> Okay. Well, anyway, in there there's a character -- one's a
doctor and one's a guy that falls on some rocks and hurts his ankle, and she's
suggesting we hurt ourselves or get sick ... The way I interpret this is, it's
like our ego trying to sabotage our spiritual make-up. Is this like what you're
talking about?</P><B>
<P>TOMAS:</B> Yes, very much. It ties in very well with my discussion earlier
and also with what I was telling Hunnah here, in response to her question, and
so yes it is a good bridge and indeed it does resonate to the mota, "If you cut
your finger, you bleed" for often in the primitive realms we blame the gods for
these accidents that we inflict upon ourselves for we do not want to assume the
responsibility of our own experience.</P><B>
<P>Hunnah:</B> I appreciate your asking that question because -- what you're
saying then, the accident acts like a decoy? to pull you back away from your
higher purpose and ties you up with attention to the problem and it gets
attention? "Oh, they broke their ankle," and everybody gathers around and you
get a lot of attention and the subject changes, and isn't it really how you use
the incident that counts? That if you use the incident as a teaching mechanism
... I had a friend....</P><B>
<P>TOMAS:</B> Hunnah? <STRONG><BR></STRONG><B>Hunnah:</B> Yes?</P><B>
<P>TOMAS:</B> You have already put three helpings on my plate. (Group laughter)
I do not want to get indigestion.</P>
<P>It is true that many times mortals bring disaster or confusion upon
themselves and into their lives so that they can have attention, but it is more
often that they create this turmoil so that they do not have to focus on
<I>any</I>thing, for even focus is difficult. Some actually do not <I>want</I>
attention; they may hurt themselves and not tell anyone, but rather suffer in
silence. They still are bringing damage to themselves. This is not for attention
but for self-inflicted pain. This is an example of how confused your world is,
for to rise above pain and into clarity and light sets you apart from your
fellows. It allows you to stand alone and to one who is accustomed to being
comforted by misery, to stand alone can be frightening.</P><B>
<P>Hunnah:</B> It's ... It is a distraction, and if I can identify it as a
distraction, I feel I can manage it better. It's more personal to me. This
friend of mine who has psychic gifts told me to take care of my feet and that
very day I dropped a knife on my foot. I thought it was rather funny and just
that one incident and then after that I was having trouble with my feet, but I
don't know that it's actually necessary to analyze a particular part. We have
labels here for almost everything. We think we know it all.</P><B>
<P>Leah:</B> Actually, I'd like to address that. There is a woman that some of
us are familiar with. Her name is Louise Hay and she's written "Heal Yourself"
(indistinguishable) and she is, I believe, a psychologist or a psychiatrist I'm
not sure which, but she did --somehow or other she came upon -- that the clients
she was dealing with, when they had a complaint, the ones that had similar
complaints had similar ailments. Like people who seemed to be full of anger had
heart conditions and I'm not saying this is all gospel or anything but she did
research. It was rather vast, the research. Of course, I've taken statistics,
too, and I know you can manipulate things ... and she strikes me as being a very
sincere-hearted kind and caring person who would like to help people.</P>
<P>So I suffered from the ear infection on my recent vacation and there is a
part of me that's asking, you know, probably on the material level, based on
this information, -- and again, I'm not saying it's gospel but I think it's
useful -- what is the ear infection ... Basically her sentence is that I'm not
willing to hear. And when I do look at the transcripts I keep on thinking, I
really do understand a lot of things that are said to other people, but I can't
hear my own stuff. It's probably because I don't want to. I'm sure it has to do
with the finger bleeding, because I'm sitting here saying, "What is this all
about?" and I know at some level I know it.</P>
<P>But it's interesting to hear yourself voice something. I'm too busy analyzing
things to hear it! And I'm glad that there is a comfort level there for myself
that Tomas has addressed that you know we get into a so-called meeting and you
get in a question answer period and this feels more like a friendly
conversation.</P><B>
<P>Hunnah:</B> Counsel.</P><B>
<P>Leah:</B> Or like inviting your friend over and talking about these things as
opposed to, "Well, you're the authority, you give us the answer," and I know
that's not really the way that it is. It's more like, "You are the more
experienced; what can you tell us?" So I'm just running my mouth here.</P><B>
<P>Hunnah:</B> No.</P><B>
<P>Leah:</B> I was just wondering if you were familiar with the Louise Hay
material and if you have any comments about it.</P><B>
<P>TOMAS:</B> I'm not familiar with the name of the individual but I am somewhat
familiar with the nature of her research and am inclined to find merit in her
hypothesis for it is often true that the physical distress is a manifestation of
an emotional disturbance.</P>
<P>The emotional disturbance is brought about as a result of your thought
processes, and your thought processes are often in contradistinction to your
spirit strivings and your spirit nature; therefore, the organism of the human
being is confused, is twisted, is acting in several directions at once. Without
grace and harmony resultant from an integrated personality, it is easy to fall
and hurt oneself, which is not to say that the individual consciously brought it
on, but it is a result of the imbalance inherent in unfinished growth.</P>
<P>In the case of the ear, if one were to assume that theory, it would be
evident that your refusal to listen to something resulted in a weakening of the
instrument of hearing. Review not in your mind but in your mota, in your
morontial realms, what it is you are refusing to hear, for the mind is tricky
and, as has been said, "man can rationalize anything." You can justify your
thoughts ad infinitum, but that is not reaching a conclusion that is harmonious
with the spirit.</P>
<P>When you include the Spirit of Truth, for example, in your musings, you will
allow yourself to hear that which you need to hear, and you will begin then, in
grace, to follow the leadings of the still, quiet voice. Many times when
individuals think of hearing, they think of hearing from the outside world. They
think of the radio and other people's voices when what is called "hearing" stems
from your core being yearning for the music of the universes, the cosmic
choir.</P><B>
<P>Hunnah:</B> That sounds very inviting, 'the cosmic choir.'</P><B>
<P>Leah:</B> I want to make two comments before I forget them. It's also
interesting about athlete's foot, and I had some in Hawaii there, it's a
"refusal to go forward." (Laughter) Again, I'm not taking this as gospel, but I
think there's a message there.</P>
<P>I would like to ask also, you were referring to morontia mota. I feel I must
have been missing a part, even though I've read it in the Book and I've
discussed it in some groups, I was under the impression that that was something
that we didn't deal with until we were not on this earthly level. Am I incorrect
on that?</P><B>
<P>TOMAS:</B> It is entirely possible for you to be well-versed in morontia
mota, even as you are a mortal in the flesh, if you are aspiring to advance
yourself in the kingdom. It was true even before the inception of Correcting
Time that wise spirit-led beings walked well in advance of their siblings
because of their devotion to spirit reality.</P>
<P>It is very much like those who anticipate the kingdom of heaven and
continually put it off to some distant, looked-for, time in the future, when the
truth remains that the kingdom of heaven is within you and is alive now. Why
should you put off to morontia what you can do today? These are realities that
embrace you and enhance your life and the life of others. Stride forward into
these wondrous realms and grow. Grow!</P><B>
<P>Hunnah:</B> May I comment about your talking about Louise Hay? I haven't read
her books but I am aware of the fact that she is helping people seek balance in
their physicality, in their emotional and physical focus, and that sometimes we
develop symptoms simply because the pH of our humanness is out of whack. And
when we manage to hydrate our self and eat properly, things fall back in order
and we get less colds and our body doesn't give us the trouble it might
otherwise, and our whole society is extremely sensitive to the needs of the body
right now, whether it is a positive or a negative reason. But that helps me to
not have to just relate everything as mental definitions of, "I am sore because
I am not meditating. I have a sore throat because I am not taking care of myself
better." Or something like that.</P>
<P>It's like we're living on so many levels at once and we're in and out of them
like flies! We shoot from one high and up and down and it really is a busy
time.</P><B>
<P>TOMAS:</B> I am reminded of your Rodan of Alexandria who spoke about the art
of living and, paraphrased, that if man is so ingenious he must learn anew the
art of living, perhaps even each new generation, in order to keep up with the
many growth activities of an accelerated, activated race of people. Your realm
now is a true whirligig of technological advancement, and speedy in so many
ways. It is no wonder that it is necessary for you to consciously stop and let
the world go by while you get a grip on yourself.</P>
<P>It would be ludicrous to try to keep up with everything that is going on
around you in this whirligig. Thus the value of stillness, and in stillness, it
behooves you to check out all of your systems, your spiritual center, your
intellectual poise, your emotional well-being and your physical mechanism to
ascertain that it is in good working order, that all systems are interrelated,
that your own mechanism is in good operation.</P>
<P>It is true that many things can simply be a matter of pH balance, and that
can be easily remedied, but in the deeper recesses of the -- [Interrupted by
telephone]. You can ascertain that it is a matter of deficiency in one realm,
but as you are complex people in a complex world, it is truly advantageous to
spend time in stillness and to be patient with yourself if you discover that
those whose pH is out of balance is connected to an emotional condition
resultant from twisted thinking which can then be made operable by communion
with the spirit, and so forth. Balance is the answer.</P><B>
<P>Hunnah:</B> I find that an on-going challenge for me is to mind my business.
And that if I tolerate myself, I can tolerate other people's agonies and
ecstasies more effectively. It's almost like a parental thing; it's almost like
being obsessed with your children's welfare and even though they're out of your
life (I mean your immediate home), you're still extended into their life and
you're caught up into the judgments of how they do things. And that goes on in
all these directions. Constantly! It is such a challenge for me.</P>
<P><B>TOMAS:</B> Let me address that. <STRONG><BR></STRONG><B>Hunnah:</B>
Okay.</P><B>
<P>TOMAS:</B> This is societal conditioning, Hunnah. It has nothing to do any
longer with maternal instinct, which was biologically completed many years ago.
It is true that parents care for their children and even their grandchildren,
but an inordinate interest in the lives of your children, whether they are your
biological children, your social children, or your spiritual children, is a
matter of your thought processes. Proceed.</P><B>
<P>Hunnah:</B> Well, as you talk, I have been reminded I have been up and down
with this and I use this as an example, but I found that when I have allowed
myself to be faithful to my quiet times, all of this is lessened. It's like
turning down the volume on the distraction, and it's like an 'effortless
effort.'</P><B>
<P>TOMAS:</B> It is also a common method that mortals employ to make themselves
feel good, and that is to be in a position to oversee the care of others, for as
long as you are taking care of someone else, you are, in the main, okay. It is a
way of feeling superior. It is a way of detaching yourself from your own sense
of neediness. It is another dose of conditioning but one which you have brought
upon yourself through needing to be needed, and you first must need the Father
to know how it is that He needs you and then He will advise you how you may
serve in balance.</P>
<P>When you take your instincts and your humanness into the arena and, coupled
with your love want to make it all better, you have made it much worse --
particularly for yourself, for you have given yourself burdens that are not
required of you. You have also muddled in the affairs of others by assuring the
hapless lads and ladies that you have more authority and influence than is your
right to have and, lo and behold, they will look to you for it, thereby
underlining your original error.</P>
<P>It is, therefore, wise to return frequently to that place of communion with
divinity that your motives, your conditionings, your urges and impulses and so
forth are constantly reminded, delineated and synthesized, that you may walk a
simple path and live a simple life in joy, in praise and in simple service to
your simple brothers and sisters.</P><B>
<P>Hunnah:</B> I can't see it, but my head's been nodding up and down as you
talk. I really appreciate this. This is great. Well, that's one more thing that
I wanted to mention. Avoiding your own agenda. And as I reflect, my whole life
has been this, and whether it's been a subconscious human reason for attention,
like you point out, it certainly is a common enough situation, but it's
difficult --once you start to find out that you're allowed to nurture yourself
-- is to break away and allow yourself private spaces. You find it's harder to
do because you've obligated yourself, you're going to lose face because you want
to start gracefully backing up.</P><B>
<P>TOMAS:</B> Face by whom?</P><B>
<P>Hunnah:</B> Oh, that's just a figure of speech. Your friends think something
is wrong with you.</P><B>
<P>TOMAS:</B> I understand. I wanted to make sure that you understood that you
may be giving people more power than they require.</P><B>
<P>Hunnah:</B> Well, one of the things I've found when I've got my act together
is that by acknowledging their, what I call their 'Christ-hood' and that they
have the ability to do certain aspects that I was previously interfering with,
and that when we honor the Christ of them, it allows them some freedom from
their ... I'm sounding mixed up but in my heart I know what I mean. When you
know that somebody has abilities because they are the perfect creation and
you're redefining them...</P>
<P>I have redefined the people in my life and in my society now, because I have
a new view on what they're about, and it's just a whole new picture, and being
the victim is the perfect ... is being amplified now as to being this crisis.
It's important to let people know they don't have to be a victim.</P><B>
<P>Leah:</B> Are you saying . . .?</P><B>
<P>Hunnah:</B> I'm saying you have a choice all the time. Let's use a homeless
person as an example. A homeless person can be one level ... We were talking
about the law of cause and effect, or karma. You can look at them from that
point of view. You can look at them as being there to bring out the qualities of
service in society, so that they will reach out to someone else other than their
own needs. And good works come from helping people along the way. Taking off the
label. Am I blabbing here?</P>
<P><B>TOMAS:</B> I would not say you were blabbing.
<STRONG><BR></STRONG><B>Hunnah:</B> I don't want to get far afield.</P><B>
<P>TOMAS:</B> I understand that you have somewhat of a philosophy regarding
victimization and a distinct distaste for the common usage and the common
emotional neediness of alleged victims, many of whom you feel are not true
victims but rather victims of being victimized.</P>
<P>Let me state, not in defense of victims, but in reference to that word, that
truly Urantia has been a victim of many injustices, that it is part of your
historicity, and so victimization is an illness which is being healed. Part of
the healing of the victimization of Urantia and its inhabitants is in being
"empowered," for in being empowered, something can be done to turn the tide
wherein they are victims no more but active participants in their own
celebratory destiny. </P>
<P>This is being brought to light in this Correcting Time of which we have
spoken. It is being manifested in every level of your society and in every facet
of life. It is a natural healing globally that will go on still for some time.
It is not necessary that you stay in the global mode, for as you are a
forerunner and as you are in the mind frame to approach morontia mota, you are
thus enabled to help bring the empowered and the healed forward into the more
holy realms of behavior, thinking, acting, responding, loving, enfolding, and so
forth that is the birthright of the true sons and daughters of the living
God.</P><B>
<P>Hunnah:</B> I like the way you talk.</P><B>
<P>Leah:</B> Something that comes to mind, because you spoke of the homeless, in
the Urantia Book it talks about the time Jesus spoke with the apostles, and
there was a man that, he more or less told them that, he couldn't be dealt with.
I don't know. Just because you brought up that homeless thing, it made me think
of it. I wish I had a question that I could formulate! I just keep thinking
about all these things!</P><B>
<P>Evangel:</B> You talking about the guy that didn't have a Monitor? Is that
what you're talking about?</P><B>
<P>Leah:</B> I don't even know what I'm talking about, but we started talking
about the homeless people and all of a sudden that came into my mind; and I was
wondering, like, I was listening to Tomas say that you bring the empowered to
healed and .... It feels unchristian not ... to give it up!</P><B>
<P>Hunnah:</B> When you come from a background of Christian service, it can
really do a number on you! And you, Leah, are so empathetic! I feel your pain.
But you are so sensitive to people's feelings and their needs, that it puts you
in a place of frequent pain that you do not really need to carry, because you've
allowed yourself to be so sensitive. And I mention that because I see you suffer
a lot. You extend yourself with so much empathy and love ... (Leah sobs) Whoops!
There, I've pushed a button. Which may be good. I don't know. But it's not a
question that you need to become tough, but that the burden tearing at you be
allowed to dissolve.</P><B>
<P>TOMAS:</B> Remember, too, that Michael was always compassionate, that he
never became jaded or hardened by the suffering he saw. He always allowed
himself that feeling of compassion for his children. He felt deeply and he
suffered on behalf of his children. (I am not speaking of his crucifixion; I am
speaking of his daily life.) Remember that he would weep with compassionate pity
on those who were blind.</P>
<P>Do not berate our sister. Do not berate yourself, Leah, for your wellspring
of feelings, but permit the expression of your sorrow on behalf of your brothers
and sisters. Do not feel you must defend the societal stance that they have
brought their suffering on by themselves, for no matter how suffering has come
to be, suffering is suffering none-the-less and instills compassion in a soul
with love at its core.</P>
<P>It is in remembering the resurrection, in the knowledge of spiritual
empowerment, it is in undying hope that we manage to prevail in the face of the
heartless suffering which Urantia has experienced, and experiences even today.
It is true that you who know the joy of the Father find this comfort and light
so appealing, that it is difficult then to return your eye and your ear to the
ugliness and crying of misery, but it is a calling for many to soothe those
physical and emotional wounds, to dress those gaping holes and caress those
tortured souls with divine love and tender mercy.</P><B>
<P>Leah:</B> I'm listening and I'm torn between what you're saying and what was
said before about when we help someone -- at the beginning of this discourse --
we just make people more miserable, and ... I guess the answer is the silence to
receive direction.</P><B>
<P>TOMAS:</B> Are you going to win points for an organization or for your fellow
man? or are you going to serve? It is a matter of what master you serve, what
kingdom you support. The kingdoms of men permeate the lives of many if not all
of my students and has tremendous hold over them. I am not putting down these
values for they are the hallmark of civilization: the home, the church, the
workplace, and all that is noble and good in an evolving civilization. For them
to serve in their arena is good. For those who feel the call to go beyond the
traditional, to go into the mayhem, muck and mire of the poor and maimed is also
good.</P>
<P>In order to serve in either arena, however, it is necessary that you have
your self well prepared for the work at hand. In order for you to not become
lost in the ills of those you serve, you must have the strength and stamina of a
soldier and you become a soldier by knowing yourself. Knowing yourself, your
capacities, your strengths, your weaknesses, it is then possible for you to
ascertain your capacity to serve in whatever realm or arena that you feel drawn
to serve. We need more workers in the field. Always pray for more workers in the
field. Whether it be the pastoral field of wheat and corn next door or the field
of mud and rotten potatoes downwind, we need more workers in the field.</P><B>
<P>Hunnah:</B> You've given us a lot to think about. I have to write down these
questions that act like mushrooms here, because as you do talk, many things come
to mind and Gerdean's been very patient. It's like opening a whole new area. Let
me tell you about a quick example here.</P>
<P>I had an experience on my job where I went out to see somebody who was
cardiac, they had diabetes, and they had all these other list of problems
underneath. The chart opened up like a book and on the left was all the
diagnosis and all the problems. On the right was all the notes from the nurses.
This was years ago. And I looked at it one day. I looked at all those diagnosis
and I said, "There is nothing I can do about all this," and I closed the chart
and I resigned from being a nurse and I decided that all I would do when I went
to work was I would be myself, and I would go and I would be with people, and
that would be my easy burden, and whenever my job would get me down, it would
because I would think I was responsible for removing all the spots that this
person was living with, that they had been living with emphysema for many years.
I can't do anything about that.</P>
<P>But I could bring the light in me from that morning's time, into my day and
because I knew that person was a child of God, in some way, unbeknownst to me,
there would be a moment of quiet recognition and it would be a gift like a live
ember. Now I can't say that every day I go out it's some great victory, but that
experience I had, when it said to me, "I cannot do anything about this. This is
a human problem." But I put my new enlightened attitude toward it and what it
was, it inadvertently was a gift to myself, and it...</P>
<P>And there's a book Joel ... it's like you don't do it. You awaken to the fact
that you give up that role you've been playing, and see it from new perspective.
And I've been very, very grateful for that. That's been like a lifeline for me.
And I've looked back at various times in my life and I was surprised that I was
able to pull it together tonight for this discussion. Thank you.</P><B>
<P>TOMAS:</B> Thank you for your testimony that in walking into the arena as a
child of God and in spreading your light by being, you have indeed brought your
own God-consciousness to the hungry. I will close the session with a mota: "Life
is but a day's work; do it well." Good evening, and farewell, my little
beetles.</P><FONT size=2>
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