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<P>DATE:</B> August 19, 1997<BR><B>LOCATION:</B> Butler, PA, USA<BR><B>T/Rs:</B>
Gerdean [for Tomas] and Hunnah [for Merium] </P><B>
<P>TEACHER SESSION: Emotional Excitement</P>
<P>TOMAS:</B> Good evening.<BR><B>Group:</B> Good evening.</P><B>
<P>TOMAS:</B> I feel like the cameraman on our script for the evening.
"Rolling!" Is that a phrase they use in cinematography? Our film this evening
continues. This outpouring of celebration in fantasy and reality has been
entertaining. Your tastes run the gamut. Indeed, when you are in the mansion
worlds you will thrill to the epoch pageantry put on by the Celestial Artisans,
depicting the evolution of worlds of time and space, and historic events in the
development of God-consciousness, as well as testimonials to the wondrous works
of the Creator, done by his many creators. You, indeed, are creators. You create
not only your environment but the environment for others.</P>
<P>I would like to speak briefly this evening regarding emotional excitement.
You are emotional creatures and emotions speak to you. You easily identify
emotions and live, in large part, in the emotional realms. The lure and
fascination of your entire entertainment industry, in fact, is based on emotion.
The suspense of the plot, the intrigue of the entanglements, the paradoxes of
the point of the movie, the romantic tie-in between the hero and the heroine,
the scintillation of the sensual aspects of the moviegoer, all these are
emotional conveyances of feeling and value designed to stimulate you and keep
you coming back for more.</P>
<P>When you feel that, in the resolution, the emotional satisfaction of the
play, the theater, the orchestration, the pageant, has been met, you are
contented and satisfied and ready to come home, having confirmed for yourself
that your money was well spent for the ticket.</P>
<P>These ministrations of the imagination have entertained and profited you
throughout your evolution. </P>
<P>I go back that far because in your zoo today you can well identify and
appreciate how much you enjoy, still, the antics of the monkeys and without
question, your early ancestors entertained each other by their antics and
dances. Even though they endured great hardship in survival, they understood to
some extent the value of emotion and of ego.</P>
<P>That remark would reveal that the emotions are a playground for the ego. This
is true. And, this is not necessarily negative, for your ego is your identity
and it is part of the value of entertainment that you identify with the players
in order that you can have the emotional conveyances that will result in a
culminating emotional experience.</P>
<P>And so the emotional realms have great value for the evolving being and will
continue to present delight and satisfaction even into your morontial realms,
but in terms of ministry in the spirit and in relationship with spirit, emotions
are a second-best experience.</P>
<P>You spoke last week regarding Jesus' having visited and spoken with you, and
after our session was closed, you marveled that when He came by or that when you
had seen Him, you did not fall to your knees in exaltation or become beside
yourself in some way, and this is because a spiritual experience is not an
emotional experience. But you have an understanding that your life is almost
entirely emotional, having been emotional creatures all this time.</P>
<P>There is an admonition, an instruction, in the text that suggests that when
you appeal to the Thought Adjuster in your associates you appeal to the highest
nature and that to appeal to the emotional nature is misleading and short-lived.
Indeed, as you seek to plant seeds, it is better to plant your seed in the soil
of the spirit than in the soil of the emotions which is like a soil which is not
fertile, does not have the nourishment that will take the seed and allow it to
take root.</P>
<P>All of you have testified to an emotional experience this evening in your
personal sharing and clearly the emotional experience is of value, but it is
different than a spiritual experience. As you advance and understand how it is
that you can have mastery over your emotional systems, you will be calmer and
freer to engage in those emotions which are satisfying, while you deny those
emotions which are unproductive and which create a less than ideal environment
for yourself and for others. </P>
<P>Merium?</P><B>
<P>MERIUM:</B> Merium is here. So you were all out gathering and experiencing
berry- picking experiences, filling your pockets with new observations of how
you relate, gathering appreciations and sensitivities of how others are
burdened, wondering what your proper response should be. It is difficult to let
people "cook in their own juice" you might say. They have their own bath going
and you have to stand on the side-lines with a towel when they're ready to get
out of the rolling waters.</P>
<P>Being an observer is an art form. Not standing back, but being appreciative
of what goes on and allowing yourself a sense of impersonalization. When you
have this impersonalization activity, it is, as a rule, without judgment. You
are just simply watching what's going on, and if you have been doing your
homework and maintaining your base of operations of your relating to your new
reality, then it allows you to get very close to these situations without being
drawn into them.</P>
<P>You may be amused but not in a state of hilarity. You may feel sad but you
may not be drained. You may be asking why with empathy but you will not find
yourself entering the scenario of the individual with whom you are keeping
company. You are objective. Tenderly objective. And it is a rollicking,
frolicking affair! You will move in close and enjoy the essence of joy but you
will not be overwhelmed by it. You are living with different equipment, you
might say.</P>
<P>I don't bring this in to disappoint you, because it is wonderful to be able
to try on the emotions of the star of the show, to feel the threat, to feel joy,
to feel passion, but there is an objectivity and an awareness that, once you
develop it, it does not leave you. You will <I>know</I> that you are 'watching
television'. It isn't really real. And yet, in the same, you will connect with
it.</P>
<P>We watch you in this fever bag of activity that you have. Have you ever
stepped back and looked at the variety of emotions that you put yourself through
in the course of one day or perhaps a morning? It is quite an activity. It's as
if you were playing the full scale of the piano all the time, ignoring the
melody, but touching every key whether it's necessary or not. In order to allow
yourself to truly appreciate the form of the music, you have to pull back a
little bit so that there are areas of yourself that are not unnecessarily
disturbing the main theme. </P>
<P>I am chattering this evening about emotions and the varying degrees of your
ownership to them or toward them, and it might sound frivolous to you. Yes,
indeed, you are living in a human condition. That human format has been
conditioned as sensitive neurological make-up, but you are to become the master
of it and the beholder of situations around you.</P>
<P>It is your harp and you will learn to play it well. This is the harp of the
divine creation, and I simply want to lead you into a new view of what's going
on around you, of being in the world but not of it, and knowing when you are
involved in the highest way, with the true joy, that it feels really right, and
once you have tasted this wine and danced to this tune, it makes the lesser look
shallow or look unreal to you and you will not as enamored with it.</P>
<P>I was wondering where I was going to be able to inject a comment this evening
with Tomas' bringing your attention to all the variations of your emotional
overtones that you experience. I hope that in some way this talk will be in your
pocket and, as you venture out into your experiences, that you will be able to
be a beholder and yet not feel yourself separate, but just having a slightly
different view. Thank you.</P><B>
<P>Group:</B> Thank you, Merium. </P><B>
<P>TOMAS:</B> Are there questions?</P><B>
<P>Leah:</B> I was wondering if we could discuss -- I know it's been done
before, but -- a little bit between feelings and emotions, and you know on page
1218 or 1219, it talks about quality being felt. The registration of quality is
felt, so, as Merium was talking about a feeling of tightness, could you just
talk about that a little bit?</P><B>
<P>TOMAS:</B> I will begin. I have discussed emotion to some extent this
evening, and so I will address feeling. Feeling is that which is yours, based
upon your spirit reality. When you feel sad, for example, you feel the sadness
that the angels feel when they see you stubbornly refusing their aid. When you
feel happy, for example, you feel joy because of love in some form or other --
spirit/love-based relationship, based in love. A feeling is a personal thing,
unto yourself. An emotion is active.</P>
<P>Think of e-motion as motion, for when you feel angry and you lash out, your
lashing out is in the realm of emotion. If you were to feel jealousy, you are
feeling an emotion. It is not truly a feeling except as you understand you are
not getting the feeling you want, the security that you desire, and yet it is
precisely because it is not attuned to the First Source and Center, which is
completely open, loving, giving, non-claiming, non-constricting.</P>
<P>Anger is a human emotion. God does not get angry. You can feel anger, but it
is a human feeling. When you act on it, it becomes an emotional outpouring. We
can pick this apart. </P>
<P>Merium?</P><B>
<P>HUNNAH:</B> Before Merium speaks, I would like to make a comment. This is
Hunnah. One of the observations that I have made regarding these many months
that I have been in Urantia, I have found myself less than enamored by "human
behavior" and it has not been a conscious thing, it's been sort of one of those
"I don't want to get involved." If I were to be involved, I'd want to climb up
on a bank of grass where I could see, have a better view, and I'd want to stay
there. I wouldn't want to come down for any reason, other than a valid reason,
and I feel that way with a lot of the things that have gone on in my human
connections.</P>
<P>I do feel personal toward them, so I decided that the reason this was going
on was because I was becoming accustomed to a new reality and I had a new
measurement, and having you talk about emotions and feelings is very appropriate
in identifying my behavior because it does not mean that I do not feel, it's
that I do not want to be drained, for want of a word, for some of the behavior
that is no longer something that I want anymore.</P>
<P>If I feel love or silly or want to be playful, that is one thing, but I don't
relate or react to things the way I did, and this all fits in with getting in
other people's stuff. I find that I want to be there for them, but I don't want
to get in the water with them, so to speak.</P>
<P>I hope I'm not pulling you away from your subject, but I guess it is rather
timely because it even connected with a conversation I had prior to coming here
this evening about my friend's observations about a new relationship and how
much time and effort he had taken, through prayer, to appreciate that
relationship and wanting it to work, so ....</P>
<P>You mentioned getting angry. I find that when you're up on that new level,
where you like it, you don't get angry. It takes a lot of pulling at you before
anger even comes near. I guess I wanted to get it off my chest that you seemed
to stir that observation that I had been awakening and that I was holding. I
appreciate it.</P><B>
<P>Leah:</B> May I say something, too? I'm wondering, what do you do with a
feeling if it's not let out emotionally? If you have a happy feeling, you want
to laugh. That FEELS like a positive emotion, but if you get anger ... I guess I
have to judge myself now, but I try to pray that I find some other thing to
focus on. I used to deny the anger, but I don't do that anymore.</P><B>
<P>TOMAS:</B> Let me respond, for you are in the practice of the issue. It is
normal for you to feel, and your feelings are valid for they are speaking to you
of your understanding of your own experience here. If you do not want to feel
anger, you are better off, for then you can say, "I feel anger. I feel justified
in my anger. Let me sit with the Father and discuss my feeling of anger," rather
than, on the other hand, saying, "I have anger. I have a right to have anger,"
and then acting out your anger and harming others.</P>
<P>It is possible to have anger and use it effectively. If you have anger and
you have discussed with the Father your anger, you will have an unemotional
comprehension by way of His response to you that will clarify how it is that you
may convey to the situation that it was disturbing to you without an emotional
backlash. In other words, being aware of your feelings, even your joy, and
handling them in accordance with the Father's will for you, will generate an
effect from the Father rather than from your feeling and your emotional
base.</P><B>
<P>Hunnah:</B> May I comment again? </P><B>
<P>TOMAS:</B> Yes.</P><B>
<P>Hunnah:</B> The very fact that the word anger comes up is interesting to me
because I was thinking that if I ever get "mad" -- which is an emotion -- or
suspect that I'm angry, my first reaction to finding out that I feel anger is
wanting to re-identify it and saying that I'm probably disappointed. The
disappointment and the frustration of not having any control over a situation,
or disappointment in not being able to influence an individual to a more
developed or mature outlet. These are the things I think I deal with most:
disappointment that somebody can't handle themselves better or that I can't
handle myself better. Is that anger?</P>
<P>Some people have a greater history of enjoying and experiencing and
frequently being angry than some, and it has to do with how a person's brought
up, that you weren't allowed to get angry, or you didn't even think to describe
it as anger when you did get mad, and it's usually -- now it's related to
disappointment that things aren't going better.</P>
<P>Like our friend here described some disappointment in her gift, expecting her
conversation, she was just reminded of what really irked her. It's disappointing
to expect one thing and then to get something totally different. Or you get
impatient because there isn't any growth or change. </P>
<P>I've monopolized this conversation. I can't believe we're talking about
this!</P><B>
<P>TOMAS:</B> I will hold in reserve, then, a discourse on expectation, which is
a viable subject of study and reflection. You have testified to two things,
Hunnah, one of which is that in your cultural conditioning it is immature to
manifest anger or even have anger. It is a cultural conditioning that at least
says little girls don't get angry; it is "not proper." Even little boys are not
allowed to get angry, for it is socially unacceptable. This is absurd, for
children do get angry. They have tantrums. It is a normal part of childhood.</P>
<P>It is not a shame to have anger, even as an adult. The problem arises when
the anger is manifested blindly and causes harm to others. If you have an
emotion, any emotion, reflect that emotion back to your feeling and take stock
of the feeling that generates the emotion.</P>
<P>You have fairly effectively recalculated your response to life, for your
ability to elevate your response to certain situations from anger into
disappointment as a method of not lashing out in the moment of anger is an
effective discipline that you have undertaken behaviorally, but by the same
token, my dear, you subject yourself to more than your share of
disappointment.</P>
<P>It is not a crime to be angry, as compared to disappointment. Each of the
many, many emotions is a reality unto itself and has its own message, its own
learning instrument. If you are angry, recognize it. If you are lustful,
recognize it. If you are covetous, recognize it honestly and face it fearlessly
<I>before</I> you act out on it emotionally. I want to ask Leah if this is
responding to your inquiry.</P><B>
<P>Leah:</B> Yes, it's speaking to me quite a bit! I wasn't expecting to say
something to you right this second. There I go with my expectations.</P><B>
<P>TOMAS:</B> That is not the same thing. You are not wanting to be exposed at
that moment. That is different than an expectation. I will, however, return with
focus here to Hunnah and allow her to continue, or if another avenue is
appropriate, I am amenable.</P><B>
<P>Hunnah:</B> I wanted to add one more thing. When you said that culturally if
you're not to get angry, then one thing you're going to-- that I did when I was
young, literally, was cry. And obviously crying was my second choice. It was
just like ... a leaf blowing over with a least little breeze, and I know that
Leah, in the group, used to tear up quite a bit, and that would be my classic
recent history, that I would get teary.</P>
<P>Perhaps-- and no matter what emotion, if you take crying and just discipline
it … or lack of control or whatever analytical reason there would be, or anger …
the thing that I find most trying about the whole ordeal is how exhausting it
is, because these emotions had a price, and we don't have anybody speaking right
now that stuffs their feelings, but the crying was always my way of releasing
tension, and I was teased when I was young about being such a cry-baby, but that
was my escape valve.</P>
<P>You pointed out emotions versus feelings and it's like reaction and response,
that wonderful talk you gave us about reacting and responding, and it is, to me,
being elevated. You go from being angry, which is a reaction, and that is not a
response. What is the response then for anger, if...? Yeah, that's a reaction.
What is a response for anger?</P><B>
<P>TOMAS:</B> The response, always, is to take it to the Father and discuss it
with Him. Take all of your feelings to the Father. He is not going to deny you
access to Him because you come with an inappropriate feeling. If you are angry,
then come to Him, even if you must punch Him in the nose with your anger. He can
take it. And if you are patient, you can sit with Him and divulge the nature of
your anger, to the extent that you can by-pass the emotional aspects of it and
seek for the truth of the feeling - even to the ability, then, to either let it
go or to appropriately deal with it by way of ministry.</P>
<P>I want to point out that the thrust of understanding here is on negative
emotion and it is important to realize that positive emotions are also
exhausting. Even having a good time can be wearing, and so what is the adage?
Moderation in all things. Once you can attain that caliber of existence, you
have developed charm. "Action achieves strength; moderation eventuates in
charm."</P>
<P>Having a charming personality is beneficial, Godlike, peaceful, promoting of
good will, comprehension, communication, compassion, and so forth, as compared
to emotionally embroiling yourself in life's vicissitudes -- either your own or
other people's -- in order to keep up the addiction of emotional input. It is a
level of reality that is an unreality as compared to spirit reality.</P>
<P>Emotions can be the embroidery of a life. They can embellish your existence
infinitely, but without understanding what they are, without recognizing that
your feelings represent you in your relationship to yourself, therefore are a
door of understanding your relationship with God, they can rather be like a
grade B movie that you have paid too much for the ticket.</P>
<P>I did not intend to bring you down, my friends, by our discourse regarding
emotion. I indeed wanted to call to your attention only that emotional
excitement was not the same as a spiritual experience. That you are emotional
beings, however, with a grand emotional heritage is part of what you present to
the world, and as we teach, it behooves you to know who you are and how you
affect others by your very being.</P>
<P>As I said earlier and as Merium supported, allow yourself this week to
observe life as if you were watching television. Stand removed from life -- in
the spirit if you will, if you can -- so that you can see the panorama of
emotional behaviors that are enacted constantly in your world. One moment
observing a TV screen will quickly point out what emotions look like. You can
then see the emotions of those around you as they portray their own reality.</P>
<P>Elevate your portrayal of reality, my children, to be based in and for the
First Source and Center. It is an aspiration, of course, in-as-much as you are
human and you are and have emotional composition. I don't expect you to never
have another emotional reaction, but it is an interesting assignment, and you
will find you will have a great deal of freedom, spirit liberation.</P><B>
<P>MERIUM:</B> We are stretching, putting pressure in tender places this
evening, and as this is read in the form of a transcript, it may have some
healthy release because I want to remind you that as you are released of the
heaviness of the human experience, and the emotions that have burrowed into your
flesh and into your emotional fields, then it is a sign of not purging but of
letting go, and you will be frequently feeling like a leaking, sinking ship
because there will be poisons, painful things that you have, held and kept for
the wrong reasons even within your body and within your energy field, your
emotional sphere. Your light is dimmed by this emotional cobweb that adheres,
and as we talk about feelings and emotions, and as you allow yourself to
exercise this impersonal observation, you will be able to look at yourself and
see some of the places that are collapsing and you will watch them leave.</P>
<P>Hunnah was on the back porch today and brushed her cat. It had picked up
green sticky burrs from the bushes, some type of bush that he had passed by, and
he was not too pleased with having them on him nor did he want them to have to
be released, so as you travel in this light experience, you are going to find
that the grooming process is sometimes uncomfortable and that there are timely
releases. There are areas and there are memories that you are not consciously
aware that you are carrying with you, but you may be uncomfortable as they are
passing by. </P>
<P>And you don't even have to put a name on them. Maybe you are feeling this
discomfort of having these burrs being released from your emotional, your
physical being. Celebrate privately to yourself and say, "Oh, there goes some
more of that stuff that I don't need!" and know that in the grooming of your
quiet time that these . . . this gravel in your shoes is being released from you
so that you might be more comfortable.</P>
<P>We spoke to you of being stretched mentally. There is no part of you that is
being operated on in any particular way. When we say that you are being
stretched, we literally mean the all of you, not a little bit here and a little
bit there. We are not picking burrs. We are allowing you and helping you to
relax the tension in your being-ness, in your inner confinement. This is a
process of releasing, of loosening up the unreality that hinders and makes your
experience uncomfortable. We are not fitting you for rose-colored glasses, but
we are helping you to use what you have to see with new eyes because your field
of vision is going to be expanded. </P>
<P>Let me steal one more moment from Hunnah's experiences. She has had, over the
many years, a scenario where she has been on an elevated piece of land with
someone; there has been dialog; and over the years, the elevated place where she
has stood has been higher and higher and the perimeter of her view has been
greater. And in a sense this is what is happening to you. </P>
<P>As you are elevated, your whole countenance is altered, because the work that
you are going to be doing requires the release of the limitations that have held
you in what might seem an emotional bag to the liberated place of reason,
introspection and the willingness to allow a new definition, a new feeling. And
you will become honest and generous with yourself. You will consider your
well-being as if it was God standing with you discussing your destiny</P>
<P>In the past, your status has been in the community at a community level
comprehension with community values, but you have been lifted up. This is indeed
an ascension mode. You have been ... what you might want to call ... climbing a
hill. It is not really that, but these words and metaphors sometimes make you
more comfortable with the changes. You are maturing, and you are not going
through the pain of puberty; you are going through, just simply, into this
intimate service of the living Lord.</P>
<P>I hope that this surprise discussion this evening will help you all to feel
that you have taken a wonderful bubble bath and that you will be stepping out,
standing taller and shinier and much more comfortable with yourself and there
will be a playful appreciation with your friends. It is not heavy at all. It is
a lightening up. And I hope that you will be able to accept this lesson this
evening and that whoever reads it will say, "Oh, yeah! I like that idea very
much." </P>
<P>Only love would let you feel this cared for, this appreciated, and be in this
much confidence that we will be about the Father's business. Thank you,
Tomas.</P><B>
<P>TOMAS:</B> Thank you, Merium. Are there other questions? Ann, I understood
you were aligning yourself with "Doubting Thomas" and that you have some concern
about your faith.</P><B>
<P>Ann:</B> I don't have concern with my faith. My questions were always "Why?
Why are things the way they are? Why do they happen the way they do?" I accept
the things that happen, but I seem to want to delve in and see how they happen,
why they happen.</P><B>
<P>TOMAS:</B> You are a child, indeed. You are being brought up anew. It is well
known, in the mortal realms, that when a mortal child attains the age of 4 or 5
or 6 or so, they become a mass of questions and want to know "Why? Why? Why so
many leaves are on that tree? How many colors are in that coat?" and so forth.
This is a part of the investigations of the new creature. </P>
<P>In some ways you, too, are a new creature. You are becoming new. And that you
are eager to know, to find out, to question, is a very healthy response. Your
desire to know why things work and how things work is not to be disdained. You
are in a phase of eagerness to comprehend.</P>
<P>Your understanding of comprehension is, of course, emotional and
intellectual. The things of the spirit, however, are morontial and not merely
emotional or intellectual. They ascend to another dimension, if you will, and
although it is very real, it is also very curiosity-inducing, very
question-invoking. It is not unnatural to want to know why, and surely you will
learn.</P>
<P>There are certain laws of the universe and you are essentially wondering what
they are and why are we barred from something here while the field is wide open
there. What sense does it make? Perhaps none at all, but sense is not
necessarily the lure of eternity. In time it will make sense, but it will make
sense in your higher mind, not in the mind that you have known as a
materialist.</P>
<P>You will discover truths as you remain open and eager to receive answers,
meaningful answers that resonate not only in your mind but in your very being,
that This is the Way. It is this way because it IS, and you will know this
reality, this fundamental reality, in parts of you that are yet being
developed.</P>
<P>As you ask questions of the cosmos, the cosmos answers, a little bit at a
time, a lesson at a time. They are given certain names for your mortal
comprehension such as the Law of Cause & Effect, the Laws of Abundance, and
so forth, and these may not coincide with the laws and understandings [of
mammon], but they are real none-the-less.</P>
<P>And so your asking many questions is an indication of your new appreciation
of a greater reality and your hunger to know where, in all this vast knowledge
and experience, do you fit and how does it make sense to you. Fear not your
adventures, little one. You are given a wondrous playground in which to
learn.</P><B>
<P>Ann:</B> Thank you very much, Tomas.</P><B>
<P>TOMAS:</B> You are more than welcome, my child. I wonder do you feel that my
response has somehow put your mind, or a part of your mind, at ease.</P><B>
<P>Ann: </B>Yes, it has.</P><B>
<P>TOMAS:</B> I am glad to hear you acknowledge your growing comprehension of
divine reality.</P>
<P>We will be having more lessons soon. Our season will be disrupted for
holiday. Much like your schools here, you take a few days off for Christmas. We
will take a few days off to celebrate the birth and life of the Master. And so
perhaps in keeping with your tradition, I should wish you all a very merry
Christmas.</P><B>
<P>Group:</B> Merry Christmas to you, too. Thank you. </P><B>
<P>TOMAS:</B> Are we concluded? Or are there other matters?</P><B>
<P>MERIUM:</B> I am still full of energy, and I was just wondering what to do
about it, but there is a statement I would like to make, that I have this
impression, that in the future, when you are talking with friends, that you will
be introducing new concepts to them in your everyday conversation, and you will
help them to identify feelings or emotions, responses or reactions -- not in a
sense of correcting them, but in a light, inner, golden dialog.</P>
<P>The concepts that you have received in the framework of these gatherings will
be shared with those who do not appear to be students. Your classroom is the
world. It is the everyday group. It is the casual exchange. And as you continue
to remain focused, you will be appropriately about the Father's business, and
occasionally you will hear someone say to you, "Who told you so?"</P>
<P>There is a friend of ours who wrote a book called "The Thunder of Silence"
and when this person bought this book she read this line that indicated, "Who
told you so? Man or God?" That is a little goodie to keep with you. Who told you
so? Man or God? You can use that measure for your own moments of pondering. When
someone presents you with a challenge, you will be able to get your yardstick
out and say, "Where did they get their information? I will take it to my Source
and my authority to have it redefined."</P><B>
<P>Gerdean:</B> I have a question, Merium. What would you say about the human
concern that if I am not steeped in the emotional energies that are common to my
fellow men, then am I not going to appear "stupid, boring and glum" and/or am I
not going to be wafting around in this-- not saintly state, certainly, but in
such an aura of containment, that I'll make people … <I>we'll</I> make people
uncomfortable? Does that make sense?</P><B>
<P>MERIUM:</B> You amuse me. Excuse me for saying this. I love the dramatic
overtones of the human condition. Who do you want to impress? Who is keeping
score? Are you in fear of human judgment? If you are yourself, you will be
appropriate. You will not even have to try to "be yourself" you just simply will
be. And when you are in this best place, wear your most appropriate attire, of
course, in personality form; you will hear yourself speak and that will be the
clue.</P>
<P>You will know that you are wearing Cinderella's slipper and that you are
appropriately attired, and the more time you spend in this "scary disguise," the
more comfortable you will be, and you will not miss the tatters of yesterday's
clothing and conversation and you will not draw to you people who will insist
that you wear your old garb of talk in the old form.</P>
<P>There cannot be two. Why would you want two? One is enough to keep track of.
You are new in Christ. You do not ever have to put on those old comfortable
clothes of yesterday's behaviors and values. You don't have to worry, but when
clothes don't fit you anymore, it is time to get rid of them.</P><B>
<P>Gerdean:</B> Won't I be lonely?</P><B>
<P>HUNNAH:</B> No. When you are fulfilled with the spirit you are not lonely,
but you will feel, at times, that you have been taken apart. There is not a me
and a you, there is only the fulfillment of satisfaction of your true nature,
and that flexibility will allow you to travel the old path but perhaps not
linger in certain situations. </P>
<P>There are people who do not want to grow, and you will probably be seeing
less of them. There are people who are in partial readiness who will stay in
your life but you do not have to trouble yourself with which ones those are. If
they are there with you, then that is all that matters, but there will be
personalities in your lives but you will no longer be hobnobbing with them, as
you say. We do not have to hold on to everything or everyone. </P>
<P>We have to remember that they have their own journey and that there are
others that will attend to them when they are ready. They may move to another
part of the nation and there are others who will have already been prepared to
assist them when they are ready for their stretch.</P><B>
<P>Gerdean:</B> Thank you.</P><B>
<P>MERIUM:</B> I hope you are not, but it doesn't really matter if you are
disappointed with this answer. It is not easy to leave the old habitat. You want
a new house and yet you want to take everything that made the old house old and
drag it with you. It is human nature to want to hold on to things and
relationships, even when they are not comfortable.</P><B>
<P>Gerdean:</B> Well, I hope I don't disappoint you by conveying that it was a
rhetorical question for the record, because I am not worried about being lonely.
I realize I have a whole plethora of associates, not only in the spirit realms,
but here also. I did like all that talk about a new dress. (Group giggle)</P><B>
<P>MERIUM:</B> There are many dresses to wear. There are many addresses, also.
You will know what to do. You are already doing it. You are already being what
you hoped you could do or be. And as in our dialog this evening, we are simply
reminding ourselves that there have been many painful emotions, at times, when
we felt we were stuck and it all takes care of itself. So continue. This is an
on-going movement.</P><B>
<P>TOMAS:</B> I am Tomas. I would like to mention the fourth dimension, if you
will. I know you are all delighted to have your own association with spirit
reality, even to include your own seraphic guardians. And you can see how it is
that those of you who have that fact of ascension in common are brought together
in association and indeed removed from many who are not part of you but are
still guided and protected by a legion of angels or a unit or another
configuration. These occur right here in your physical realms. As you make
certain decisions, you are elevated to a new plateau, even in your own
hometown.</P>
<P>There are cases, for example. You will identify with a couple who severed the
relationship, who oddly enough don't even run into each other, even in the same
locale, and this is often because you are functioning on different levels. Those
who you will encounter, Gerdean, who might entertain you as you waft about in
your new gown, are those whom you might be able to touch in service. Those who
are far removed from you, in terms of what you can provide for them or what they
can attain from you, there will be a large span of space, cosmic space,
dimensional space, between you, even though you may reside in the same
village.</P>
<P>There are dimensions of reality that are under the control of many, many,
many types and kinds of spirit beings, all of which are under the Third Source
and Center, the Mother Spirit, who has a knack for interior decorating, the
likes of which you have not comprehended. And so you will see there is nothing
to fear. There is nothing even to question, for your path is laid out before you
like those famous lily pads, and as you advance in your desire to know the
Father, you will be shown the way.</P>
<P>We have enjoyed our full repast with you this evening. Each of you has
brought a full course to our feast. Each of you has been well fed and offered
dessert. Merium and I are so blessed to have you as our companions. How we love
you! And how we love you even more as time goes by, and we spend time together
and we grow together and we experience together the path that runs alongside the
living water.</P>
<P>Beautiful children, enjoy your upcoming adventures. Indeed, there will be
jubilations across your globe. Even now preparations are reaching a fever pitch
in the spirit and in the emotions and in the intellect, for the acknowledgement
of the materialization, the incarnation, the bestowal of the Creator of this
universe, the Creator who became, for a time, a wee babe, a mortal of the realm,
to share with you the experience of being a mortal of the realm, to know the
feelings, to understand the emotions, and to reach for and attain the perfect
harmony of unity between the divine nature and the human nature that would
enable the entire cosmos to say, "Behold the Son of Man. Behold the Son of
God."</P>
<P>Well, you know how I love Jesus, and I am looking forward to his being with
us in these next few days as we honor his mortal life and his life entirely. I
will curtail my enthusiasm, lest I become emotionally exhausted by my torrent of
love and praise. I will save that energy for ministry to you and those of us who
sometimes wonder what it's all about, that we can be there to spread the joy, to
share the love, to shine the light that comes from Michael to all of His
children. Good night, my friends.</P><B>
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