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align=center><FONT size=3><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma">Nebadonia--</SPAN><st1:date Year="2008" Day="2"
Month="6"><SPAN style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma">June 2, 2008</SPAN></st1:date><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p></o:p></SPAN></FONT></P>
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<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><FONT size=3><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma">Marin TM Group--Mill Valley,
</SPAN><st1:State><st1:place><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma">California</SPAN></st1:place></st1:State><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma">--</SPAN><st1:country-region><st1:place><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma">U.S.A.</SPAN></st1:place></st1:country-region><SPAN
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<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT
size=3>NEBADONIA--T/R-JL<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
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style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>(Natural
law)<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>(Feeling and
thinking)<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>(Recovering your true
past)<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>(Personal
evolution)<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>(Created in God’s image)<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN><o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>(Feeling and overcoming
inertia)<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>(The power of belief)<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN><o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
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<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>Dear Mother Spirit and Michael,<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>We do enjoy getting back to
our regular Monday night meeting after a few weeks away.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>We’re following your advice and joyfully
taking a break from even our deeper spiritual activities together, then enjoying
all the more getting back to them, renewed and refreshed with another
perspective, for we know through our own daily meditation that you and Michael
are always with us. <SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Your presence
is always here whenever we call upon you. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN><o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
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<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>Reflecting back on all our many
lessons, we want to thank you for your deep insights into our human condition.
<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>We’ve come to experience how
understanding is a real power which enables us to live ever more expansively, to
stretch out while at the same time avoiding becoming fragmented. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Our understanding literally ties
everything together so we can approach with courage and curiosity those
unexpected events in our lives that pop up, as they will--those we can’t
understand immediately but have to call upon you and Michael to help us get a
handle on this new thing in our life.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>Because you are always here, so too can be our own indomitable spirit
that we grow with your help. <SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>For
this we are most thankful.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Amen.
<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
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<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>NEBADONIA:<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Well, greetings, my children, this fine
June evening. <SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>This is your mother,
Nebadonia. <SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>I’m very happy that you
can feel me more and more in your minds and be more and more assured in your
spirit that we are both children of God, both given personalities by God
himself, and then provided with a rich environment indeed, as your expanding
senses and understanding reach out and out to discover a whole universe
surrounding us.<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
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style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>(Natural
law)<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
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style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>We thank our Father for that aspect of
His creation you call natural law that is unvarying and true. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It does repeat itself absolutely right
down into the subatomic nanosecond and on out across the billions of light years
to the furthermost galaxies. <SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>This
is that genuineness of God’s creation in the pattern of things, the way energy
forms into matter, and then both are in turn transfigured and patterned by life.
<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Consider the living part of the
cosmos that our Father sustains moment to moment.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>I know that, now you think you’ve got a
pretty good loop thrown around biological activity, it might seem odd for me to
say that God’s sustaining power is life. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>God’s spirit really is the life in the
cosmos, that living spirit of His that He bequeaths not only to His own personal
children across the cosmos, but even to the plant and animal life of a nigh
infinite variety just on your one planet alone. <o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
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<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>Think of all you have experienced of
beauty in those living configurations of matter and energy you call flowers, a
tree, your happy kitten or puppy fresh from the store, cavorting about. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Think of that enormous spectrum of living
beings not yet personal, but still with a kind of character, a rudimentary
personality if you will in their slowly accumulating experience of life--the
touch of wisdom in an old dog. <SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Here
you glimpse one of the real secrets to God’s infinity, for what human being
needs thousands upon thousands of varieties of spiders; yet there they are.
<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Who needs all that teeming life in
the oceans no human being will ever contact? <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Who needs all those billions and billions
of trees no person will ever see? <o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
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<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>God just pours forth this life out of
Himself.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>He sustains it.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>But not for this continuing outpouring
of God’s love and caring, life would cease in an instant, the universe, the
cosmos would collapse.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>And so, my
children, I invite you to feel if you can what I mean.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It is somewhat extra-dimensionally both
within and beyond time and space, this presence of God, this sustaining power of
His that you cannot put under a microscope or weigh on the most delicate
scales.<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
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<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><FONT size=3><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma">As you hear my words or read them later, see if you
can feel what I am referring to. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Perhaps you can intuit it, this dimension
of spirit, this origin of everything you experience whether material or energy,
your own life or those of your fellow human beings. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It’s most easily perceptible as
value.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Not only do things have a
meaning and relationship, an understandable quality, but they also can have an
ineffable yet perceptible spiritual value to them.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Equally, in times of extreme stress,
life can seem almost devoid of value. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>You can realize that this experience
wouldn’t get too severe but that life would not be worth living.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>You, who have gone through your own
</SPAN><st1:time Hour="0" Minute="0"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma">midnights</SPAN></st1:time><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"> of the soul and have been severely tried with
anxiety, or doubt, or pain, or loss, know of what I’m
speaking.<o:p></o:p></SPAN></FONT></P>
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style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>(Feeling and
thinking)<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
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style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>We’ve offered a kind of thumbnail
definition when considering whether feeling or thought is the more fundamental
human reality.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Clearly feeling is
the more comprehensive experiencing of your life, my children, but over a
million years of evolving civilization you have put words to it--words to things
and events, words to feelings, words to emotions.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It is in this sense we mean that
thought, this self-expression inside you, is where and how you finely articulate
feelings.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>So consider the spirit of
this, the value of this statement. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Think what it means when the words you
are thinking and exchanging have no feeling, no experience behind them.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>All of a sudden you can find yourself
and others in realms of pure abstraction, detached from whatever reality, if
any, that originally gave birth to these concepts.<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
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style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>You might wonder, well then, where do
these concepts come from?<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>If you
consider a moment you will realize you are inundated with concepts: from all
your mass media--television, the movies, the internet--from all your friends and
acquaintances. <SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>You are constantly
encountering all sorts of reasons, all kinds of connections and meanings.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>You may have been deliberately trained
or indoctrinated in certain concepts and ways of behavior far beyond your
experience so far, all preparing you for experiences you are headed for. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>But until you have those experiences
these concepts remain abstract.<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
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style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>This is one way in which people can go
astray in their lives--deliberately led astray or wandering off on their own,
desperately trying to understand and derive meaning from dogmas and doctrines
many times removed from their own personal experience. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>I think you can see how this leads to
feelings of meaninglessness like building up a house of cards or blowing up a
big bubble, either of which is bound to collapse or burst.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN><o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>You have all kinds of sayings about
people loosing their ground, floating away, being spaced, feeling their life is
loosing its meaning and value. <SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Your
very imagination and identification--your wonderful abilities to follow along
someone else’s ideas and meaning--can also lead you far astray. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>This has been one history and cause of
warfare, people getting caught up and identifying with various organizations,
nation/states with whose leaders and their policies they had very little direct
experience or knowledge. <SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>In fact,
the slow growth of democracy in the human race has depended upon the conscious
breaking down this tribal/primitive identification, society as a whole reaping
the rewards of more and more individuals coming forth and putting their own
grounded, real experiences into the mix, keeping ideas up to
date.<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
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style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>This is part of the process of
maturity, my children, when in a sense you turn around within yourselves. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>You set about to question all the
concepts and connections you were given as a child.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>You start to feel and credit your own
soul, your own unique experiences.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>You realize an increasing wealth of your own thoughts, your own thinking
processes, your own reasoning, because they are based on something personally
real. <SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>This is becoming grounded
again. <SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>This is being able to trace
back what you believe to their origins.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>Yet so many folks have a very negative attitude towards this
process.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>They call it being
disillusioned.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>But that’s precisely
the desired point. <SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>You get to have
a conscious choice of whether you want to continue in some illusion, or seek
further the greater reality it pretends to cover, a reality you can call your
own discovery. <o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
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style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>This is the movement of spirit. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>This is spiritualizing your everyday
life, when your mind takes in and fully appreciates/values what your hands find
to do, what you are finally deciding to do.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Other folks’ notions of what you should
be doing, who you should be, will still be there, but seen for what they are.
<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Again, ironically, as you break out
of other persons’ projected patterns on you, supposedly for you, and you become
who and what you are for yourself, this is your great spiritual gift even to
those who may not welcome your deviation from their expectations.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Now they have a chance to become
dis-illusioned too.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN><o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
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style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>This is daring to be, daring to
discover, and it is the basis for all true, growing, open-minded democracy
within you and without. <SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>This is the
movement of living spirit in your soul, in your personality. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>This is how you find Michael’s peace.
<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>You find it in
understanding--understanding based upon your own irreplaceable, priceless
experience. <SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>One definition of Light
and Life on a world is when each individual no longer sells themselves and their
experiences short, but everyone is in there contributing their own truth and
receiving their due recognition. <o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
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style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>So be of good cheer, my children.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Never hesitate to slow down or even stop
cold and wait for value, the perception of spirit, to catch up.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Let all the abstract evaluations, all
the outworn notions of who you are and where you are drop away--even if it means
counting each breath as it comes, just moment by moment glorying in the fact you
are alive, you are alive by dint of God’s outpouring love.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Stay grounded.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Stay in touch with the real stuff of
life. <SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>See yourself and your fellows
as the little walking infinities you are.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>And be in my love. <o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>Now is the time for those questions and
comments, if you have any.<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>Student:<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Thank you, mother, once more.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Thank you for your support and your love
and your understanding. <SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>The
question I have is, how does one let go of the past? <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>How do I let go of my past? <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>I kind-of get that’s what you’re talking
about tonight, letting go of the concepts of that have been pushed on me--about
me.<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>(Recovering your true
past)<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
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style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>NEBADONIA:<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Yes, my son, it’s a matter of seeing
through all those fixed concepts, those second- and third-removed
abstractions--your worrying about their notions about your experiences, if you
will.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Get back to the original
experiences as they do exist in your memory, as they do exist in your soul.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>The question becomes one of: how do you
get in touch with your own soul, with the spiritual record of your life?<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>(Exactly!)<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>This is your life seen through God’s
point of view. <SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>This is what I tried
to address tonight by giving you some sense of feeling of what spirit is, this
living power that permeates everything. <o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
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style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>Trace back your values. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Think of those times with the most
meaning to you as a place to start.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>They can be some of the happiest times, or other times the most
terrifying moments of your life, but in either case when it seemed some broad
truth dawned in your mind. <SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>You had
that unmistakable feeling of understanding something. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>You can do this meditation/recollection
with respect to a particular subject that’s bothering you, or with respect to
any person you choose, my son--your mother or father, a brother, a sister, some
dear friend or longtime sworn enemy.<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>So the question is exactly what I
talked about this evening: how do you get beyond--by getting before--all these
overlaying judgments put upon you, all the thoughts and notions that do not jibe
with your real experience? <SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>How do
you open yourself to what really led you to do certain things? <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>You did get to here, my son, from
scratch, starting from zero.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>Everything you know now, all you understand, has had to come to you bit
by bit across the years. <SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>So you
have to revisit these times anew.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>It’s what I mean by staying in touch, staying grounded in your true
memories.<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>You should be able to sense a quality
here, a spiritual quality when something rings true.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>(Yes) <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Follow it.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>You may have to slowly if you have been
painfully plagued by these accusations, by these judgments put upon you. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It may feel like a kind of suffering, but
you have to build up now, in your present life, the true story. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>The sooner you start doing
this--getting in touch with your genuine childhood, your genuine
adolescence--however painful--the sooner the better.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>This, I think you can see, is the way to
understanding. <SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Do you feel you are
growing in your understanding of life?<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>Student: Yes, mother, I am growing in
understanding myself--my life and my past. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It’s a slow process but it is a
process.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>And it is working. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>I have faith now it will work out OK,
whereas one time I didn’t have much faith. <o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>Yes, my life is getting much better as
I am able to understand myself.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>I
still haven’t gotten into a lot of childhood stuff yet; mainly getting over the
religious dogma and the negativity that’s going on now.
<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>NEBADONIA:<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Sometimes it’s difficult to get a handle
on that conditioning because it’s still affecting you.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>So many things are laid upon youngsters,
horrific things, out of a kind of misguided love and caring. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Sometimes it’s an older generation
wanting to insure the youngsters know how hard life can be, or was for them, and
so carry on certain traditions, deliberately making things hard for others
through some warped sense of instilling meaning that way.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>But again, that is an abstraction
glossing over the inflicting of pain.<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>As we’ve talked about before, you live
in an eternal now.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>The past is a
kind of foreign country to be discovered, to be brought into now, to be brought
into your current, greater understanding.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>But this way leads to forgiveness; not to forgive and forget, but to
remember and forgive.<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>Student:<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Yes, it does make a
difference.<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>NEBADONIA:<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Sometimes, my son, if you can see a bit
with God’s eye--see with His all-forgiving, all-accepting spirit, you too can
forgive those things done to you.<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>Student: <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Yes.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Thank you,
Mother.<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>NEBADONIA:<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Well, thank you. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>I acknowledge your courage in the search.
<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It is not always easy but it is
always liberating.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>(Yes) <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Be in my love.
<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>Student, after a very long pause:<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Yes, Mother, I could go on like this
forever. <o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>When I was driving home last night just
looking around me at all the different peoples’ homes and things, and knowing
how there’s certain upheavals going on in peoples’ communities--in their homes
and things--it’s because of economic situations and so forth.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>I was thinking and asking--out
loud--what is reality?<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It seems
every time I ask myself that question, it comes from a deeper sense that what is
around me is only a shadow of what is real.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Then coming here tonight I felt I was
only a shadow of what I am, or what I can be, or how God sees me now.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Because it seems like so many people are
going through such hardships just having food on their tables, or gas in their
cars.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>I cannot conceive this is how
human beings were intended to live.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN><o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>I do have a sense there’s another way
to live, another way for me to live, to expand, to experience.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>But I don’t even know what that feels
like!<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>I don’t know what that looks
like!<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>So…?<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>(Personal
evolution)<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>NEBADONIA:<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>My son, you’ll recall how, from time to
time, we’ve tried, anyway, to reassure you that certain qualities of mind and
spirit were put in you not only to make you uncomfortable--although that is
often their immediate result--but to keep you open, to keep you reaching for
what you just got through articulating.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>For we’ve also reassured you that the better way is always there, for
every individual, for every group, for every nation, for every planet.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>There is an ongoing cosmic-wide
evolution, a growth that takes in all that has happened up to this moment, and
provides for more: more energy and material; more personalities--personal beings
of thousands of different orders; and for each individual--more life.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN><o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>So let me tease you with the notion you
might be doing just the perfect thing in your reaching, for that reaching is
based upon your intuition that life is transcendent; there is always that
something there, that something more.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>I tried to express this tonight just as an irreducible, if ineffable,
feeing of spirit, of value.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Or, at
times, its loss--most disturbing and threatening.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN><o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>I see you as a human being doing your
best to stay open, but the way you are going about it does at times make the
real seem only a shadow.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>This is
just a reflection back--if you will--from the deep intuition you have that life
is transcendent, that what you see happening is actually more some unfathomable
potential than real.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Let me change
that to: more potential than you can yet realize yourself, and this is
true.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>You are still tadpoles.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>But you do have the desire to grow into
a frog, and beyond; a little frog that will some day have crossed the universe
on into hundreds of dimensions totally inconceivable to you now.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>You can intuit this potential of which
your present ability of realization is only a beginning step, a shadow of what
it will become.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Still: you are; you
are real and complete nevertheless.<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>So in your curiosity, your wondering,
entertain the idea that this might be exactly what God had in mind.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>You will be crediting than only He,
along with Michael and I, can see and experience all those hundreds of
individual people in all those homes you are passing.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>There is truly no way you can generalize
about any of them, materially and mentally, let alone spiritually.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Those generalities are your own abstract
notions that your powers of belief can make seem real, and make the real seem a
shadow.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN><o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>From your expanding media you can have
some notion of what the world situation is, and how many people are truly
starving to death, dying of disease and malnutrition.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Michael and I have talked about the
enormous glut of power your developed cultures so casually enjoy by way of
abstract notions of progress. <SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>So I
talked tonight about getting back down to something more spiritually grounded,
more solid in your experience, and not being--as you say--strung out chasing
hollow examples of social wealth, some ever increasing bottom line, irrespective
of the spiritual costs along the way.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>You are sensing this, my son, and it is good you do, but this is a very
general observation, not necessarily applicable to those folks whose homes you
are passing.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN><o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>This is your own way of trying not to
rest content in smug self-satisfaction, and this is good--your questioning
yourself and your way of living as much as you can.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>We encourage this: along with resting
totally in Michael’s peace and my love, and just being/experiencing how you are,
beyond question or doubt: both.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>This is the flexibility we speak of, the spontaneity, the
creativity.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>So keep striving to be
self-honest.<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>Student:<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Yes, because sometimes I do question,
and wonder if I’m living the life I even want to live?<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>I don’t know if I am.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>If I’m not in touch with what is real
and true, but only a shadow of that, I don’t know if I can answer that
question.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Especially if I overwork
myself: it’s no.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>But I don’t know
any other life.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>I don’t know how to
create such a different life, one that’s far more satisfying and
fulfilling.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Maybe it’s just my
attitude, and being happy with what I have now.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>That’s that nagging part.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>I don’t know how to expand into
something greater because I don’t know what it is I truly want.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>I can express all kinds of platitudes
about it, but they’re just words.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>I
want the experience and the feeling, and to live it.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Other than that, what’s the point?<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN><o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>I see all these people scurrying
around, trying to do something, trying to make something of their lives, saving
for retirement, and then you die.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>(exasperated chuckle)<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>I hope
I’m making sense.<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>NEBADONIA:<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>This points at the priceless value of
Michael’s peace, of your stillness: to really just be--totally.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>To get back down to real experiences,
the reality you seek.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>You are
familiar with all the sayings of how the more you chase after reality--as some
notion--the more it runs away.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>You
have to be still and let the real thing come back and settle over you, with a
deep acceptance of whatever’s happening.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>You have known this, my son, from time to time.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>(Yes)<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN><o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>Still, your curiosity of what more
there might be is also necessary.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>From our point of view, you are creating your own, moment to moment
largest-possible life already.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>And
this is a growing accomplishment; your soul is growing larger: you are
growing.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Just keep current with
this, day to day, and keep wondering.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>That is part of the dues you need to pay, part of the spiritual work you
are engaged in.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It’s seeking God’s
will, the best way forward by dint of His very existence.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>And though you cannot yet experience it,
we reassure you that retirement and death are not the end, but just the barest
beginnings.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN><o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>There is so much you can ask yourself
and want to know that cannot be answered in one short lifetime.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>This is why it takes some courage, and
perhaps no little bit of humor, to thank God for this curiosity that’s plaguing,
and welcome it instead.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Kicking
back in some form of self-satisfied bliss is only another kind of death right
within life.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>You do know you’re
alive.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>You’re continually trying to
grasp the ineffable, so I’m just teasing you with what a blessing it is to know
spirit is there, to wonder about these things.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN><o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>Student:<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>I will be still with all this.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>I do know that’s the way to experience
reality, or truth.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN><o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>NEBADONIA:<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>You are becoming sensitive enough to
detect when you are more or less being taken out of your spiritual home base by
all you cannot anticipate, but must embrace as best you can.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>This is insight into your human
reality.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN><o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>Student:<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Well, thank you.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>I just hope one day I can feel the joy
I’ve been able to see other people experience, see in their faces.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Maybe in my deep rest and
stillness--have this pervade my day no matter what comes
up.<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>(Created in God’s image)<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN><o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>NEBADONIA:<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Again, be careful of your projections
about what other people must be continuously enjoying.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>All through eternity there are those
moments of genuine temporary accomplishment when you can rest for awhile on a
little plateau.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>But then…(Mother
Spirit laughs)…but then, God and His creation are infinite, and another aspect
of it will call you forth to begin again.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>There will always be a need for courage.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>There will always be that which is
opaque until you are right in the middle of it.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It’s the infinite cosmos you’re headed
for.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Yet there is also in your
God-given personality that spirit which is not only equal to the adventure, but
actually a corollary of it, the way in which you and God are very much
alike.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Your personality is very
much in His image of what to do with eternity.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>So be in Michael’s peace, and my love,
from time to time, and see if you can’t find a way of just lightly letting go to
accept you are real, just as you are.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>Then off into the fray again.<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>Student:<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Thank you.<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>Student:<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Good evening, Mother.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>First off, I want to express my
gratitude for everything you’ve brought into my life in the past couple
months--spiritually. <SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It’s given me
great opportunities to practice feeling spirit, and then being able to act in
the world on it.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It’s truly in many
ways been an amazing journey.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>I’ve
gotten to the point where I can really get to the place where I find it hard for
me to take in spirit--especially your spirit--because of the way my mother
couldn’t really give me enough nurturing affection.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It feels as if it’s resistance, and I
can see how it affects my ability to take action, and follow spirit’s leading of
what’s the next thing to do.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>I find
it hard to get over a certain inertia because of this.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN><o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>But I have gotten to the point where
it’s almost enjoyable--(laughing)--even though I feel a gritty kind of
resistance in there.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>I don’t have
any particular question, just to say I really appreciate your patience to be
with me, and help me learn how to take things in. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Thank you.<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>(Feeling and overcoming
inertia)<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>NEBADONIA:<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Well, my daughter, I’m so delighted you
can feel me, right through your resistance to falling into the trap of only
thinking who I am, or associating me with your human mother.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>You are finding ways of remembering, and
experiencing, who I really am, and how I enjoy giving you those little nudges to
help get you going.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>You have a very
well developed caution about being self-righteous, and so keep in mind, along
with this caution about puffing yourself up and loosing your ground--now you’ve
found some--a certain amount of inertia is inevitable.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It’s part of your being a physical
being; plus your wisdom also suggests you not waste energy--you consider--you
look before you leap.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>All this is
very worth while, and in and of itself, almost a definition of inertia.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN><o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>So there is no simple way out of the
quandary, but rather one of embracing your human complexity, and not beating
yourself up.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Rather than denying or
running away in your mind from inertia, feel it, right as you do the next good
thing.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>I think you’ve already
discovered, it’s always there.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>You
do not have infinite energy, nor infinite wisdom on how to go about things.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>You are still learning these things; so
don’t be too hard on yourself.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN><o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>We’ve said before that guilt is just a
self-motivating technique, and a very inefficient one at that.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It’s better to be self-honest and say,
perhaps, I feel lazy today.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Maybe
be lazy, and enjoy it from time to time.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>You see what I mean by flexibility here--by variety?<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Sometimes by being lazy for a day and
thoroughly getting your fill of it, you’ll find there is such joy in being in
motion again.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>But if you’re
constantly driving yourself, you can very quickly get abstracted and away from
your real, spiritually united ground--divided against yourself, refusing to
feel.<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>But a determined focus on here-and-now,
and feeling even the terrible effort it takes to get moving at times, is good
for your soul.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It’s the meaning of
human life.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>This is what it
is.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It’s what you find it moment to
moment, not someone else’s theory or notion of how it should be.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It’s what it is for you, and what your
own intuition and imagination suggests can be more.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN><o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>So carry on.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>I’m delighted you’re not mistaking me
for your earth mother, and granting me some enormous encompassing, for you are
living encompassed in my love, and it is my delight when you can feel it, and
get strength from it.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>So thank you,
my daughter.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Let’s keep on going on
together.<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>Second student again:<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Mother, can I say something
here?<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>NEBADONIA:
Certainly.<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>Student:<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>You just said something to C here that
struck me, and I was meaning to ask--because you mentioned to her: we are living
the life that we are.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>But I don’t
feel I am living the life that I am.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>And that’s always bugging me, nagging at me.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN><o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>NEBADONIA:<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>But my son, then who is living your
life?<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>Student:<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Hugh?<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>(much laughter)<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN><o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>NEBADONIA:<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>There is a life here.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN><o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>Student:<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>But…but you know what I
mean.<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>NEBADONIA:<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>This is what I tried to address this
evening.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>How do you get out of your
abstract notions of life--beliefs about life that remove you from the real
thing, or make it seem an illusion?<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>How can you feel yourself living and have your thoughts, your
understanding, adequately reflect that real
experience?<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>(The power of belief)<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN><o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>We’ve had many discussions in which
you’ve introduced ideas about what human life is supposed to be--according to
certain doctrines, and you’ll recall I’ve constantly mentioned that what human
life is--as it is--as you experience it--is transcendent to mere notions of what
it should be.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>You’ve spent a lot of
time in schools of philosophy and metaphysics that, you’ve stated, make claims
about human life being essentially blissful as its natural state, to which I
could only reply, along with Michael, that--everything--happening to human
beings is according to their moment by moment full and complete, yet evolving
natures starting in immaturity and imperfection as new-born babies.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>The unavoidable corollary to these
doctrines you’ve mentioned is that if you cannot feel your life to be
essentially blissful, then it must be unnatural--never quite real; which is what
you say you’re experiencing.<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>Student:<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It’s not that I want to live in a
blissful state; that’s not what I’m striving for.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It’s just to live as a full human
being.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>I don’t even know what that
looks like.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>I’ve had feelings of
what that is, but how I’m living now, I don’t recognize as being a full human
being.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Maybe that’s something I’m
growing into--I don’t know--more a creatively fulfilling human expression of
life, and God.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>So that’s what I’m
seeking.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>But you’re right.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>I am rubbing up against these
abstractions of how I’ve been told to live--what life is.
<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>NEBADONIA: <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Life is a process of discovery.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>You are intimating that there is a lot
of potential there, to which I reply, yes, this is meant to carry you on
indefinitely into eternity, and cannot be fully realized in one short
lifetime.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>But you can intuit that
it is there--as potential.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>Meanwhile, you are living a fully human life.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN><o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>Also, my son, you may not for quite a
while see your own life as Michael and I see it in the full reality of your
transcendent personality and soul.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>For you it is truly a matter of faith that these dimensions of you are
there, even if you cannot yet access them and grasp them cognitively. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>But you will in time.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN><o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>Student:<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>But then why can’t I--if they are a
reality?<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>If they are here and now,
and you see me as a transcendent being, then why can’t I access
them?<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>NEBADONIA:<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>You’re still too immature.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>(and everyone laughs, on and on…)<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>These are spirit/Morontia realities,
transcendent to your present consciousness.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It’s the way in which your soul is
contra-distinct from your recallable physical memories.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>The situation is part of your present
tadpole-ness, if you will.<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>Student:<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>You know how much I like being called
that…<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>(…and
on…)<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>NEBADONIA:<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>…which is why I delight in teasing you
with it.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>But it is
apropos.<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>Student, still laughing:<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>I have legs!<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN><o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>NEBADONIA:<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It is one step up from calling you an
egg, even though you are still in this shell of your first world
experience.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN><o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>It’s interesting to take your feelings
of unreality and project them back into the past and wonder: how much all
through history have men and women suffered not knowing what to do with their
intimations of an ineffable, ungraspable spiritual reality that was and is part
of human nature?<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>In a very ironic
kind of way, stillness practice, meditation, which helps bring these intuitions
to the fore, is the most unnatural thing, and has to be passed on from person to
person, generation to generation, as a way to get in touch with the
mystery.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>To the uncultured or
material-minded person just sitting still, seemingly doing nothing, is bogus and
unnecessary, a self-deluding mongering of mystery where there isn’t any: you
could be sleeping, or doing something.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>But this most un-natural activity, or orientation, if you will, can help
you find a great measure of peace, and love, and your own spiritual reality,
right along with ours--even in this your first
life.<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>So I’ll leave it at that for now, my
children.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It’s great each of you in
your questions and comments were reaching for what my lesson tonight meant--how
you can get down to the solid ground of your life, yet discover there is an
ungraspable spiritual part to it as well, a transcendent if inexpressible value
and encompassing you can feel, calling you forth to wonder, making you aware of
how far you have come, and have still to go.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Think of life without end.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>And be in my love.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Good evening.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN><SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN><o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3><SPAN
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