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align=center><FONT size=3><FONT face=Tahoma>Michael--<st1:date Month="7"
Day="21" Year="2008">July 21, 2008</st1:date></FONT></FONT></P>
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<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><FONT size=3><FONT
face=Tahoma>Marin TM Group--Mill Valley,
<st1:State><st1:place>California</st1:place></st1:State>--<st1:country-region><st1:place>U.S.A.</st1:place></st1:country-region></FONT></FONT></P>
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<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><FONT face=Tahoma
size=3>MICHAEL--T/R-JL</FONT></P>
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<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><FONT face=Tahoma size=3>(The
spirit/energy field of personal beings)</FONT></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><FONT size=3><FONT
face=Tahoma>(Discovery and creativity; object and subject))<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN></FONT></FONT></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><FONT face=Tahoma size=3>(Beaming
love and well-wishes) </FONT></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><FONT face=Tahoma
size=3>(Penetrating your own projections: how you know it’s working)</FONT></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><FONT face=Tahoma size=3>(The
spirit/energy field of the planet) </FONT></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><FONT size=3><FONT
face=Tahoma>(Can souls fracture?)<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN></FONT></FONT></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><FONT face=Tahoma
size=3>(Michael’s thanks)</FONT></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><FONT face=Tahoma
size=3>(Challenging social situations)</FONT></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><FONT face=Tahoma
size=3>(Challenging family situations)</FONT></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><FONT face=Tahoma size=3>(The
personal dimensions of time)</FONT></P>
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<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><FONT size=3><FONT
face=Tahoma>Dear Michael and Mother Spirit,<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Well, we have a whole group
here tonight to greet you--and we do.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>Welcome aboard.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It is always
a good evening indeed when we can carry on these conversations with you.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Thank you for your gentle and sometimes
teasing reminders of the nature of the adventure we find ourselves on.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>For we, like people all through history,
do stumble into error from time to time thinking we have Reality all wrapped up
and tied in a neat bow.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Then you,
as well as our beloved Urantia book, remind us there is a cosmos-wide evolution
taking place and it has both the wonderful aspect of being endless on into
infinite eternity, yet at the same time--from a human angle--the daunting aspect
of being inexorable.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>There is no
stopping or containing it all, no wrapping it up, for long, anywhere along the
line, personally or collectively.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN></FONT></FONT></P>
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<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><FONT face=Tahoma size=3>We thank
you for these reminders for they help us understand the fleeting anxieties we
get when we realize what a yawning chasm the future can be, not only in our own
personal lives, but what it seems the major cultures on our planet are facing as
well.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>But you also reassure us that
God himself is the way forward, is the next positive step to take into the
future.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>His very existence is the
way; He contains it and offers it to us.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>And so we give final thanks tonight for your pointing out so often how we
can find Him, and the way, right within us.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Amen.</FONT></P>
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size=3>MICHAEL:<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Good evening, this
is Michael.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>I would like to
pause for a few moments just to feel your energy… <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>(long pause) <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Some of you call this spiritual energy
field a Merkaba--what we create together.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>You’ll notice how it does change ever so subtly with the different
members who compose it.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>The more
finely you can tune in to your own energy field and the field of Mother Spirit
and myself, and of our Father all around us, the more precisely you can detect
the presence of that other human spirit who’s accompanying you.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>This is very subtle indeed and not like
your science-fiction notions of telepathy; but it is there.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Spirit does speak and relate to spirit
directly.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>So the more familiar you
are with your own, the more you can trust your intuition as to where another
person is and, as you put it, where they are coming from.</FONT></P>
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<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><FONT face=Tahoma size=3>(The
spirit/energy field of personal beings)</FONT></P>
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<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><FONT size=3><FONT
face=Tahoma>This spirit/energy field does modulate with all the different people
and celestial personalities who make it up.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Mother Spirit and I are blessed to feel
the energy field of Urantia.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>We
only wish you could feel it with us.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>You could know how, in spite of all the seemingly terrible things
happening--especially those things people do to each other--still and all the
human radiation of the planet is enormously positive.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It is progressive; it is growing--and
often not only in spite of, but because of, the conflict, the disparities, the
differences between people.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>This is
your very first step, my children, into confronting the Other, and we love to
tease you with the fact that every other human being you meet is a little
walking infinity, is some bottomless uniqueness, just as you are to
yourselves.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>I heartily agree with
your opening prayer tonight that this can be both a source of delight--in
meeting other unique beings without end, and also a great challenge to your
open-mindedness, your ability to grow and encompass that which is not you.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>You have a whole universe in front of
you, and you literally have eternity to fill with meeting it.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN></FONT></FONT></P>
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<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><FONT face=Tahoma size=3>Let’s
look at this meeting.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>So many of
your philosophers have struggled for thousands of years trying to get the
perfect balance between the inside of experience and the outside, between the
subjective and the objective.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>You’ll</FONT></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><FONT face=Tahoma size=3>notice
how Mother Spirit and I have gone about it from a slightly different angle.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>We’ve put before you the challenge of
determining as you go through life what you yourself are encountering as a
discovery, for there really is an objective world surrounding you, a whole
universe surrounding you.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Yet
because you yourself are an intrinsically creative, spiritual being, you are
also encountering your own creativity.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>What you experience is this living balance between discovery and
invention, basic perception and interpretation, and we can only encourage you to
be as conscious as possible of this generally unconscious process.</FONT></P>
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<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><FONT size=3><FONT
face=Tahoma>(Discovery and creativity; object and subject))<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN></FONT></FONT></P>
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<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><FONT size=3><FONT
face=Tahoma>This is especially true when you encounter another person.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Obviously there is someone there, yet
what do you make of them through any number of personal and general/cultural
conditionings?<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Think of how this
divides along the lines of race and ethnicity, sex, age, body type, background
and education, language, vocation; all these aspects of being human.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>They are all somewhat independent of
you--that is the discovery part.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>But you never experience them in a purely independent way.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>You are more or less conditioned within
your own creativity/interpretation of what you make of them.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Indeed, the great personal fallacies
that you label racism, or sexism, or ethnic/cultural prejudice, is the very
refusal or inability to acknowledge and realize ones own part in what one makes
of what one is encountering.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>The
prejudice appears objectively real--out there, even to the extreme point of
denying another’s humanity.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>Psychologically, projections are so limiting, so detrimental, precisely
because they are unconscious and perceived as fact.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN></FONT></FONT></P>
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<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><FONT face=Tahoma size=3>This is
stating the situation objectively, and from this point of view it is obvious the
only way out of the dilemma and all the enormous human suffering it causes and
perpetuates is for people to own up to their own projections.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>But how does a person do this?<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>How can you escape your own false
objectivity, even if you accept the principle and are willing to break the
lockstep of going along with all those who share the prejudice?<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Think of the moral and social courage
this takes to stand alone within and without.</FONT></P>
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<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><FONT face=Tahoma size=3>(Beaming
love and well-wishes) </FONT></P>
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<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><FONT size=3><FONT
face=Tahoma>One method we have suggested is with an indiscriminate, wholehearted
projection of love irrespective of who this person is coming toward you.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Feel the source of energy that is God’s
spirit of life within you--the potential for wellbeing--the very glory of
existence, and just beam this out toward another--totally indiscriminately,
without exception.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>If you see
another person coming toward you?--that’s enough.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Discover how beaming love and wellbeing
for this person is in itself strengthening, irrespective of the discovery part,
irrespective of who they are.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>Letting love flow through you strengthens you and makes you strong.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN></FONT></FONT></P>
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style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>Still the major benefit from this, apart from the inner strengthening, is
the discovery part.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>So many of you
who have tried this began to notice an emergence of individuality.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>This is the right track.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>This is how you know it’s working.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Every face you encounter begins to bear
the full expression of his or her human uniqueness.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>As paradoxical as it might seem, your
very uniqueness each from any other, is what you all have in common: a deeper
reality.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>This too is a
soulful/spiritual growth within you to, first of all, be able to perceive it,
and then to acknowledge it within you.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>You have to grow inside to freely admit into yourself all these
individuals irrespective of race, age, sex, ethnic grouping--so forth.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>The person is no longer some
male/female, black/white, European/Asian: it’s that particular personality.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>There is no other personality like him
or her.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Obviously they have all the
human characteristics, but these are in perfect balance with the wonderful
feeling/realization you can get inside you of their spirit, of their God-created
personality.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN></FONT></FONT></P>
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face=Tahoma size=3>You might even be able to acknowledge within you, my
children, that here comes another human being with a whole lifetime of
experience you can’t begin to fathom; yet not be daunted by this--that there is
so much within each of you, you can never share but with God.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>As Mother Spirit said last time, this is
the way out, this is the way to recognize and embrace your uniqueness without
feeling so terribly lonely, so terribly socially isolated with having so much
inexpressible, ineffable inner reality you can never share, even with your loved
ones: so much uniqueness of being.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>But it’s there.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It’s there
to discover--God’s creation of who you are.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Like all the rest of His creation: it’s
what you make of it and do with it.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>That, if you will, is the you part of you.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>(group chuckles)<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>This is the conscious self.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>This is the deciding self.</FONT></P>
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<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><FONT size=3><FONT face=Tahoma>So
this is the nature of the adventure you find yourselves in, this living meeting
of the Other.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>This is that
never-ending opening with which not only God but you yourselves, my children,
will fill eternity.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>As we’ve said
before, you can discover and perceive that aspect of reality that is not
repeating itself, but each moment is also unique in time and eternity, and can
be just as distinct as every person you meet.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN></FONT></FONT></P>
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<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><FONT size=3><FONT face=Tahoma>We
understand there is little more psychically painful than intense boredom,
nothing more anxious than getting caught in some reality that seems to drag on
and on moment by moment, threatening an eternity of the same thing over and over
again.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Your creative nature screams
out against such a reality, and you can only, truly pity those individuals so
caught up and imprisoned by their inability to recognize and accept the
response-ability that is their human potential.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>They are drowning in a kind of boring
self-absorption like clutching an anchor that is dragging them down.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Ironically, the only escape is love, is
the willingness to let go of oneself and just beam your good wishes out there
indiscriminately.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>No petty trading
here of: I’ll give so much to get so much back.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Just beam your love out there.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>As God’s love literally supports the
creation, this could be your opportunity to be just a little more like Him.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It takes this initiative; it takes this
courage; it takes this willingness and desire to see that uniqueness, that
individuality, not only in every personal being, but in every moment too, even
when you’re alone.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN></FONT></FONT></P>
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<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><FONT size=3><FONT
face=Tahoma>True enough, it can be a little scary at first, a little
overwhelming at first.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>This is the
courage part.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>This is the
willingness part--to risk taking in another.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Who knows, you might be made a fool of
from time to time.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>You can cast
your pearls of noticing and caring before indifferent swine---as I cautioned my
disciples.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>But I say the risk is
worth it.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It is what I felt called
upon to demonstrate myself, once upon a time.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>In spite of my trials I now have my
human lifetime glowing brightly in my soul.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Just as you will too, my children.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>This is how you make the most of your
life.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>This is how you exercise your
God-given potential.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>This is how
you glory in His creation of a near infinity of personal beings and an eternity
of unique moments.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>As Mother Spirit
said, welcome to our vision of who you are, and what you may choose to
become.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>We have no fear for you
whatsoever.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN></FONT></FONT></P>
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<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><FONT face=Tahoma size=3>If you
have any questions or comments, bring them on.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>This is part of my joy.</FONT></P>
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size=3>Student:<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Thank you, Michael,
for the fantastic lesson.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It’s
interesting because I’ve been reading a book about projection and dealing with
the so-called shadow of our personality we project onto others whom we don’t
like or appreciate--racially or ethnically.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>We’re literally not seeing this other
person.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>If I understand it right,
you’re saying that the solution is to beam our love out there, even erring on
the side of just doing it.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>This
book suggested identifying those negative things we have in our shadow part and
bringing them out and healing them in order to let them go.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>So there’s a self-analysis implied in
their approach I don’t think you’re asking for at all.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>You’re suggesting a total solution of
just blasting away your own shadow by loving others--loving their
uniqueness.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>So do you have any
comment on my interpretation of your message?</FONT></P>
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<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><FONT face=Tahoma
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face=Tahoma>MICHAEL:<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Yes, my son,
you’re very astute in your understanding what I said.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>I was addressing primarily--how--you do
this.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>The self-analysis is, to my
mind, a secondary effect, for I began by asking, how do you know what your
unconscious projections are?--except that you start by beaming your love--your
well-wishes--toward every person you meet.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>In the course of a day, in everything from a small town on up to a city,
you’ll meet dozens upon dozens of different individuals to try this on, and
you’ll be enabling their individuality to come through your projections.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Then you can begin to notice that in
spite of this person being male or female, rich or poor, black or white, fat or
thin, young or old, they are of a type you’ve been excluding or pre-judging all
along.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN></FONT></FONT></P>
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<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><FONT face=Tahoma size=3>This
only stands out by being contra-distinct from this particular individual’s
personality you can now perceive.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>That perception is the basic process that makes the prejudice stand
out.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>So I consider the beaming of
love--without exception--and the perception it allows, to be the primary or
initiating event; the analysis is a secondary yet very beneficial
self-knowledge.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>(Yes--beautiful!)</FONT></P>
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<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><FONT size=3><FONT
face=Tahoma>With respect to boredom, it’s by noticing the uniqueness within each
person and moment that you realize the creation was not just wound up and set in
motion once upon a big bang, but is being created by God ever anew, and
expanding--both in quantity and quality/experiential soul.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Each moment is singular and will never
happen again.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>And this perception
can be overwhelming and quite scary at first.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>But I agree with your analysis and this
book you’re reading, about the benefit and the power of understanding
yourself.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN></FONT></FONT></P>
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<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><FONT face=Tahoma
size=3>Student:<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It’s almost like
you really can’t get to the bottom of self-knowledge unless you’re able to
project love and see the contrast that will come out in a more accurate way, I
guess, against the backdrop of that love.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>It seems like a better way to do your shadow-work than to just stop and
delve into your own unconscious memories. </FONT></P>
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<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><FONT size=3><FONT
face=Tahoma>MICHAEL:<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Yes.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>That could be just another never-ending
ego trip of self-absorption.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Plus
there are powerful reasons within your mental economy of psychic energy why your
projections are unconscious and resist being examined directly.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>They’re being used to prop up a shaky,
insecure ego/self image, when the real solution is one of self-forgetfulness:
get interested in someone, something else!<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>This is why I suggest you embrace each person, each moment without
exception, rather than continuing concentrating on yourself.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN></FONT></FONT></P>
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<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><FONT face=Tahoma
size=3>Student:<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>One other
thing.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>You started out talking
about the spirit-energy field of the whole planet you and Mother Spirit can
feel, and that it’s a lot healthier than I thought it was.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>How is this related to the newly
revealed feature of the Planetary Supreme Being we’ve been hearing about in some
of the transmissions?<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>You know, who
is known as Urantia herself.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Is she
this field, or is she something else, but maybe inclusive of this?</FONT></P>
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<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><FONT face=Tahoma size=3>(The
spirit/energy field of the planet) </FONT></P>
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face=Tahoma>MICHAEL:<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It’s the
latter; she’s inclusive of this spiritual field.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>She is the living soul of the planet,
just as the Supreme Being is the living soul of the whole time/space
creation.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>From our point of view,
being able to see the full personality and soul of all the individuals, as well
as the physical and mental and spiritual aspects you perceive, plus the fact
it’s so rare for an individual not to survive physical death in spite of what
you see as their most egregious, even obscene acts of violence; once you see the
roots of this behavior in the historical record of the planet--how Urantia went
so wildly astray from potentially beneficial spiritual leadership, to the point
of these leaders’ deliberate attempts to thwart normal divine plans: once you
take this into consideration, the spirit of humanity, the soul of humanity is so
great, so positive and thrilling, and so humbling when you can feel the enormity
of God’s creation of personality on just one planet of billions of unique
individuals, and all they are experiencing.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN></FONT></FONT></P>
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<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><FONT size=3><FONT face=Tahoma>As
you know, even in the most intense warfare there is so much brotherly love,
risk-taking, caring, and sacrifice among the combatants.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Stepping back a few degrees from that,
try to realize the amount of cooperation, the amount of sharing and agreement
entailed in the most primitive, let alone the most highly developed and
interdependent societies--in their people’s daily lives.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Even the individual who considers
himself or herself to be a greatly self-sufficient and independent person, still
has to begrudgingly acknowledge how dependant he or she is on others for so
much.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Planetary-wise, it all adds
up to such an enormous, overwhelming, positive life-force that, just as your
Urantia book states, it is the hallmark of wisdom to get this sense of
proportion that you slowly but ultimately grow to have.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>But it calls for faith on the part of a
human being, to perceive this proportion in ones youth and immaturity.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN></FONT></FONT></P>
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<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><FONT face=Tahoma
size=3>Student:<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>So the Supreme of
the planet is the summation of all of the souls of all of the individuals who
have lived on the planet.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>And the
soul is the summation of all of the positive experiences of any given
person.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>So I can imagine what it
would be like to sense all of the positive soul-creating energy of the
planet.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Must be amazing…</FONT></P>
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face=Tahoma>MICHAEL:<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Yes, it
is.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>I would only correct that, my
son, to include both what you call positive and negative experiences.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>I was pointing at a proportion here, an
enormous preponderance of the positive.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>But both are real.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>Suffering, pain, anxiety, uncertainty, these are real.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>The individual soul contains everything
that was spiritually significant in the personal life.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>And so the world soul is the true
history of all the experiences of the human race.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN></FONT></FONT></P>
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face=Tahoma>Student:<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Then that
constitutes--for me anyway--a new revelation of what the soul is.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>I’ve always thought of it as the
repository of all those moral decisions that brought forth new divine invasions
of the mind.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>I think you’re giving
it what I would call a more… soulful definition… (everyone breaks up
laughing…)<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>to include the poignancy
of our lives, the things that deepen and make bigger containers of our
souls.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN><SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN><SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN><SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN></FONT></FONT></P>
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<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><FONT size=3><FONT
face=Tahoma>MICHAEL:<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Yes, my
son.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Your soul is co-authored by
the presence of God within you--your Father Fragment.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>In this sense your soul is how God sees
your life--as a whole, and complete of every spiritually significant event from
its beginning to the present.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Yet
as we’ve given in many lessons, your conscious self is also real, and it too is
evolving.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>What it experiences is no
illusion.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>The pain, the separation,
the fear you experience as an experiential being, these are real and have
spiritual significance so often as genuine obstacles you have to overcome as
best you can; or, at times, not.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>There are those individual who do succumb to the fear and the very real
violence which surrounds them.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>This
is part of their life and their soul, and what they will carry into eternity as
true experiences.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN></FONT></FONT></P>
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<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><FONT size=3><FONT face=Tahoma>So
we’ve given many lessons on the reality of your life as you see yourself.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>As your Urantia book points out, this is
the you that makes those critical, life-directing decisions.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It is just not the whole you that we,
your spiritual parents, see.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>To us
your soul is far larger beyond your ability, yet and for quite some time to
come, to fully encompass.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Your
conscious self has a long ways to grow before it can fully appreciate this
Father Fragment co-authored part of you.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>(much laughter)<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>This too is
a matter of faith, that you have such a soul.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN></FONT></FONT></P>
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<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><FONT size=3><FONT
face=Tahoma>(Can souls fracture?)<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN></FONT></FONT></P>
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<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><FONT face=Tahoma
size=3>Student:<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Michael, just one
more question if I may--tangential but related. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>I have a group of friends who are
departing for
<st1:country-region><st1:place>Poland</st1:place></st1:country-region> to go to
<st1:place>Auschwitz</st1:place> and Treblinka to do Semitic (Ed: right word?)
healing there.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>They believe they
will be able to gather up the fragments of the souls that were left on these
killing fields--that somehow these souls, which met with such violence,
fragmented and left behind parts, or even the entire soul, on these<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>sites.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>We have transmissions from one of the
Midwayers which clarified that as being somehow real--to my great surprise.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>I wonder if you have any comment on this
idea of retrieving these soul parts and allowing them to…I don’t know
what--wherever they go.</FONT></P>
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face=Tahoma>MICHAEL:<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Yes, my
son.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>There is no human experience
in what I just defined as your conscious life that has the ability to fracture
the soul--apart from your free will choices.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>No one can do this to you.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>The soul is truly co-authored by a
Fragment of God--the purest and most powerful spirit/essence known in the
universe.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>The other co-author is
your conscious life as determined by your relatively free will bound about by a
thousand and one determinisms--conscious and otherwise--physical, mental, and
spiritual--personal and collective.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>So even “your life” is not only as you see yourself, but as God sees and
understands you, as Mother Spirit and I see and understand you.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>You are complete to us moment by
moment.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>You are imperfect insofar
as you have the potential for endless growth toward being more perfect,
yourself--as God is and always has been.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>Still!--every moment you are complete, whether you can yet realize it or
not.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN></FONT></FONT></P>
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<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><FONT face=Tahoma size=3>The soul
cannot be fragmented that way.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>Again, as your Urantia book delineates very precisely, upon death your
soul reposes in the bosom of your Guardian Angel, and on the first Morontia
World meets up with your Father Fragment, once again, to reconstitute you a
living, conscious being with memory and awareness of who you’ve always
been.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>There is nothing missing in
this reconstitution that makes you fully aware of who and what you then are at
that moment of regaining consciousness.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>The Sleeping Survivors who do not go directly over but await a planetary
dispensation/adjudication are also complete; there is nothing missing.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>You can trust your soul, no matter what
happens here. <SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>I repeat: no matter
what happens here, your soul is in the safe-keeping of a Guardian Angel and a
pure fragment of God.</FONT></P>
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<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><FONT size=3><FONT face=Tahoma>We
salute the efforts of individuals so engaged in these activities because it does
stand for a concern and a love, and an acknowledgement of what happened on those
terrible mass-killing grounds.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>As I
just said, those events are part of the planetary soul.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>From a human point of view they are
truly barely comprehensible--no person can pretend to encompass the suffering
that happened there.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>So we salute
the love that motivates these individuals to try to heal that historical
event.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>They do help by calling
attention to it in the sense of: Least We Forget--like the
<st1:place><st1:PlaceName>Holocaust</st1:PlaceName>
<st1:PlaceType>Museum</st1:PlaceType></st1:place>.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN></FONT></FONT></P>
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<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><FONT size=3><FONT
face=Tahoma>Sad to say, that was not the unique instance of such genocide in the
history of Urantia; perhaps in scale and time-compression due to modern
mechanization; but there have been other enormous events like this where nearly
entire peoples were wiped out in relatively short time.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>There have been large mounds of human
skulls piled up just for the sheer spectacle of it.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>This is the world soul of Urantia, my
son, its true history; but each individual soul is always in safe-keeping: none
was ever lost.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN></FONT></FONT></P>
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<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><FONT face=Tahoma
size=3>Student:<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Thank you,
Michael.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Thank you very much.
</FONT></P>
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<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><FONT face=Tahoma
size=3>Student:<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Thank you, Michael,
for everything you talked about.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>When you mentioned boredom, I was laughing because I could remember times
when I was, maybe just stopped at a red light and so bored, when all of a sudden
I noticed something--like a lady walking her dog--and like a blast of energy,
realized the moment would never be repeated.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>So it was such joy as I sat there at
that red light, wondering: What was it I was thinking!<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>And it was such a fun thing tonight
hearing you talking about times like that, and how we get out of them.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It’s also how I get out of times of
fear, how I calm my fear with fascination, with noticing reality.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>And so I just wanted to kind-of add
that--that I deeply appreciate your talking about that.</FONT></P>
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<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><FONT size=3><FONT
face=Tahoma>I’ll be brief, but I wanted to share something that happened a few
weeks ago.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>I was coming out of a…a
pity-party really, about myself--a little heartache, and I wasn’t about to be
walked on any more; I was going to stand up for myself.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>I was standing in line at the bagel shop
when a young lady with a six-month old baby bounced right in ahead of me.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>I might have let it go but I was in that
horrible state and so I though she was probably some rich little snob and I
wasn’t going to stand for it.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>So I
got right in her face and said, “Excuse me!<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>I was in line here!”<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>And she was really startled and jumped
back away; and I was really proud of myself.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN></FONT></FONT></P>
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<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><FONT size=3><FONT
face=Tahoma>But it took a while to get waited on, and I’m looking at her and the
baby.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>And Michael, all of a sudden
the baby started looking like one of my nephews, and started wiggling his
fingers at me, and he was so beautiful, and he just locked his eyes on me.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>So I said, “Hello, baby!”<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>But then the mother--and I was getting
over being all steamed up and self-righteous--she said, “Oh!<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>He can’t hear you--he’s deaf.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>I’m deaf too.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>We can’t hear you.”<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>And I couldn’t even look her in the
face, I was so ashamed.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>I could
only keep wiggling my fingers at the baby, and looking in his eyes.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN></FONT></FONT></P>
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<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><FONT face=Tahoma size=3>But
Michael, the more I did this, the more I realized I was looking into your face.
<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>I was looking into the purity of
creation, that moment.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>I just went
out to my car and wept, I was so appreciative of my life and everything again
because here was this little deaf baby…<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>Anyway: I cry every time I tell this story, but I wanted to share this
with you because I was so humbled right back to beaming my love out at
everyone.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>All the judgments…<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It’s so hard not to project my self onto
others.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>But I know you were there,
and I know there was a reason that happened.</FONT></P>
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<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><FONT face=Tahoma size=3>So thank
you, and thank Mother Spirit, for just every time I get down and I remember to
beam that love out.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>I just thank
you for that, very much.</FONT></P>
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<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><FONT face=Tahoma
size=3>(Michael’s thanks)</FONT></P>
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<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><FONT face=Tahoma
size=3>MICHAEL:<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Well, my daughter,
I thank you--for that discovery you made--that you were open to make it.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>But I especially thank you for what you
made of it.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Be in my peace.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>I should say: continue to be in my
peace.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>(laughing {Yes!--most
definitely!})</FONT></P>
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<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><FONT face=Tahoma
size=3>Student:<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Good evening,
Michael.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>I was really moved by what
you said about how only God, our father, can take in the whole of a person.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It makes me realize how vast, what a
great gift our personalities are--each and every one of us.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>How infinite this very personal creation
is that we can all partake in.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It’s
really mind-boggling.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>I think I
finally understand the difference between being finite and infinite that’s
explained in the forward of the (Ed: Urantia) book.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>So I really appreciate that.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>I’ve never really gotten it until
now.</FONT></P>
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<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><FONT face=Tahoma size=3>On a
more personal level, I have this one person in my life that I encounter almost
every day, and I’ve attempted to make friends with her.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>But she has a difficult time being open
or comfortable with me; actually with everyone.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>I once said something trying to make
contact--a joke--but she took offence at it.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>I tried a really sincere apology, but
she wouldn’t accept it.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Since that
time I’ve had to struggle with the reality of this person and what goes on
inside of her, and what she brings up in me--issues of women and rejection that
go clear back to my mother and my family.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>I have all this inner dialogue that comes up, and a lot of anger and
pride.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It’s gotten to the point
where I don’t know how to deal with her, besides avoiding her.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>I’d hoped to find in her some part I
could love, and not be taken in by her attitude.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>But it really gets me, her excluding
people--the kind of female thing she does.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>I keep trying to push the love out, but I have to keep making the
decision to do so; and not feeling better than her--which I’m not.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>So I found your lesson very helpful
tonight.</FONT></P>
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<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><FONT face=Tahoma size=3>Is there
anything I should be mindful of, in trying to get the love out?<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It keeps wanting to close down, and I
just want to retreat, which is what I do.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>Michael?</FONT></P>
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size=3>MICHAEL:<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Yes.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>First of all, my daughter, we enjoy
boggling your minds.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>(much
laughter)<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Thank you for seeing
through our teasing to feel our love.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>We do try to impress upon you the creative superiority of spirit as
contra-distinct from reactive mind and body.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Spirit may be the most subtle of
dimensions to humans, but it is the true origin of the others.</FONT></P>
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<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><FONT face=Tahoma size=3>Here, my
daughter, you are face to face, almost nose to nose, with what I meant by
beaming your love indiscriminately, whether or not you are judging the
response--which you are very correct in catching yourself doing.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>That self-awareness of being judgmental
is good.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>You’re kind-of playing
leapfrog with yourself, being judgmental, but then catching yourself doing it
and regretting it.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>That’s good--so
long as you keep doing it--the catching yourself part, that is.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Hopefully the judgmental part will fade
away in time with determination.</FONT></P>
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<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><FONT size=3><FONT face=Tahoma>To
be truly loving to some folks is to leave them alone.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>This is to recognize they may be almost
waving a flag to signal they don’t want contact.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>For so many, they simply are not capable
of it.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>You can casually say hello
to someone, and they glare at you in response, yet you have to realize how
you’ve just startled them and they’re incapable of anything else.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Who can know what they might have to
overcome inside themselves?<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN><SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>To continue to push yourself on them is,
in one way, to refuse to acknowledge their particular individuality.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>This is who and what they are at that
moment.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>They may be utterly
incapable of something seemingly so simple as saying hello, they’re hanging onto
themselves so tightly.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN></FONT></FONT></P>
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face=Tahoma>Here is also where understanding comes in, my daughter, for it may
not be any kind of conscious, manipulative, one-ups-man-ship female game she is
playing at all.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>You might be face
to face, nose to nose, with a psychically crippled person.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>So generously grant her the right to be
who and what she is.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>You offered a
pure motive of contact; she let you know she didn’t want it; and so it’s good
you recognized the degree to which the situation took on aspects from your own
past, which were not necessarily inherent in her at all--not of her doing.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>I think you recognized this more or less
after the fact.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>The situation
brings things up, but you do recognize their true origin, and there is
liberation in that recognition this is just your own projection of your past
experiences.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>You may not be able to
shut off these inner reactions immediately.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>But if you just observe them, they will
fade in time.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Understanding will
take the upper hand.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN></FONT></FONT></P>
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<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><FONT face=Tahoma size=3>So I
congratulate you on your willingness to understand the situation.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>I can only advise that you continue to
recognize the principle involved. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>When you offer yourself to another, do so
with equanimity.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>This is an ability
you can grow.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Let your smile come
from a generosity of spirit that does not require response.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>You’ve done your part.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>The next instant is to recognize them
for who and what they are--still, only to you at that moment, and not
necessarily to themselves or anyone else.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>And let them be.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>In doing so
you will be freeing yourself--(Michael chuckles)--as much as not overburdening
them with a presence they don’t want.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>Does this make sense?</FONT></P>
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<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><FONT face=Tahoma
size=3>Student:<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Yes, it does.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>I can leave the relationship as it is
and accept whatever limitations she puts on it.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>I’ll try to make the most of the
opportunity to deal with that part of myself that comes from the past.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It’s a challenge in that she’s a person
within a larger group of people, who puts out a negative energy, and I have to
learn how to let that go by without its attaching itself to me--without taking
it on--identifying with it.</FONT></P>
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<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><FONT face=Tahoma
size=3>MICHAEL:<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It’s true there are
people who go around like energy-vacuums, who will suck the life right out of
you, and the group, by being so overtly stand-offish.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>They appear ridiculous, putting on such
an aggressive I-want-to-be-alone attitude among everyone else, but they get
genuinely lonely too, and seek company.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>So it’s not usually conscious on their part, that they are energy-sucks,
and, in this sense, socially parasitical.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>(now everyone did break up)<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>Just let them be--don’t get sucked in, but feel a little pity for them in
your heart, and pray that in time they too will learn how to love and give of
themselves.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>There’s quite a variety
out there, my daughter, and this is only one small kind.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Just keep growing in your
understanding.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>You are doing
well.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It doesn’t mean that you‘re
not, that you can’t immediately shut down the feelings that are aroused.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>In time they will loose their ability to
affect you.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>(many heavy sighs)<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>So be in my peace.</FONT></P>
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size=3>Student:<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Yes, Michael.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Along that line of people being a
vacuum: don’t we have some responsibility in letting that happen?<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>What if it’s in my own home and I’m
constantly not being heard by a person living with me?<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>I’m like deliberately being ignored, and
the only way I can to relate to him is if I initiate it.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>And this person had been with me for two
years.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>I understand that, to a
point, he is as he is.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>But that
doesn’t take away the hurt and the pain of not being acknowledged.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>All I get is the most abrupt few words,
while he’s going on and on to someone next to him.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>I’m really being treated
differently.</FONT></P>
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face=Tahoma>Maybe it’s because I’m the father of his girlfriend, and they have
to live with me right now, but I think it’s something deeper than that.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Yet if I get caught up in the story of
it all, in my mind, you know--judgmental, or a conversation in my head that
doesn’t go anywhere, then I feel myself being sucked dry of energy.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>So instead of running away and avoiding
it, I just sit with it--to the best of my ability, and be still.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>And just be myself around him, as best I
can.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN></FONT></FONT></P>
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face=Tahoma>MICHAEL:<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>My son, I
cannot more heartedly agree with your conclusion here.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>And that is to take responsibility
within yourself for your own reactions, and, as you say, just sit with yourself
and be true to yourself in the face of this severe challenge.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Because as you might notice, there may
be from day to day a great flux in how conscious or unconscious this attitude of
his is.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>He may be very conscious of
it at times and be deliberately slighting you, yet at other times he may be
falling into an old defensive habit with more senior males.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN></FONT></FONT></P>
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<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><FONT size=3><FONT
face=Tahoma>But to take responsibility for your own reactions is the only way to
handle this creatively.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>And this is
what you’re discovering, and staying open-minded to be able to relate when the
possibility is there.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>This is the
way to grow, the most constructive way of handling a tough situation.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN></FONT></FONT></P>
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<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><FONT face=Tahoma
size=3>Student:<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Yeah, because I am
enjoying my daughter, and my granddaughter.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>But it kind-of puts a damper on the
whole situation, to have this negative energy there.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Yet if it’s not conscious, or he’s not
aware or discerning enough to be responsible for it, then I could talk myself
blue in the face and nothing would change.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>So obviously I’m the one who has to be still, and go from
there.</FONT></P>
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size=3>MICHAEL:<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Yes, to keep from
abrading yourself from within.</FONT></P>
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size=3>Student:<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Because I do, do
that.</FONT></P>
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<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><FONT face=Tahoma
size=3>MICHAEL:<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>So this is like
some indigestible, hard, gritty bit you can’t get rid of…(much laughter).<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>But to follow the analogy of a clam: how
can you make a pearl out of it?<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>Sometimes the only way in these situations is to be rather formal and
encase the relationship that way.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>You’ll be acknowledging him and meeting him somewhat on his own grounds
with a like-minded feedback.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>You’ll
still be yourself, but you’ll avoid being constantly disappointed.</FONT></P>
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face=Tahoma>Student:<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Yeah.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>But what I have noticed though, because
I know he’s had trouble with his own father and stepfather, is that he has
opened up lately to his father.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>And
he does talk to his daughter--my granddaughter--a lot like I talk to her.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>I notice that.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>So I realize that I am modeling for him
about how to be a good dad.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>And I
also realize there is a lot of difference between us.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>I don’t expect to have any
heart-to-heart talk as buddies, our interests are so different.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN></FONT></FONT></P>
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size=3>MICHAEL:<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>So you are
perceiving some growth here, some maturity.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>(Yes)<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>And so you do keep possibilities
open.</FONT></P>
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size=3>Student:<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Yeah.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>And I do have to keep away from thoughts
of wishing he wasn’t around.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>Because he is the father of my granddaughter, and I really don’t know
about the relationship between him and my daughter.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>I know I have to let that go as
well.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Who am I to dictate how they
live their lives?<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>I’m just worried
that my granddaughter is the only thing holding them together.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Do you understand what I’m
saying?</FONT></P>
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face=Tahoma>MICAHEL:<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Yes.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>You see the dead-ended-ness of parents
who live together only for the children.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>It’s not actually good for the children.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It’s better when the parents have their
own, growing relationship between themselves.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN></FONT></FONT></P>
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<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><FONT face=Tahoma
size=3>Student:<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>One last thing:
I’ve been waking up after only three hours of sleep, and so it’s like a
God-wants-to-talk-to-me kind of thing.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>I am allowing myself to experience my own unique understanding of God and
what’s true.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>So I’ve been just
lying there in stillness and letting all these possibilities go.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Because it doesn’t do me any good to
fester in bad possibilities when the actuality is here and now. </FONT></P>
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face=Tahoma>MICHAEL:<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Well,
good!<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>You’ve been taking my lessons
to heart about the need for a constant orientation to the here and now, to what
is, by disregarding what, in a sense, might have been--those enervating, wasting
kinds of regret that are only poorly thought-out judgments on what is here and
now, like: it’s not what it should be.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>Sometimes you use the expression of worrying about what God intended you
to be, when actually what God intends is for you to be free and progressively
realize your own self’s creativity.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN></FONT></FONT></P>
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<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><FONT face=Tahoma
size=3>Student:<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Yeah!--when you
said that I just realized if I allow myself to get caught up in his lack
thereof, I don’t feel free.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>I feel
confined and in prison.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>And I don’t
want to feel that way.</FONT></P>
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<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><FONT face=Tahoma
size=3>MICAHEL:<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>This is how
understanding gives you some detachment from these reactions.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>As we’ve been encouraging all along:
keep feeling: don’t shut down.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>Trust that there is in you something that will grow through this
process.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>The worst thing that can
happen is to numb out, which is a kind of death right in life, a trap that so
many folks fall into.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It’s almost
an animal reaction to pain; they just go to sleep.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It takes real courage to keep feeling,
and trust that the feeling will refine itself.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>There is that extra-animal human spirit
in you that can rise to the occasion.</FONT></P>
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size=3>Student:<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>And what I’ve found
is that when I am in that reactive state, it affects the people around me in one
way or another.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>If I start harping
on how things aren’t the way they should be, then nothing happens.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>They get their backs up and nothing
works.</FONT></P>
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<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><FONT face=Tahoma
size=3>MICHAEL:<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>And you notice just
how subtle and instantaneous this interplay is.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It’s that energy field that is largely
unconscious, but spirit is in contact with spirit.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>In the final analysis, you can’t fake it
for long.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>True generosity of spirit
has to be there.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Trust and faith do
have their own sphere of activity wherein nothing else will do.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>And that is their genuine power.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It’s good you notice these things, and
just how subtle and quickly-changing they are.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It’s a good perception.</FONT></P>
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size=3>Student:<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Yes, thank
you.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Like you said to B and C that
one time: there is no future…</FONT></P>
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size=3>MICHAEL:<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>….yet…</FONT></P>
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size=3>Student:…yet.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>(and everyone
broke up laughing again; Michael too: it continued on pretty much to the end of
the session)</FONT></P>
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<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><FONT face=Tahoma size=3>(The
personal dimensions of time)</FONT></P>
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face=Tahoma>MICHEL:<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>…and yet there
is no end to it either.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Here it
comes.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Mother Spirit and I are
tickled that your science-fiction is such a mainstay of your entertainment
industry--dozens and dozens of movies and TV series and everything else--people
are taking time-traveling as second nature.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>They forget it’s fiction, it’s so well
done.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>But it can be another bugaboo
of wishful thinking that keeps you out of here-and-now.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN></FONT></FONT></P>
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<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><FONT face=Tahoma size=3>You can
live too much of your life in the past, not in the sense we’ve recommended of
consciously reliving moments, but being unconsciously conditioned by what
happened to you.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>In fact one way of
getting out of this unconscious conditioning is by consciously reliving past
events in deep stillness, in the light of your here-and-now greater wisdom; an
understanding/catharsis that is possible.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>On the other hand, with respect to the future, people can keep putting
off doing things today until tomorrow, not just procrastinating some particular
task, but putting off living.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>A
person can put so many conditions on what constitutes “really living” they miss
the real thing coming down like a driving rain all around and within them.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Meanwhile…</FONT></P>
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face=Tahoma>There is genuine insight as to why things are happening, and that
insight becomes the basis for genuine foresight, which has some degree of
validity in predicting the future.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>Your whole scientific/empirical realm of reality--the impersonal realm of
matter/energy--can be very precisely predicted/demonstrated.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Consider another ironic bugaboo we
mentioned of folks who can only perceive the continuity of human life and are
dying of boredom, totally missing the fact each moment is also equally new,
singular, and cannot be subjected to empirical demonstration in its complexity
of not only the uniform impersonal, but also the uniquely personal, and all the
living combinations thereof, in every cosmic instance.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN></FONT></FONT></P>
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<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><FONT face=Tahoma size=3>This is
why we call you a complex being.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>Truly, one of the purposes of your life is to take it all in.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Be open to it all.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Be conscious of it all.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Trust that that wonderful spirit of
yours, that personality of yours, is growing in its ability to unite it all, to
make it all make sense.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>To give it
all value.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Because this is truly
how God and Mother Spirit and I see you.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>It is a way in which you are growing in your ability to see yourselves
and each other: in your totality.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>You will some day.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>So carry
on!<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>The adventure is always just
beginning.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Good evening, and be in
my peace.</FONT></P>
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