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align=center><FONT size=3><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma">Nebadonia--</SPAN><st1:date Month="3" Day="16"
Year="2009"><SPAN style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma">March 16,
2009</SPAN></st1:date><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p></o:p></SPAN></FONT></P>
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<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><FONT size=3><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma">Marin TM Group--Mill Valley,
</SPAN><st1:State><st1:place><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma">California</SPAN></st1:place></st1:State><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma">--</SPAN><st1:country-region><st1:place><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma">U.S.A.</SPAN></st1:place></st1:country-region><SPAN
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<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT
size=3>NEBADONIA--T/R-JL<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
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<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>(You are complete: curiosity)
<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>(Courage)<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>(Introducing Nebadonia specifically)
<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>(Dealing with fear and panic)
<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>(The fear of complacency)<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN><o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>(Complacency V.S.
completeness)<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>(One kind of
meditation)<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
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style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>Dear Mother Spirit and Michael,<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Tonight we wish to
acknowledge and thank you for being not only our parents but also our very
dearest and closest friends. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Especially in these hard times it’s so
comforting to know that you are beside us always.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>As you yourselves have said, “We will
never forget you nor forsake you. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>We will never abandon you, but we will be
with you all of your days on earth and then on into that great mystery that
awaits you all.”<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>And so you
give us a wonderful example of how to be true friends with those around us.
<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>We pray you help us open our
hearts, open our minds.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Help us
penetrate through all our prejudices and generalities--clumping people--to see
each one of us as the unique creation of God that we are. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Thank you for pointing out that
this is our dearest treasure that we carry with us always, these other human
souls we’ve come to know. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Amen.<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
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<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>NEBADONIA:<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Good evening my children, this is
Nebadonia, your spirit mother, and, I might add, the mother too of these bodies
and minds that you now possess.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It
was Michael’s and my Life Carrier Sons who literally started life on earth, and
it was under their direction, as well as that of my Mind/Spirit Adjutants, who
directed the course of evolution right down to your birth.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>So I do hope you appreciate these
marvelous designs of yours that we’ve come up with already, though the human
body itself is evolving and will continue to evolve literally forever on and on
into the stages of Life and Light on the planet.<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
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style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>(You are complete: curiosity)
<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
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style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>I wish to emphasize again that facet of
human reality we’ve called completeness. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It’s the fact that at each stage of not
only general human evolution, but at each stage in your individual life, my
children, you are a complete being.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>There is nothing missing for you to go on and have an eternal life, if
you so choose. <SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>This is our gift to
you, along with the potential for a free will to make of it what you can. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>What you make of your life is also your
gift back to us.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Those of you who
have been parents--I realize--may sometimes feel a little dismay that your
children are not truly yours, but belong to themselves and are determined to be
so.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>So you also can know the
delight of their autonomy and creativity. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>We too can see in you this striving to
embrace life.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Tonight I would like
to talk about this marvelous spiritual quality you’re endowed with, and that I,
with my Adjutant consciousness, share with you and augment.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>This is the quality of curiosity.
<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
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style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>You have that ironic statement that
curiosity killed the cat.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>For this
particular little domestic creature, what you see is mostly just a native
hunting ability as well as a territorial sense of ownership and a gregarious
nature. <SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Yet this leads to all that
really interesting behavior with their human friends that you call curiosity,
and so you can see even in a small animal like this how a territorial imperative
coupled with simple hungers of food and mating leads to a need to explore as
best it can its surroundings--and get into trouble.
<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
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style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>But there is not only a quantitative
but an essential qualitative leap from this interesting little pet to a human
child. <SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Even shortly after birth as
the small baby becomes aware of its surroundings, you can note how they seem to
be like a sponge just absorbing this unique reality of theirs. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>We spoke of attitude as the
marvelous willingness and then the growing ability to relate to all that other
out there--ultimately to embracing and crossing the whole of the universe, the
whole of Havona--I should say, the billion worlds of Havona, until you stand
some eons and eons from now in the presence of your Father. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>This is the marvelous drive that
encourages you to seek out and embrace the true glory of God’s creation.
<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>I’m not sure why you say it killed a
cat. <SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Perhaps because that very
curiosity and need to have a certain territory under its control leads your
precious little kitties out to grab hold of more than can handle and
defend--against maybe some bigger dog entering their realm that, if they were a
little bit wiser, they would avoid. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It’s certainly not true with human
beings.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It’s the very essence of
curiosity that enables you to grow--the power, you might say, behind your need
to grow.<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
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style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>Your Urantia book correctly points out
that while your personality is changeless beyond your ability to fully grasp and
appreciate yet, still the relationship between your personality and your
spirit-generated soul of all your experiences is nothing but a dynamic growth;
or else you and it would cease. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Curiosity is that innate drive that feeds
your soul. <SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>If there is any negative
human attitude towards curiosity, it’s probably the fact that often in some of
your more lazy moods it will not let you rest.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>And so you wonder: what is beyond the
horizon of what you have so far experienced? <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>What is out there? <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>How do you get to it?<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Wonder is curiosity’s corollary with a
double meaning.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Like curiosity it’s
wondering what’s out there.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Then
you get to stand in wonder and awe at the enormity of what you’ve just
discovered. <o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>(Courage)<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>And so to arouse you out of your lazy
slumbers, to motivate you to go beyond what you’ve already accomplished, you
have that closely allied spiritual quality of courage.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>With these two great spiritual
qualities, my children, you cannot go wrong. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>You will find your way home someday
across eons of time and the whole time/space universe.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Courage can be seen as the allied power
that enables you do that which is difficult or frightening, even in the face of
the pseudo-wisdom of fear--the shrinking back from what your true wisdom says
you need to do. <o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>This is the next step for there is
basic physical fear--animal terror--shrinking back from the unknown--the overly
cautious attitude that just wants to be content with what you’ve already
encountered and made your own.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>This
is so instinctive on such a physical/mental level it takes the spiritual quality
of courage, coupled with the free will of yours, for you to get out and live a
fulfilling life. <SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It enables you to
say at the moment of death: Yes, dear Father, I’m full to overflowing. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>I’m ready to go to the next stage. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>I wonder what it might be?<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>We have assured you, you will not
dissemble your surprise upon reawakening on the Mansion Worlds to look around in
true wonder and reborn curiosity at how marvelous and strange it all is. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>This is the reward of curiosity and
courage: a full soul. <o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>Think of the people you have known, my
children.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Think of having them in
your soul far, far beyond even your wonderful memories of who they were and what
you shared. <SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It is your eternal
wealth.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Just as you can have the
sure knowledge deep in your heart that you too are a priceless gift of God’s, so
are they within you, and that they too have you in their souls.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>So glory in this great drive to
constantly go beyond what you have yet known, whom you have already met and
befriended. <SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Let me tease you with
the notion of all the other kinds of beings you’ll
encounter.<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>We’ve talked about dimensions of
reality, so think of how each order of living beings is another dimension of
reality that you will encounter and come to know.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It’s how, shall we say, a Melchizedek
sees himself and the universe, and sees you. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>This is that great adventure of all kinds
of beings, and then each one of them as well a unique person. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It would be quite overwhelming were not
for the fact your personality--your personhood--you--have no limits, neither in
time nor extent. <SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>You will cross the
universe. <SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>You will cross the
billion unique worlds of Havona. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Your future stretches out in front of you
with no limit whatsoever. <o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>Yet there will always be your curiosity
getting ever larger for all the rewards it has led you to. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>There will always be that greater part of
God’s creation that you cannot know from the outside, but only from the inside,
only from the most intimately playing with it.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>There will always be, my children, the
need for courage--always. <SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>You will
always be asked to go into that which you cannot know beforehand. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>This is the essential mystery that God
is, and it lies within every pair of eyes you meet. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>So be of good cheer. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Glory in the curiosity and the courage
you can have to meet those other eyes looking to meet yours. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>This is the great personal dance, not of
galaxies swirling through space, but of each unique individual living
being.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Eyes meeting the response of
eyes: this is what it’s all about. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>This is that immediate infinity when you
meet another person, and this is why they fill your soul.
<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>So let us thank our Father together, as
Michael and I too live in a living worship that we too have not only our power
and glory, but even our need for curiosity and courage to greet the new day.
<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>In this we are very much alike, my
children, and some day you too will be in somewhat a similar position as Michael
and I are already, with some vast concourse of other subordinate living beings
dependent upon you. <SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>This is that
marvelous future waiting there for you. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>We invite you to go forward with joy to
meet it.<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>If you have any questions or comments,
I think I know where they’re coming from. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN><o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>Student: <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Good evening, Mother, I have a curiosity
question, if I may.<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>NEBADONIA, chuckling:<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>I can hardly refuse now, my son. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN><o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>Student:<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>I’ve always wondered why you’re not
mentioned by name in the Urantia book?<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>In all my reading the Urantia book I never met you, I never knew who you
were until we got to these sessions.<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>(Introducing Nebadonia specifically)
<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
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style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>NEBADONIA:<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Well, yes, my son.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>You’ve no doubt noticed the similarity
between my name and the name of our local universe. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>(Yes, I did)<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>As with the chicken and the egg, you
might wonder which came first.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>They
literally arose together.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>As a
Mother Spirit, my space presence literally defines Nebadon.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>But as to why this is not in the
original Urantia book, we had to draw the line somewhere.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Remember I teased you before with saying
it’s not often we get a question of why things--weren’t--included in the Urantia
book. <SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>For most folks--I’m sure
you’ll agree--it’s quite comprehensive enough. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>(Yes)<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>And so the need--or shall I say, the
usefulness--of the whole Teaching Mission, which we once likened to a college
professor giving ongoing lectures on the text. <o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>There is so much to God’s creation, my
son, that the Urantia book is truly only the skimpiest of outlines of what
actually exists within cosmic reality.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>The purpose of the Teaching Mission is to keep bringing out more and more
facets of both ours and God’s creation, and you yourselves. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>So I can only say: no excuse. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>We accept the omission. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It wasn’t considered prudent at the
time.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>As Michael said last time
when instructing you about what we feel is one of the best kinds of meditation,
we hope we are making up for that now.<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
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<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>Student:<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Yes, definitely you are, Mother.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Thank you.<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
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<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>NEBADONIA, with humor:<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>At least now you know now how to address
me.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Be in my love.
<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
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<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>Student:<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Excuse me, Mother Nebadonia? <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It affects me personally, what you said
tonight about acting out of curiosity, and the need to activate our
courage.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It requires me to overcome
a really deep-seated kind of fear and panic that goes right to my gut, and is
something I struggle with every day.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>Then what you said at the very end, about at some point in time being
responsive to all these other beings, something about not only having a vision
of something but why it’s worth it to go through dealing with our really deep
animal fear now.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Just any ordinary
every day--what I need to do to take care of people just isn’t compelling enough
to, like, be willing to grapple with the fear. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>And so it was really helpful to hear that
there is this endless adventure that is so fascinating.
<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
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<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>Somehow that makes doing it now really
worthwhile, because if I can do it now--take care of what is my own--then I will
have grown so much that when I have greater and larger responsibility, I’ll just
take it on; I’ll have so much more resources of my soul to do that.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>So it’s really helpful to hear it.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>I’ve had so many accidents, I’m really
grateful for courage--to know they could be good for something.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Thank you.<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
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<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>(Dealing with fear and panic)
<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
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<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>NEBADONIA:<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>My daughter, I’m so proud of you,
working with me here to activate and share my other great adjutant of
wisdom.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>This is what I hear you
expressing now. The best advice I can offer you is to continue to trust in your
feelings no matter what they are, because there is great wisdom and courage in
feeling your fear, even your panic--directly--for they are not entirely
unavoidable.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>There is the whole
psychological dimension of reaction to feeling.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>You have an innate ability, and well as
other folks’ examples, of denial--what you might think of as running away in
your mind, or drowning yourself in any number of physical diversions, food or
drugs, to avoid facing stark realities.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN><o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
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<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>So I commend your courage in dealing
with your fear and panic, because the shortest, most sure way of doing this is
right through them, not running away from them.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Just feel and courageously let your
feelings articulate what exactly there is to be afraid of.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Then your personality, endowed with
wisdom and free-will initiative, can see through the mental fog of fear and
blind reaction, to original causes.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>It may take a number of times, but in time you’ll arrive at an inner
understanding that gives you some detachment from overwhelming emotions.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It may seem strange, but because you are
determined to feel these things and let them articulate within you, by that very
thing you become greater than them.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>Just to have them as a discrete inner perception to examine is how you
get through them each time. <o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
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<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>To back up what Michael talked about
last time, this is a great benefit of meditation, of sitting down right in the
middle of fear and saying: OK, let’s have it.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>What is there to be afraid of here?<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Let it come into expression.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Here, my daughter, you are exercising
your faith.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>You are trusting that
you yourself, your spirit and your soul, are greater that anything fear can
articulate.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>But this is a real
experience.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>These feelings are no
illusions as some of your metaphysical systems would have you believe.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>They are real and they have to be dealt
with if you wish to grow, if you wish to exercise your wonderful curiosity and
wonder, and have what they lead you to discover in your life.
<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
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<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>So I congratulate you on paying due
respect to these feelings, even for the way they intrude into your life.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>You are right.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>As you penetrate them with insight, that
very thing strengths you.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>That kind
of soul growth is what prepares you--as you understand--for the next big
challenge.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>So I hope you have a
good sense of humor and irony about what you are being prepared for.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>(Mother and student chuckle) <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>There will always be the need for
courage, for you will always be encountering--forever and ever--something
enormous.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>But then that’s the glory
of it all, is it not? <SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>So carry on,
my daughter.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Be unafraid.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Just keep feeling what reality and your
own soul present you with.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Keep
choosing and deciding by exercising your free will.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Keep developing it too like a strong
muscle, and it will stand you in good stead.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>And be in my love.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>(Thank you)<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
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style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>Student:<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Yes, Mother Spirit.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>One of my greatest fears is the opposite
of curiosity.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It’s of being
complacent, of not--in a sense--seeking--seeking a different way of looking at
something.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>But it seems like I’ve
always been serious in wanting to see what’s going on around me, and within me,
in a different way.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>I feel that in
the past few years--especially since I’ve been involved with the Teaching
Mission--I’m getting even more curious into feeling things from a different
perspective, from a different vantage point, and not adhering to any status
quo.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Life has a way of, at least in
my circumstances, of stretching me so I sometimes have a curiosity to be open to
a different way seeing a situation.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>It’s all I have, because if I hold on, I’d be complacent.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>I’d be holding on to old teachings that
no longer serve any purpose or have any energy behind them.
<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
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<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>So in a sense, I am forced to see
things, to be curious, to step through that veil of the unknown of what I don’t
know, into a whole new paradigm of what can be. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>I like that notion of curiosity and
having the courage to take those steps into the unknown, into the fog, and see
if the fog really isn’t there, the veil isn’t there, but it’s a whole new
perspective of reality.<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
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<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>(The fear of complacency) <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN><o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
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<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>NEBADONIA:<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>What occurs to me, my son, is that from
a human standpoint there’s such a close kinship of curiosity and the fear of no
growth, status quo, complacency. <SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>I
suppose the distinguishing thing is that curiosity is like a tug whereas the
fear of complacency is more like a whip driving you. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>They’re both useful tools to get you
moving out there exploring, with the courage to go into it. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>So your fear of the fear--(Mother
chuckles)--of complacency is nothing to worry about. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>I think you correctly just realized the
tug of curiosity is a little nicer.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>It’s a lot more fun to be kind-of teased into something rather than just
being driven along. <o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
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<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>The attitude with which you can
approach things is a little more positive that way. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>In any case they are two great motivating
forces that are very closely allied with your deeper wisdom that realizes the
death in stagnation and wants you to avoid it at all cost, even at the risk of
life and limb. <SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Irrespective of the
cat analogy, curiosity certainly has done in a few human beings all along. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>But then that’s the price you pay, and
that’s why it takes courage to welcome and enjoy a real thorough-going
investigation.<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
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<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>Student:<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Yeah, I see what you mean. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>As you were saying that I saw the
distinction between curiosity and the fear of complacency. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Curiosity has a more positive overtone to
it like inquiring in terms of who I am, inquiring into a greater aspect of who I
am, curious about transforming and opening to a greater sense of who I am.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>While complacency I see as a fear of
boredom and (student laughs) actually being propelled by fear, you know?<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>In that sense I see where that could be
detrimental because we’d never be coming from a place of solid ground of
spiritual home base.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>We’d always be
seeking something outside ourselves whether it’s to climb a mountain or to go
off into some tangent of spiritual seeking.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>So I do see the distinction in
that.<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
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<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>(Complacency V.S.
completeness)<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
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<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>NEBADONIA:<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Also, my son, you are touching on the
distinction between feeling complacent and feeling complete in your home
base.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>I agree there is hardy
anything more psychically painful for an alert human being than intense boredom.
<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>But there is a difference between
complacency, which you can be fearful of falling into like some sticky pit, and
taking a break from everything--even from curiosity--just to be--in your
meditation.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Consider taking a break
from everything conceivable--even that delicious tug of the unknown--and just
fully enjoying being in your organic/mindful/spiritual/soulful completeness with
us and our Father.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>So while
complacency is something to avoid, you make that distinction.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Then when you do take your break from
striving just to feel all that you already are, you can glory in that. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>This is by no means being complacent.
This is that deep rest, returning home, that allows you to launch forth again
refreshed and renewed. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN><o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
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<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>Student:<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Yeah, I understand that.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>I’ve been feeling where sometimes, you
know, if you’re always serious you’re not really experiencing the moment.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>You’re experiencing something in the
future, or trying to.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>But if you
just in the moment experience a piece of that deep joy, that rest; and I have
been feeling that more and more. <SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>I
can see an analogy in that. <SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It’s
like my mind or my whole being doesn’t want to take in anymore. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It’s had it--you know?<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It just wants to enjoy what it has taken
in--in a sense, integrate and just enjoy that. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>So I have been experiencing that more and
more.<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
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<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>NEBADONIA:<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It’s the fulfillment of curiosity.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It’s wonderful to have your curiosity
fulfilled, even, every now and then, to be totally overwhelmed with the enormity
of it all.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It keeps you happy and
humble.<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
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<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>Student: <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Yeah, I see that and I feel that. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>There are times where I feel that my fear
for the wellbeing of others, like my daughter and my granddaughter in
particular, is that because they’re no longer in my realm and around me in day
to day life.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>They’re on their own.
<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>I guess I’ll always be apprehensive
about what’s going on in their lives, and how I can best go to them--which I do
know how. <SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>But there’s an underlying
tone in my relationship with them that sometimes I feel like it’s not totally
healthy for me or for them.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>Sometimes I have a hard time letting go--and I’m sure you can relate to
this. <SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN><o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
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<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>But it’s like--because my daughter at
times can be so frantic in her mind, I’d like to be able to show her how to
kind-of harness that.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>And she’s
aware of that too; she told me it’s like sometimes her mind reflects in her
life, certain aspects of her life.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>I am aware of this underlying apprehension, this fear for their own
wellbeing, and it’s nothing I can do. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>I can’t control them--obviously--but I
can find some peace within myself behind that fear.<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
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<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>NEBADONIA:<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>I think you have realized, my son, that
a true love is not possessive, and it does take courage.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>You are right that, as you say, Michael
and I know full well to let our children be. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>This is that true friendship you
mentioned in your opening prayer. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It’s the greater part of parental love,
and then even a friend’s love. <SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>The
love of friendship is to let each other be; even let your children, you know,
stub their toes and stumble and fall. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It’s the recognition that you are
experiential beings, and experience is what fills your souls.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Hopefully, as in the case of your
daughter, there’s even some reflection coming about that enables her to see what
she needs to do next, how she needs to grow some more control and calmness.
<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>I congratulate you and encourage
you to keep letting her be.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Accept
your anxiety for her as a token of your love.<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
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style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>Student:<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Thank you.<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>NEBADONIA:<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Be in my love.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>(long
pause)<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
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style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>Do you have any questions or comments
this evening, C? <SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>You certainly
don’t need any. <SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>We can just enjoy
this wonderful thing we share here. <o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
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style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Thank you, Mother
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style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>NEBADONIA:<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Then, my daughter, be in my
love.<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
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meditation)<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
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style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>I would like to ask you, my children,
to, if you would, read again Michael’s lesson last time on meditation. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Because as he said, we know fully
well--and so he wished to acknowledge--that for those of you who have not gone
deeply into this, to where it is a reward and a very sure anchor in this organic
life you live, it is indeed a very strange thing from the outside. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Why is that person just sitting there?
(Mother chuckles) Or, more personally, why am I just setting here?--so much to
do--so many great good things--my curiosity is calling--I can feel it calling
for me--and my courage is revving me up to get out there and do it.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>So think of determined meditation as a
kind of counterpoise, a way of practicing acceptance of whatever is coming up on
its own, not related or anchored to some specific physical activity.
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style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>If it helps you understand the peculiar
difficulty of meditation, consider that from the standpoint of your animal,
physical being, there’s nothing more terrifying than immobility. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>To an animal it means helplessness.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>If any of you have tried to hold a wild
animal still, you know how they will struggle against you. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>So when you sit down to meditate this is
also another thing that you are confronting.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Your need to be doing something, your
impatience to be getting on with your life can, unfortunately, keep spurring you
on down some kind of rabbit-path of least resistance, identifying with some
conditioned habit either good or bad. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>This is the unique difficulty of the kind
we recommend because it’s not filling your mind with some particular object to
contemplate.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Those are just other
kinds of meditations and valuable in their own right.
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style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>But if you will, just stubbornly sit
there seeing what comes up. <SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>The one
activity we have offered besides continuing to be aware of you breath and your
heart beating, is taking notes of those things that pop up which seem so
valuable you’ll become afraid of forgetting them. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>But the practice of just letting come
what will is contra-distinct from sitting down to work on a problem, or even
playing with some favorite hobby. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Just sit down and think: OK, Father, here
I am.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>What do You have for me?<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>You continue accepting whatever comes
next--whatever it is--even some silly TV commercial jingle: whatever.
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<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>You are at your home base and this is
what is happening now.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>You can
slowly grow this detachment.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>This
ever-refined experience of who and what you are does open the door to something
continuing.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>When you stand up I
would suggest very slowly walking around a little bit to gradually merge into
activity once again. <SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>You will find
that you have indeed just earned something and it is staying with you.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>This kind of strange inactivity of just
sitting and watching your breath, feeling your heart beat, watching your
thoughts, is in itself the greatest teaching we can provide for you, for here is
also where we become friends. <SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>We
can even give you a feeling of our presence.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>And so we ask this of you, my children,
that you join us here and say hello. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Feel my love and let it radiate all
through you. <SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Good
evening.<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
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