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size=3><FONT face="Times New Roman">October 29,
2009<o:p></o:p></FONT></FONT></SPAN></B></P>
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face="Times New Roman">T/R Jerry Lane<BR></FONT></SPAN></B><SPAN
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style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal">MICHAEL:<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN></B>My sweet children...this is Michael.
And I'm most glad to be with you...always, always, always and forever. This
contact need never be lost. But it is up to our free-willed children to invite
us to be a part of you...self-consciously...here
inside.<o:p></o:p></FONT></FONT></SPAN></P>
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style="COLOR: black; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'"><FONT
size=3><FONT face="Times New Roman">You're such amazing creatures. And so I'll
give due credit to our Universal Father for coming up with the idea, actually,
of all of us. And now to Mother Spirit and Myself, we are a little more directly
and immediately responsible for this pattern being that you are...working with
Our Life Carrier Sons...seeing to it they don't get too wild in their
experimentation. I'm teasing of course, because they are not this capricious at
all with the very life entrusted to them.<o:p></o:p></FONT></FONT></SPAN></P>
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style="COLOR: black; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'"><FONT
size=3><FONT face="Times New Roman">And so, as a way of honoring Our Father,
honoring you, I'd like to talk a little bit about the kind of creatures you
are. Awhile ago, Mother Spirit and I once had a
serious reflection -on a handbook for
being human...the handbook of a human being - that unfortunately, at your
stage of planetary development, you aren't given one of these at birth. You are
not always instructed in the kind of being that you are as you grow up. So, a
great deal of your complexity comes at you totally from without and you fail to
recognize deep from within what you yourself are doing. And this objective
fallacy is the cause of so much terrible suffering...especially in terms of
social and political and national warfare. And you often have two combatants
- whether in the home or outside or in those enormous wars you've
known and still know - two combatants fighting as much themselves as each
other.<o:p></o:p></FONT></FONT></SPAN></P>
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style="COLOR: black; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'"><FONT
size=3><FONT face="Times New Roman">So where do we start? Let's start with this
person who's listening to me right now or perhaps later reading a transcript.
Let's call this your conscious self...your field of consciousness...you've got
your eyes open and looking around the room. There's a lot in this field of
consciousness. If you, yourself, are aware of yourself, let's call
that your ego...when you're aware of yourself...mind and body, heart and
soul in various combinations...who you feel yourself to have been...all your
memories and things that you have done and the sum total of all your
self-conscious self. And I'd like to point out how necessary this ego is as a
social construct. How you see yourself and feel yourself to be is how you
present yourself.<o:p></o:p></FONT></FONT></SPAN></P>
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class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="COLOR: black; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'"><FONT
size=3><FONT face="Times New Roman">Think back to those very early days of your
early socialization in kindergarten and early school and all those other
children who presented themselves a little too melodramatically and had to be
trimmed down by all their classmates for being so pretentious. Think of all
those poor little shy ones who didn't have the nerve to present themselves
at all - as they kind of hung out in the corner of the room peering shyly
about. Think about just walking down the sidewalk or being in the situation
where you're meeting new people for the first time. You have to make a
presentation. You have to be there for others. So this is a necessary social
thing, the ego.<o:p></o:p></FONT></FONT></SPAN></P>
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class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="COLOR: black; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'"><FONT
size=3><FONT face="Times New Roman">Ego is not all your consciousness. Right
along side this social necessity to be there, you also have this marvelous
self-forgetfulness. It's when you seem to fade away. Something else fills your
field of consciousness.another person, some delightful hobby, some intense
work your doing. So, this is your conscious self, whether you are in it or not.
This is what fills your memories and waking hours...the you that Mother Spirit
and I address.<o:p></o:p></FONT></FONT></SPAN></P>
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<P
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class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="COLOR: black; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'"><FONT
size=3><FONT face="Times New Roman">But it is by no means the totality of you.
Let's just call that your personhood...your total person...being...this personal
being that you are...this created being ...this
creature...<o:p></o:p></FONT></FONT></SPAN></P>
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class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="COLOR: black; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'"><FONT
size=3><FONT face="Times New Roman">We have informed you as your Urantia Book
says...and you may know deeply, instinctively, inside...that you are unique.
There is no other like you whatsoever...anywhere...anytime. This fundamental
reality that you are we call your personality. Obviously, this is different from
the personality peak of...or personality princess of your
highschool yearbook. This personality is your fundamental, god-created being.
Only God has a sufficiency of infinity to create an infinite number of unique
beings of dozens and dozens of orders, from the human, right on up. This
personality is very distinct from your ego. It's such a profound reality, such a
point of departure, you can literally not grasp your personality as an object.
That little mirror that you hold out in front of yourself to be aware of
yourself...this is your ego. Personality is who you are as a point of
departure...a nodule of experience out here in time and space. At this
first phase of your eternal life, this personality is intimately associated with
a body and mind in order to achieve consciousness. A consciousness is dependent
on a body and mind. <o:p></o:p></FONT></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P
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class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="COLOR: black; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'"><FONT
size=3><FONT face="Times New Roman">There is another part of your being and this
is also a part of your personality. It's what we call Spirit. It's a way in
which God not only shares personality with you, He also shares a portion of His
creativity. Spirit is how you, as a very discrete being here in time and space,
can bring something new into time and space that never existed before. Certainly
all its many little components, all the little pieces of your new invention
already existed. But the way you put it together...this is a power of
creativity...the greatest that God has and the greatest your personality
has. You are endowed with Spirit as a quality. As your Urantia Book says:
God is the focus of personality and the Eternal Son is the focus of living
Spirit. It shows a primacy of personality to Spirit. In other words, you are a
personality with Spirit...you are not a Spirit with
personality.<o:p></o:p></FONT></FONT></SPAN></P>
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<P
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class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="COLOR: black; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'"><FONT
size=3><FONT face="Times New Roman">So, you have this body/mind. And I put those
together because this is the part of you, my children, that does obey impersonal
law - pure biochemical cause and effect - right down to the little dancing
electrons in your brain and body...this living creature you are. It's what all
your scientific instruments can detect, right down to those millionths of a
volt, dancing between cells.<o:p></o:p></FONT></FONT></SPAN></P>
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<P
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class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="COLOR: black; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'"><FONT
size=3><FONT face="Times New Roman">And so, what I'm saying tonight, and what I
want you to get a feeling of, is that this conscious you...this field of
consciousness that you are in the middle of and creating...is not entirely only
your body and mind. If you were strictly a causal being, no matter how complex
your brain is...no matter how many billions of cells that exist there...the kind
of consciousness that you have is still enormously, qualitatively distinct from
any animal...no matter how intelligent because you are endowed with this
personal spirit. Your consciousness is part of this personal creativity of
yours. Your consciousness - your mentality - is more than just your
physiological brain activity...and has been right from the very beginning. This
is true whether you are aware of yourself or not, or are enjoying some
delightful self-forgetfulness. </FONT></FONT></SPAN></P>
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class=MsoNormal><SPAN
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size=3><FONT face="Times New Roman">The personality is always
creating.<o:p></o:p></FONT></FONT></SPAN></P>
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<P
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class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="COLOR: black; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'"><FONT
size=3><FONT face="Times New Roman">Think of your body and mind as this pure
continuity that obeys physical law and personal law. Then your personhood is
more than this...your experience of life is more than this. The Urantia Book
gives you a rule of thumb to grasp this complexity of physical facts, mental
meanings and relationships, and then, spiritual value. This may seem very
strange...like what is value? Why can I, as a human being, detect
value...to see value in something in a way that no animal can? So, it might
sound very strange. So, let's put it this way. You're constantly with your
person, your personality in this spiritual quality. You're constantly
evaluating your reality every instant. Right now, you're evaluating what
I'm saying. You evaluate how you feel when you get up in the morning and sit on
the edge of the bed, the taste of your morning cereal or breakfast, or how
someone says hello to you, or the soul behind the eyes of a person you lock
gazes with. It's a constant thing your personality or spirit is involved in -
value - which is transcendant to either meaning or
fact.<o:p></o:p></FONT></FONT></SPAN></P>
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size=3><FONT face="Times New Roman"></FONT></FONT></SPAN> </P>
<P
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class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="COLOR: black; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'"><FONT
size=3><FONT face="Times New Roman">IT'S HOW YOU ARE TAKING FACT THAT IS A
CREATIVE ACT IN THE PRESENT MOMENT. And also, my children, THIS IS THE BASIS FOR
YOUR FREEDOM! THIS PERSONAL CREATIVITY, THIS INNER REALITY YOU HAVE IS THE VERY
BASIS FOR YOUR BEING ABLE TO ACT INDEPENDENTLY OF WHAT CAME JUST A MOMENT
BEFORE.<o:p></o:p></FONT></FONT></SPAN></P>
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class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="COLOR: black; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'"><FONT
size=3><FONT face="Times New Roman">Now, we say that this is potential because
this is not only a quality you are able to exercise, it exists along an
enormously broad, quantitative dimension. So we say, to a large degree, that
this free will is potential because it is conditioned and bound about by a
thousand and one little determinisms - not only physical... that is, you
can't literally fly...without an airplane; there are all kinds of things
you can't conceive of mentally. You have all the conditioning of your culture,
your time, even the degree that your planet has evolved. All of these condition
your free will. By being aware of this conditioning, your free will is a little
more free and more aware of its boundaries and what you can do within these
boundries.<o:p></o:p></FONT></FONT></SPAN></P>
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<P
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class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="COLOR: black; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'"><FONT
size=3><FONT face="Times New Roman">We're getting pretty complex here. You're a
personality with Spirit, you have a mind and a body, you have a consciousness
which is not only your own personal spirit but has three other great spiritual
influences right in this inner reality:<o:p></o:p></FONT></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P
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style="COLOR: black; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'"><FONT
size=3><FONT face="Times New Roman"> 1. A fragment of
God helping adjust your thoughts and your
consciousness. <BR> 2. Mother Spirit
augmenting these
basic constituents - INTUITION, KNOWLEDGE, UNDERSTANDING,
COURAGE, COUNSEL, WISDOM and WORSHIP<BR> 3.My
Spirit of Truth as a way of orienting yourself towards truth...towards that
totality.<o:p></o:p></FONT></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P
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class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="COLOR: black; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'"><FONT
size=3><FONT face="Times New Roman">And so you, as this conscious being with
this inner reality, this totality of you, this personhood is an
encompassing. It is a living encompassing in which you move and live and
have your being. And this whole pattern, this whole distinct human pattern that
you are was very much in God's mind before you existed. This is the essence that
literally preceded your existence. This is Spirit...this is creative
Spirit.<o:p></o:p></FONT></FONT></SPAN></P>
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size=3><FONT face="Times New Roman"></FONT></FONT></SPAN> </P>
<P
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class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="COLOR: black; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'"><FONT
size=3><FONT face="Times New Roman">So I'm saying this tonight, my children, so
you can have this feeling of you surrounding you...of you existing in the
field of you. So all of that out there, all of that seemingly purely
objective world, even the room your sitting in...is partly you. That's that
wonderful oriental expression of "Thou art that". And that, out there, is partly
you. <o:p></o:p></FONT></FONT></SPAN></P>
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size=3><FONT face="Times New Roman"></FONT></FONT></SPAN> </P>
<P
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class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="COLOR: black; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'"><FONT
size=3><FONT face="Times New Roman">So, this is the orientation I would have you
carry with you from tonight. We call it
open-mindedness...open-heartedness...being open in your mind and in your
heart to this living encompassing, like a bubble all around you. For this
is yours. This is what you will always have, forever. You will always be in this
encompassing of your own interpretation, your own take on both your inner and
outer reality. THIS IS YOUR FREE WILL. THIS IS HOW YOU CAN GROW TO CHOOSE HOW
YOU TAKE IT...WHAT YOU MAKE OF IT.<o:p></o:p></FONT></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P
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<P
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class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="COLOR: black; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'"><FONT
size=3><FONT face="Times New Roman">But there is another very big part. This is
your soul. This is another whole kind of reality, but still part of your
personhood, part of your human being. This is the story of your life, not only
as you feel it and remember it as your ego consciousness, but as He
- also and equally, as a fragment of God - has taken on your
life...with all the completeness and wholeness of THAT point of view. This is
that miracle that awaits you when you awaken on the mansion worlds and all of a
sudden your soul...this creation...this point of view of your entire life is so
much more suddenly yours.<o:p></o:p></FONT></FONT></SPAN></P>
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<P
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class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="COLOR: black; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'"><FONT
size=3><FONT face="Times New Roman">But I tease. I tease you in order to get you
in your meditation to address your own soul and say, "Dear soul of mine...Dear
Father fragment...Dear presence of God in me, What have you got for me this
time? What is this enormous wealth that I am accumulating here, living day to
day, of which there is no substitute anywhere? What have you got for me? What
can you show me? What do I need to know, of all that has been...from YOUR point
of view?"<o:p></o:p></FONT></FONT></SPAN></P>
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size=3><FONT face="Times New Roman"></FONT></FONT></SPAN> </P>
<P
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class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="COLOR: black; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'"><FONT
size=3><FONT face="Times New Roman">We call this humility. This is what you
experience in the presence of something enormous. Not only all that out there,
all those millions of galaxies and all...but your own soul...is enormous
compared to this moment by moment self-conscious you. But this moment to moment
self-conscious you has the power to decide to choose to orient and open yourself
to that which is so much greater than you...greater even than your own
soul.<o:p></o:p></FONT></FONT></SPAN></P>
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class=MsoNormal><SPAN
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size=3><FONT face="Times New Roman"></FONT></FONT></SPAN> </P>
<P
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class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="COLOR: black; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'"><FONT
size=3><FONT face="Times New Roman">And so, my dear ones, I hope I've
helped you develop a little more appreciation for all that surrounding
personhood that you are as you walk along and look about and wonder at all of
that out there, that there's something in here that almost perfectly counter
balances all of that out there. Mother Spirit and I desire for you to have both
and feel strong, not only out there, but in here - in here where we
are.<o:p></o:p></FONT></FONT></SPAN></P>
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size=3><FONT face="Times New Roman"></FONT></FONT></SPAN> </P>
<P
style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt; mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto"
class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="COLOR: black; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'"><FONT
size=3><FONT face="Times New Roman">Mother Spirit sends all Her love and I
bid you be in My peace..... <o:p></o:p></FONT></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P
style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt; mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto"
class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="COLOR: black; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'"><FONT
size=3><FONT face="Times New Roman"></FONT></FONT></SPAN> </P>
<P
style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt; mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto"
class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="COLOR: black; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'"><FONT
size=3><FONT face="Times New Roman">Now, if you have any comments or questions,
we most truly delight when you do open your heart and your mind and your soul,
and ask of us what you really need to know. What can we truly help you
with?<o:p></o:p></FONT></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P
style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt; mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto"
class=MsoNormal><FONT size=3><FONT face="Times New Roman"><B
style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal"><SPAN
style="COLOR: black; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'"></SPAN></B></FONT></FONT> </P>
<P
style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt; mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto"
class=MsoNormal><FONT size=3><FONT face="Times New Roman"><B
style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal"><SPAN
style="COLOR: black; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'">Gerdean:</SPAN></B><SPAN
style="COLOR: black; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'"> Michael,
this is Gerdean and I want to thank you for your words this evening. They were
very satisfying and I feel enriched by them. I’m afraid, however, that it’s
going to be like Chinese food and I'll be hungry in a few minutes.
I’d like to have a takeout bag, if I might, and let me see what I am looking at
here. <o:p></o:p></SPAN></FONT></FONT></P>
<P
style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt; mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto"
class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="COLOR: black; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'"><FONT
size=3><FONT face="Times New Roman"></FONT></FONT></SPAN> </P>
<P
style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt; mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto"
class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="COLOR: black; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'"><FONT
size=3><FONT face="Times New Roman">I particularly found it valuable that you
talked about evaluating -- the root word of that is <I
style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal">value</I>; we evaluate all the time -- as
compared to judging. Sometimes I’m afraid to evaluate because of the
perspective that I’m judging instead of evaluating. I’ve become so ultra
sensitive to judgment -- my own or others -- that I almost don't want to think
anymore, or factor anything anymore. I even have a hard time
calling you into my focus. <o:p></o:p></FONT></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P
style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt; mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto"
class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="COLOR: black; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'"><FONT
size=3><FONT face="Times New Roman"></FONT></FONT></SPAN> </P>
<P
style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt; mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto"
class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="COLOR: black; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'"><FONT
size=3><FONT face="Times New Roman">I know you are there, and I trust you are,
but you know … I used to have a routine I used to go through and I could
feel you. I would go through this mantra, and the door would open,
and I would be in your presence and we'd talk.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>But somehow I've closed that off and
said, "No, it's not working anymore; He's bigger than that." And yet I miss that
routine. <o:p></o:p></FONT></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P
style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt; mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto"
class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="COLOR: black; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'"><FONT
size=3><FONT face="Times New Roman"></FONT></FONT></SPAN> </P>
<P
style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt; mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto"
class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="COLOR: black; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'"><FONT
size=3><FONT face="Times New Roman">I'm not sure of what I'm saying here.
I'm whining, I'm sure, but it’s kind of like I feel I've outgrown an old pair of
shoes and haven't found the new shoes that fit me yet and so I feel a
little awkward and I really did find value in what you were talking about in
terms of how great we are as entities in and of ourselves, that you created us
to be -- with our personality and our potential, with the Adjuster and you
and Mother Spirit and the adjutants and the Spirit of Truth and all the
things that conspire to make us who we are. It's really very tremendous and yet
-- I don't want to shut down a soul that is growing -- and yet I don't want to
sit down to talk to me, myself. <o:p></o:p></FONT></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P
style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt; mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto"
class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="COLOR: black; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'"><FONT
size=3><FONT face="Times New Roman"></FONT></FONT></SPAN> </P>
<P
style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt; mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto"
class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="COLOR: black; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'"><FONT
size=3><FONT face="Times New Roman">I know that sometimes these conversations we
are having is us reaching for an alter ego … and it works; there is no shame in
that, but I don't want to just be talking to myself and looking to myself for
answers. I guess, as I sit here listening to myself whining, in the cosmic
sense of connection, I'm feeling disconnected. I don't know why
I would feel that; I know you are there, but I feel disconnected,
nonetheless. I don't know if that was a question.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>I think it might have been. Could
you address that, please.?<o:p></o:p></FONT></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P
style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt; mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto"
class=MsoNormal><FONT size=3><FONT face="Times New Roman"><B
style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal"><SPAN
style="COLOR: black; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'"></SPAN></B></FONT></FONT> </P>
<P
style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt; mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto"
class=MsoNormal><FONT size=3><FONT face="Times New Roman"><B
style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal"><SPAN
style="COLOR: black; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'">MICHAEL:</SPAN></B><SPAN
style="COLOR: black; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'"> Oh, very
much so, daughter. This is, I think, why you are here now expressing
yourself.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>You want some feedback,
you want some answers. I mean you want this conversation not to be just one
way, just a worship and an appreciation of all that you are, but you are hungry
for something that will actually reassure you that those old shoes that you left
go, the routine you once had, has actually lead to something greater.
This is not a regression but a real progression here. And for
this I – <o:p></o:p></SPAN></FONT></FONT></P>
<P
style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt; mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto"
class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="COLOR: black; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'"><FONT
size=3><FONT face="Times New Roman"></FONT></FONT></SPAN> </P>
<P
style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt; mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto"
class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="COLOR: black; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'"><FONT
size=3><FONT face="Times New Roman">What I first heard you first mention was
that it was so very nourishing a feeling at first, but like Chinese food
it would not stick to your ribs, like sitting down to an old-fashioned
European-American style Thanksgiving dinner with the turkey and
the dressing, mashed potatoes, gravy, sweet potato, all those things,
followed by a huge dollop of pie and coffee. That definitely sticks with
you! You have a big lump in the middle of you that stays with you for four
or five hours. And if you’re used to that, then that delicate, but much more
nutritious and much more healthy Chinese food might be a better way to get to
see 90 years old rather than keeling over at about 50, so what I hoped
tonight was to give you is such a feeling that stays with you. And it
might indeed make you feel so light you are indeed like a nodule floating around
in time and space, but part of you is us, and I know this is your own sense of
trying to contain yourself and pursue the truth by, as you say, by not being
judgmental, but not making some kind of overreaching evaluation.
<o:p></o:p></FONT></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P
style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt; mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto"
class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="COLOR: black; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'"><FONT
size=3><FONT face="Times New Roman"></FONT></FONT></SPAN> </P>
<P
style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt; mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto"
class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="COLOR: black; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'"><FONT
size=3><FONT face="Times New Roman">But also tonight I was pointing out the fact
that just by living, just by being a living person, you are constantly
evaluating; there is no way of escaping this. This is true meditation, opening
yourself to what we have to say or what your soul has to say, what your Father
fragment has to say. Opening yourself this way is like truly listening.
Even – in other words, it’s not just holding your mind a blank. Stillness
has to come about by itself, and you might sit there for 20 minutes with this
earnest desire to be still and to listen, to be open to what other than you is
saying to you. And what I am trying to point out to you, my daughter, is how
this is a continuous process and sometimes by giving up those old shoes and
relinquishing those former routines, just be aware of the routine you are
evolving, because if you are not aware of this, you can feel very disconnected,
very bereft. You can be so intent on not making any kind of value judgment that
you miss the fact that you are evaluating constantly. And we are here.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN><o:p></o:p></FONT></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P
style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt; mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto"
class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="COLOR: black; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'"><FONT
size=3><FONT face="Times New Roman"></FONT></FONT></SPAN> </P>
<P
style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt; mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto"
class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="COLOR: black; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'"><FONT
size=3><FONT face="Times New Roman">Do you see what I’m getting at? <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>This is a quality of openness and
accepting your full human nature that all of a sudden you can detect what we
are, what all of reality is even, what other people, actually, are giving you
all the time.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Does this make
sense?<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>I hoped tonight to give you
a sense of this living being --<o:p></o:p></FONT></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P
style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt; mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto"
class=MsoNormal><FONT size=3><FONT face="Times New Roman"><B
style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal"><SPAN
style="COLOR: black; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'"></SPAN></B></FONT></FONT> </P>
<P
style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt; mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto"
class=MsoNormal><FONT size=3><FONT face="Times New Roman"><B
style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal"><SPAN
style="COLOR: black; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'">Gerdean:</SPAN></B><SPAN
style="COLOR: black; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'"><SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Yes.<o:p></o:p></SPAN></FONT></FONT></P>
<P
style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt; mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto"
class=MsoNormal><FONT size=3><FONT face="Times New Roman"><B
style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal"><SPAN
style="COLOR: black; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'">MICHAEL:</SPAN></B><SPAN
style="COLOR: black; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'"><SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>-- that is with you at all times
--<o:p></o:p></SPAN></FONT></FONT></P>
<P
style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt; mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto"
class=MsoNormal><FONT size=3><FONT face="Times New Roman"><B
style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal"><SPAN
style="COLOR: black; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'">Gerdean:</SPAN></B><SPAN
style="COLOR: black; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'"><SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Yes, it
is.<o:p></o:p></SPAN></FONT></FONT></P>
<P
style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt; mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto"
class=MsoNormal><FONT size=3><FONT face="Times New Roman"><B
style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal"><SPAN
style="COLOR: black; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'">MICHAEL:</SPAN></B><SPAN
style="COLOR: black; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'"><SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>-- and is our
creation.<o:p></o:p></SPAN></FONT></FONT></P>
<P
style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt; mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto"
class=MsoNormal><FONT size=3><FONT face="Times New Roman"><B
style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal"><SPAN
style="COLOR: black; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'"></SPAN></B></FONT></FONT> </P>
<P
style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt; mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto"
class=MsoNormal><FONT size=3><FONT face="Times New Roman"><B
style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal"><SPAN
style="COLOR: black; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'">Gerdean:</SPAN></B><SPAN
style="COLOR: black; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'"><SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>I guess it just lacks the drama that I
am accustomed to.<o:p></o:p></SPAN></FONT></FONT></P>
<P
style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt; mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto"
class=MsoNormal><FONT size=3><FONT face="Times New Roman"><B
style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal"><SPAN
style="COLOR: black; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'">MICHAEL:</SPAN></B><SPAN
style="COLOR: black; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'"><SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Well, my dear, there is a difference
between drama and melodrama.<o:p></o:p></SPAN></FONT></FONT></P>
<P
style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt; mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto"
class=MsoNormal><FONT size=3><FONT face="Times New Roman"><B
style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal"><SPAN
style="COLOR: black; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'">Gerdean:</SPAN></B><SPAN
style="COLOR: black; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'"><SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>True.<o:p></o:p></SPAN></FONT></FONT></P>
<P
style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt; mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto"
class=MsoNormal><FONT size=3><FONT face="Times New Roman"><B
style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal"><SPAN
style="COLOR: black; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'">MICHAEL:</SPAN></B><SPAN
style="COLOR: black; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'"><SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>There’s a difference between Shakespeare
and soap operas. <o:p></o:p></SPAN></FONT></FONT></P>
<P
style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt; mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto"
class=MsoNormal><FONT size=3><FONT face="Times New Roman"><B
style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal"><SPAN
style="COLOR: black; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'">Gerdean:</SPAN></B><SPAN
style="COLOR: black; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'"><SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Yes.
<o:p></o:p></SPAN></FONT></FONT></P>
<P
style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt; mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto"
class=MsoNormal><FONT size=3><FONT face="Times New Roman"><B
style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal"><SPAN
style="COLOR: black; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'"></SPAN></B></FONT></FONT> </P>
<P
style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt; mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto"
class=MsoNormal><FONT size=3><FONT face="Times New Roman"><B
style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal"><SPAN
style="COLOR: black; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'">MICHAEL:</SPAN></B><SPAN
style="COLOR: black; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'"><SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>And if you are used to the heavier
stuff, if you are used to that that big Thanksgiving dinner and you are used to
that big lump in your stomach for a the next three or four hours, then a lighter
thing, in a sense, might be – you have to be a little more subtle here. You have
to allow yourself to be more subtle because you are higher progressing.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>As you grow in subtlety, your listening
has to be more subtle.<o:p></o:p></SPAN></FONT></FONT></P>
<P
style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt; mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto"
class=MsoNormal><FONT size=3><FONT face="Times New Roman"><B
style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal"><SPAN
style="COLOR: black; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'"></SPAN></B></FONT></FONT> </P>
<P
style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt; mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto"
class=MsoNormal><FONT size=3><FONT face="Times New Roman"><B
style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal"><SPAN
style="COLOR: black; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'">Gerdean:</SPAN></B><SPAN
style="COLOR: black; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'"><SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>And then I have to trust that our
relationship is more intimate somehow, and more
subtle?<o:p></o:p></SPAN></FONT></FONT></P>
<P
style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt; mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto"
class=MsoNormal><FONT size=3><FONT face="Times New Roman"><B
style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal"><SPAN
style="COLOR: black; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'">MICHAEL:</SPAN></B><SPAN
style="COLOR: black; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'"><SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Well, it has to be real! You do have to
feel it.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>I’m not saying you have to
pretend something that’s not there. <o:p></o:p></SPAN></FONT></FONT></P>
<P
style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt; mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto"
class=MsoNormal><FONT size=3><FONT face="Times New Roman"><B
style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal"><SPAN
style="COLOR: black; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'">Gerdean:</SPAN></B><SPAN
style="COLOR: black; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'"><SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>That’s
good.<o:p></o:p></SPAN></FONT></FONT></P>
<P
style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt; mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto"
class=MsoNormal><FONT size=3><FONT face="Times New Roman"><B
style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal"><SPAN
style="COLOR: black; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'"></SPAN></B></FONT></FONT> </P>
<P
style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt; mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto"
class=MsoNormal><FONT size=3><FONT face="Times New Roman"><B
style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal"><SPAN
style="COLOR: black; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'">MICHAEL:</SPAN></B><SPAN
style="COLOR: black; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'"><SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>This self honesty is the most critical
thing.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Allow yourself to be more
subtle.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Allow yourself to evaluate
more delicately.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>And don’t cling to
the past.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>That is gone.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Those old shoes don’t fit anymore.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>You can’t help progressing … well you
can keep from progressing by drowning in nostalgia.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It’s like trying to go forward looking
in the rear view mirror. <SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It’s just
– Open!<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Open and be aware of this
evaluation that you cannot suspend.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>Your mind is always working; your spirit is always constantly evaluating
everything you do, everything you take in.<o:p></o:p></SPAN></FONT></FONT></P>
<P
style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt; mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto"
class=MsoNormal><FONT size=3><FONT face="Times New Roman"><B
style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal"><SPAN
style="COLOR: black; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'"></SPAN></B></FONT></FONT> </P>
<P
style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt; mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto"
class=MsoNormal><FONT size=3><FONT face="Times New Roman"><B
style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal"><SPAN
style="COLOR: black; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'">Gerdean:</SPAN></B><SPAN
style="COLOR: black; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'"><SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>This must be what my evening meditations
have become.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>A process of
evaluating my daily experiences and interactions with people because I always do
that and I always feel you are tagging along and participating
somehow.<o:p></o:p></SPAN></FONT></FONT></P>
<P
style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt; mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto"
class=MsoNormal><FONT size=3><FONT face="Times New Roman"><B
style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal"><SPAN
style="COLOR: black; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'"></SPAN></B></FONT></FONT> </P>
<P
style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt; mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto"
class=MsoNormal><FONT size=3><FONT face="Times New Roman"><B
style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal"><SPAN
style="COLOR: black; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'">MICHAEL:<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN></SPAN></B><SPAN
style="COLOR: black; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'">But also, my
dear, as you mature, you need less and less – and this is good! – you need less
and less the heavy hand of a parent constantly assuring you that the father and
mother are there.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>As you become
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