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align=center><FONT size=3><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma">Nebadonia--</SPAN><st1:date Month="11" Day="16"
Year="2009"><SPAN style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma">November 16,
2009</SPAN></st1:date><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p></o:p></SPAN></FONT></P>
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<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><FONT size=3><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma">Marin T/M Group--Mill Valley,
</SPAN><st1:State><st1:place><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma">California</SPAN></st1:place></st1:State><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma">--</SPAN><st1:country-region><st1:place><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma">U.S.A.</SPAN></st1:place></st1:country-region><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p></o:p></SPAN></FONT></P>
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<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT
size=3>NEBADONIA--T/R-JL<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
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<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>(All that you are)
<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>(Accessing your soul--prayer and
meditation)<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>(Heart and breath)
<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>(Let go craving ambition)
<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>(How to
pray]<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>(The kingdom)<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN><o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>(Examine fears for their message)<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN><o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>(People’s true
nature)<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>(Welcoming the unknown)<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN><o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
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style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>Dear Mother Spirit and Michael,<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Well, it’s a cool November
evening outside, but we’re glad to brave the elements to get together tonight
and feel the love and the warmth of your message for us. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>We do honor and appreciate the caring you
show for us through your words, how you tenderly take care of your
children.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Then too at the same time
you demonstrate a kind of tough love--if you will, and so we also appreciate how
direct and uncompromising and honest you are with us, how you tell it like it is
and give us something to aim for. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>In this we try to follow what you
suggested once, Michael, that we orient to the truth, the ever encompassing and
transcendent totality of truth, and keep that goal ever bright in our
minds--irrespective of how humanly we may fall short of achieving
it.<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
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style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>We try to honor the truth for we do
accept deep in our souls that it is the truth and nothing less that gives us
real choice and sets us free to accept and experience fully the consequences of
our decisions.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>For this is how we
learn; this is how we grow. <SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Thank
you for lovingly bearing with us in these struggles, ever encouraging us to keep
moving forward, just as you, Michael, did with such an example and power in your
life as Jesus.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Amen
<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
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<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>NEBADONIA:<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Good evening, this is Nebadonia. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Tonight I would like to carry a torch of
Michael’s a little further on, one he gave you in his last lesson and on the
Thursday night before that, when he gave a rough definition of the total
personhood of a human being. <SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>I’ll
just briefly mention that he started with the person you know yourself to be
right in your own consciousness, your self-consciousness-self. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>This is the you that comes into being
when you awake in the morning and lets itself be extinguished in sleep each
night.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>His main point here was that
this was by no means all of you.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>This “you” exists within a broad field of consciousness that is partly
you and partly other, and in which you are sometimes self-aware and sometimes
not.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>You may be lost in a piece of
demanding work, or self-forgetful in the midst of some engrossing
pastime.<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
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style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>(All that you are)
<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
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style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>You have your human body and the type
of mind that comes directly as a result from it, the material mind of a human
being.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Also, giving birth to the
creativity within your consciousness, you have your unique personality and the
creative/spiritual component of it. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Your personality is the creative aspect
of yourself, the creative and unifying aspect of you, the deep and fundamentally
unchanging essence of you projecting yourself into ever changing time and space
whose events you experience with your physical body, mental consciousness, and
spirit insight. <o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
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style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>In addition, right within this
consciousness of yours there is the great spiritual, or should I say,
quasi-spiritual entity you are literally earning out here--your own soul,
co-authored by a presence of God, lending meaning and value to your life as you
grow more soulful. <SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Finally, along
with the presence of God there are the presences of your Guardian Angel,
Michael’s Spirit of Truth, and my own Spiritual Adjutants augmenting various
aspects of your own mentality--intuition, courage, worship and wisdom.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>This is the complexity of the human
being, what we refer to as your completeness. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Every normal-minded human being has all
these constituent components that make up the totality of their living
being.<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
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style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>On the question of free will: remember
we define a human being as a creature--a deliberately created being--of free
will dignity.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>No animal has this
dignity of being able to choose its own destiny, its own life day to day.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Yet in considering your moment to moment
experience of life, think of all the conditioning with which you were raised
that can so greatly determine what choices are available to you, even how
reality itself appears to you. <SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>This
conditioning, if remaining largely knee-jerk reactive and unconscious, limits
your perceptions and interpretations of reality, yet, if fully conscious, gives
even more meaning and value to your life--as you put it: you know where you’re
coming from.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Your conscious sense
of the past is more than just your material-mind’s memories--if you will, just
your brain’s activities; it’s also your soul--all your experiences realized as
well from the point of view of God’s presence within you--that kind of totality.
<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN><o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
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style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>Also, consider how blessed you are, my
children, living in your modern age of electronic media being able to portray
for you what Michael called all the hundreds of thousands of little
mini-cultures all over the world.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>You are able to see and hear at least a little something of other
people’s lives so profoundly different from your own.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>There you see poor individuals literally
starving to death, dying of exposure without more than a few rags to cover their
naked bodies as they sit on a bare piece of ground; all the way to the most
fantastically opulent palaces and life-styles of the so-called rich and famous:
all the vicarious experience--hundreds of movies, thousands of hours of reading
and TV--you have within you so variously
accessible.<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
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style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>(Accessing your soul--prayer and
meditation)<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
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style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>Tonight I would like to pick up the
torch and take it a little bit further on how you can access this totality of
your being. <SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>How do you let your
soul come forth to augment and enlighten your consciousness? <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>How do you get a feeling for the
character you’re developing? <SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>As
Michael said, this brings you to the necessity for some kind of inner
reflection, some kind of meditation in which you can relax and take a break from
all the more pressing immediate demands of your life, even take a break from
those things which are of the most meaning to you, in order to let something new
come in from creative spirit.<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
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style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>You can do this in a very directly
focused way as prayer.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>You
formulate the appeal within your mind and ask of the spiritual influences within
you--your Father Fragment, Michael and myself--for our help, for our
guidance.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>The more detailed, the
more exacting you can articulate this need of yours, the better the context will
be in which we can provide an answer.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>The better you can put up a framework here inside, the more fully we can
fill in the picture.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN><o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
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style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>It is possible for you to pray for
someone else and actually have them affected in a positive way. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>If you tried any kind of prayer for
something bad to happen--(Mother Spirit chuckles)--the petition wouldn’t go any
further than your own skull.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>But
you can devotedly direct and focus pure loving energy towards someone else, that
they may be able to use it in their life as best suits them. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>This is the power of love transcending
your own wisdom, the choices you might have for them. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>This is just a pure well-wishing and
desire for them to live life and live it more fully, the ultimate caring of one
personal being to another. <o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
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style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>So when you’ve formulated your prayer,
my children, be sure then to open your minds as best you can and just listen.
<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It’s very rare that you will hear a
voice speaking within your mind, a very clear “other” talking to you.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Remember the presence of God is called
a--Thought--Adjuster. <SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>This response
can be so immediate, sometimes, the thoughts that follow your petition can be
that answer, yet can be missed if you don’t credit this.
<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
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style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>Just accept so you can look at and
consider and entertain the thoughts that come into your mind, regardless of
their apparent origin.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>You’ll be
developing the ability to recognize truth irrespective of its source, and this
ability is something that will stand you in very good stead throughout your
life, whether praying or going about your daily activities. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Get a feeling for that resonance within
you that tells you that something resonates with your own deepest feeling of
what is true or, even better, what may be more truth than what you’ve yet
encountered.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>That’s a great
feeling. <o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
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style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>This is the value of prayer to help you
realize what you feel you need, or someone else needs, and so, asking for help
from the whole spiritual community.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>This is what the spiritual community lives for in part. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It’s our delight; it’s our extreme joy to
be able to help this way.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>As you
said in your introduction, just accept what comes to you and look at it. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Embrace it with an open mind, whether you
are able to do it or not. <SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>As your
Urantia Book puts it: modern people do not lack for ideas so much as they lack
for ideals. <SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>So entertain these
ideals as best you can. <SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Do your
best without any kind of reservation or self-judgment.
<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
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style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>Another way of accessing the totality
of your personhood is what we call meditation, or stillness, that is not focused
so much as highly-consciously unfocused, broad and deep.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>What does that mean? <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It’s a way of opening yourself to that
which you don’t know you need, maybe some more understanding and wisdom.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It’s a way of suspending the past and
all that you feel you’ve been to--I’ll use the expression--hang out in the
present moment and see what comes up inside.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>You will be opening to what you cannot
anticipate.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It’s like being on the
edge of the unknown--consciously experiencing the next moment’s unknown rather
than filling it up your own desires or entertainments--the radio, the TV, going
to a movie, meeting with friends; all your activities.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It may raise a fear or anxiousness of
not being able to anticipate and have expectations about what is coming
next.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Being still, seemingly doing
nothing, touches a primal fear in your animal nature toward this not-knowing
what’s coming next.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>You’re just
hanging out in this special kind of present moment, open-minded with patience
and attention. <o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
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style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>Now for those of you who have tried
this, you know how difficult it is because your mind is ever active.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>There is no way you can hold your mind
still for that very effort, that very holding will keep away the substantive
input you hope will come--the new idea, the new ideal, the next step to take,
fresh reflection on something you’ve done; perhaps, hopefully, even some
suggestion from your Father Fragment, or Michael, or me. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>But without any anchor, without anything
to hold on to, you quickly find that you get caught up in some mental story,
some drama. <SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>You may have such a
habituation to being entertained, your mind most anxiously wants to entertain
you.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>So off you go, until several
minutes later you realize you’ve been away on some great melodrama,
unconsciously reliving a part of your life or worrying about something that
might happen.<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>Michael mentioned that a seraphim, an
angel, doesn’t have to worry about all the pain and injury that your body is at
risk to experience--the slings and arrows of outrageous fortune. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>But there is, in meditation, an advantage
to being human and having a physical body, a living continuity independent of
your personality; so let’s make use of this living mind/body of yours, my
children, in your meditation.<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>(Heart and breath)
<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>First, you can tune into your heart
center. <SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>If you are still enough you
can feel your heart beating in your chest without having to feel for your pulse
in your wrist or your neck.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>You can
marvel with gratitude that you are not even keeping your own heart beating.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>By keeping in touch with this living
part of you, you are in touch with a transcendent reality that so many of you
nonchalantly dismiss and very rarely experience so directly.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Consider how so many of the modern
peoples of the more developed nations live in really poor health out of such a
disregard for the marvelous body they were given at self-consciousness. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>They live in the most terrible conditions
of bad health in order to feed that mind-construct of theirs--their ego image of
themselves, even risking their lives foolishly for some vain glory.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>But if you can be still and feel your
heart beating, you can let the experience swell to suspend that inner, anxious
self-clinging. <o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
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style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>On another level both more immediate
and yet more subtle, it’s quite an accomplishment to be able to observe your
breath without affecting it.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>This
is something different from your heart because this is something you can
immediately and directly control. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>You can hold your breath--for a bit; you
can take huge, gulping breaths; you can pant quickly and shallowly like an
overheated dog.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>But to just observe
your breath coming and going in and out only as your body needs and uses it,
this is something else.<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>Try it, my children. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>See if you can just feel yourself
breathing, continuously, if only for several minutes at first.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It begs, but immediately answers the
question: what is the relationship, the connection, between you and all the rest
you are, between what you can consciously control and what is simply given each
moment of life?<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>See if you can feel
with gratitude and respect this living encompassing of yours that’s so very
rarely conscious throughout your days and nights. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>This is why every religion you have
evolved over the millennia has discovered these exercises of heart and breath
meditation. <SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It’s how men and women
have discovered a way of accessing their larger selves by focusing their minds
on some actual part of them that is alive beyond their own doing, and in so
doing, are able to relax the anxious busyness of their minds.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>The purpose of this, apart from honoring
your living body, is to let your mind become still of itself and allow something
present and new to occur. <o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>Michael mentioned how strange this
seeming non-activity must be to someone who is so outwardly oriented and
inwardly self-centered and selfish with themselves they are consumed with busily
building up and maintaining a sense of momentum in their lives.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Now to suggest they deliberately bring
that momentum to a halt in a profound stillness?<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>How silly it must seem to them if you
were to turn around your familiar saying to suggest: don’t just do something,
sit there!<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>You can see how
difficult this is, how immediately it brings about a near-existential fear of
losing themselves, losing control by relaxing their grip that they so
desperately feel they need.<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>(Let go craving ambition)
<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>Yet unless one lets go their craving
ambition completely and then discovers they survive the event, how else are they
to discover that they are already complete?<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Unless something new is allowed to come
into their inner world, they’re only going around in the same-old, same-old
circles and actually starving their souls of the very completeness that is their
birthright to discover.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>This is why
it takes patience and courage to let a hyper-conscious stillness come into
being, for your complete personhood, my children, the totality of yourself,
though always real to us, is only potential to your self-aware experiential
self--you.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It does little good for
some religious dogma to tell you how complete you are if you yourself cannot
experience it. <SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>This is what we
offer you, a way of testing out what we say.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>One of the greatest gifts we can give
you, my children, is a way for you to discover and fulfill yourselves with all
you are, a way for you to access your own soul, your own higher consciousness,
and your own creative spirit independent of the
past.<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>Michael spent much of his last lesson
trying to give you a feeling for how you are constantly creating, if mostly
unconsciously, your own interpretation of the reality around and within
you.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Now you need to let go some of
the busyness in your normal waking life, if only for twenty minutes or so, to be
still and experience what your incessant creativity is doing. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Look around: feel within.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>This is how you access the encompassing
and transcendent truth of all you are always doing, for this realization is
something you will be engaged in for all eternity. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Why not start now? <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Have faith that you are all this full
personhood and consciousness we’ve offered for your understanding and wisdom.
<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Have the courage to let go your
habitual need to be entertained. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Just be still and see what happens. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>We’ll be right in here pulling with you,
so be still that you can feel our presence too. <o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>Now if you have any questions or
comments this evening, this is something you can bring
forth.<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>Student:<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Thank you, Mother, for the wonderful
lesson tonight.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>The question I have
is, when I pray for someone else, and also myself, what do I pray for?<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>What do I ask for?<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>I can think of a lot of things--health,
prosperity, well-being--but then if the Father already knows everything, how can
I go about praying for someone else?<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>(How to
pray]<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>NEBADONIA:<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Yes, my son: well, that’s not a bad
start--health, well-being, prosperity, maybe that they grow in spirit--that they
too have some feeling of their soul growing within them.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>This is not only their experiences as
they remember them, but also a greater totality as a presence of God registers
these experiences.<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>Your prayers, my son, can be very much
like what Welmek once invited you to do, and that is: with every person you come
across, just beam love at them.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>Right in your own heart and soul, just wish them the best.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>This can also be a very profound
prayer.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It’s a generosity of spirit
to give them your time and consideration and send them part of your
life-essence.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>You’re putting that
energy out there for them to tap into.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>Being pure spirit, it cannot be intrusive; it is always up to each
personality to decide what to do with spirit input.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>We can only assure you to have faith
that this transference of vital energy is real.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>You are literally giving them something
of your own life force, your own strength.<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>This is a wonderful example of when one
and one make three, where this third part--the energy you are sending, reflects
power back to you as well as toward them.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>It’s like having a nice warm fire and wanting to share it with someone
else, and in doing so, feeling and appreciating it more yourself.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Letting God’s divine love and
well-wishes flow through you to another, it strengthens you as well.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>This is the reward of the faith that it
takes to do this.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Don’t forget, my
son, that faith is extending yourself out into the unknown, and so it has its
own special rewards.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>That good
feeling you get is real.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>So the
form of the prayer doesn’t matter so much as the heart-felt intention.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN><o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>Student:<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Should I visualize the person I’m
beaming love at?<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN><o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>NEBADONIA:<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Yes, the more you can visualize them and
focus the desire in your heart, the more you can feel their unique personality
within you, the greater will be the spiritual connection between you two.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>The effort it takes to do this attests
to the genuine desire of your feelings.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>So by all means, yes.<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>Student:<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>The other thing I thought of is how
afraid I am in myself of the unknown, and how often it’s stopped me so much in
my life.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN><o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>NEBADONIA:<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Yes, that’s a very primal fear and it’s
not altogether baseless.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>All
through human history people have witnessed what terrible things that the
unknown and the unanticipated have done to them and their friends.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>For so much of their history people have
been at the mercy of the elements and wild animals; and then of course, above
all, each other--through hundreds of thousands of years of nearly incessant
warfare and crime.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>So this fear of
the unknown does have valid historical roots deep in the collective
unconsciousness of the human races.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN><o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>But this is where, my son, your wisdom
can inform you that the best way to handle the unknown is by relaxing, by being
highly consciously ready.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Yet how
do you do this seemingly paradoxical thing?--relaxed and ready?<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It seems contradictory, like the attempt
to be still by effort, by vigorously holding your mind a blank.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It can’t be sustained for long.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Rather, you have to experience in your
stillness how, by consistently relaxing whatever physical tension or mental
worry or fear that arises--as they will occur to you--actually leads to a
heightened unity of body and mind and spirit.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>These fears of yours serve to separate
you from yourself inside, and yet as you face them and relax into them, you gain
a greater unity of self and purpose.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN><o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>For the faith and the trust in yourself
and your spiritual helpers that it takes to try this, leads to those unique
rewards that nothing else can give you.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>This is the reward that awaits every sincere effort.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>There are no shortcuts in spiritual
development.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>You proceed by
decisions.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>You have to decide to
give these exercises in prayer, stillness and relaxation, a
try.<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>Student:<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>I will do that.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Thank you, Mother, for your undying love
and for giving us the truth of things.<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>NEBADONIA:<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>You are very welcome, my son.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Thank you for recognizing it; and be in
my love.<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>Student:<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Yes, Mother.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It says in the Urantia book about
prayer, that the ultimate prayer is to pray for the extension of the kingdom of
heaven.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>I found that very
profound.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>That kind-of takes care
of everything.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>(he laughs)
<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>NEBADONIA, laughing along:<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Yes.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It’s--how--do you do
it!<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>Student:<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Yeah…<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>That’s part of the unknown as well.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It’s also faith, and imagining how God
sees us.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>He sees our lives in love,
and perfection, and joy--in our humanness.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>He can see the potential we have to become as He sees us, to become that
extension of His kingdom.<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>(The kingdom)<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN><o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>NEBADONIA:<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>If you’ve read the Urantia book’s
version of Jesus’ life, you know what a stumbling block this was for his
apostles.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Even at the time of the
last supper they were still arguing about who was to be in what position in the
kingdom, in spite of the fact he had told them over and over again that the
kingdom was within.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Tonight I hoped
to give you at least one or two of the many keys to this kingdom, this total
personhood that you are, sharing your life with us.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN><o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>You need not always be self-aware to be
in this kingdom.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>This is the wonder
and the reward of self-forgetfulness, that you can go for a long time being
highly conscious and experiencing other things, other people, without being in
the picture--so to speak.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>The
kingdom within continues to grow, sometimes, as Michael noted, even more fully
for your not standing in your own light.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>You’ve suspended your self-centered evaluation of how things are
affecting only you to really touch and mingle with your fellows; and now you
have a fuller reality of them in your soul.<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>Student: <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Thinking about what C brought up about
fear, it seems our cultures have so much fear embedded in how we interact with
each other--like you said, for good reason sometimes.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Is this something as a result of the
Lucifer Rebellion, or has humankind always had this?<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>You can read every day about someone
being murdered, or abducted, or just random violence.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It’s hard then to be an extension of the
kingdom when this fear permeates our culture.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>There’s a lack of trust when people
can’t look each other in the eye because if they do the response might be pretty
bad.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Or like today in the paper
there was a mother and her small child killed for no reason.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>That’s so hard to overcome when you can
see it every day.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Fortunately I do
have faith in the reality of God, and wisdom, and truth, and love.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN><o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>NEBADONIA:<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Yes, my son, this is why we mention from
time to time that humanity is not only plagued with large scale warfare but with
crime, the plain and simple act of one person preying on another.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>And this predation is not only through
physical violence but along the lines of social and financial harm as well,
human parasites feeding on their fellow citizens very knowingly, very
cynically.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN><o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>This has been going on so long that
it’s only by the way of your stillness practice of relaxing and tuning in again
to the miracle of your heart beating, or just watching something, without
affecting it, you yourself can control; it’s only by getting these inner
awareness’s and abilities that you can grow and sustain your faith and
confidence in the face of outward threats.<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
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style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><o:p><FONT size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
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style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>(Examine fears for their message)<SPAN
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style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>If it helps--and it usually
does--examine each fear as it comes up in the light of a possible caution from
your higher consciousness of the whole surrounding situation; say, imagining
some possible accident while driving.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>Your whole feeling/intuitive self may be sensing a real danger before
your cognitive mind can imagine it concretely in thought.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Here, rather than disregarding the fear
out of habit, it pays to entertain the fear for what information it may
contain.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Being open to emotion,
while at the same time not letting it control you, can give you a subtle read on
a situation, a feeling-evaluation because feeling/sensing is the fundamental
reality of your total self, your higher consciousness more in touch with reality
than you are at times.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>So also
consider fear as caution and see what message it might contain.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN><o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
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<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>These fears are something you will feel
as you try to relax, for they are what is keeping you from being relaxed.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>They are prompts--if you will--seeking
to call your attention to something new, or some neglected past business.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It might seem strange to consider it so,
but the fear wasting your life in boredom can drive you to all sorts of time-
and energy-wasting mere busyness, or needing to be entertained, that rob you of
your inner sense of completeness.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>It’s the fear that most will face immediately upon trying to practice
being still with only themselves for company.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>This is especially relevant now
you can go through your entire day with some electronic gadget playing in your
ear when you are apart from the TV and computer.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>You may never have been forced to
examine your feelings and consider your own thoughts, so when you try, they seem
too superficial and boring at first.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN><SPAN
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<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>Student:<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>I worry our youth, with so many of these
things like i-pods and stuff, are losing, or never developing, the capacity to
think for themselves.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>What’s
happening to their abilities of discernment, or their ability to feel what they
are doing to someone else?--the pain they’re causing?<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>They know it’s wrong, but they still do
it.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Where is the spiritual
understanding?<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>That’s my feeling of
fear: I fear for my own children, even though I understand so much of what God
is, and the kingdom is.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It seems so
incongruent to our true nature--who I am: but I feel the fear.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>I’m not shying away from it, but it
seems so unnecessary.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It’s like I’m
feeling all this fear because of other people’s incongruence with their true
natures.<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
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<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>(People’s true
nature)<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
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<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>NEBADONIA:<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Yes, my son, but I would caution you
about too easily assuming what is a person’s, or people’s so-called true
nature.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Your Urantia book puts this
very succinctly: the endowing of immature and imperfect beings with a relative
degree of free will leads inevitably to tragedy.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>The cosmic possibility for wrong-doing
is the price we all pay for each person’s ability to co-create their own life
and destiny, all the while, perfection of moral understanding and behavior is an
experiential acquirement, not an existential actuality.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Again, it does no good to think of
someone’s true nature as intrinsically perfect when the individual is incapable
of realizing it yet through simple immaturity, lack of experience.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Prior to acquiring this experience, and
reflecting upon it, a person is more or less subject to their heredity and
environment, their unconscious conditioning.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>This was the meaning when Michael, as
Jesus, asked of our Father to forgive his children; they knew not what they were
doing.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN><o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
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<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>In time, everyone--almost without
exception--will come to know the fullness of what they do or fail to do.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>That is the promise of life beyond this
first one you experience.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>That is
the promise of reawakening on the Mansion worlds and looking about with such an
awareness of having survived, with such wonder of enhanced perception and
feeling, that even the most hardened evil-doers are given another chance to let
go their selves and not be so cynically self-centered they would--as you
said--kill a child and all its potential for life, just in order to feel a
little more powerful for a short while--a truly obscene act.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Yet that is what you have to contend
with occasionally as a part of your human reality.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN><o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
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<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>To set up a universe without this
possibility of individual free will would be a kind of cosmic tyranny by
comparison.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It’s the very nature of
Deity, of God’s will, to share not only personality but even creativity and
freedom with all His children, the good and the evil alike.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>That is their choice to
make.<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
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<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>Student:<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>How free is that will then if it’s
consumed or colored by emotion and instability, prejudice or deliberate training
in evil?<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>I don’t consider that free
will.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>That’s someone enslaved by
their own perceptions of what humanity is all about.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Is true freedom of speech what incites
riots, or prejudice, and hate, and ignorance?<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It doesn’t benefit a single human
being.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN><o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
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<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>NEBADONIA:<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Actually, my son, such criminal or
warlike behavior does immediately benefit the perpetrator, if not in the long
run of inevitable justice.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>might be of help to see it more as
self-centeredness.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>The freedom is
there to do what they will, only most criminal activity is where a person holds
their own immediate needs above anything and anyone else; it’s that
me!--me!--me!--with which they choose, very knowingly at times, to hurt
another.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>However pathetic a life
they’re living, they are highly dangerous not only because they hold their own
needs above anyone else, but because the obscene act doesn’t really satisfy for
long, and usually only leads to another.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN><o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
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<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>But you are correct in that their
personality is still so totally conditioned by past events they can never
achieve the real freedom of true, present-moment creativity.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>They are still only reactive.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>They’ve never experienced that glorious
moment of seeing they are no more important than the next person, and that the
needs they feel as a human being, of recognition and response, are universal and
have to be acknowledged and balanced with everyone else’s.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>They want to play God and control life
and death, or even pain--through torture, with another person.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>They not only fail to realize they have
the presence of God already within them, but that it is also present in everyone
else.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>They are really and truly
pathetic beings, but they are also quite dangerous.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>That full reality of their
humanity--their human possibilities--is something you have to deal
with.<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
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<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>(Welcoming the unknown)<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN><o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
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<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>But finally tonight, the anxiousness
you encounter as you try to meditate can be just a general, vague fear of the
unknown, yet ironically, that too is what you are trying to access, to bring out
of the shadows and into the light of consciousness.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It’s not only the past and past
conditioning.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It’s what you
yourself with your own self-awareness cannot imagine, but can only be open to:
that which is transcendent to all you have yet experienced: all the potential
that awaits you.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Welcome the
unknown and see it in your future as a promise of endless adventure, beings and
dimensions beyond human ken, and yet too your birthright to encounter,
someday.<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
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style="FONT-FAMILY: Tahoma"><FONT size=3>Good night, my children.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Be in my love.<SPAN
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