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align=center><SPAN style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Tahoma','sans-serif'"><FONT
size=3>Nebadonia—September 20, 2010<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
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style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Tahoma','sans-serif'"><FONT size=3><SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Marin TM Group—Mill Valley,
California—U.S.A.<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
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style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Tahoma','sans-serif'"><FONT
size=3>NEBDONIA—T/R-JL<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
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<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Tahoma','sans-serif'"><FONT size=3>Dear Mother Spirit and
Michael,<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Greetings and
salutations dear divine parents, dear friends. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>A few meetings ago we blew right past our
sixth anniversary, totally unmindful, so tonight I wanted to thank you for all
these years of so much enlightenment and enjoyment, so much laughter and tears
of joy when, at the end of the meetings when you signed off, we all burst out
laughing with the wonderful sense of having been in touch with our spiritual
parents.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>We enjoy your lengthy
discussions simply because they give us a longer period of time to be in your
presence and understand things from your point of view. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>So say on dear parents, dear friends.
<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>We are beginning to realize and
accept the complexity of our being, and we especially appreciate those lessons
of yours that help us realize all that we are so we can become evermore
responsible for all that we are doing with our lives and with those with whom we
come in contact. <SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>We thank you very
much. <SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Amen.
<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
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<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Tahoma','sans-serif'"><FONT size=3>NEBADONIA:<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN><SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Good evening, my children, this is
Nebadonia. <SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Thank you for your
gracious welcome. <SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Michael and I are
happy to celebrate with you these years we’ve come together and had so much fun
exploring the human condition and your place in the cosmos.
<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
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<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Tahoma','sans-serif'"><FONT size=3>Indeed you are such a
complex being and your consciousness is constantly shifting around between all
these various parts of you which are more or less integrated and united, and
more or less not yet. <SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Still, your
personality does have an amazing ability to identify you with various parts of
your being.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>As you are living with
a time-and-space conditioned physical manifestation, you can experience and
identify—totally at times--with some physical sensation, your hands doing some
joyful, amazing thing; or a big toe you’ve just stubbed.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>At times you can identify with some
concepts and spend hours on your own, thinking about a project you’re involved
in; making plans, considering dozens of alternatives. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>You can be wrapped up in the soulful
meaning of different experiences you’ve had: all these super-animal associations
and wealth.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>For there is your
spirit part of you that evaluates and quite literally experiences value or, at
times, even the sad lack of it in some activity you’re doing, or some memory of
something you’ve done. <o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
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<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Tahoma','sans-serif'"><FONT size=3>But for the most part
you are a living combination of all of these simultaneously, your personality
identifying with a complex, ever changing combination of all these factors.
<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>You’ve only to think how a severe
toothache can radically change what you can concentrate on and the value you are
giving these moments of pain because they seem to affect everything. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Or on the contrary, those of you with
great inner discipline and soul can to a large degree not let such physical
discomfort or pain of mental anguish disturb your spiritual awareness and
realization. <SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>This reality your
Urantia book freely acknowledges in the chapter--Personality Survival--by
immediately stating there’s no way personality can ever be exhaustively defined
in words or concepts, no matter how subtle they are.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>A book can only list and offer some of
the qualities and functions personality has. <o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
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<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Tahoma','sans-serif'"><FONT size=3>A bedrock concept you
can build on in referring to the creation as it exists and has existed, is that
one primal division of cosmic reality is into its personal and impersonal
aspects.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>God is personality and
your word God refers to those aspects of deity which are personalizable to
you.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>God is the quality of being a
personal being, a quality of creative abilities, in His case the ability to
create other personalities and grant them a relative autonomy from Himself.
<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>He is the origin of personality and
it is distinguished from impersonal reality by this individual creativity:
personal beings can even share His will, and have individual intent.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>This distinction is most apparent
compared to the inanimate part of impersonal reality--pure material and energy,
but also in your own human experience with the lower forms of planetary life,
all the way from a single-cell amoeba up to the most intelligent and highly
developed primate.<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
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<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Tahoma','sans-serif'"><FONT size=3>Impersonal reality is
not individually creative. <SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It
follows absolute natural laws of chemistry and physics, living biology, and even
what you might call higher animal mind.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>Consider how the highest primates with a fantastic associative ability
are still not creative in the sense that a human being is.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>They are still responding to stimulus no
matter how complex and subtle it is. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>They do not have truly creative,
wondering personalities and initiative such as you have.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Individual creativity or the lack of it
is a prime difference between impersonal reality and unique, discrete individual
personal beings, of which you’ve been informed there are thousands of orders in
the cosmos, the human being, being just one. <o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
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<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Tahoma','sans-serif'"><FONT size=3>This is the reality of
personality.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Each one, being
created unique by God, though similar to others of its order, still has
something which is theirs alone to share as best they can with each other and
with their Father.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Michael and I
gladly, humbly acknowledge and respect this ultimate connection between the
Creator and each of His children, and the love you have for each
other.<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
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<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Tahoma','sans-serif'"><FONT size=3>This is your absolute
reality, my children.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>This is the
reality of who you are as you persist through time. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>All of creation is complete as it is
moment by moment and within each moment because it is God’s creation, yet this
very completeness is capable of growth.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>Though that might seem to be some kind of science-fiction temporal
paradox, it is nevertheless the expression of both the potentiality and
actuality of supreme reality.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>You
too are complete in each moment, but by God’s will there is something called
universal time and change, something of a universal development and evolution of
which you are a part.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>As your
personality is the unchanging persistence of you, this growth of yours is what
we call your soul. <SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It is the
complete story of your life as co-authored and taken on by an individual
presence of God within you.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>The
growing, evolving culmination of God’s awareness of every individual soul out
here in space and time is what we call the Supreme Being. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>This is a facet of our Father, of God.
<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It is God’s experience of all the
personal beings’ experience and it is growing--as time goes by as yet another
aspect of His will. <o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
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<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Tahoma','sans-serif'"><FONT size=3>As we said in our last
few lessons, this soul reality of yours, my children, is the fullness within
your memories.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>The spiritual
dimension of your personality makes reality for you, a co-creation along with
the creation itself—your world.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>You—your personality real-alizes what is happening.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Those of you who have known deep
meditation and prayer, or a kind of highly conscious reverie--not just
day-dreaming but the opposite—a highly conscious appreciation of your life akin
to worship--know there is no bottom or top or sides to your soul. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Your own soul is a transcendent reality
to your conscious awareness of it. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It’s part of the light you will come to
know more and more, this special reality we call Morontia Reality, a combination
of your personal experience as it is also being experienced and taken on by an
individualized presence of God. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN><o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
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<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Tahoma','sans-serif'"><FONT size=3>These are the great
facts of human existence: that there is a single source and center of all
creation, and it is personal.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>Personality is real.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It is a
persisting essence of selfhood by God’s will, enduring through another dimension
of His will—time.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Personality grows
soulful experience and keeps building upon experience to the endless reaches of
time.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Since you have a soul
co-authored by an individualized presence of God making a transcendent record of
your own life for the both of you, everything you do of spiritual significance
in your life, no matter how you may look at it from moment to moment with a
time-limited viewpoint, this is your possession.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>You were created with the potential to
become one--absolutely consciously united--with this soul of yours and its
co-author. <SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>This is another great
cosmic/personal event you have to look forward to--becoming utterly united,
fused we say, with the presence of God within you that has been with you, and a
part of you, from the beginning. <o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
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<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Tahoma','sans-serif'"><FONT size=3>You can experience this.
<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>You can experience this depth and
breadth of your own soul for, setting aside your ongoing experience of all
that’s around you and in you in deep meditation and revere, you can
re-experience previous moments of your life almost as when they first
happened.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>They are still there in a
soulful embrace, still transcendent, still reassuring you that you are more, so
infinitely more that what you can yet fully experience momentarily. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>This brings up, then, the question--not
that you need another one (Mother Spirit chuckles): but this does bring up the
question: who and what is this self-conscious you? <o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
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<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Tahoma','sans-serif'"><FONT size=3>Your personality is
capable of identifying with self-made constructs we call your
self-conscious-self. <SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>This is when
you are aware of yourself. <SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>This is
what your psychology nominally calls ego. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>There have been thousands of books
written on this construct and their definitions differ enormously from one
psychology to another, even from one historical culture to another. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>We liken it to your bathroom mirror which
is very handy for shaving or putting on your makeup in the morning.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Your reflection is apparently three
dimensional, but limited to sight alone, and so your ego is a similar kind of
construct/reflection, but limited with respect to the God-created personality
and soul of you. <SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It’s a socially
necessary way of you being aware of yourself, for those who are not capable of
creating such a self awareness have to be institutionalized. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>There are some human beings who
unfortunately live barely above the stage of an intelligent animal and for that
very reason cannot function socially and have to be more or less taken care of.
<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
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<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Tahoma','sans-serif'"><FONT size=3>The interesting thing I
want to look at tonight is how this self-conscious-self is the seat of your
decisions, your decisiveness, what you call free will—that God-shared individual
intention I mentioned earlier.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>To
get a better feeling of this, think of the times you had success, a temporal
victory doing something, and how your creative imagination blossomed forth with
a hundred other notions of all the things you thought you could do now.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>You see yourself doing amazing things.
<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>This is your ego.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It is also the feeling/reality you get
when all of a sudden one of those projections fails miserably.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Adjusting, you feel deflated as if you
had puffed yourself up with all those expectations that time has proven
impossible to fulfill: the moment is gone.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>Another person may deliberately try to hurt you with an insult, and you
may feel that pain for days, but where? <o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
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<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Tahoma','sans-serif'"><FONT size=3>This self-conscious-self
of yours feels both glory and suffering and both are undoubtedly real because
this self-construct—who you think and feel you are right now--has some cause and
effect in your life.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Your ego is
not a total illusion as some philosophies consider it to be. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It is the seat of your conscious
decisions: they are all made in part within your ego’s notions of what is
possible, especially when an ego-maniacal personality identifies totally with
this self-made structure to the exclusion--or the ignorance, or the ignoring--of
soul, within themselves and others.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>Think too of the imagined assumptions—some correct, some not--you infer
from your experiences to get a sense of possibilities, alternatives with which
to step off into another adventure of life and give them a try, and see the
results. <o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
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<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Tahoma','sans-serif'"><FONT size=3>Your ego is no pure
illusion but a tool you use even if, ironically, it is a tool your personality
can be captured by. <SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>A person can
identify so much with this part of themselves, they can choose death rather than
a diminution of what they consider to be their conscious free will.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>You have those famous words of your
statesman: Give me liberty or give me death. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>People can give their lives for their
loved ones with this sense of themselves and their dedication.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>So to a large degree this
self-conscious-self of yours, my children, is an experience. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It is also a basis, another point of view
for experience.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It’s both what you
create and what the world around you reflects as how they see you--and how you
register that, or not.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>A product of
your own essential creativity, your ego is also a basis for your projections
that interpret what you perceive. <o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
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style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Tahoma','sans-serif'"><o:p><FONT
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<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Tahoma','sans-serif'"><FONT size=3>One of the greatest
illusions people can have is that they have totally eliminated or gotten rid of
their ego, and now they are some kind of un-self-conscious, purely spiritual
personality. <SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN><SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It’s equivalent to a claim they have
totally eliminated all their subjectivity to arrive at some kind of purely
objective, fundamental reality. <SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>The
saving grace is that this you--this ego you identify with—you are capable of
growth and enlightenment. <SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>By tuning
in to your soul and adding that experience to who and what you consider you are,
you can be aware of spirit, you can be aware of your own incessant
co-creativity.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>You can be
self-consciously aware of the fact that you are more than this temporal
construct. <SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Your personality was
created by God, and your soul, as we’ve said, is a transcendent, enormous
reality of your experiences you can only tap into and fully relive for a few
precious pure minutes—so far.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN><o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
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style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Tahoma','sans-serif'"><o:p><FONT
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<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Tahoma','sans-serif'"><FONT size=3>You can self-consciously
acknowledge spirit in prayer and meditation as appreciation, as worship.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>You can identify as well with your
deeper personality and the morontia reality of your soul. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>The realization that you are, with
respect to your ego, so limited by time and space and the often anxious,
ever-changing present moment: all of these realizations, my children, just
because they are real, give you greater freedom to accept your own constant
creativity and response-ability.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>You are more than a self-conscious self that can be blown up out of
proportion, or hurt by insults. <SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>As
you identify less and less with your ego while still being aware of it, you can
more and more identify/recognize the encompassing of your larger self.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>You experience more and more of your
soul’s participation too in your life as both cause and
effect.<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
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style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Tahoma','sans-serif'"><o:p><FONT
size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Tahoma','sans-serif'"><FONT size=3>You can grow to
recognize more and more soul and character in all those you meet, right from the
littlest baby’s potential to the oldest gentleman’s or lady’s fulfilled life.
<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>You need not seek some kind
of self-oblivion. <SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>You need not in
any way try to punish yourself.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>Rather, simply see through any ego-puffing, self-centered, narcissistic
type of behaviors for what they are.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>Ironically, as Michael and I have taught, when you realize how many times
you’ve been taken out of yourself since you were a baby--in both glory and
suffering--and still survived, you get ever greater confidence that you can
trust and relax into self-forgetfulness too, and grow your interest in
everything and everyone not you.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN><SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>You begin to feel this
greater spirit encompassing which is not only your Father, and Michael and
myself, but even your own creative spirit. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN><o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Tahoma','sans-serif'"><o:p><FONT
size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Tahoma','sans-serif'"><FONT size=3>This is the freedom you
seek.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Spirit is unity,
all-encompassing.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>By this power you
realize and unify within more and more.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>You become more internally consistent and less self-abrading by
identifying more and more with what is persisting and growing: wisdom.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>This opens you to God’s will so you can
perceive and humbly acknowledge your temporal limitations: a priceless gift:
what to work on next. <SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>You can feel
more and more that your potential is right alongside your actuality: what might
be as part of what is.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>You have
your life moment by moment as you live it, as you are self-conscious, yet you
also have the ability to forget yourself, to give yourself away, to enjoy being
focused on some work, some art--some creative thing, some loving and helping
another. <o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Tahoma','sans-serif'"><o:p><FONT
size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Tahoma','sans-serif'"><FONT size=3>You let yourself
go.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>You forget yourself to fill
your soul, trusting that once again, like so many times before, you will pop up
again to yourself. <SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Your ego just
kind-of comes and goes unafraid, for now it exists within a larger personal
consciousness that it is not all that you are.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It is not the only, nor even the
greatest continuity of you persisting through time. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN><o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Tahoma','sans-serif'"><o:p><FONT
size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Tahoma','sans-serif'"><FONT size=3>So consider these
things, my children, how God, the origin of the human pattern of a living
spiritual being, put your freedom within the limitations of your consciousness,
along with how to grow that consciousness ever more beyond what it has ever
been. <SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>This is how you grow and come
to ever greater experience, so even as your present body and mind fade away, as
they must--that too is in The Plan--you identify more and more with this soulful
character you’re earning. <SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Then, my
goodness!--what beauty, what love there is, being able to perceive and
appreciate this in others, for they are your true soul-wealth.
<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Tahoma','sans-serif'"><o:p><FONT
size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Tahoma','sans-serif'"><FONT size=3>They are your companions
in this great adventure and by being this extra-ordinary self you are literally
demonstrating what is possible.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>People who live their lives not only with a great sense of themselves,
but live their lives for other people--your saints, if you will--are those who
continue to be the greatest gift to their fellows. <o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Tahoma','sans-serif'"><o:p><FONT
size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Tahoma','sans-serif'"><FONT size=3>We thank you, Father,
for the original idea--(Mother Spirit chuckles)--of such amazing creatures, such
creative beings of yours and ours. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>These are Your children; these are our
children. <SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>But above all You have
given them themselves and each other. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It is for this freedom we do thank
You.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN><o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Tahoma','sans-serif'"><o:p><FONT
size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Tahoma','sans-serif'"><FONT size=3>If you have any
questions or comments, you might wonder where they come from.
<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Tahoma','sans-serif'"><o:p><FONT
size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Tahoma','sans-serif'"><FONT size=3>Student:<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>That’s a good question, Mother: where do
these questions come from?<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>I was
wondering what happens to the people who do really, really bad things on this
world?—like dictators who kill thousands and thousands of people; people who
start wars and things like that?<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Tahoma','sans-serif'"><o:p><FONT
size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Tahoma','sans-serif'"><FONT size=3>NEBADONIA:<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Yes, my son, as I said, these are
experiences of theirs captured in their souls as well as in the souls of their
victims.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>These are the lives they
have known.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>This is what they have
done with the potential given them, limited about and conditioned by their
experience of life.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>This is why the
human soul holds both of what you might consider both positive and negative
experiences.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Yet their souls are
also co-authored by an individual presence of God within them--however
ignored--with nigh infinite understanding of all the causes and effects of their
lives and how they came to be what they were.<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Tahoma','sans-serif'"><o:p><FONT
size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Tahoma','sans-serif'"><FONT size=3>Every human being who
survives to the Morontia realms will awaken to their soul-wealth of experiences,
seen a little more spiritually sensitive to God’s point of view.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Obviously they will also have to face
and deal with those they have treated so, for these will be their companions
over there.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>And so they will come
to realize, as will you, what they have done from the soul-perspective of those
they have affected.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>For some who
have caused such pain and loss of life, this will be a horror; for others who
have lived a loving, giving, sharing life, a glory.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN><o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Tahoma','sans-serif'"><o:p><FONT
size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Tahoma','sans-serif'"><FONT size=3>Student:<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>That’s certainly a different
perspective.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN><o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Tahoma','sans-serif'"><o:p><FONT
size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Tahoma','sans-serif'"><FONT size=3>NEBADONIA:<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Remember and consider what we’ve taught
about reawakening on the Mansion worlds with an enormously expanded
consciousness based upon and in an enormously Morontia-evolved matter/energy
body, soul-infused mind, and expanded spirit awareness and sensitivity.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>That experience alone, and continuing,
that none will ever forget in all of eternity, has a great…healing effect--shall
we say.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>They will have
survived!—and in this survival can try to put to rest so much of the fear and
agony they knew as human beings which lead to the acts they did.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>There is great mercy built right into
this pattern of human survival, my son.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>It is hard to express in a few minutes like this, but everyone will reap
the spiritual effects of their soul, and, as we’ve taught so many times, eternal
life is not forced upon anyone.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>That choice is the ultimate freedom of the created
being.<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Tahoma','sans-serif'"><o:p><FONT
size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Tahoma','sans-serif'"><FONT size=3>As you wonder where
ideas and concepts come from, they come from your very own nature.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>You are a being endowed with creative
spirit, and you using it all the time, even as you sit here reading this and
evaluating what I’m saying. <o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Tahoma','sans-serif'"><o:p><FONT
size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Tahoma','sans-serif'"><FONT size=3>Student:<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>I am beginning to recognize that
creativity has a lot more to it than I thought—in thinking up new stuff.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>So I thank you,
Mother.<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Tahoma','sans-serif'"><o:p><FONT
size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Tahoma','sans-serif'"><FONT size=3>Nebadonia:<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>You’re welcome, my son. It is true that
to go about your busy lives you are mostly unconscious of the fact that you are,
as we say, co-creating your reality.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>It seems so objectively real!—(Mother Spirit laughs)—and there is a real,
objective universe out there, but experienced in part—made real for you--through
your own creative spirit unifying all input.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It’s why tonight I spoke so much on your
experience of the self-conscious-self you create from the time you were a small
child in concert with your family, playmates, and the others in your work and
leisure; your education and training.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>All these contribute to your sense of yourself.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>You can control your focus and, in
meditation and prayer, let it turn everywhere-outwards in a relaxed opening to
the encompassing of spirit, and what spirit—including your own—has for you these
few, unique minutes this particular time.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>You begin to identify more with this all-encompassing within which you
live; but don’t worry if you cannot always keep it in mind. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Just keep wondering!--and be in my
love.<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Tahoma','sans-serif'"><o:p><FONT
size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Tahoma','sans-serif'"><FONT size=3>Student:<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Thank you,
Mother.<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Tahoma','sans-serif'"><o:p><FONT
size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Tahoma','sans-serif'"><FONT size=3>Student:<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>I do like your use of the word
persistence in your dialogue.<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Tahoma','sans-serif'"><o:p><FONT
size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Tahoma','sans-serif'"><FONT size=3>NEBADOINA:<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Tonight I spoke to the ways in which
your free will is conditioned by your understanding, and it’s to your
understanding Michael and I give these lessons, to give you a feeling for the
reality of personality and the reality of your creative spirit.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Though your free will is limited about
by your sense of yourself and your personal philosophy of what human life is,
both are capable of growth in parallel with your soul.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>By becoming aware of the personal
limitations of your ego, as well its necessity and tenacity, from the
perspective of spirit; this humility also gives you the perception and the
appreciation of something so much greater than your ego.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>You can will yourself to grow, to be
more and more conscious of both your limitations and yet too the enormous
encompassing of which your own potential is no small part.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>You persist through time, and you can
choose to persist more and more in tune with all that is not-you and grow your
response-ability.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN><o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Tahoma','sans-serif'"><o:p><FONT
size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Tahoma','sans-serif'"><FONT size=3>Don’t worry too much
about over-reaching; just be open to accepting results.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>There is no way to resolve this
trial-and-error except by experience, and if you don’t over-reach at times,
you’re not fully exercising your part of the adventure.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It’s just that you also need to learn as
you go along.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>(Mother Spirit
laughs)<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Tahoma','sans-serif'"><o:p><FONT
size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Tahoma','sans-serif'"><FONT size=3>Student:<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>I guess that’s what you mean by us being
experiential beings.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>That’s how we
learn.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN><o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Tahoma','sans-serif'"><o:p><FONT
size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Tahoma','sans-serif'"><FONT size=3>NEBADONIA:<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Yes, that’s what we’re doing out
here.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>We understand this as the
deepest reason for the universe of all these thousands of different orders of
experiencing personal beings, all creative, all acting and reacting with each
other.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It’s not just the physical
universe your telescopes reveal, but these personal beings your Urantia book was
designed to present.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It’s why it
teaches about angels, and Midwayers, and Melchizedeks, not only because it’s
true, but also to increase your wonderful spiritual blessing of humility of: Oh
my goodness!—look at all that out there!--as well as all of this in
here.<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Tahoma','sans-serif'"><o:p><FONT
size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Tahoma','sans-serif'"><FONT size=3>Student:<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It shows us a deeper, richer, more
profound and expansive community that we’re a part of, of the whole cosmos.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN><o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Tahoma','sans-serif'"><o:p><FONT
size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Tahoma','sans-serif'"><FONT size=3>NEBADONIA:<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>This is one of the stated purposes of
the Urantia revelation, to initiate and help you grow your cosmic
consciousness.<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Tahoma','sans-serif'"><o:p><FONT
size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Tahoma','sans-serif'"><FONT size=3>Student:<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It’s interesting how you talk about our
limitations and yet you’ve also taught about our being little walking
infinities.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Is that a paradox?<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>I guess that is what stillness
meditation is all about, to open up and discover that’s where free will comes
in.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>We open up and allow without
coercion or anything manipulating or forced upon ourselves; allow that
infinitude that we all are.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Without
categorizing or labeling we just allow and gain familiarity with that
potential.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN><o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Tahoma','sans-serif'"><o:p><FONT
size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Tahoma','sans-serif'"><FONT size=3>NEBADONIA:<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Yes, my son.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>This is the truest worship, being aware
of and appreciative that all you experience has a Creator—God initially, then
all of us out here, individually co-creating with Him our own lives and souls.
<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>This realization helps diminish any
feelings of fatalism, that you can play no part in your life.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Ironically, a feeling of fatalism is
only part of your own created philosophy of life.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>You can grow out of it.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN><o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Tahoma','sans-serif'"><o:p><FONT
size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Tahoma','sans-serif'"><FONT size=3>Student:<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It seems we are the only creature that
can go against our own true nature.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN><o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Tahoma','sans-serif'"><o:p><FONT
size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Tahoma','sans-serif'"><FONT size=3>Nebadonia:<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Yes, that is the duality, even the
multiplicity that an immature human being, not yet spiritually united within,
experiences.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN><o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Tahoma','sans-serif'"><o:p><FONT
size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Tahoma','sans-serif'"><FONT size=3>Student:<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>We have this erroneous perception that
we are separate from all of this, this so-called
singularity…hmmm…<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Tahoma','sans-serif'"><o:p><FONT
size=3> </FONT></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Tahoma','sans-serif'"><FONT size=3>NEBADONIA:<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Yet a child’s sense of separation, of
being a separate living being due to their initial identification with only
their little body and uncontrollable emotions, this felt separation is a natural
phase of creative human spirit.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>This identification develops first, and comes before any later,
life-changing experiences of conscious spirit awareness of, and connection with
something universal.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>The child
feels so painfully helpless and vulnerable at times because their world does
break down.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It utterly collapses in
fearful anguish and tears, or rages of anger and temper tantrums. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Remember? <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>That is the true nature of a child.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>You’ve all come through these early
birthing pangs of self-awareness, quite naturally, as you learned how to---as
you say to each other later: Get it together!<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>A human being’s “true nature” is this
changing nature of theirs.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Any
lasting difficulty is not that you naturally go through these stages of
awareness and identification, but that you may get stuck along the way and
refuse to evolve.<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
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<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Tahoma','sans-serif'"><FONT size=3>Student:<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>But that separation is not necessarily
true—the truth.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>I’m trying to make
that distinction. <o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
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<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Tahoma','sans-serif'"><FONT size=3>NEBADONIA:<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>However their separation may seem
illusory or untrue from a point of view outside them, their own experience of
separation can lead to real agony and suicide: real enough for them.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It’s true for them, a true experience,
precisely because they cannot consciously touch the totality of their being
which includes the life-affirming awareness of spirit-connection with God.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN><o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
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<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Tahoma','sans-serif'"><FONT size=3>Student:<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>So, in a sense, they renounce their free
will.<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
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<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Tahoma','sans-serif'"><FONT size=3>NEBADONIA:<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>No.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It’s a matter of their never having had
that freedom—consciously—in the first place.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>You cannot renounce what you have not
yet known through living experience. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Free will is not an abstraction but a
personal, creative ability which only exists in the use of it.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It has to be experienced to be
personally real.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN><o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
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<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Tahoma','sans-serif'"><FONT size=3>The experience of free
will is an endless growth as you become more in tune and understanding with the
absolute and infinite wisdom of God’s will, not only in all your physical
sciences and psychologies, but also in the realm your Urantia book calls
Morontia mota, or spiritual law, you are capable of learning through your own
soul’s recognition.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Else these
lessons would be pointless—fruitless.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>Rather, they are resonating with something within
you.<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
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<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Tahoma','sans-serif'"><FONT size=3>God himself is the only,
singular and ultimate possessor of truth for only He, in His omniscience, is
able to respond to—and responsible for—the totality of the creation.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>There exists His absolute and infinite
truth always, but each personal being’s ability to access this varies from one
individual to another. <o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
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<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Tahoma','sans-serif'"><FONT size=3>Student:<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>But each human being has the ability to
access Him in stillness, and discern and live experiencing this moment to
moment.<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Tahoma','sans-serif'"><o:p><FONT
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<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Tahoma','sans-serif'"><FONT size=3>NEBADONIA:<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Yes, that is their potential.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>The degree to which they can realize
their potential and make it actual is a measure of their maturity.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>As you become more mature through ever
greater contact and awareness of God’s presence and will, your life can actually
become more real to you.<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
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<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Tahoma','sans-serif'"><FONT size=3>Student:<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Well, thank
you.<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
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style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Tahoma','sans-serif'"><o:p><FONT
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<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Tahoma','sans-serif'"><FONT size=3>NEBADONIA:<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Thank you, my son, for wanting to
explore all this complexity of human selfhood and free will.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Some might consider it a mistake of
God’s to have placed so much decisiveness, or lack of it, within a person’s
consciousness that is so provisional, so dependent on so many changing
factors.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>But there it is.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>The saving grace, as we’ve said, is that
your ability to decide is capable of growth, on and on forever, if you
wish.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>That is also a choice.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>11045<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
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<P style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Tahoma','sans-serif'"><FONT size=3>Dear Folks,<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Sorry—ran out of time with ten minutes
or so to go.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Will
continue--Jerry<o:p></o:p></FONT></SPAN></P>
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