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style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>June 5, 18914<?xml:namespace prefix = o
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style="FONT-VARIANT: small-caps; FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt">LOCATION:<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Light Line<o:p></o:p></SPAN></B></P>
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style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal"><SPAN
style="FONT-VARIANT: small-caps; FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt">T/R:<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Gerdean O’Dell<o:p></o:p></SPAN></B></P>
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style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal"><SPAN
style="FONT-VARIANT: small-caps; FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt">TEACHERS:<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN><SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>/ Jack, Merium<o:p></o:p></SPAN></B></P>
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style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal"><SPAN
style="FONT-VARIANT: small-caps; FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt">TOPICS:
<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>The Self-Conscious
Mind<o:p></o:p></SPAN></B></P>
<P style="TEXT-ALIGN: justify; LINE-HEIGHT: normal; MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"
class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt"><o:p> </o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="TEXT-ALIGN: justify; LINE-HEIGHT: normal; MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"
class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt"><o:p> </o:p></SPAN></P>
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class=MsoNormal><B style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt">0802-AB JACK:
</SPAN></B><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt">I’ll first do a
centering exercise prayer.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Yes,
there is advantage to verbalizing.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>You can pray in your mind with your heart silently, certainly.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>And in many ways, that is the most
intimate and direct course to take.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>But when you are involving other personalities in a group situation or in
search of companions or coworkers, you do well to speak out loud your wishes,
hopes and visions, intentions, aspirations, dreams, or whatever is on your
plate.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN><o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="TEXT-ALIGN: justify; LINE-HEIGHT: normal; MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"
class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt"><o:p> </o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="TEXT-ALIGN: justify; LINE-HEIGHT: normal; MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"
class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt">This little
message has been brought to you by your good friend 0802AB Midwayer Jack.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>I’ll be quiet now so you can say your
prayer, Gerdean, but I did not want that to go unnoticed.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It is like letting the universe know
your intentions so that it can come to your aid.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It’s not like you are taking a shortcut,
but private prayer goes directly to the Father, and He distributes the work from
His “desk” in Paradise.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>If you know
who you are addressing, if you know what office you want your interoffice memo
to go to, you can try directing it direct.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>But again, let me be quiet so that the program can go on as
programmed.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN><o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="TEXT-ALIGN: justify; LINE-HEIGHT: normal; MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"
class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt"><o:p> </o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="TEXT-ALIGN: justify; LINE-HEIGHT: normal; MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"
class=MsoNormal><B style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt">Gerdean:</SPAN></B><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt"><SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Thank you, Jack, this is Gerdean.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>I’m going to say a little prayer, if
that’s all right with everybody here.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>It helps me get centered and stabilized.<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="TEXT-ALIGN: justify; LINE-HEIGHT: normal; MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"
class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt"><o:p> </o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="TEXT-ALIGN: justify; LINE-HEIGHT: normal; MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"
class=MsoNormal><I style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt">Father God,
Mother Spirit, Michael, Nebadonia, all of our many heavenly helpers, teachers,
guides, and counselors, we eagerly await our cosmic connections with you.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>We long to feel the closeness.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>We delight in the stimuli that come from
close proximity with spirit reality.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>We are challenged by the opportunities that present when we are open to
doing the Father’s will and encouraged when we perceive that You are working
with us to bring about these kingdoms, buildings, and efforts introduced us
those topics and those opportunities that You feel we might most eagerly respond
to and those which are not so eager to respond to as well, because You are so
good at helping us overcome our limitations.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Thank You for Your patience with
us.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Amen.<o:p></o:p></SPAN></I></P>
<P style="TEXT-ALIGN: justify; LINE-HEIGHT: normal; MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"
class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt"><o:p> </o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="TEXT-ALIGN: justify; LINE-HEIGHT: normal; MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"
class=MsoNormal><B style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt">0802AB,
Jack</SPAN></B><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt"> here, I will
continue.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>I was eager myself to get
started.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>We have many in attendance
this evening, many available to counsel you and connect with you, and deal with
you where you are in your experiential learning process.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Nebadonia has been very busy
lately.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>She has been making house
calls, as it were.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>And this is a
good thing, because the male and female are representative of the balance of
living and dying, the ebb and flow of reality of universe breathings.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Indeed, this is one of the things that
appeals to the modern religionist, that being the divine feminine, the idea that
God has female qualities, as well as male qualities.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>That theory is very biblical and
patriarchal, and it is a joy for believers today to appreciate Mother God
through her adjutants, as well as the Holy Spirit itself.<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="TEXT-ALIGN: justify; LINE-HEIGHT: normal; MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"
class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt"><o:p> </o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="TEXT-ALIGN: justify; LINE-HEIGHT: normal; MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"
class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt">I don’t have a
lecture.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>I am going to have to
invite the teachers in.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>They have
not told me what is on tap.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>So we
shall see.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>One
moment.<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="TEXT-ALIGN: justify; LINE-HEIGHT: normal; MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"
class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt"><o:p> </o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="TEXT-ALIGN: justify; LINE-HEIGHT: normal; MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"
class=MsoNormal><B style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt">MERIUM</SPAN></B><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt">: I am Merium,
your teacher, for the next few minutes at least.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Greetings.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It is wonderful to be here with you to
have this opportunity to be in your presence, your super-consciousness.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>We have observed this group having found
titillation in the practice of TR-ing, asking questions of one teacher or
another, sharing experiences, telling tales as to how it came about for you and
anticipating how it will come about for you. The idea, for example, of
self-consciousness is an indication of your newfound awareness of yourself on
another dimension.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>The human mind,
of course, has been categorized as unconscious, subconscious, conscious,
super-conscious, and also differing levels such as delta, alpha, beta, and so
forth.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>So the mind has been studied
and will provide yet more fascination for study in the future.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>But since it is still a relatively new
science, there is little written about it in the texts.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It is your experience now that will
carry this through.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>And thus, we
delight to see you discussing your experience and confirming it with your
peers.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>There are tremendous
similarities among and between your experiences, and yet it seems none of them
are exactly the same, which makes sense, considering the uniqueness of each mind
and each personality involved.<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="TEXT-ALIGN: justify; LINE-HEIGHT: normal; MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"
class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt"><o:p> </o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="TEXT-ALIGN: justify; LINE-HEIGHT: normal; MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"
class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt">The discipline
of obtaining stillness and contacting other personalities through the
personality circuit with the blessing of the Father who does not abandon you but
remains with you in these contacts, indeed, sanctions and participates.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It is like Jesus’ experience during His
trials when he said you couldn’t do this if He didn’t know about it, if He
didn’t sanction it.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>And so He does
observe your activities here in the deep mind.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>And if you are sincere in your desire to
be about the Father’s business, if you are loyal to His teachings, you will be
eager and able to discern His tone of voice.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>You will allow Him to find the
Word.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>You won’t need to speak for
Him.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>He can speak for Himself
through you.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>The wonderful
advantage of this is that as you practice this process of TR-ing in this kind of
format, your mouth, your throat, your heart, your head, your constitution become
accustomed to the attitude that you derive when you spend time with a higher
reality.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It’s habit-forming.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It is endearing.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>You want to know more about it.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>You want to experience it more fully and
finer.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>And so you begin to change
from the inside out.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN><o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="TEXT-ALIGN: justify; LINE-HEIGHT: normal; MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"
class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt"><o:p> </o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="TEXT-ALIGN: justify; LINE-HEIGHT: normal; MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"
class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt">Changing from
the inside out is not something that mortals do with regularity.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Perhaps they undergo growth under
certain circumstances or at special events—the prom, graduation, retirement,
wedding days, and these kinds of highlights.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>But the growth of the soul occurs
quietly without a lot of folderol, and yet it leaves a lasting impression and is
witnessed, not by your classroom or your mortal family, but by your spiritual
peers.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>And this community becomes
more real than your relationship with the man on the street or the post office
or the guy at work, such that when you seek meaningfully, you think first of
your spirit friends and neighbors, and then you seek to extend your
socio-spiritual realities with those you know in the flesh, thus, teaching what
you have been learning through expressing your appreciation for what has been
happening to you in your soul.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN><o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="TEXT-ALIGN: justify; LINE-HEIGHT: normal; MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"
class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt"><o:p> </o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="TEXT-ALIGN: justify; LINE-HEIGHT: normal; MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"
class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt">At the same
time, you’re still imperfect, still incomplete, and so along with the thrill of
expressing your personality as an extension of spirit, you also are woefully
aware of how mortal you still are.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>And so there will begin a period of refinement.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>You will begin to learn what you might
call animal training.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>You teach
yourself when to be quiet, when to listen, what to listen for, how to set aside
what you have heard that needs your tuning fork, what needs mastered.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Much of life is spent in this process of
learning and refining the personality for “the thought adjuster.”<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>And as this takes place, the soul
benefits.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Mortals are relieved of
the responsibility of doing it all themselves.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>And God is relieved of the
responsibility of doing everything for you.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>He prefers to distribute responsibility
to those who have the capacity to learn how to do so in order to deal with life,
to serve.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>And so we benefit.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>We teachers benefit by observing what
lessons you are experiencing by the nature of what you
share.<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="TEXT-ALIGN: justify; LINE-HEIGHT: normal; MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"
class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt"><o:p> </o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="TEXT-ALIGN: justify; LINE-HEIGHT: normal; MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"
class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt">And so we are
given hints of what you need to learn more about, what counsel you could benefit
from.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It is amazing how much you
individually and as a group can demonstrate or reveal about yourselves without
having any real idea that you are exposing yourself so well.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>The fact is too that the mind often
shuts off much of what it could hear if it wanted to, but for sundry reasons,
chooses not to pay attention.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>And
so there is a lot of denial going on as to what you said, what you meant, what
you perceived they see, what they meant, and otherwise just hearing what you
want to hear, believing what you choose to believe, and not paying attention to
what is at all, just what you wish it were.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>The fact that so many people do this
allows a pall to hang over all of humanity.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It’s an illusion most of the time.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>As you become more spiritual, as the
spirit engages itself more openly, as it is given the opportunity to express
itself through your consecrated personality, there is more reality to observe
and appreciate.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>You begin to
develop a hunger for more of that kind of reality, and anything less is
obviously insufficient, inferior, inadequate to the brilliance, the
satisfaction, the glory of divine light.<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="TEXT-ALIGN: justify; LINE-HEIGHT: normal; MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"
class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt"><o:p> </o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="TEXT-ALIGN: justify; LINE-HEIGHT: normal; MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"
class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt">So part of this
self-consciousness is seeing that as you open your mouth to speak, it is not all
glorious.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It is almost enough to
discourage you from ever trying it again, but this too shall pass.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It would be very much as if a toddler
were to see how often he or she fell down, but they are still determined to walk
and so they get up, they laugh, they fall, they get up, and eventually, they
have mastered their task.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>So you
just need to want to persevere enough, and you will overcome those feelings of
inadequacy or artificiality so that you can discern some value in what you
do.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It is an important issue,
however, and you are right to pause in the face of it.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Because if you think you are so clever
that you begin to think too highly of yourself, you run the risk of falling in
love with yourself, and then you have a whole different set of problems to deal
with.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN><o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="TEXT-ALIGN: justify; LINE-HEIGHT: normal; MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"
class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt"><o:p> </o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="TEXT-ALIGN: justify; LINE-HEIGHT: normal; MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"
class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt">We come back to
balance, walking one step at a time, having an idea of what we’re doing, but not
having all the answers, wanting to serve, but allowing divinity to lead is an
amazing process.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>And as you become
more familiar with it, you can observe it in yourself and in others, and they
begin to be fascinating.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Your
friends and neighbors, even your enemies, are all very fascinating.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>And as you observe them, you cannot help
but fall in love with them.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>You
cannot help but learn to admire them, even if it is only to notice how much
energy they put into being ridiculous.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>This way, you can be amused and have affection for your fellows, which is
infinitely better than cultivating distrust, dislike, suspicion, and those
negative emotions that are so common in your arena.<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="TEXT-ALIGN: justify; LINE-HEIGHT: normal; MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"
class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt"><o:p> </o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="TEXT-ALIGN: justify; LINE-HEIGHT: normal; MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"
class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt">Well, let’s not
spend all day talking about how mediocre mortals can be or how charming they can
be.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>The idea is to learn how
effective we can be.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>And learning
to be effective involves overcoming our reluctance to be all that we can be if
we had a bit more faith, a bit more stamina, a bit more willingness to go
through the steps and exercises that are set before you by the Father, the
Mother, the teacher, the seraphim, or whomever.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>You might never completely overcome that
sense of self-consciousness or affectation, but at some point, you will at least
realize what it is, and you can manage it.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>Sometimes, when people come online and speak in a group, TMR to a group,
they admit to always having a bit of butterflies, a little quiver in the
stomach, indicating nervousness or stage fright.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>And that, of course, implies playacting,
dramatizing, and could also indicate the ego is affected, titillated,
gratified.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It’s getting off on this
odd practice.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>But when you are
aware, you are aware, not just of the good things but of the bad things, not
just the things on the left, but the things on the right, not just the big
things, but the tiny things.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Aware
is aware.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Consciousness is
consciousness.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Otherwise, you could
just go back to being unconscious most of the time.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>But you’ve begun to step out in faith
and cultivate your soul.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>So you
will have new feelings, and it is right that you discuss these feelings with
your peers.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Remember, Judas’
problem was that he failed to confide in his fellows.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>He kept his feelings to himself to such
an extent that he protected himself from being vulnerable, even to love.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Perhaps if he had learned to love the
Master more and his fellow apostles, he would not have fallen in love with
himself to such a degree that he did.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>So we urge you to play together and share together as happy children will
do on the playground, in the sandlot, or the kiddy pool, learning how to grow up
from children into adults in a spiritual sense.<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="TEXT-ALIGN: justify; LINE-HEIGHT: normal; MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"
class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt"><o:p> </o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="TEXT-ALIGN: justify; LINE-HEIGHT: normal; MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"
class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt">Nothing
necessarily substitutes in this lecture this evening, but there are tidbits in
there that may provide good graving.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>At any rate, I have no fear that I have been so heavy as to close down
your ability to come forth and chat, and so I will invite you know to come forth
if you have questions or comments about the process or about anything else that
is part of your spiritual maintenance.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>And you know, of course, to dial star 6.<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="TEXT-ALIGN: justify; LINE-HEIGHT: normal; MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"
class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt"><o:p> </o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="TEXT-ALIGN: justify; LINE-HEIGHT: normal; MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"
class=MsoNormal><B style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt">Eva:</SPAN></B><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt"><SPAN
style="mso-tab-count: 1"> </SPAN>Hello.<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="TEXT-ALIGN: justify; LINE-HEIGHT: normal; MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"
class=MsoNormal><B style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt">MERIUM:</SPAN></B><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt"> <SPAN
style="mso-tab-count: 1"> </SPAN>Hello.<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="TEXT-ALIGN: justify; LINE-HEIGHT: normal; MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"
class=MsoNormal><B style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt">Eva:</SPAN></B><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt"><SPAN
style="mso-tab-count: 1"> </SPAN>Hi, Merium, and hello
Gerdean, and hello, fellow God-conscious seekers.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>This is Eva.<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="TEXT-ALIGN: justify; LINE-HEIGHT: normal; MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"
class=MsoNormal><B style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt">MERIUM:</SPAN></B><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt"><SPAN
style="mso-tab-count: 1"> </SPAN>Hello,
Eva.<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="TEXT-ALIGN: justify; LINE-HEIGHT: normal; MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"
class=MsoNormal><B style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt"><o:p> </o:p></SPAN></B></P>
<P style="TEXT-ALIGN: justify; LINE-HEIGHT: normal; MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"
class=MsoNormal><B style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt">Eva:</SPAN></B><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt"><SPAN
style="mso-tab-count: 1"> </SPAN>Hello, sweetheart.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>I have a question.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Do I understand this right?<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>We come here with spirit intact, are
joined to a mortal mind, and then we leave with a brand new soul in the spirit
form.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Is that
true?<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="TEXT-ALIGN: justify; LINE-HEIGHT: normal; MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"
class=MsoNormal><B style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt"><o:p> </o:p></SPAN></B></P>
<P style="TEXT-ALIGN: justify; LINE-HEIGHT: normal; MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"
class=MsoNormal><B style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt">MERIUM:</SPAN></B><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt"><SPAN
style="mso-tab-count: 1"> </SPAN>Well, it’s a bit of
shortcut.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>But what happens is,
you’ll develop the soul in this experience.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>The “thought adjuster” doesn’t get here
until you’re about five years old.<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="TEXT-ALIGN: justify; LINE-HEIGHT: normal; MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"
class=MsoNormal><B style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt"><o:p> </o:p></SPAN></B></P>
<P style="TEXT-ALIGN: justify; LINE-HEIGHT: normal; MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"
class=MsoNormal><B style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt">Eva:</SPAN></B><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt"><SPAN
style="mso-tab-count: 1"> </SPAN>Right.<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="TEXT-ALIGN: justify; LINE-HEIGHT: normal; MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"
class=MsoNormal><B style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt"><o:p> </o:p></SPAN></B></P>
<P style="TEXT-ALIGN: justify; LINE-HEIGHT: normal; MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"
class=MsoNormal><B style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt">MERIUM:</SPAN></B><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt"><SPAN
style="mso-tab-count: 1"> </SPAN>And so, anything prior
to that is temporal or in preparation of the days ahead.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>After your thought-adjuster arrives and
begins to cultivate you, your thoughts, your morality, your ethics, when it
begins to affect you, gradually and slowly, your mind learns to cooperate with
the spirit, and the result of this combination is the soul, both you and, this
is the human animal, the human ego and personality, begins to work with the
spirit aspect of the in-dwelling adjuster, and the effect from this liaison is
the mortal soul, which has immortal potential.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>If the mortal does not cultivate itself
adequately, there’s nothing to go forward.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>At this point, on this planet, you need not worry too much, for all the
adjusters here are experienced and, thus, you have a good chance of
survival.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Even so, there are some
who simply refuse anything having to do with godliness, and so they have not
done anything on their own behalf.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>There’s not much that can be done for those.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>But those of you who are lively and
eager and robust are already making great strides in preparing yourself for
eternity.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>That’s the idea, that you
be born here as an animal and become God-conscious through your adjuster and end
up fusing with your adjuster so that it has the advantage of your personality,
and you have the advantage of its everlasting life.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>That’s the master plan, as simple as it
is.<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="TEXT-ALIGN: justify; LINE-HEIGHT: normal; MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"
class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt"><o:p> </o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="TEXT-ALIGN: justify; LINE-HEIGHT: normal; MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"
class=MsoNormal><B style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt">Eva:</SPAN></B><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt"><SPAN
style="mso-tab-count: 1"> </SPAN>Are there spirits that would
be able to go forth without a soul since we come here with spirit
intact?<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="TEXT-ALIGN: justify; LINE-HEIGHT: normal; MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"
class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt"><o:p> </o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="TEXT-ALIGN: justify; LINE-HEIGHT: normal; MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"
class=MsoNormal><B style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt">MERIUM:</SPAN></B><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt"><SPAN
style="mso-tab-count: 1"> </SPAN>I’m going to pause and
ask you what you mean when you say we come here with spirit intact.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>When you are
[inaudible]<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="TEXT-ALIGN: justify; LINE-HEIGHT: normal; MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"
class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt"><o:p> </o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="TEXT-ALIGN: justify; LINE-HEIGHT: normal; MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"
class=MsoNormal><B style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt">Eva:</SPAN></B><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt"><SPAN
style="mso-tab-count: 1"> </SPAN>Mmm
hmm.<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="TEXT-ALIGN: justify; LINE-HEIGHT: normal; MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"
class=MsoNormal><B style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt"><o:p> </o:p></SPAN></B></P>
<P style="TEXT-ALIGN: justify; LINE-HEIGHT: normal; MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"
class=MsoNormal><B style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt">MERIUM:</SPAN></B><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt"><SPAN
style="mso-tab-count: 1"> </SPAN>You come here as a
product of the sperm and the egg.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>You are of the animal kingdom.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>The spirit does not come until much later.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Energy may be a part of this bundle of
joy, but spirit comes later.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>The
adjutant mind-spirits are actually circuits, which are energy, and the “thought
adjuster” is not here for several years yet.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>So, you don’t start out with
spirit.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Spirit joins with you when
you attain a certain point.<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="TEXT-ALIGN: justify; LINE-HEIGHT: normal; MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"
class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt"><o:p> </o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="TEXT-ALIGN: justify; LINE-HEIGHT: normal; MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"
class=MsoNormal><B style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt">Eva:</SPAN></B><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt"><SPAN
style="mso-tab-count: 1"> </SPAN>Hmm.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Interesting.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>I hear so much talk of pre-infant memory
of people who actually believe they spoke to God before they joined with their
newfound family or their -- to‑be family, so as if they really do have a
pre-soul entity or pre-soul personality, and they [inaudible]
--<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="TEXT-ALIGN: justify; LINE-HEIGHT: normal; MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"
class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt"><o:p> </o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="TEXT-ALIGN: justify; LINE-HEIGHT: normal; MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"
class=MsoNormal><B style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt">MERIUM:</SPAN></B><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt"><SPAN
style="mso-tab-count: 1"> </SPAN>I realize
this.<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="TEXT-ALIGN: justify; LINE-HEIGHT: normal; MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"
class=MsoNormal><B style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt">Eva:<SPAN
style="mso-tab-count: 1"> </SPAN></SPAN></B><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt">-- being here
while still out of body, so, hmm.<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="TEXT-ALIGN: justify; LINE-HEIGHT: normal; MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"
class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt"><o:p> </o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="TEXT-ALIGN: justify; LINE-HEIGHT: normal; MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"
class=MsoNormal><B style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt">MERIUM:</SPAN></B><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt"><SPAN
style="mso-tab-count: 1"> </SPAN>This goes back somewhat
to what I was talking about earlier.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>People hear what they want to hear.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>They believe what they want to believe.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>And there are many who are eager to help
them along in their illusion.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>Indeed, there are some who deliberately uphold your denial of one thing
or another, because it would be too much for you to deal with if you did know
the full truth.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>This is the part of
the evolutionary nature of reality.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>I’m not suggesting that the universe is lying to you.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>But we do tend to lie to one
another.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>I cannot tell you how many
times I have seen questions presented to the teachers that are completely
impacted by artificiality, baggage, implication, and rumor.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN><o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="TEXT-ALIGN: justify; LINE-HEIGHT: normal; MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"
class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt"><o:p> </o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="TEXT-ALIGN: justify; LINE-HEIGHT: normal; MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"
class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt">I have seen
people read a paragraph of information and not at all derive the same
information as the writer intended.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>Sometimes, people look at a word, and their programming floods in and
completely washes out what was said.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>I received a question just last week from someone who had read a
transcript out of the Progress Group, lamenting the circumstances of humanity
and complaining that the Most Highs were not doing a very good job, questioning
this transcript having to do with midwayers<A name=_GoBack></A> working in areas
around the globe, as if it had said they were working around the universe,
perceiving that these midwayers were rebel midwayers returned, because they
evidently didn’t understand the transmission, didn’t understand what the teacher
was saying or trying to say and asked me to interpret the answer.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN><o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="TEXT-ALIGN: justify; LINE-HEIGHT: normal; MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"
class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt"><o:p> </o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="TEXT-ALIGN: justify; LINE-HEIGHT: normal; MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"
class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt">But there is no
way I can interpret someone else’s message for a third party.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>That’s complete hearsay and would only
confuse the issue worse.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>The
problem is people see what they want to see.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>They are not open to the truth.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Even as I sit and explain to these
people, they need to ask the transmitter of the message.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>I cannot answer for them.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Evidently, they feel that it is true,
and they look to me for confirmation.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>But if it is not true, particularly when it is based on misunderstanding,
it would be a double disaster to attempt to answer questions set forth by a
teacher through another T/R, in particular, when I wasn’t there during the
original exchange.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>If that were the
case at the original exchange, I would have perhaps had my own reaction.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>I myself might have had my own
prejudicial attitude to bring to the fore.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>This is the problem when we deal with academic information.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>In truth, what difference does it
make?<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It is good to be on the right
track, and it doesn’t really serve to scatter your thoughts so far and wide that
they only create chaos for yourself and others.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Having certain facts or truth in common
is stabilizing.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>That is not to say,
everyone should all be alike.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>No.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>But there are certain
things that everyone should be able to agree upon. <SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>But unfortunately, that is not the
case.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>And unfortunately as well,
the language, the English language, or whatever language you are using to
communicate, is imperfect also.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It
is sloppy.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>If it is sloppy, if it
is informal, if the definitions are not the same, if the definitions you use and
the definitions they use are not the same, you have problems then understanding
what you’re talking about.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>And so,
any kind of communication can be problematic, and those that you can fit and
feel and experience in prayer are sometimes the most satisfying.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Shared stillness is like shared worship,
which provides peace, harmony, tranquility, and the higher view that often gives
the answers to the questions that nobody asked with their mouth, but with their
heart.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN><o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="TEXT-ALIGN: justify; LINE-HEIGHT: normal; MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"
class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt"><o:p> </o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="TEXT-ALIGN: justify; LINE-HEIGHT: normal; MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"
class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt">I’m afraid I
have extended this lesson beyond its timeframe.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>I don’t know if I have helped you
understand or have made it worse, but it is almost too late to try it
again.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Are you still on the
phone?<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="TEXT-ALIGN: justify; LINE-HEIGHT: normal; MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"
class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt"><o:p> </o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="TEXT-ALIGN: justify; LINE-HEIGHT: normal; MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"
class=MsoNormal><B style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt">Eva:</SPAN></B><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt"><SPAN
style="mso-tab-count: 1"> </SPAN>Yes.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>I had to call back in, because I dropped
a bit of what you were saying, but Merium, you always are able to
elucidate.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Thank you.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It may not be where I started out
wanting to go, but in the main, in my heart, and in my soul, I feel that
everything you say brings me closer to whatever it is that I am confused about,
and I don’t even realize it until I hear you branching off, perhaps, and what I
really wanted to understand was something that I’m not going to understand until
I go home.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>I do understand that we
make our own reality.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>I also
understand that we don’t have the capacity to understand reality, real
reality.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>This is a portion of it, a
segment of it, and I’m not going to tell myself that what someone tells me about
speaking to God before they’re born is not their reality, but
--<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="TEXT-ALIGN: justify; LINE-HEIGHT: normal; MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"
class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt"><o:p> </o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="TEXT-ALIGN: justify; LINE-HEIGHT: normal; MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"
class=MsoNormal><B style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt">MERIUM:</SPAN></B><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt"><SPAN
style="mso-tab-count: 1">
</SPAN>Right.<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="TEXT-ALIGN: justify; LINE-HEIGHT: normal; MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"
class=MsoNormal><B style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt">Eva:</SPAN></B><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt"><SPAN
style="mso-tab-count: 1"> </SPAN>-- maybe that they don’t need
the same truth I do or that I’m seeking.<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="TEXT-ALIGN: justify; LINE-HEIGHT: normal; MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"
class=MsoNormal><B style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt">MERIUM:</SPAN></B><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt"><SPAN
style="mso-tab-count: 1"> </SPAN>It may be working for
them, at least for now.<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="TEXT-ALIGN: justify; LINE-HEIGHT: normal; MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"
class=MsoNormal><B style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt">Eva:</SPAN></B><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt"><SPAN
style="mso-tab-count: 1"> </SPAN>Right.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>I’m not going to
judge.<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="TEXT-ALIGN: justify; LINE-HEIGHT: normal; MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"
class=MsoNormal><B style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt">MERIUM:</SPAN></B><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt"><SPAN
style="mso-tab-count: 1"> </SPAN>And I am not going to
teach an untruth on purpose --<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="TEXT-ALIGN: justify; LINE-HEIGHT: normal; MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"
class=MsoNormal><B style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt"><o:p> </o:p></SPAN></B></P>
<P style="TEXT-ALIGN: justify; LINE-HEIGHT: normal; MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"
class=MsoNormal><B style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt">Eva:</SPAN></B><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt"><SPAN
style="mso-tab-count: 1"> </SPAN>Mmm
hmm.<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="TEXT-ALIGN: justify; LINE-HEIGHT: normal; MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"
class=MsoNormal><B style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt">MERIUM:</SPAN></B><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt"><SPAN
style="mso-tab-count: 1"> </SPAN>-- just to help their
denial along.<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="TEXT-ALIGN: justify; LINE-HEIGHT: normal; MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"
class=MsoNormal><B style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt">Eva:</SPAN></B><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt"><SPAN
style="mso-tab-count: 1"> </SPAN>Mmm hmm.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Yes.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>But it doesn’t service me right now to
follow their line of thinking.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It’s
not what --<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="TEXT-ALIGN: justify; LINE-HEIGHT: normal; MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"
class=MsoNormal><B style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt">MERIUM:</SPAN></B><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt"><SPAN
style="mso-tab-count: 1"> </SPAN>It’s not what’s working
for you.<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="TEXT-ALIGN: justify; LINE-HEIGHT: normal; MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"
class=MsoNormal><B style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt"><o:p> </o:p></SPAN></B></P>
<P style="TEXT-ALIGN: justify; LINE-HEIGHT: normal; MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"
class=MsoNormal><B style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt"><o:p> </o:p></SPAN></B></P>
<P style="TEXT-ALIGN: justify; LINE-HEIGHT: normal; MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"
class=MsoNormal><B style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt">Eva:</SPAN></B><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt"><SPAN
style="mso-tab-count: 1"> </SPAN>Right.<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="TEXT-ALIGN: justify; LINE-HEIGHT: normal; MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"
class=MsoNormal><B style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt">MERIUM:</SPAN></B><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt"><SPAN
style="mso-tab-count: 1">
</SPAN>Right.<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="TEXT-ALIGN: justify; LINE-HEIGHT: normal; MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"
class=MsoNormal><B style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt">Eva:</SPAN></B><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt"><SPAN
style="mso-tab-count: 1"> </SPAN>It’s not the truth for
me.<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="TEXT-ALIGN: justify; LINE-HEIGHT: normal; MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"
class=MsoNormal><B style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt">MERIUM:</SPAN></B><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt"><SPAN
style="mso-tab-count: 1"> </SPAN>I hear
you.<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="TEXT-ALIGN: justify; LINE-HEIGHT: normal; MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"
class=MsoNormal><B style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt">Eva:</SPAN></B><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt"><SPAN
style="mso-tab-count: 1"> </SPAN>Mmm
hmm.<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="TEXT-ALIGN: justify; LINE-HEIGHT: normal; MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"
class=MsoNormal><B style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt"><o:p> </o:p></SPAN></B></P>
<P style="TEXT-ALIGN: justify; LINE-HEIGHT: normal; MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"
class=MsoNormal><B style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal"><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt">MERIUM:</SPAN></B><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt"><SPAN
style="mso-tab-count: 1"> </SPAN>Well, my dear, I’m so
glad you came along and asked the question.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>It was substantial enough that it gave
me something meaningful to address.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">
</SPAN>I feel it was a worthy question and only hope that something came of the
subsequent discussion.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>Alas, it’s
time to call it a day.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>We’ve had a
lovely time of it.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN>I’m always happy
to attend your party and rejoice in the fellowship that we enjoy as the
delightful children of the loving Parents in Paradise we call Home.<SPAN
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN><o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="TEXT-ALIGN: justify; LINE-HEIGHT: normal; MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"
class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt"><o:p> </o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="TEXT-ALIGN: justify; LINE-HEIGHT: normal; MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"
class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt">Shall we
dance?<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </SPAN><o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="TEXT-ALIGN: justify; LINE-HEIGHT: normal; MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"
class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt"><o:p> </o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="TEXT-ALIGN: justify; LINE-HEIGHT: normal; MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"
class=MsoNormal><SPAN
style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Times New Roman','serif'; FONT-SIZE: 12pt">JACK:
Later!<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P></DIV></BODY></HTML>