[tmtranscripts] SE Idaho transcipt 5-4-01

[Bill Kelly]

SE IDAHO TeaM
		
May 4, 2001


Opening Prayer by Cora (tape lost)

Cora(Bill): Greetings, my friends, this is Cora, your host for the evening.
Daniel is away on another assignment.  I welcome you to this domicile, this
lovely mortal dwelling.  Indeed, this is going to be "personal teacher
night" once again, as we have done in the past in small gatherings on
particular occasions. 

I wish to talk about friendship.  In the past, friendship has been
construed as reciprocal mutual interaction.  Each party in a friendship
benefits from their connection with the other person and each party
provides benefit to the other person.  There are mutual interests and
shared values; but all too often a sense of exclusiveness and
possessiveness between the two friends.  This view of friendship comes from
animal origin, evolutionary experience, for early humans did band together
primarily for protection and for the mutual benefit that such an
association gave them as compared to the isolation and danger of individual
survival circumstances.  

Tonight I wish to continue the ramifications of membership in the Kingdom
of Heaven.  In this Kingdom of the brotherhood and sisterhood of God's sons
and daughters we are all not only siblings, but potential friends.  Our
interests and values are profoundly alike, for we own common allegiance to
the spiritual government of the Master Universe, to the very Gods on
Paradise and to their Creator Sons and Creative Daughters.  We view each
intelligent being as our compatriot, as our equal, spiritually, as more kin
than even the older idea  of blood kinship connoted.  As you have learned,
and are learning to view other people with spiritual eyes and see past
their apparent differences, viewing them as a dear brother and sister, you
also are expanding the boundaries of your friendships enormously.  Of
course there will still be those people with whom you have more compatible
personality interactions than with others, a topic you have already touched
on this evening.  Feel no regret when this occurs, for this will continue
to be your experience, especially on the lower levels of universe
progression.  As you grow stronger in spiritual strength and your morontial
substance moves from primarily material weight to spiritual lightness, and
the ratio of the mix changes, you will also experience a broader, greater,
and deeper affectionate connection with others.  

Put aside completely your culturally driven need for judgment, without
losing your perspective of discernment.  Decide, finally, that it is not
your job to judge yourself or another, as we have been teaching you these
many years.  You are not competent to do it, for yourself or the other
individual, and therefor, it is not your job.  Broaden the base of your
understanding.  Develop the ability to emphasize with another's life and
you shall move from understanding to tolerance, and finally to loving
friendship.  My time is now completed, for we are going to try and give
everyone present here who have you as their charges, the opportunity to
speak briefly.  I thank you and I given you my love.  I am Cora.  Good
evening.

Loretta(Bill): My dear friends, I am Loretta and I am amused with you all.
For after all this time with Daniel's emphasis on mistakes, taking risks,
trusting the Father, letting go of shame and guilt, why should any of you,
including this TR, worry about such trivial things as to whom a name is
fixed or any other such fact?

 [Ed. Note: There was a discussion, not included in this transcript, about
whose teacher Loretta was, and joking about the TR's request for
information]  

I wish to talk about letting go of anxiety.  When I was a mortal I
struggled with this natural propensity to defend myself and try to control
my surroundings.  I was on guard for signs of danger and was something of a
worrier.  Therefor, (chuckling) I am qualified to speak about anxiety.

Indeed, it is important to exercise your mind and face your fears head on.
We have said this many times before; it is a wisdom known to your
enlightened leadership on Urantia.  Nevertheless, it is practiced by very
few people in its full reality.  Many people do not begin to face their
anxieties and worries, (which are all milder varieties of fear), until they
become so crippled with this pattern that their lives become dysfunctional.
 You, on the other hand, are all doing well in this regard, and so I do not
need to dwell on the more fundamental aspects.  What I wish to touch on
this evening is that wonderful, graceful, acceptance of God's true love
which is understood to be a greater control and a more wonderful assessment
of your life than your minds can possibly engender.

When Jesus said, "Have no anxiety", he reminded his disciples and Apostles
that the Father knows your needs before you ask Him.  Indeed, the Father
dwelling within each of you knows your needs better than you will ever know
them in this mortal life.  But He cannot arbitrarily work in your behalf
unless you grant Him that permission.  God loves you enough that He will
not coerce or manipulate you in any fashion.  Therefore, the answer to the
problem of anxiety is entirely in your hands.  It is up to you to decide to
allow God this overcare.  His intention is always there, but until you take
the reins out of your hands and give them into the hands of God, you will
still be guiding the horse, which is your life.  

Finally, in talking about letting go of anxiety, I am not at all referring
to letting go of discernment, of planning, of careful and thorough work.
None of these things are indicated by letting go of anxiety.  The anxiety
that I refer to is the result of self direction.  Its cure is to turn to
your divine Pilot within and give him permission to provide you with the
guidance that will march you forward from one victory to another over your
animal nature, as you evolve more and more into that splendid morontia
being whose survival of death insures your Paradise ascension finality in
its greatest and most complete form.  

Thank you for I, also, must allow time for others here present.  Again,
what a privilege to speak with all of you.  I am so happy to be involved
with my charge and with this group of truth seekers.  My love to you all.
Good evening.

Pat: Thank you, Loretta.  I am delighted to hear from you.

Loretta: You are welcome, Pat.

Larenzo(Bill): Ah, yes, Larenzo, here!  

Ken: Greetings, Larenzo!

Larenzo: Greetings, Ken, and the rest of you.  I agree with my sisters who
have expressed their appreciation for their opportunity to speak to you.
It is not as though Daniel is a taskmaster who does not permit us to have
our say, so that we have to await his departure before we can speak!
(Laughter) Our roles are primarily individual with each of you, as you
know.  But we are also desirous of the role of group teacher, at least on a
part time basis.  And so we do often request of Daniel, Andronason, and
Minearisa time on the docket.  But, as you can see, it doesn't happen very
often.  This is not because we are inferior (chuckling) in our ability to
communicate truth.  It is just a difference in roles.

My thoughts tonight are directed toward worship.  I wish to be able to
instill in all of you the thrill of contemplating this whole great
adventure of ascension to Paradise.  You become so bogged down in your
everyday routines, so preoccupied with the nuts and bolts of getting from
one minute to the next, from one hour to the next, and one day to the next,
that sometimes you cannot look far down the road and see what that shining
goal truly is, eons distant, but still our ultimate destination. Paradise
will signal the completion of our perfection.  We will then have fulfilled
the command to become perfect in our realm as God is perfect in His.  But
Paradise will not be the end of our destiny, it is just a major step, for
after that the future is unknown in finality, although much is known in
partiality.

To worship is to take your mind and place it in the hands of your Spirit
within.  It is to foretaste your presence on Paradise.  It is to anticipate
the embrace of the Universal Father in the completion of your ascension
career.  It is to anticipate standing face to face with God, Himself, in
person in His residential dwelling! 

To worship is to contemplate the Love that creates the universes, so that
God can share His personality with other persons; so that He can share His
joy with His sons and daughters.  To worship is to contemplate the love
that anticipates your every need, that counts the hairs of your head, that
knows every sparrow that falls, that knows all, and upholds all, and works
for the good of all, and yet notices, yes, even dwells within each one of
us!  

Take more time for worship, my friends.  I could never say this too often!
Do not regard it as a chore.  Let it nourish your souls.  Let it provide
fuel for your true soul growth and spiritual energy to do service for your
brothers and your sisters.  Without worship your service energy will flag
and diminish.  Without service your worship will become stagnant.  But that
is another topic.

 I will conclude my remarks with my affirmation of love to you all, and of
joy in this wonderful service of being a personal teacher.  Good evening.

Group: Good evening.  Thank you.

Alkon(Bill): I am Alkon.  Isaac has been neglecting me lately, because he
has been conferring with his own indwelling Spirit.  I do not feel
neglected and, indeed, I am not.  I am happy that my job with him has been
successful.  Please don't misunderstand me, he hasn't reached perfection at
all.   He is delaying until there is time, our mutual project, which is to
write some new music.  So I have agreed to withdraw until he is ready for
that task.  And why am I telling you all this?  So that you will be more at
ease with your relationship to your teacher.

We teachers are not here to forever be the focus of your guidance and
contact.  Our purpose is to facilitate your awareness of your divine
Monitor within, to actually listen for the guidance and understanding that
this Monitor gives.  We are not here to be an intercessor between you and
God.  We are here to share to our experience, our strength, our hope, our
love, and to be your cheering section as you move forward on the road of
progress.  I am not going to speak on a topic other than what I have just
stated, that our job is to ultimately work ourselves out of a job.  But,
don't worry, as long as you desire us, I anticipate you will all benefit
from our continued association.

Klarixiska will be the last speaker.  We have agreed that we will give you
a moment now to interact with the teachers that have spoken so far and see
if you have comments or questions, etc.  The time is now yours.

Marty: Cora, this is Marty.  Thanks for being here.  I am always pleased
when I hear from you again, because I am still questioning whether I do or
not.  But I do have a question on your comments tonight.  I am fully aware
that we should not judge others at all.  But I have always thought that I
needed to judge myself so I learn right from wrong and the better way to do
things, etc.  Is that not a judgment or what do you mean by not judging
yourself?  

Cora(Bill): Thank you Marty, for that comment.  This is Cora responding.  

I also used the word "discernment" and I made a distinction between the
two.  Your understanding right from wrong is a matter of discernment.  Your
self evaluation of moral value and spiritual worth  is a matter of
judgment.  Yes, if you have made a mistake, certainly we are not contrary
to Daniel's whole exposition on the importance of knowing your mistakes and
trying to figure out what causes them so you can avoid them in the future.
All of this is a matter of discernment.  Judgment implies an internal judge
who causes you to feel unworthy and guilty.  It is a usurpation of the
function of conscience when your mind decides that it has enough
information to competently reach a verdict of guilty.

In the universe judgment is the function of a group.  Judgment is never
accomplished by one individual. Even the judgment of the Superuniverses is
a triune function of the Ancients of Days acting as a trio.  Therefore, it
is impossible for anyone to truly judge themselves or others for they are a
single individual as well as the fact that they don't have enough
information.  They neither have the ability or the role of judgment.  Does
this clarify for you?

Marty: Very much so.  It was the definition of judgment.  Good help, thanks.

Cora: Yes, I understand in the English language the word has several
meanings.  Perhaps in the future we need to be more explicit.  Are there
other questions or comments to any other teachers?  I will monitor now.

Virginia: I would just like to thank you, Larenzo, for your beautiful
description of worship.  It's an incredible thought to me, as our destination.

Larenzo(Bill): Letah, my friend, this is Larenzo.  You have no doubt read
in the Urantia Book where the worship of the residents of Paradise becomes
so overwhelming that it takes superangels, Supernaphim, with special powers
to control the wave of exultation and joy that comes over the residents
thereof.  If you can think of a moment in your life when you have been
supremely grateful, when you have wept with tears of joy because of some
spiritual understanding or some soulful contact with the presence of God,
imagine what it would be like to actually be there in His resident
universe, in His proximate presence.  I have never been there, of course,
and yet even at my lowly stage of morontia development I have had more of
those moments than I ever had in the flesh.  So, cherish these times and
practice this stillness and this worship, as you are all doing.  My
intention is for you to continue your participation in it.  Thank you.

Group: Thank you, Larenzo.

Klarixiska(Bill): This is Klarixiska.  My, such a pleasure it has been to
be intimate with you, our dear students, our dear friends, our dear
charges.  We truly treasure our times when you can hear us or feel us.
And, you are all doubters.  Not a one of you is exempt from this comment.
After all, most people on this planet would consider this sort of contact
as ludicrous, possibly dangerous, perhaps unstable, mentally.  And yet, you
practice.  You believe.  You continue.  You TR despite your doubts, despite
your human nature.  So, while I acknowledge that you are doubters at times,
I wish to dwell on the fact that you are faithers more than you are
doubters.  You trust much more often than you falter.  You love much more
than you dwell in resentment and anger.  You are all progressing.  You are
all moving forward in the ways that Daniel so beautifully illustrated.

Yes, eventually we will work ourselves out of a job, if that job is seen as
a more reliable contact than that great indwelling Mystery Monitor.  But we
will not work ourselves out of our friendships or our relationships to each
of you.  We will continue to be there with you.  Did that clarify what
might have been misunderstood in the commentary previously?  (Pause)  We
wish for you, as you become more and more aligned with God, to actually
trust the words you hear in your mind that claim to be your indwelling
Spirit.  It is your destiny, when you reach the first circle, to actually
commune in this manner.  It is the goal that Jesus reached before his
baptism, which was a gradual process.   His communion with God became more
and more clear until he could say, "I speak the words my Father gives me.
My teaching is not my own, it is my Father who acts and speaks through me".
  This is the goal of mortal life.  This is what was meant by "working
ourselves out of a job".  That job will be much more completely done by the
proper personage, namely that prepersonal Spirit within you which will one
day be welded, fused completely with you, so that you two will be one.  

Very well, I have now finished my comments.  Daniel will be returning this
week and will be here for our next session.  Larenzo will lead us in a
final worship.

Larenzo(Bill): Let us lift up our souls to God on high.  Lift up your arms
as well, please.

Before Your great Presence, God of all creation, Almighty, Invisible, God
only wise, God only loving, we prostrate ourselves in overwhelming joy!  We
bow before Your majesty and Your incredible love!  Let all creation rise up
in praise to You, Almighty One, for You do all things well.  You are
eternally perfect, beyond understanding, yet known fully in our hearts.  

Let us continue to walk the steps that lead to Your presence with
confidence, with peace, with ever brightening faith and trust; and as we
walk, may we walk hand in hand, rejoicing in the great family of God, the
family of all intelligent creation that bows its heart and soul in worship.
 Even so.  Amen.